Chapter 16: Chloe's thoughts
Chloe slapped herself when she found herself day dreaming again, she shook her head and resumed her typing. She stared at the screen and cursed. What should have read:
"the Smallville Crows triumph over the Northhaven Hawks 4-3, what at first seemed like a defeat, the crows rose up to a stunning victory" actually read:
"Lex Smallville Lex Lex Lex Lex Lex Lex Lex Lex" she highlighted the incorrect sentence and hit the 'Delete' key, erasing it instantly.
She had to get back to reality, she had to stop thinking about Lex, and she had to wake up NOW. Last night, it had been different to all the other times, she had said she loved him, and until this morning she thought it was just something she said in the heat of the moment, but she knew she meant it.
God he was sexy, sexy as sin. But that wasn't all. He was just so good to be with, he was so fucking charming and witty, he was the only guy who ever made her feel like a woman, not one of the boys or a candidate for a temporary fling. But that's what it was, a fling and nothing more. But dammit, he said he loved her too. Was she over analysing this? Yes, she was. She trapped him, she told him to tell her he loved her, he only said it because he wanted to finish what they started. But he said it again.
"No, no, no, no, NO!" she muttered to herself, jumping up and beginning to pace "I forced him into it. TWICE. There's nothing behind it. Just shut up! First sign of madness, first sign of madness" She was so pathetic! Why would it make a difference if she loved him or not? He could never love her, he was only in this for the sex, and so was she...at first. But he, HE was Lex, he was used to people like Victoria, class, wealth, breeding, everything she didn't have, and everything she wasn't likely to have in future.
God, if she told him how she felt, he would laugh. He would laugh at her, ruffle her hair, and start treating her like a little girl with a crush.
"No" she resolved quietly to herself, she would never tell him. Things were going great until she screwed it up and fell in love with him. She'd have to grit her teeth and bare it. Bare the fact that a single look could cause light headedness, bare the fact that he had an amazing body and should really wear tight jeans more often, bare the fact that she loved everything about him. Chloe paced towards the door and was startled when it opened and the object of her thoughts stepped in, towering over her.
The door closed slowly behind him and he smirked at her, she loved that smirk.
"I'm here for that interview" Lex winked, she loved that wink.
"Interview? Is that what we're calling it?" she cocked an eyebrow and he pulled her to him, his hands rested possessively on her hips. He pressed his mouth on hers and she allowed him immediate access. She closed her eyes and sighed, enjoying the familiar sensations. She couldn't do this, it was too hard. She broke away, holding him at arms length.
"No, we can't" she said, gulping for air.
"sure we can" he murmured, lowering his head to lick along her arm. She knew he had to stop, she just couldn't remember why.
"stop" she whispered, allowing him to kiss along her shoulder "no, Lex stop"
"No need to sound so insistent" he muttered in her ear, sucking gently on the lobe.
"Lex, don't, stop" she moaned
"GET OFF HER!" a voice bellowed behind Chloe, she spun around and came face to face with Pete, he pushed her aside and launched himself at Lex, tackling him to the ground. Chloe heard someone screaming in her ear, and then she realised it was her. Lex reacted and threw Pete off him, slamming him into the side of the desk, Lex aimed a kick but missed as Pete dodged it and threw an inaccurate punch at Lex's stomach.
Lex, temporary winded, staggered around and his knees sagged below him. Pete took the opportunity to shove him into the wall. Lex slid down slowly, his teeth clenched in pain. Pete attempted to kick Lex but Chloe blocked him.
"Chloe!" he spat hoarsely "Get out of the way!"
"No" she said, her voice a little croaky from screaming.
"No?" Pete repeated, wiping a spot of blood off his lip "He was forcing himself on you Chlo"
"He wasn't!" she calmed herself down "He wasn't" she said, more quietly
"He wasn't?"
"stop turning everything I say into a question!" she shouted
"don't you dare change the subject" he retorted "what do you mean 'he wasn't'?"
She bit her lip "I-I was letting him"
"You were letting him?"
"Pete" she warned, he waved it away with his hand.
"Why were you letting him?" he growled, his fists clenched at his sides "You barely know the guy"
"Actually, we're sort of together" she explained, he glared at Lex again and prepared to attack, she was quicker.
"If you touch him, just once more, this friendship is over!" she hissed, stopping him dead in his tracks.
"Why Chlo? You could have any guy you wanted, why Lex Luthor?" he said, his nose wrinkled in disgust
"I don't want any guy, Pete, I want him!" Chloe said "In case you haven't noticed, any other guy doesn't WANT me, he does, I like him, he likes me, and we're HAPPY"
"He's just using you" Pete sneered "Like father like-"
"No, he's nothing like Lionel Luthor, he's sweet, he's kind, he's funny and- and I love him!" she interrupted, Pete's mouth dropped open. She could only imagine Lex's reaction.
"You....love him?" he asked uncertainly, Chloe wringed her hands together and nodded.
"bastard!" he yelled, attempting to get at Lex again, this time Chloe grabbed him by the arm and swung him around.
"He's filling your head with a load of shit Chloe" he shouted "You don't love him, he's making you believe you do!"
"Oh please!" chloe snorted, hands on hips
"Open your eyes! He's a user, he could never love you back, he's a cold emotionless bastard who-"
"Get out" she said quietly, pointing to the door
"Chloe" he implored, she faced away from him
"Get out" she said louder this time, he walked towards the door
"I'll talk to you later, right Chlo?"
"OUT!" she screamed, Pete shook his head slowly and exited the office.
Chloe let out a long breath of air and made her way over to Lex, she tried to help him up but he stood on his own, he was smirking at her, she didn't like that smirk.
"You love me, Chloe?" he asked, still smirking
She looked down "I-yes" she didn't bother to deny it, all she could to was wait.
"Chloe, Chloe, poor, disillusioned Chloe" he said condescendingly, shaking his head in silent mirth. She looked at him sharply.
"What's that supposed to mean?"
"Oh Chloe, do you know who I am?" he asked, sitting down in the very chair he sat in when he first caught her attention
"What has that got to do with anything?" she said angrily, forcing down tears
"How could I love you?" he asked, forcing a sardonic smile.
She moved away, completely stunned "I-I, couldn't you at least-"
"what? Think about it?" he brayed loudly "stop being so cliché"
"You're not-"
"Serious?" he attempted to finish, she shook her head.
"Who I thought you were" she said quietly, feeling numb . "Come on Chloe, you couldn't possibly expect this to last, you're sixteen and I'm-"
"That's never been an issue and you know it" she growled, stepping back further.
"what did you expect?" he chuckled "I'd ask you to marry me?"
He laughed harder when she didn't reply "That is so sweet" he gushed, stepping closer to her, she looked away, colour staining her cheeks.
"Shut up" she whispered.
"how many children did you imagine we'd have?"
"Shut up" she repeated, still moving backwards.
"five? Six?" he suggested, she turned away so he wouldn't see the tears in her eyes.
"I can't believe how stupid I was" she said in a hushed tone "Pete was right, like father like son" She ran out, trying to stop from crying, but the tears kept falling.
"Bastard" she sobbed, wiping the tears away with her fist. But as much as she tried to convince herself, she still loved him, but now, she hated him too.
Chloe slapped herself when she found herself day dreaming again, she shook her head and resumed her typing. She stared at the screen and cursed. What should have read:
"the Smallville Crows triumph over the Northhaven Hawks 4-3, what at first seemed like a defeat, the crows rose up to a stunning victory" actually read:
"Lex Smallville Lex Lex Lex Lex Lex Lex Lex Lex" she highlighted the incorrect sentence and hit the 'Delete' key, erasing it instantly.
She had to get back to reality, she had to stop thinking about Lex, and she had to wake up NOW. Last night, it had been different to all the other times, she had said she loved him, and until this morning she thought it was just something she said in the heat of the moment, but she knew she meant it.
God he was sexy, sexy as sin. But that wasn't all. He was just so good to be with, he was so fucking charming and witty, he was the only guy who ever made her feel like a woman, not one of the boys or a candidate for a temporary fling. But that's what it was, a fling and nothing more. But dammit, he said he loved her too. Was she over analysing this? Yes, she was. She trapped him, she told him to tell her he loved her, he only said it because he wanted to finish what they started. But he said it again.
"No, no, no, no, NO!" she muttered to herself, jumping up and beginning to pace "I forced him into it. TWICE. There's nothing behind it. Just shut up! First sign of madness, first sign of madness" She was so pathetic! Why would it make a difference if she loved him or not? He could never love her, he was only in this for the sex, and so was she...at first. But he, HE was Lex, he was used to people like Victoria, class, wealth, breeding, everything she didn't have, and everything she wasn't likely to have in future.
God, if she told him how she felt, he would laugh. He would laugh at her, ruffle her hair, and start treating her like a little girl with a crush.
"No" she resolved quietly to herself, she would never tell him. Things were going great until she screwed it up and fell in love with him. She'd have to grit her teeth and bare it. Bare the fact that a single look could cause light headedness, bare the fact that he had an amazing body and should really wear tight jeans more often, bare the fact that she loved everything about him. Chloe paced towards the door and was startled when it opened and the object of her thoughts stepped in, towering over her.
The door closed slowly behind him and he smirked at her, she loved that smirk.
"I'm here for that interview" Lex winked, she loved that wink.
"Interview? Is that what we're calling it?" she cocked an eyebrow and he pulled her to him, his hands rested possessively on her hips. He pressed his mouth on hers and she allowed him immediate access. She closed her eyes and sighed, enjoying the familiar sensations. She couldn't do this, it was too hard. She broke away, holding him at arms length.
"No, we can't" she said, gulping for air.
"sure we can" he murmured, lowering his head to lick along her arm. She knew he had to stop, she just couldn't remember why.
"stop" she whispered, allowing him to kiss along her shoulder "no, Lex stop"
"No need to sound so insistent" he muttered in her ear, sucking gently on the lobe.
"Lex, don't, stop" she moaned
"GET OFF HER!" a voice bellowed behind Chloe, she spun around and came face to face with Pete, he pushed her aside and launched himself at Lex, tackling him to the ground. Chloe heard someone screaming in her ear, and then she realised it was her. Lex reacted and threw Pete off him, slamming him into the side of the desk, Lex aimed a kick but missed as Pete dodged it and threw an inaccurate punch at Lex's stomach.
Lex, temporary winded, staggered around and his knees sagged below him. Pete took the opportunity to shove him into the wall. Lex slid down slowly, his teeth clenched in pain. Pete attempted to kick Lex but Chloe blocked him.
"Chloe!" he spat hoarsely "Get out of the way!"
"No" she said, her voice a little croaky from screaming.
"No?" Pete repeated, wiping a spot of blood off his lip "He was forcing himself on you Chlo"
"He wasn't!" she calmed herself down "He wasn't" she said, more quietly
"He wasn't?"
"stop turning everything I say into a question!" she shouted
"don't you dare change the subject" he retorted "what do you mean 'he wasn't'?"
She bit her lip "I-I was letting him"
"You were letting him?"
"Pete" she warned, he waved it away with his hand.
"Why were you letting him?" he growled, his fists clenched at his sides "You barely know the guy"
"Actually, we're sort of together" she explained, he glared at Lex again and prepared to attack, she was quicker.
"If you touch him, just once more, this friendship is over!" she hissed, stopping him dead in his tracks.
"Why Chlo? You could have any guy you wanted, why Lex Luthor?" he said, his nose wrinkled in disgust
"I don't want any guy, Pete, I want him!" Chloe said "In case you haven't noticed, any other guy doesn't WANT me, he does, I like him, he likes me, and we're HAPPY"
"He's just using you" Pete sneered "Like father like-"
"No, he's nothing like Lionel Luthor, he's sweet, he's kind, he's funny and- and I love him!" she interrupted, Pete's mouth dropped open. She could only imagine Lex's reaction.
"You....love him?" he asked uncertainly, Chloe wringed her hands together and nodded.
"bastard!" he yelled, attempting to get at Lex again, this time Chloe grabbed him by the arm and swung him around.
"He's filling your head with a load of shit Chloe" he shouted "You don't love him, he's making you believe you do!"
"Oh please!" chloe snorted, hands on hips
"Open your eyes! He's a user, he could never love you back, he's a cold emotionless bastard who-"
"Get out" she said quietly, pointing to the door
"Chloe" he implored, she faced away from him
"Get out" she said louder this time, he walked towards the door
"I'll talk to you later, right Chlo?"
"OUT!" she screamed, Pete shook his head slowly and exited the office.
Chloe let out a long breath of air and made her way over to Lex, she tried to help him up but he stood on his own, he was smirking at her, she didn't like that smirk.
"You love me, Chloe?" he asked, still smirking
She looked down "I-yes" she didn't bother to deny it, all she could to was wait.
"Chloe, Chloe, poor, disillusioned Chloe" he said condescendingly, shaking his head in silent mirth. She looked at him sharply.
"What's that supposed to mean?"
"Oh Chloe, do you know who I am?" he asked, sitting down in the very chair he sat in when he first caught her attention
"What has that got to do with anything?" she said angrily, forcing down tears
"How could I love you?" he asked, forcing a sardonic smile.
She moved away, completely stunned "I-I, couldn't you at least-"
"what? Think about it?" he brayed loudly "stop being so cliché"
"You're not-"
"Serious?" he attempted to finish, she shook her head.
"Who I thought you were" she said quietly, feeling numb . "Come on Chloe, you couldn't possibly expect this to last, you're sixteen and I'm-"
"That's never been an issue and you know it" she growled, stepping back further.
"what did you expect?" he chuckled "I'd ask you to marry me?"
He laughed harder when she didn't reply "That is so sweet" he gushed, stepping closer to her, she looked away, colour staining her cheeks.
"Shut up" she whispered.
"how many children did you imagine we'd have?"
"Shut up" she repeated, still moving backwards.
"five? Six?" he suggested, she turned away so he wouldn't see the tears in her eyes.
"I can't believe how stupid I was" she said in a hushed tone "Pete was right, like father like son" She ran out, trying to stop from crying, but the tears kept falling.
"Bastard" she sobbed, wiping the tears away with her fist. But as much as she tried to convince herself, she still loved him, but now, she hated him too.