FINDING HEART
CHAPTER TWO
BY DRAGONWIND
See chapter one for disclaimer
The early morning sun streamed through the window to wake Aalyssa, who sighed as she stirred, unwilling to get up just yet. She smiled, hearing the small bird singing outside her window, then flinched when the slight movement made her jaw hurt. Aalyssa frowned, rubbing her cheek. 'I can not stay here and hide until a bruise fades. How am I going to explain it?' Aalyssa got out of bed and found a mirror. She looked in it, but was unable to see the bruise. 'Maybe it is bruised inside.'
Aalyssa quickly changed from her night shift to one of her plain white dresses and brushed her hair out. Aalyssa made a small braid on either side of her hair, then pulled them to the back and tied them there.
Aalyssa was making her way to the dining hall when her stomach began acting up. 'Now what in the world?' She changed her direction and headed for the gardens, hoping the fresh air would clear her stomach.
She was sitting on the cement bench by the roses when Aalyssa heard footsteps approach. Aalyssa looked up and found her cousin standing there. "Oh, Marissa. Good morning."
"Something wrong, Aalyssa?" Marissa asked as she sat down next to Aalyssa.
"My stomach was just a bit upset, I thought maybe some fresh air would help."
"And did it?"
"Somewhat, but I do not think I will eat for awhile just yet."
Marissa nodded. "Konner is down at the training fields. Would you want to go down that way and see what is happening?"
"All right," Aalyssa agreed, standing up to follow Marissa.
The two cousins walked across the clearing in silence, each lost in their own thoughts. They neared the training fields, Aalyssa smiling when she spotted Konner. Her smile faded when she realized he was deep in conversation with Princess Iladori. Aalyssa folded her arms and leaned on the wooden post. "I need to distract him from the princess," she mumbled.
"The rumors are spreading quickly Aalyssa. Neither Konner nor Legolas will wish to be associated with a slut."
Aalyssa smiled. "Good. Now, who do you wish to focus your attention on."
Marissa looked at her cousin and smiled shyly. "Legolas."
"Legolas?" Aalyssa sputtered.
"He is very handsome," Marissa sighed.
"Legolas? Handsome?" Aalyssa repeated.
Marissa laughed. "You only do not see it because you look on him as a brother."
"Still..when did you develop an interest in Legolas?"
"I have always thought of him as attractive. Though it was not until the push to find a mate that I realized he was who I want."
"This is going to be difficult, Marissa," Aalyssa mumbled, chewing on her lower lip.
"Why is that?"
"You should have been laying groundwork for this for years. You want to catch his interest and join with him in the same time."
"I have every confidence in you Aalyssa."
"Me? All I can do is give you advice. It is up to you to get him." Aalyssa cast a meaningful look in Konner's direction. "And I am not entirely sure about my advice, if you must know." It had not gone unnoticed by Aalyssa that Konner had not acknowledged her the whole time she was standing at the fence.
"Hmm...look at them all, falling all over her. All because she is wearing tight clothing."
"I am sure there is more to it than that, Marissa. Look at those eyes for one thing."
"Do not be naive, Aalyssa. Men do not look at the eyes."
Lady Imeranian walked up behind to two young ladies. "Good morning, ladies. Are you checking your prospects out?"
Aalyssa rolled her eyes. "Yes, My Lady. And the competition."
Lady Imeranian laughed, "Marissa, my dear, I would not let the Princess worry me if I were you. A lady will win out every time. Aalyssa, while you are very lovely, you might want to give thought to being a maid. Then you can find love with a commoner and have a happy, if not fulfilling, life."
Marissa smiled viciously as Lady Imeranian left, her face turned from Aalyssa.
A determined look crossed Aalyssa's face. "I will show them. I will show them all." She turned from the fence and walked away, leaving Marissa standing there.
"What?" Marissa asked, turning to face Aalyssa only to find her gone. She lifted her skirts and ran after her.
"What are you going to do?"
"The Princess is going to appear to be very clumsy tonight. And anything else I might think of between then and now. Do you have any money I might have?"
"I have a little bit with me. Why?" Marissa asked.
"I need to buy some gowns, please let me have some of your money. I will pay you back somehow." Aalyssa swallowed, hating to beg for anything, but knowing she needed better clothing then she had if she were to have a chance to fulfill her heart's desire..
Marissa sighed, "Very well. If you think it will help." Marissa pulled a small pouch from inside her bodice and handed Aalyssa some gold pieces. "May it get you what you deserve."
"Thank you, Marissa," Aalyssa called out before running to the dressmaker.
The shopkeeper, Velenwen, smiled at Aalyssa when she entered. "Yes, My Lady?"
Aalyssa looked down at the gold in her hand, having no idea what the value of it was. "Could you tell me how many gowns I can purchase with this?" she asked, approaching the counter and holding her hand open tentatively.
"May I?" the older woman asked, taking the gold pieces to weigh in her hand.
Aalyssa fidgeted nervously, hoping she could trust the woman.
Velenwen smiled gently at her. "You may purchase five gowns with this."
A smile crossed Aalyssa's face, it was worth more than she had hoped. "Thank you." She took her time, wanting to select just the right gowns. 'I need two for day and two for evening. And one for a special event.'
When she finally made her selections, Aalyssa took her gowns to the shopkeeper who carefully wrapped them, adding some matching ribbons when Aalyssa was not looking. She handed Aalyssa the packages with a smile. "You will look lovely in these, My Lady."
"Thank you very much," Aalyssa returned also smiling. On her way back to the villa, she wondered where she could hide the gowns so her mother could not find them. 'I know.'
She bypassed her family's chambers and headed for Konner's room. Aalyssa gently pushed on the door, relieved when it swung inward. "Konner?" she called out softly. When she received no response, Aalyssa entered the room to look for a similar hiding place as was in her alcove.
Aalyssa glanced up in surprise when the door swung open, admitting someone. She jumped, placing her hand over her heart. "Donlugan! You scared the life out of me."
"No more than you deserve, My Lady, sneaking into Master Konner's room. What are you doing in here?"
"I, well, I bought some gowns, but did not want my parents to learn of them. I thought to hide them here, if there was a similar hiding hole as in my alcove."
"My Lady," Donlugan began, taking the packages from Aalyssa. "I understand your situation, but you can not hide your clothing in Master Konner's chamber. What if someone were to find them?"
"You are right, I did not think of that. I just..." Aalyssa looked up at him with tear-filled eyes.
"I will have Elspeth take care of your gowns for you. No one will question her, as she can just say they are gifts for the future Queen. I am certain the Queen shall allow you to change your clothing in her chamber as needed."
"You would help me?" Aalyssa asked of the manservant, her eyes wide with astonishment..
"Yes, My Lady. I would like to see you and Master Konner together and will endeavor to assist in any way that I may. And I know that Elspeth feels the same."
"Thank you, Donlugan," she whispered, kissing him on the cheek.
"Which dress would you like for me to deliver to the Queen's chamber for this evening?" he asked, blushing from her attention.
"The pale yellow one, bottom parcel." Aalyssa smiled at him before leaving Konner's chamber to go to the weaving room for the afternoon.
Aalyssa sat on a chair in the back corner of the weaving room, concentrating on the loom in front of her. She could hear the court ladies spreading and embellishing the rumors about the Princess of Iladori. Relieved that she had no more to do with it, Aalyssa blocked out the voices.
"Aalyssa," Marissa said as she sat next to her, causing Aalyssa to jump. "What?"
"Oh, I am sorry. I was concentrating on what I was doing and did not hear you approach."
"Did your shopping go well?"
"Yes, it did," Aalyssa nodded. "I was able to purchase five gowns. That should be plenty, I assume."
"Yes, it should be. What did you do with the gowns so your mother would not find them?"
Aalyssa eyed Marissa, something not feeling quite right. "It has been handled."
"Fine, be that way and do not tell me. See if I care any."
"I am sorry Marissa. But when it comes to deceiving my parents, the less you know the better off you are."
"All right."
"I can not even believe I am doing this."
"It is for a good cause. You want happiness with Konner."
Aalyssa nodded and continued her weaving. "Listen to them," she inclined her head toward the court women. "All they care about is gossip and hurting people."
"We are a part of that life, you know."
"Does not mean I have to like it," Aalyssa jerked the yarn too hard and it broke.
"You know, if you are not in the mood to be weaving..."
"What else is there to do, Marissa? There is no sewing room, or embroidery room. And just think of the looks I would get if I went to the library to read."
"Maybe you should go for a walk in the gardens and calm yourself down," Marissa countered. "You are certainly terrible company this afternoon."
"If my presence is bothering you so much, maybe I will," Aalyssa exclaimed, throwing down the yarn and jumping to her feet.
"Aalyssa...wait!"
Aalyssa heard Marissa shout after her, but chose to ignore her, heading not for the gardens but back to the training grounds.
She looked over her shoulder as she walked, relieved to find Marissa was not following her. 'I just want to be alone right now.'
The Princess was working with the children of her family, teaching them sword and fighting. Aalyssa stood by the fence and watched, fascinated. 'I wish I could do that. Konner would probably like me better, if I dressed like that and could fight.' She quietly continued to watch, enjoying the banter between Iladori and the little ones and the feeling of family.
When the training session was over, the Princess looked over in Aalyssa's direction, looking like she wanted to say something. Aalyssa smiled at her only to be disappointed when the Princess turned and walked away after the children. Aalyssa sighed, turning to head for the gardens. It was a beautiful day and she still had no desire to face the weaving room or Marissa.
Aalyssa made her way to the maze and sat down on the bench right inside the entrance to it and closed her eyes. She allowed herself to fantasize about a life with Konner, battling back the self doubts threatening to creep in.
Laure entered her chamber to find Elspeth laying out the pale yellow gown and ribbons. Laure smiled at her maid. "That is perfectly lovely, but yellow really is not my color."
Elspeth smiled back. "No, this is Lady Aalyssa's. Donlugan managed to convince her to come to your quarters to change clothing for meals and such."
"Excellent." Laure approached the bed, looking at the dress. "She has exquisite taste, when Aalyssa allows it to show. She will be stunning in this."
"I have a confession, Your Majesty."
"Yes, Elspeth?"
"After spending yesterday with her family, Donlugan and I pooled some of our money and gave it to the dressmaker if Lady Aalyssa should come in to purchase clothing."
"That was very generous of the two of you."
"She belongs with Master Konner, and both of us will do anything to assist that along. I am keeping her gowns in my chamber, Your Majesty."
"That is interesting. Why is that?" Laure asked, looking through her own gowns.
"As I said, Lady Aalyssa has very little, and the two maids are sharing the chamber she should have had, while Lady Aalyssa is using the maid's alcove in her parents' chamber."
"I had no idea Wilhelmina was this cold," Laure commented, pulling out a forest green velvet dress trimmed in gold.
"Donlugan caught Lady Aalyssa attempting to hide her new gowns in Master Konner's chamber."
"That would not do at all."
"I am greatly relieved that Donlugan found her and talked her out of it. He brought the gowns to me for safe keeping."
"That is well, then. Elspeth, I was thinking," Laure spoke softly.
"Yes, Your Majesty?"
"Since you are relatively close to her age, if Konner should select Aalyssa as his princess would you like to be Aalyssa's personal maid?"
"I would be very honored, Your Majesty," Elspeth said, curtsying to Laure.
Laure narrowed her eyes. "And he better select Aalyssa if he knows what is good for him."
"I shall go locate Lady Aalyssa and inform her it is time to get ready for dinner."
"Very good. Can you send Mirimae in if you should see her on your way?"
"Of course, Your Majesty."
Konner wearily approached his chamber. His father had kept him in meetings all afternoon and they were continuing into the evening. When Konner had tried to speak with him of Aalyssa, Thranduil had told him whatever he wanted to discuss would have to wait. And the four times he had approached Lord Robero, the man's manservant said the Lord was simply to busy to see the Prince. 'The very idea. Too busy to see the Prince.' Konner sighed. He had been looking forward to at least seeing Aalyssa at dinner, but Thranduil had an important trade deal brewing with Wesmin, the King of Forlindon. All else was overshadowed by that for the evening.
"Donlugan," he nodded at his manservant. Konner glanced at the tunic laying on his bed, cream trimmed with pale yellow. "Stars, she's wearing pale yellow tonight. And I am going to miss it."
"No, Master Konner. You can not," Donlugan stated.
"I must, Donlugan. Father has insisted Legolas and I both be by his side at the Forlindon table this evening."
"Then take Lady Aalyssa along with you."
"It is unheard of to do so. If we were wed, would be one thing..."
"Or are you afraid Lady Aalyssa's presence will hurt your standing with the Princess?" Donlugan countered angrily, cutting Konner off.
"I care not for any standing with the Princess. It is Aalyssa I want."
"Then stop drooling over the Princess every time you get near her. It degrades you and hurts Lady Aalyssa when she sees such."
Konner looked at his manservant, astonished. "I do not drool...do I?"
"Yes, Master Konner you do."
"I will apologize to Lady Aalyssa in the morning. But I can not do anything about tonight. Father has said I need to settle down and concentrate on learning my future position."
"I will convey your regrets to the lady. But mind yourself at the table this evening, because she will be able to see you from your family's table."
"Yes sir," Konner teased his manservant.
"Incorrigible whippersnapper," Donlugan teased back.
"Maybe after dinner I can snag Lady Aalyssa for a walk in the gardens. I will wear this suit anyway, just in case."
Donlugan smiled at him. "Surely the King will understand you wanting to spend time with your heart's desire."
"If I could ever get a chance to tell him of my intent, I am sure he would be," Konner grumbled as he changed his leggings.
Aalyssa looked up when she heard the knock on the Queen's bedroom door. "Just a minute." She struggled with the tie on the one hand, mumbling , "I could not have gained this much weight." Aalyssa walked over to the door and opened it, finding Donlugan standing there. 'Something is wrong.'
"Donlugan," Aalyssa greeted him, her voice cracking slightly.
"My lady, Prince Konner sends his regrets, but his father requires him and Master Legolas with him at the Forlindon table this evening. Master Konner is hoping, however, to steal away after dinner and walk with you in the gardens."
"Oh," Aalyssa said, disappointment coursing through her. "Well, of course, I understand his duty must come first."
"You do look absolutely lovely in that color, My Lady."
"Thank you Donlugan," Aalyssa said, brushing her hair out.
Laure entered the room as Donlugan left. "I understand it is to be just us ladies this evening, dearest."
Aalyssa plucked at her skirt. "Yes, that is what I have been informed of also."
"Do not fret. Konner will not be able to miss you, looking so beautiful. I am sure he would much rather be with you."
"Maybe," Aalyssa mumbled, going through the door and sitting on the loveseat in the sitting area.
"What concerns you?" Laure asked, sitting down next to her.
"It is just, I do not know. It is silly."
"Nothing is silly if it worries you so much," Laure whispered, taking Aalyssa's hand.
Aalyssa sighed. "I need to put away my insecurities and trust in Konner."
"I realize he is a bit of a playboy, but he has been told to settle down this year," Laure said, pushing Aalyssa's hair away from her face.
"Yes, he mentioned that to me."
"Everything will be fine, dearest. Do not worry," Laure assured her, kissing her on the forehead. "Come, let us go to dinner and enjoy ourselves."
Aalyssa smiled at the Queen before they left the chamber to go downstairs to the dining hall. 'I still wonder what she is up to, but maybe it is not a bad thing.'
Aalyssa and Laure took their seats at the Mirkwood table and talked quietly, oblivious to the glares coming from the Skycloud table.
"Why is she spending all of her time with the Queen?" Wilhelmina grumbled. "If she keeps doing that, she is not going to do anything embarrassing."
"Patience, Aunt Wilhelmina. I am sure I can push her right over the edge by morning."
"Tread carefully. It is very unusual for Aalyssa to go off as she did with you in the weaving room. Maybe you are pushing too hard."
"Please. That was the thanks I received for giving her money to buy a gown with."
"And remind us again why you did that?" Robero asked.
"She caught me off guard. Never did I expect her to ask me for money. And it would have looked suspicious had I denied her, would it not? I need to have her trust for my plan to work."
"Marissa is right, Robero. Under the circumstances, there was little else she could do."
"I have the person hired and ready to take her away."
"Who did you get?" Wilhelmina asked, her eyes gleaming.
"A miscreant going by the name of Udor. He looks Elven, but there is something about him that I do not trust. But he was quick to take my money and shows no fear of where he is to go."
"Excellent," Wilhelmina smiled, turning her attention to her soup.
Aalyssa glanced in the direction of her family's table and shivered. "Your Majesty?"
"Yes dearest?" Laure asked.
"How can you tell when you are about to be betrayed?"
Laure sat back and looked at her. "I do not know that you can tell. Otherwise, you could take steps to prevent it and would not be betrayed." She looked over Aalyssa's shoulder at her best friends and their niece. "I wish you would tell me what is going on."
"I can not tell you, I am sorry," Aalyssa whispered. She could not shake the feeling that if she should tell about her family, her life would be forfeit.
"Dearest, I know Legolas knows something."
Aalyssa turned worried eyes on the Queen, knowing Legolas would never betray her. He knew too much about the situation.
"He will not talk, but I know he knows what is going on."
"No, you are wrong. Maybe I should go back to..." Aalyssa began to slide her chair out to leave.
"Sit down, Aalyssa," Laure ordered her. "I will not push Legolas or you to tell me. But I am worried about you and I would like to help. I just want you to know that I am here for you."
"Thank you Your Majesty," Aalyssa said quietly.
The waiter was placing the desserts on the table when Konner approached and sat next to Aalyssa. "Mother. My lady," he greeted Aalyssa, taking her hand to kiss it.
Aalyssa smiled at him. "Is your meeting over?"
"Yes it is," Konner said as Thranduil sat down next to Laure. "Enjoy your dessert and then we can take our walk."
Aalyssa picked up a part of the slice of cake and nibbled on it, watching Konner watch her. She slid her plate over in front of him. "Would you like some?"
Konner smiled as he broke off a small piece. "You should wear that color more often, It is beautiful on you."
"Thank you," Aalyssa blushed, looking down.
Konner leaned forward and kissed her softly. "Finish your cake now, love, so we can go for our walk."
Laure smiled as Aalyssa quietly ate her cake, Konner smiling softly at her. "I believe I shall go find Thranduil and take a walk ourselves," Laure stated, wanting to give them some time alone together.
Konner watched his mother leave then looked at Aalyssa. "Everything all right love?"
Aalyssa nodded then looked at Konner. "I missed you all day. What did our fathers' say?"
Konner sighed. "Father was in meetings all day and said I would have to wait, and your father's manservant said he was simply too busy to see me."
A crestfallen look crossed Aalyssa's face. "I understand."
"At least father knows I wish to speak with him. That is more than I can say for your father."
Aalyssa pushed her plate away and pushed her chair back with a sigh.
Konner stood quickly and took her hand to help Aalyssa up. "Love?"
"It just figures," Aalyssa replied, shaking her head sadly. She felt Konner's arm slip around her waist and Aalyssa sighed, leaning her head against him.
They quietly walked to the garden. 'I wish she would stop hiding from me and let me help.' Konner kissed the top of Aalyssa's head.
Aalyssa turned slightly in his embrace and wrapped both of her arms around his waist.
"Everything will be all right, Aalyssa. I promise. But I do wish you would let me in to help."
"You can not," Aalyssa whispered against his chest. "No one can help."
Konner hugged her tightly against him. "Yes they can. Let me help."
"I need to go back Konner. I can not be out late again tonight, like last night."
"All right love," he said softly, turning her back toward the villa.
He walked Aalyssa to her chamber, kissing her softly as they stood outside the door. "I will see you in the morning, my love," Konner whispered against her lips.
"Yes, my sweetheart."
Konner waited while she entered the chamber before leaving for his own room.
Aalyssa glanced around, realizing her parents were not home yet. She sighed with relief, realizing she could just slip into bed for the night without facing her mother. Aalyssa removed the gown and folded it carefully, hiding it with the other one. She slipped into her night shift and blew out the candle before crawling into bed.
The next morning, Aalyssa slipped from the bed, feeling well rested and with a clear mind. If Konner was unable to speak to her father and gain her hand, Aalyssa knew she would have to go somewhere for help. 'I can not go on living like this, being afraid to move.'
She pulled one of her plain white gowns from the armoire and slipped it on.
"Nice to see you decided to retire at a reasonable hour last night," Wilhelmina said snidely from the doorway.
Aalyssa jumped, not expecting to hear her mother's voice. "I was tired last night, so it seemed the wise decision."
"After breakfast, I wish for you to come back here and spend the day."
"Why Mother?"
"It is unfair of you to detract any of the attention from the ladies vying for a suitor's attentions."
"I will not come back here for the day, Mother. This is court, it is expected of me to show my face. And I also would like a suitor."
"When we get home, you will be allowed to select a suitor from the tenants. You will not suit for anyone who is here."
"And why is that Mother? Because my clothes are not nice enough? Whose fault is that? Because I rarely smile? Again, whose fault is that?"
Wilhelmina advanced on her daughter. "I have had enough of your mouth. I am about ready to just sell you to Lord Brandinhor. He'll knock some sense into you. At least you would have a choice with one of the tenants."
Aalyssa blanched. She knew about Lord Brandinhor and had no desire to even meet him much less...He had had seven wives, all of whom had died within a year. King Thranduil had wanted to punish him, but there was no proof and no one willing to testify to what he had done. Quietly, she said, "Yes Mother. I am sorry."
"That is better. Now, since you are willing to comply, you may go to the weaving room to spend the day, but you will have dinner brought up here."
"Thank you, Mother." Aalyssa braided her hair, watching her mother leave, then left herself to go to breakfast.
Since meetings and training sessions all began at different times, breakfast was an informal affair. Aalyssa sat at a small table in the corner and asked for a bowl of hot cereal. 'I am glad my stomach does not feel ill again like yesterday.'
She was almost finished her cereal when someone sat in the chair next to her. Aalyssa's eyes lit up when they raised and she realized it was Konner. "Good morning, Konner."
"Good morning, My Lady," Konner greeted her, kissing her on the cheek. "How are you this morning?"
"I am well, thank you. And yourself?"
"I will be much improved when I can speak to our fathers."
"Konner?" Aalyssa said softly.
"Yes love?"
"Do not be surprised if Father refuses you."
Concern laced Konner's voice. "What is going on, Aalyssa?"
"I wish I could tell you," Aalyssa replied softly, looking down at her bowl.
With one finger, Konner gently tilted her head back. "You can tell me anything."
"Not this. If I do, if I tell anyone, she will kill me. I know she will."
"Who would dare harm you?" Konner asked loudly.
"Ssh." Aalyssa glanced around the hall, finding no one near them. "Mother," she whispered, wrapping her arms around her waist.
Konner stood and turned her chair then turned his to face her. He sat back down and took both of Aalyssa's hands into his own. "Tell me, Aalyssa," he ordered.
"She beats me Konner," Aalyssa admitted in a whisper, relief washing through her at sharing the pain. "And neither of them wish to see me happy. They want to marry me to a tenant or sell me to Lord Brandinhor."
Konner looked at her, shock evident in his eyes. "Why...love, why have you not told anyone? Why have you not gone to Mother so she could help?"
"I do not think she will believe me." Tears slowly came from the corners of Aalyssa's eyes. "You know how close our parents are, they are best friends."
Konner wrapped his arms around Aalyssa and pulled her over to him. "Mother adores you and I think she suspects something amiss. You need to talk to her. And this is why you disappear from time to time?"
Aalyssa nodded, her face pressed against his chest. "When the bruising is somewhere I can not hide it, I stay in my room until it fades."
"I wish you had told me sooner, love. We will go to Mother before dinner, together. And I shall demand to speak to father today. Perhaps he will have some ideas on how to gain the approval of your father."
"You believe me?" Aalyssa asked, looking up into Konner's eyes.
"Of course I do. And will protect you," Konner stated before kissing her on top of the head. "Would you like to walk in the gardens for awhile? I have a meeting in two hours and you can go to the weaving room then."
"You will be all mine for almost two hours?" Aalyssa asked with a smile.
"All yours," Konner affirmed, kissing her softly on the lips.
Konner took her hand and helped Aalyssa to her feet. They left the hall, oblivious to the figure emerging from behind a tapestry and moving through the shadows.
CHAPTER TWO
BY DRAGONWIND
See chapter one for disclaimer
The early morning sun streamed through the window to wake Aalyssa, who sighed as she stirred, unwilling to get up just yet. She smiled, hearing the small bird singing outside her window, then flinched when the slight movement made her jaw hurt. Aalyssa frowned, rubbing her cheek. 'I can not stay here and hide until a bruise fades. How am I going to explain it?' Aalyssa got out of bed and found a mirror. She looked in it, but was unable to see the bruise. 'Maybe it is bruised inside.'
Aalyssa quickly changed from her night shift to one of her plain white dresses and brushed her hair out. Aalyssa made a small braid on either side of her hair, then pulled them to the back and tied them there.
Aalyssa was making her way to the dining hall when her stomach began acting up. 'Now what in the world?' She changed her direction and headed for the gardens, hoping the fresh air would clear her stomach.
She was sitting on the cement bench by the roses when Aalyssa heard footsteps approach. Aalyssa looked up and found her cousin standing there. "Oh, Marissa. Good morning."
"Something wrong, Aalyssa?" Marissa asked as she sat down next to Aalyssa.
"My stomach was just a bit upset, I thought maybe some fresh air would help."
"And did it?"
"Somewhat, but I do not think I will eat for awhile just yet."
Marissa nodded. "Konner is down at the training fields. Would you want to go down that way and see what is happening?"
"All right," Aalyssa agreed, standing up to follow Marissa.
The two cousins walked across the clearing in silence, each lost in their own thoughts. They neared the training fields, Aalyssa smiling when she spotted Konner. Her smile faded when she realized he was deep in conversation with Princess Iladori. Aalyssa folded her arms and leaned on the wooden post. "I need to distract him from the princess," she mumbled.
"The rumors are spreading quickly Aalyssa. Neither Konner nor Legolas will wish to be associated with a slut."
Aalyssa smiled. "Good. Now, who do you wish to focus your attention on."
Marissa looked at her cousin and smiled shyly. "Legolas."
"Legolas?" Aalyssa sputtered.
"He is very handsome," Marissa sighed.
"Legolas? Handsome?" Aalyssa repeated.
Marissa laughed. "You only do not see it because you look on him as a brother."
"Still..when did you develop an interest in Legolas?"
"I have always thought of him as attractive. Though it was not until the push to find a mate that I realized he was who I want."
"This is going to be difficult, Marissa," Aalyssa mumbled, chewing on her lower lip.
"Why is that?"
"You should have been laying groundwork for this for years. You want to catch his interest and join with him in the same time."
"I have every confidence in you Aalyssa."
"Me? All I can do is give you advice. It is up to you to get him." Aalyssa cast a meaningful look in Konner's direction. "And I am not entirely sure about my advice, if you must know." It had not gone unnoticed by Aalyssa that Konner had not acknowledged her the whole time she was standing at the fence.
"Hmm...look at them all, falling all over her. All because she is wearing tight clothing."
"I am sure there is more to it than that, Marissa. Look at those eyes for one thing."
"Do not be naive, Aalyssa. Men do not look at the eyes."
Lady Imeranian walked up behind to two young ladies. "Good morning, ladies. Are you checking your prospects out?"
Aalyssa rolled her eyes. "Yes, My Lady. And the competition."
Lady Imeranian laughed, "Marissa, my dear, I would not let the Princess worry me if I were you. A lady will win out every time. Aalyssa, while you are very lovely, you might want to give thought to being a maid. Then you can find love with a commoner and have a happy, if not fulfilling, life."
Marissa smiled viciously as Lady Imeranian left, her face turned from Aalyssa.
A determined look crossed Aalyssa's face. "I will show them. I will show them all." She turned from the fence and walked away, leaving Marissa standing there.
"What?" Marissa asked, turning to face Aalyssa only to find her gone. She lifted her skirts and ran after her.
"What are you going to do?"
"The Princess is going to appear to be very clumsy tonight. And anything else I might think of between then and now. Do you have any money I might have?"
"I have a little bit with me. Why?" Marissa asked.
"I need to buy some gowns, please let me have some of your money. I will pay you back somehow." Aalyssa swallowed, hating to beg for anything, but knowing she needed better clothing then she had if she were to have a chance to fulfill her heart's desire..
Marissa sighed, "Very well. If you think it will help." Marissa pulled a small pouch from inside her bodice and handed Aalyssa some gold pieces. "May it get you what you deserve."
"Thank you, Marissa," Aalyssa called out before running to the dressmaker.
The shopkeeper, Velenwen, smiled at Aalyssa when she entered. "Yes, My Lady?"
Aalyssa looked down at the gold in her hand, having no idea what the value of it was. "Could you tell me how many gowns I can purchase with this?" she asked, approaching the counter and holding her hand open tentatively.
"May I?" the older woman asked, taking the gold pieces to weigh in her hand.
Aalyssa fidgeted nervously, hoping she could trust the woman.
Velenwen smiled gently at her. "You may purchase five gowns with this."
A smile crossed Aalyssa's face, it was worth more than she had hoped. "Thank you." She took her time, wanting to select just the right gowns. 'I need two for day and two for evening. And one for a special event.'
When she finally made her selections, Aalyssa took her gowns to the shopkeeper who carefully wrapped them, adding some matching ribbons when Aalyssa was not looking. She handed Aalyssa the packages with a smile. "You will look lovely in these, My Lady."
"Thank you very much," Aalyssa returned also smiling. On her way back to the villa, she wondered where she could hide the gowns so her mother could not find them. 'I know.'
She bypassed her family's chambers and headed for Konner's room. Aalyssa gently pushed on the door, relieved when it swung inward. "Konner?" she called out softly. When she received no response, Aalyssa entered the room to look for a similar hiding place as was in her alcove.
Aalyssa glanced up in surprise when the door swung open, admitting someone. She jumped, placing her hand over her heart. "Donlugan! You scared the life out of me."
"No more than you deserve, My Lady, sneaking into Master Konner's room. What are you doing in here?"
"I, well, I bought some gowns, but did not want my parents to learn of them. I thought to hide them here, if there was a similar hiding hole as in my alcove."
"My Lady," Donlugan began, taking the packages from Aalyssa. "I understand your situation, but you can not hide your clothing in Master Konner's chamber. What if someone were to find them?"
"You are right, I did not think of that. I just..." Aalyssa looked up at him with tear-filled eyes.
"I will have Elspeth take care of your gowns for you. No one will question her, as she can just say they are gifts for the future Queen. I am certain the Queen shall allow you to change your clothing in her chamber as needed."
"You would help me?" Aalyssa asked of the manservant, her eyes wide with astonishment..
"Yes, My Lady. I would like to see you and Master Konner together and will endeavor to assist in any way that I may. And I know that Elspeth feels the same."
"Thank you, Donlugan," she whispered, kissing him on the cheek.
"Which dress would you like for me to deliver to the Queen's chamber for this evening?" he asked, blushing from her attention.
"The pale yellow one, bottom parcel." Aalyssa smiled at him before leaving Konner's chamber to go to the weaving room for the afternoon.
Aalyssa sat on a chair in the back corner of the weaving room, concentrating on the loom in front of her. She could hear the court ladies spreading and embellishing the rumors about the Princess of Iladori. Relieved that she had no more to do with it, Aalyssa blocked out the voices.
"Aalyssa," Marissa said as she sat next to her, causing Aalyssa to jump. "What?"
"Oh, I am sorry. I was concentrating on what I was doing and did not hear you approach."
"Did your shopping go well?"
"Yes, it did," Aalyssa nodded. "I was able to purchase five gowns. That should be plenty, I assume."
"Yes, it should be. What did you do with the gowns so your mother would not find them?"
Aalyssa eyed Marissa, something not feeling quite right. "It has been handled."
"Fine, be that way and do not tell me. See if I care any."
"I am sorry Marissa. But when it comes to deceiving my parents, the less you know the better off you are."
"All right."
"I can not even believe I am doing this."
"It is for a good cause. You want happiness with Konner."
Aalyssa nodded and continued her weaving. "Listen to them," she inclined her head toward the court women. "All they care about is gossip and hurting people."
"We are a part of that life, you know."
"Does not mean I have to like it," Aalyssa jerked the yarn too hard and it broke.
"You know, if you are not in the mood to be weaving..."
"What else is there to do, Marissa? There is no sewing room, or embroidery room. And just think of the looks I would get if I went to the library to read."
"Maybe you should go for a walk in the gardens and calm yourself down," Marissa countered. "You are certainly terrible company this afternoon."
"If my presence is bothering you so much, maybe I will," Aalyssa exclaimed, throwing down the yarn and jumping to her feet.
"Aalyssa...wait!"
Aalyssa heard Marissa shout after her, but chose to ignore her, heading not for the gardens but back to the training grounds.
She looked over her shoulder as she walked, relieved to find Marissa was not following her. 'I just want to be alone right now.'
The Princess was working with the children of her family, teaching them sword and fighting. Aalyssa stood by the fence and watched, fascinated. 'I wish I could do that. Konner would probably like me better, if I dressed like that and could fight.' She quietly continued to watch, enjoying the banter between Iladori and the little ones and the feeling of family.
When the training session was over, the Princess looked over in Aalyssa's direction, looking like she wanted to say something. Aalyssa smiled at her only to be disappointed when the Princess turned and walked away after the children. Aalyssa sighed, turning to head for the gardens. It was a beautiful day and she still had no desire to face the weaving room or Marissa.
Aalyssa made her way to the maze and sat down on the bench right inside the entrance to it and closed her eyes. She allowed herself to fantasize about a life with Konner, battling back the self doubts threatening to creep in.
Laure entered her chamber to find Elspeth laying out the pale yellow gown and ribbons. Laure smiled at her maid. "That is perfectly lovely, but yellow really is not my color."
Elspeth smiled back. "No, this is Lady Aalyssa's. Donlugan managed to convince her to come to your quarters to change clothing for meals and such."
"Excellent." Laure approached the bed, looking at the dress. "She has exquisite taste, when Aalyssa allows it to show. She will be stunning in this."
"I have a confession, Your Majesty."
"Yes, Elspeth?"
"After spending yesterday with her family, Donlugan and I pooled some of our money and gave it to the dressmaker if Lady Aalyssa should come in to purchase clothing."
"That was very generous of the two of you."
"She belongs with Master Konner, and both of us will do anything to assist that along. I am keeping her gowns in my chamber, Your Majesty."
"That is interesting. Why is that?" Laure asked, looking through her own gowns.
"As I said, Lady Aalyssa has very little, and the two maids are sharing the chamber she should have had, while Lady Aalyssa is using the maid's alcove in her parents' chamber."
"I had no idea Wilhelmina was this cold," Laure commented, pulling out a forest green velvet dress trimmed in gold.
"Donlugan caught Lady Aalyssa attempting to hide her new gowns in Master Konner's chamber."
"That would not do at all."
"I am greatly relieved that Donlugan found her and talked her out of it. He brought the gowns to me for safe keeping."
"That is well, then. Elspeth, I was thinking," Laure spoke softly.
"Yes, Your Majesty?"
"Since you are relatively close to her age, if Konner should select Aalyssa as his princess would you like to be Aalyssa's personal maid?"
"I would be very honored, Your Majesty," Elspeth said, curtsying to Laure.
Laure narrowed her eyes. "And he better select Aalyssa if he knows what is good for him."
"I shall go locate Lady Aalyssa and inform her it is time to get ready for dinner."
"Very good. Can you send Mirimae in if you should see her on your way?"
"Of course, Your Majesty."
Konner wearily approached his chamber. His father had kept him in meetings all afternoon and they were continuing into the evening. When Konner had tried to speak with him of Aalyssa, Thranduil had told him whatever he wanted to discuss would have to wait. And the four times he had approached Lord Robero, the man's manservant said the Lord was simply to busy to see the Prince. 'The very idea. Too busy to see the Prince.' Konner sighed. He had been looking forward to at least seeing Aalyssa at dinner, but Thranduil had an important trade deal brewing with Wesmin, the King of Forlindon. All else was overshadowed by that for the evening.
"Donlugan," he nodded at his manservant. Konner glanced at the tunic laying on his bed, cream trimmed with pale yellow. "Stars, she's wearing pale yellow tonight. And I am going to miss it."
"No, Master Konner. You can not," Donlugan stated.
"I must, Donlugan. Father has insisted Legolas and I both be by his side at the Forlindon table this evening."
"Then take Lady Aalyssa along with you."
"It is unheard of to do so. If we were wed, would be one thing..."
"Or are you afraid Lady Aalyssa's presence will hurt your standing with the Princess?" Donlugan countered angrily, cutting Konner off.
"I care not for any standing with the Princess. It is Aalyssa I want."
"Then stop drooling over the Princess every time you get near her. It degrades you and hurts Lady Aalyssa when she sees such."
Konner looked at his manservant, astonished. "I do not drool...do I?"
"Yes, Master Konner you do."
"I will apologize to Lady Aalyssa in the morning. But I can not do anything about tonight. Father has said I need to settle down and concentrate on learning my future position."
"I will convey your regrets to the lady. But mind yourself at the table this evening, because she will be able to see you from your family's table."
"Yes sir," Konner teased his manservant.
"Incorrigible whippersnapper," Donlugan teased back.
"Maybe after dinner I can snag Lady Aalyssa for a walk in the gardens. I will wear this suit anyway, just in case."
Donlugan smiled at him. "Surely the King will understand you wanting to spend time with your heart's desire."
"If I could ever get a chance to tell him of my intent, I am sure he would be," Konner grumbled as he changed his leggings.
Aalyssa looked up when she heard the knock on the Queen's bedroom door. "Just a minute." She struggled with the tie on the one hand, mumbling , "I could not have gained this much weight." Aalyssa walked over to the door and opened it, finding Donlugan standing there. 'Something is wrong.'
"Donlugan," Aalyssa greeted him, her voice cracking slightly.
"My lady, Prince Konner sends his regrets, but his father requires him and Master Legolas with him at the Forlindon table this evening. Master Konner is hoping, however, to steal away after dinner and walk with you in the gardens."
"Oh," Aalyssa said, disappointment coursing through her. "Well, of course, I understand his duty must come first."
"You do look absolutely lovely in that color, My Lady."
"Thank you Donlugan," Aalyssa said, brushing her hair out.
Laure entered the room as Donlugan left. "I understand it is to be just us ladies this evening, dearest."
Aalyssa plucked at her skirt. "Yes, that is what I have been informed of also."
"Do not fret. Konner will not be able to miss you, looking so beautiful. I am sure he would much rather be with you."
"Maybe," Aalyssa mumbled, going through the door and sitting on the loveseat in the sitting area.
"What concerns you?" Laure asked, sitting down next to her.
"It is just, I do not know. It is silly."
"Nothing is silly if it worries you so much," Laure whispered, taking Aalyssa's hand.
Aalyssa sighed. "I need to put away my insecurities and trust in Konner."
"I realize he is a bit of a playboy, but he has been told to settle down this year," Laure said, pushing Aalyssa's hair away from her face.
"Yes, he mentioned that to me."
"Everything will be fine, dearest. Do not worry," Laure assured her, kissing her on the forehead. "Come, let us go to dinner and enjoy ourselves."
Aalyssa smiled at the Queen before they left the chamber to go downstairs to the dining hall. 'I still wonder what she is up to, but maybe it is not a bad thing.'
Aalyssa and Laure took their seats at the Mirkwood table and talked quietly, oblivious to the glares coming from the Skycloud table.
"Why is she spending all of her time with the Queen?" Wilhelmina grumbled. "If she keeps doing that, she is not going to do anything embarrassing."
"Patience, Aunt Wilhelmina. I am sure I can push her right over the edge by morning."
"Tread carefully. It is very unusual for Aalyssa to go off as she did with you in the weaving room. Maybe you are pushing too hard."
"Please. That was the thanks I received for giving her money to buy a gown with."
"And remind us again why you did that?" Robero asked.
"She caught me off guard. Never did I expect her to ask me for money. And it would have looked suspicious had I denied her, would it not? I need to have her trust for my plan to work."
"Marissa is right, Robero. Under the circumstances, there was little else she could do."
"I have the person hired and ready to take her away."
"Who did you get?" Wilhelmina asked, her eyes gleaming.
"A miscreant going by the name of Udor. He looks Elven, but there is something about him that I do not trust. But he was quick to take my money and shows no fear of where he is to go."
"Excellent," Wilhelmina smiled, turning her attention to her soup.
Aalyssa glanced in the direction of her family's table and shivered. "Your Majesty?"
"Yes dearest?" Laure asked.
"How can you tell when you are about to be betrayed?"
Laure sat back and looked at her. "I do not know that you can tell. Otherwise, you could take steps to prevent it and would not be betrayed." She looked over Aalyssa's shoulder at her best friends and their niece. "I wish you would tell me what is going on."
"I can not tell you, I am sorry," Aalyssa whispered. She could not shake the feeling that if she should tell about her family, her life would be forfeit.
"Dearest, I know Legolas knows something."
Aalyssa turned worried eyes on the Queen, knowing Legolas would never betray her. He knew too much about the situation.
"He will not talk, but I know he knows what is going on."
"No, you are wrong. Maybe I should go back to..." Aalyssa began to slide her chair out to leave.
"Sit down, Aalyssa," Laure ordered her. "I will not push Legolas or you to tell me. But I am worried about you and I would like to help. I just want you to know that I am here for you."
"Thank you Your Majesty," Aalyssa said quietly.
The waiter was placing the desserts on the table when Konner approached and sat next to Aalyssa. "Mother. My lady," he greeted Aalyssa, taking her hand to kiss it.
Aalyssa smiled at him. "Is your meeting over?"
"Yes it is," Konner said as Thranduil sat down next to Laure. "Enjoy your dessert and then we can take our walk."
Aalyssa picked up a part of the slice of cake and nibbled on it, watching Konner watch her. She slid her plate over in front of him. "Would you like some?"
Konner smiled as he broke off a small piece. "You should wear that color more often, It is beautiful on you."
"Thank you," Aalyssa blushed, looking down.
Konner leaned forward and kissed her softly. "Finish your cake now, love, so we can go for our walk."
Laure smiled as Aalyssa quietly ate her cake, Konner smiling softly at her. "I believe I shall go find Thranduil and take a walk ourselves," Laure stated, wanting to give them some time alone together.
Konner watched his mother leave then looked at Aalyssa. "Everything all right love?"
Aalyssa nodded then looked at Konner. "I missed you all day. What did our fathers' say?"
Konner sighed. "Father was in meetings all day and said I would have to wait, and your father's manservant said he was simply too busy to see me."
A crestfallen look crossed Aalyssa's face. "I understand."
"At least father knows I wish to speak with him. That is more than I can say for your father."
Aalyssa pushed her plate away and pushed her chair back with a sigh.
Konner stood quickly and took her hand to help Aalyssa up. "Love?"
"It just figures," Aalyssa replied, shaking her head sadly. She felt Konner's arm slip around her waist and Aalyssa sighed, leaning her head against him.
They quietly walked to the garden. 'I wish she would stop hiding from me and let me help.' Konner kissed the top of Aalyssa's head.
Aalyssa turned slightly in his embrace and wrapped both of her arms around his waist.
"Everything will be all right, Aalyssa. I promise. But I do wish you would let me in to help."
"You can not," Aalyssa whispered against his chest. "No one can help."
Konner hugged her tightly against him. "Yes they can. Let me help."
"I need to go back Konner. I can not be out late again tonight, like last night."
"All right love," he said softly, turning her back toward the villa.
He walked Aalyssa to her chamber, kissing her softly as they stood outside the door. "I will see you in the morning, my love," Konner whispered against her lips.
"Yes, my sweetheart."
Konner waited while she entered the chamber before leaving for his own room.
Aalyssa glanced around, realizing her parents were not home yet. She sighed with relief, realizing she could just slip into bed for the night without facing her mother. Aalyssa removed the gown and folded it carefully, hiding it with the other one. She slipped into her night shift and blew out the candle before crawling into bed.
The next morning, Aalyssa slipped from the bed, feeling well rested and with a clear mind. If Konner was unable to speak to her father and gain her hand, Aalyssa knew she would have to go somewhere for help. 'I can not go on living like this, being afraid to move.'
She pulled one of her plain white gowns from the armoire and slipped it on.
"Nice to see you decided to retire at a reasonable hour last night," Wilhelmina said snidely from the doorway.
Aalyssa jumped, not expecting to hear her mother's voice. "I was tired last night, so it seemed the wise decision."
"After breakfast, I wish for you to come back here and spend the day."
"Why Mother?"
"It is unfair of you to detract any of the attention from the ladies vying for a suitor's attentions."
"I will not come back here for the day, Mother. This is court, it is expected of me to show my face. And I also would like a suitor."
"When we get home, you will be allowed to select a suitor from the tenants. You will not suit for anyone who is here."
"And why is that Mother? Because my clothes are not nice enough? Whose fault is that? Because I rarely smile? Again, whose fault is that?"
Wilhelmina advanced on her daughter. "I have had enough of your mouth. I am about ready to just sell you to Lord Brandinhor. He'll knock some sense into you. At least you would have a choice with one of the tenants."
Aalyssa blanched. She knew about Lord Brandinhor and had no desire to even meet him much less...He had had seven wives, all of whom had died within a year. King Thranduil had wanted to punish him, but there was no proof and no one willing to testify to what he had done. Quietly, she said, "Yes Mother. I am sorry."
"That is better. Now, since you are willing to comply, you may go to the weaving room to spend the day, but you will have dinner brought up here."
"Thank you, Mother." Aalyssa braided her hair, watching her mother leave, then left herself to go to breakfast.
Since meetings and training sessions all began at different times, breakfast was an informal affair. Aalyssa sat at a small table in the corner and asked for a bowl of hot cereal. 'I am glad my stomach does not feel ill again like yesterday.'
She was almost finished her cereal when someone sat in the chair next to her. Aalyssa's eyes lit up when they raised and she realized it was Konner. "Good morning, Konner."
"Good morning, My Lady," Konner greeted her, kissing her on the cheek. "How are you this morning?"
"I am well, thank you. And yourself?"
"I will be much improved when I can speak to our fathers."
"Konner?" Aalyssa said softly.
"Yes love?"
"Do not be surprised if Father refuses you."
Concern laced Konner's voice. "What is going on, Aalyssa?"
"I wish I could tell you," Aalyssa replied softly, looking down at her bowl.
With one finger, Konner gently tilted her head back. "You can tell me anything."
"Not this. If I do, if I tell anyone, she will kill me. I know she will."
"Who would dare harm you?" Konner asked loudly.
"Ssh." Aalyssa glanced around the hall, finding no one near them. "Mother," she whispered, wrapping her arms around her waist.
Konner stood and turned her chair then turned his to face her. He sat back down and took both of Aalyssa's hands into his own. "Tell me, Aalyssa," he ordered.
"She beats me Konner," Aalyssa admitted in a whisper, relief washing through her at sharing the pain. "And neither of them wish to see me happy. They want to marry me to a tenant or sell me to Lord Brandinhor."
Konner looked at her, shock evident in his eyes. "Why...love, why have you not told anyone? Why have you not gone to Mother so she could help?"
"I do not think she will believe me." Tears slowly came from the corners of Aalyssa's eyes. "You know how close our parents are, they are best friends."
Konner wrapped his arms around Aalyssa and pulled her over to him. "Mother adores you and I think she suspects something amiss. You need to talk to her. And this is why you disappear from time to time?"
Aalyssa nodded, her face pressed against his chest. "When the bruising is somewhere I can not hide it, I stay in my room until it fades."
"I wish you had told me sooner, love. We will go to Mother before dinner, together. And I shall demand to speak to father today. Perhaps he will have some ideas on how to gain the approval of your father."
"You believe me?" Aalyssa asked, looking up into Konner's eyes.
"Of course I do. And will protect you," Konner stated before kissing her on top of the head. "Would you like to walk in the gardens for awhile? I have a meeting in two hours and you can go to the weaving room then."
"You will be all mine for almost two hours?" Aalyssa asked with a smile.
"All yours," Konner affirmed, kissing her softly on the lips.
Konner took her hand and helped Aalyssa to her feet. They left the hall, oblivious to the figure emerging from behind a tapestry and moving through the shadows.