The healers denoted that his speech problem came when his tremulous emotions had been unmanageable. They also noted in their report that the nervous affliction brought on when Obi-Wan was at his lowest point emotionally would grow less and less frequent when he was paired with a master.
If a strong bond formed between Obi-Wan and his new master, it was very unlikely that Obi-Wan Kenobi would ever suffer the problem again. He would be free of overwhelming lack of self-control where his emotions were concerned. When he had someone truly connected to him, the stuttering problem would just vanish, never to return again..
The security reached through the forming of the training bond would probably do away with the overwhelming confusion Obi-Wan felt when he was not able to control his emotions and let fear or apprehension rule is mind.
//I wonder how Master Yoda can explain this one too me? If fear leads to anger and this one possesses so much fear on even unfettered emotions then….!?!?!?!?!?!?! //
The healers had gone on to say not it was not necessarily just the emotion of fear that brought the attacks on, it was the overwhelming feeling of hopelessness that overtook Obi-Wan disabling the boy vocally. Not really normal in a Jedi to find this condition stemming from emotions, but then again a Jedi was not penalized for it.
If indeed Obi-Wan's problem could be solved more or less with a master and the strong bond that was forged being coupled with his own mentor, he would never be censured for it.
Obi-Wan sat nervously waiting for this master before him to finish reading the medical report.
Obi-Wan knew that all the "masters' would read it. Master Yoda assured him his sometime-stuttering problem would not be an issue whether he would be a padawan or not. Obi-Wan was not exactly believing that now. It was different witnessing the actual problem as opposed to just reading about it.
Knight Xanatos had not been pleased when he first witnessed Obi-Wan's stuttering problem. The slap a crossed face was not the only thing he got that day for not being able to explain to his saber instructor, Knight Xanatos, why he was not able to do the kata they had been practicing on for the last three days.
Obi-Wan had ended up with a broken arm, dislocated shoulder and numerous bruises that day because Xanatos viewed his speech problem as a weakness. Xani detested weakness of any kind..
The stuttering today was nothing like it was when Initiate Kenobi was overcome with it the day Xani confronted him.
No, little Obi-wan was unable to get a word out of his mouth that day and that caused all the anger in Xanatos to the surface and was directed at the Kenobi child. Obi-wan had suffered, with bodily harm intended and enjoyed, at the hands of Knight Xanatos Crion that day.
He feared he would not be taken as a padawan if he "ratted" out his own instructor, so the little one had kept his mouth shut.
Once Xani found how unquestioningly congenial the boy was at taking abuse, the knight loved to inflict it on Obi-wan, it continued. Xanatos had more or less opted to inflict verbal cruelty over physical, because he feared that, the healers or maybe someone else would get wise to what he was doing.
He wore the little initiate's self-esteem down by telling him how poorly he had done in class, never missing a chance to ridicule him before his age mates, and almost on a daily basis he reminded the boy that would not be chosen and would go to Bandomeer with all the other "failures". That was the misguided view of Knight Xanatos of the initiates not chosen by a master, that they were failures.
//Now Master Jinn can tell all the masters how stupid I sound sometimes.//
Qui-Gon had not even started the questioning but Obi-Wan was growing more hyper about just being here with him. The big Jedi was learning quickly of his "other" weaknesses.
//Now I have two strikes against me, the stuttering and my saber techniques or lack of them//
There it was right on the report before Jinn and he had to reread it to be sure, of what he was reading.
Did Obi-Wan's speech affliction come before or after he was injured? Even with the healers assuring the council masters that this problem would correct itself, it could be dangerous if in the face of battle the boy developed this speech problem from the "fear" of that danger or pain.
Not that the speech impediment itself would cause a problem. If what triggered it was some kind of unfettered emotions, then it could be dangerous, if not gotten under control.
//How could Master Yoda have thought I would have been able to train this one? He has two strikes against him already. The overwhelming fear possessed by him when he is confronted by certain things and his fighting abilities. Both combined makes him most assuredly destined for the Agricorps.//
"I'm sorry mmastter..but I tthought you hhad sssomthing tto assk mme?"
His thoughts interrupted, Jinn looked back to the little one before him.
"Why did you develop the stuttering problems in Knight Xanatos' class?"
There, straight to the point. That is how best to deal with this Master Jinn thought. Blunt stark straight-forwardness had to be used on this initiate.
Obi-Wan sat with his head hung down and said nothing.
"Was it because you feared a battle or feared your lack of abilities in a mock battle?"
Obi-Wan snapped his head up and for a moment Jinn thought he saw anger flash a crossed the scruff of a boy's face.
"Nno Mmaster Jjinn, I ddo nnot fear bbbattle, nnor I of ffailing."
"Then tell me young one, was it from the pain from your injury that brought so much stress on you ?"
Obi-Wan had put his head back down to watch his fingers as they intertwined with each other. The boy was a fidgety type.
"I am waiting on an answer child, what triggers these episodes?"
Jinn's voice thundered the order to Kenobi. The threatening voice combined with an accusatory look from the large master only intensified Obi-Wan's apprehension of the situation he was in.
Jinn had abandoned his line of planned questioning, opting instead to find the reason for the sheer terror that the boy had so obviously experienced; first when his parents were killed in front of him, then with Knight Xanatos and now with him.
Is that what brought on his "attack" with Xani, his fear of him?
"I ddo nnot…ffear battle or of ffailing… bbut yyou are rright, I do ffear."
The stuttering and hitching in the boy's voice was becoming more prominent.
"And what is it you fear child? It must be the pain you went through when you fell from these missteps during the katas. You are afraid of a repeat of that pain if you are injured?"
Obi-Wan raised his head and gazed directly in Master Jinn's eyes. The boy was clearly not showing fear now. His gaze indicated a strong and iron- willed determination of a far older person.
Jinn looked directly into the boy's face. For the first time Jinn really "looked" at the little one and saw the most captivating blue/green eyes he had ever seen. He waited a moment in hope that Kenobi would confirm what he was saying about the missteps during the katas. The confirmation he so much wanted to here did not come from Initiate Kenobi.
"Nno, it wwass not the ppain I feared…I hhave learned all too wwell ssince sstarting my intitiate ssaber cclass, how to ddeal with ppain…………."
Obi-Wan had put forth a hidden message in that statement, but Qui-Gon being the obstinate mule that he was right now, overlooked the double meaning of Obi-Wan's words; choosing instead not to even try to decipher their meaning. To another it would have been clear.. Jinn's only intent was finding an excuse for the injuries that precluded any wrongdoing by his former apprentice.
Jinn could tell that the little one was having a harder and harder time trying to speak. Even with his shields up the boy's rolling confused jumbled feelings could be felt through the force, at least by the master who was trying hard to keep the unwanted bond under control,Master Qui-Gon Jinn.
"I ffear I won't be GIVEN the chance to do battle or to fail. What I ffear mmost iss that I wwon't bbbe cchosen as a pppa-ddawan and nnever bbecome a Jjjedi Kknight…."
PEACE ewen
If a strong bond formed between Obi-Wan and his new master, it was very unlikely that Obi-Wan Kenobi would ever suffer the problem again. He would be free of overwhelming lack of self-control where his emotions were concerned. When he had someone truly connected to him, the stuttering problem would just vanish, never to return again..
The security reached through the forming of the training bond would probably do away with the overwhelming confusion Obi-Wan felt when he was not able to control his emotions and let fear or apprehension rule is mind.
//I wonder how Master Yoda can explain this one too me? If fear leads to anger and this one possesses so much fear on even unfettered emotions then….!?!?!?!?!?!?! //
The healers had gone on to say not it was not necessarily just the emotion of fear that brought the attacks on, it was the overwhelming feeling of hopelessness that overtook Obi-Wan disabling the boy vocally. Not really normal in a Jedi to find this condition stemming from emotions, but then again a Jedi was not penalized for it.
If indeed Obi-Wan's problem could be solved more or less with a master and the strong bond that was forged being coupled with his own mentor, he would never be censured for it.
Obi-Wan sat nervously waiting for this master before him to finish reading the medical report.
Obi-Wan knew that all the "masters' would read it. Master Yoda assured him his sometime-stuttering problem would not be an issue whether he would be a padawan or not. Obi-Wan was not exactly believing that now. It was different witnessing the actual problem as opposed to just reading about it.
Knight Xanatos had not been pleased when he first witnessed Obi-Wan's stuttering problem. The slap a crossed face was not the only thing he got that day for not being able to explain to his saber instructor, Knight Xanatos, why he was not able to do the kata they had been practicing on for the last three days.
Obi-Wan had ended up with a broken arm, dislocated shoulder and numerous bruises that day because Xanatos viewed his speech problem as a weakness. Xani detested weakness of any kind..
The stuttering today was nothing like it was when Initiate Kenobi was overcome with it the day Xani confronted him.
No, little Obi-wan was unable to get a word out of his mouth that day and that caused all the anger in Xanatos to the surface and was directed at the Kenobi child. Obi-wan had suffered, with bodily harm intended and enjoyed, at the hands of Knight Xanatos Crion that day.
He feared he would not be taken as a padawan if he "ratted" out his own instructor, so the little one had kept his mouth shut.
Once Xani found how unquestioningly congenial the boy was at taking abuse, the knight loved to inflict it on Obi-wan, it continued. Xanatos had more or less opted to inflict verbal cruelty over physical, because he feared that, the healers or maybe someone else would get wise to what he was doing.
He wore the little initiate's self-esteem down by telling him how poorly he had done in class, never missing a chance to ridicule him before his age mates, and almost on a daily basis he reminded the boy that would not be chosen and would go to Bandomeer with all the other "failures". That was the misguided view of Knight Xanatos of the initiates not chosen by a master, that they were failures.
//Now Master Jinn can tell all the masters how stupid I sound sometimes.//
Qui-Gon had not even started the questioning but Obi-Wan was growing more hyper about just being here with him. The big Jedi was learning quickly of his "other" weaknesses.
//Now I have two strikes against me, the stuttering and my saber techniques or lack of them//
There it was right on the report before Jinn and he had to reread it to be sure, of what he was reading.
Did Obi-Wan's speech affliction come before or after he was injured? Even with the healers assuring the council masters that this problem would correct itself, it could be dangerous if in the face of battle the boy developed this speech problem from the "fear" of that danger or pain.
Not that the speech impediment itself would cause a problem. If what triggered it was some kind of unfettered emotions, then it could be dangerous, if not gotten under control.
//How could Master Yoda have thought I would have been able to train this one? He has two strikes against him already. The overwhelming fear possessed by him when he is confronted by certain things and his fighting abilities. Both combined makes him most assuredly destined for the Agricorps.//
"I'm sorry mmastter..but I tthought you hhad sssomthing tto assk mme?"
His thoughts interrupted, Jinn looked back to the little one before him.
"Why did you develop the stuttering problems in Knight Xanatos' class?"
There, straight to the point. That is how best to deal with this Master Jinn thought. Blunt stark straight-forwardness had to be used on this initiate.
Obi-Wan sat with his head hung down and said nothing.
"Was it because you feared a battle or feared your lack of abilities in a mock battle?"
Obi-Wan snapped his head up and for a moment Jinn thought he saw anger flash a crossed the scruff of a boy's face.
"Nno Mmaster Jjinn, I ddo nnot fear bbbattle, nnor I of ffailing."
"Then tell me young one, was it from the pain from your injury that brought so much stress on you ?"
Obi-Wan had put his head back down to watch his fingers as they intertwined with each other. The boy was a fidgety type.
"I am waiting on an answer child, what triggers these episodes?"
Jinn's voice thundered the order to Kenobi. The threatening voice combined with an accusatory look from the large master only intensified Obi-Wan's apprehension of the situation he was in.
Jinn had abandoned his line of planned questioning, opting instead to find the reason for the sheer terror that the boy had so obviously experienced; first when his parents were killed in front of him, then with Knight Xanatos and now with him.
Is that what brought on his "attack" with Xani, his fear of him?
"I ddo nnot…ffear battle or of ffailing… bbut yyou are rright, I do ffear."
The stuttering and hitching in the boy's voice was becoming more prominent.
"And what is it you fear child? It must be the pain you went through when you fell from these missteps during the katas. You are afraid of a repeat of that pain if you are injured?"
Obi-Wan raised his head and gazed directly in Master Jinn's eyes. The boy was clearly not showing fear now. His gaze indicated a strong and iron- willed determination of a far older person.
Jinn looked directly into the boy's face. For the first time Jinn really "looked" at the little one and saw the most captivating blue/green eyes he had ever seen. He waited a moment in hope that Kenobi would confirm what he was saying about the missteps during the katas. The confirmation he so much wanted to here did not come from Initiate Kenobi.
"Nno, it wwass not the ppain I feared…I hhave learned all too wwell ssince sstarting my intitiate ssaber cclass, how to ddeal with ppain…………."
Obi-Wan had put forth a hidden message in that statement, but Qui-Gon being the obstinate mule that he was right now, overlooked the double meaning of Obi-Wan's words; choosing instead not to even try to decipher their meaning. To another it would have been clear.. Jinn's only intent was finding an excuse for the injuries that precluded any wrongdoing by his former apprentice.
Jinn could tell that the little one was having a harder and harder time trying to speak. Even with his shields up the boy's rolling confused jumbled feelings could be felt through the force, at least by the master who was trying hard to keep the unwanted bond under control,Master Qui-Gon Jinn.
"I ffear I won't be GIVEN the chance to do battle or to fail. What I ffear mmost iss that I wwon't bbbe cchosen as a pppa-ddawan and nnever bbecome a Jjjedi Kknight…."
PEACE ewen