Title: About not being Max
Author: Me
Rating: G
Category: Drama? Poetry? Well, it's kind of depressing....
Summery: An X-5 thinks about Max and what a life next to her was like.

Note: Okay, I think this is pretty sad. It makes me feel kind of lonely. Don't get me wrong, I really like the character "Max" but I also think that being her sister could be pretty hard. Well, anyway, please R&R!


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Ben trusted her.

Even though we all listen to his stories,
it was her whom he told them.

Even though I did believe him,
he wanted her to understand.

Even though it was me that was damn afraid of the Nomlies,
he told her that everything would be alright.

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She saw how Eva got killed.

I know that she lost a sister,
but I lost the dearest person I had.

I know that it broke her heart,
but mine hasn't even stopped bleeding yet.

I know that she used to trust Eva more than anyone else,
but it was my bed our sister chose to sleep in at night.

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Lydecker adored her.

When I felt bad, I got told off,
but she got a sympathetic look.

When I would have needed a father,
he only was concerned about her.

When she hated him with all her heart, body and soul
he thought of her as his little princess.

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Zack.......... Zack loved her.

Maxie was his little one,
his reason to behave.

Maxie never noticed the way he looked at her,
the way I wished he would look at me.

Maxie was the one he loved, the one he wanted to please,
but it was me who would have needed him.

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My whole life was about not being Max. It still is. I'm just Jhondy, the girl that wasn't the fastest, or the prettiest or the best. Now I found a life outside of Manticore. And I found peace,

knowing that Ben's Nomlies are banned,
knowing that Eva's still living in my heart,
knowing that Lydecker's admiration isn't worth anything.
And pretending that I don't want Zack's love.

Suddenly not being Max isn't too hard anymore.


THE END


I'm thinking about writing a story about all this. What do you think? Please read&review!