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A/N: I have had this chpater written for forever! IT is not betad OR reread through so there will be some grammer mistakes and spelling mistakes...I was in a hurry to get this chappy out! BUT I had some problems...one) SOMEONE wanted Anthony aris action...and I was confused about how to fit that in...but worry not I found a loop whole! There will be AA action...just not in his chapter. Why? Read and find out. The moment you've all been waiting for...drum roll please...
I'll always remember
It was late afternoon.
Lily walked around the lake happily humming to herself. The sky was like it had been a few weeks ago. Dark and gray almost as if it were going to rain. It was late September and afternoon and Lily hugged herself to keep warm as a cool breeze was blowing. She wasn't wearing warm clothes. Her clothes were just lay back comfortable type. She was wearing short shorts frayed at the edges and an overly large dark blue sweatshirt with white block letters saying USA on it. The sleeves were also long and went a few inches past her arms and hands.
It lasted forever
And ended so soon
There was a clap of thunder and its started to rain. She made her way to the other side of the lake where there was a tree. As she ran closer she saw a figure sitting there. She looked closer and saw that it was James.
You were all by yourself
Staring up at a dark gray sky
Lily came and sat down beside him. He promptly looked down not meeting her eyes and buried his head in his arms that were propped up on his knees which were close to his chest.
"James whats wrong?" asked Lily concerned.
He looked up at Lily felt her breathe catch. His eyes were a mirror of pure torture. They were red from crying and his face was tear streaked.
"I can't take it anymore." He choked out. "Sure I go about acting as if I have a normal life a perfect life but I don't."
Lily stared at him. "What happened?" she asked.
"Everyday I wake up and hope that it'll all just go away. Every minute I'm awake I wish I could just go to sleep until everything passes. Until everythings alright again." He swallowed. "Voldemort Lily. He-he killed my family. My aunts, uncles all of them. Even my newborn cousin. My mum she's the only one left."
I was changed.
In places no one will find all your feelings so deep inside. (deep inside)
Was then that I realized
That forever was in your eyes
"Oh James." said Lily and she didn't know what else to do. What else to say. So she hugged him. He broke down in sobs into her shoulder.
"Why them? Why not me?" he sobbed. "I'm the one he's after not them."
"Don't talk like that." Said Lily as she rubbed his back comfortingly.
"Why? Why not? Why not me Lily? Why does he have to go for them? Is he that cruel that he'll kill people for fun?"
"James you forget. He killed my mum for no reason at all." Said lily into his shoulder.
"But why couldn't he just kill me?" asked James. "It would've saved everyone a lot of trouble. My family wouldn't be dead-"
"He killed them to get to your cousin." Lily cut in. "Not you."
But James went on ignoring her.
"You would've been happy atleast. No more James Potter bugging the hell out of you."
Lily held him at arms length.
"Don't you ever ever say that again." Said Lily.
"Why?" asked James bitterly. "It's true. The only good thing about this is that Voldemort miraculously stopped hunting the Potters. He knows I'm still alive but he doesn't consider me much of a threat anymore. But still the truth is that I killed them. "
"It isn't the truth. Stop talking like that. I couldn't bear it if anything happened to you." Said Lily desperately. She felt tears spring to her eyes just thinking about.
The moment I saw you cry
Cry
James looked at her suddenly realizing what she was saying.
The moment that I saw you cry
It was late in September
And I've seen you before
You were always the cold one
She was crying...
She was crying.
For him.
She was crying for him.
She'd never cried for him.
He didn't want her to cry though.
"I couldn't bear it if you left me." She went on.
James was now almost positive she had feelings for him the way he did.
He felt like holding her in his arms until everything passed.
But I was never that sure
You were all by yourself staring up at a dark gray sky
I was changed
In places no one will find
All your feelings so deep inside
Deep inside
"I hate you James." she sobbed. "I hate you for every damn thing you ever did to me but I can't help loving you at the same time."
He stared at her. He didn't know what to say to that.
He stared into her eyes and he felt as if everything was alright again.
He felt as if he was...strange as it may sound...he felt as if he was returning home. He felt truly complete. The rains started to come through the tree and fall on them.
Was then that I realized that forever was in your eyes
The moment I saw you cry
Lily hugged him hard.
"I'm so stupid." She sobbed. "Here I am thinking about myself and crying while you've just lost your family. Its O.K." she said. "Let it out. Cry. Just let everything out. Don't make the same mistake I did and keep everything pent up inside you."
"Do you really want me to feel better?" he asked into her shoulder.
Lily nodded and he felt tear drops drop onto his shirt.
"Then let me just sit here and stare into your eyes. Let me just sit here and hold you in my arms forever. Let me just be with you."
I wanted to hold you
I wanted to make it go away
I wanted to know you
I wanted to make your everything alright
This sent Lily into more sobs.
"How long?" was all she could say.
"I don't remember when the hate I had for you turned to love." He whispered. "I just remember it was suddenly there."
"Was it when we were working on the play?" she asked.
"No." James whispered. He took a deep breath. "I-I think it really started the-the night of the Christmas ball when you got drunk. I felt as if you needed me Lily and-and I was glad that you needed me. It made me think I could be there for you when you wanted. It made me feel I dunno apart from the others because I helped you through something and-and that something was a secret between us. An inside joke. Something me and you only knew...I dunno if I'm even making sense."
"You're making perfect sense." Said Lily. "Go on."
"Then there was the feeling I got whenever we kissed. But I still shunned my feelings to the side thinking it was nothing more than a silly infatuation. Thinking that the only reason I go this feeling was because it bugged me that you were the only girl in school that didn't swoon at my kiss. Then over the summer I kept on seeing your face when I closed my eyes. There you were smiling at me, batting your eyelashes and twirling strands of your hair. My dad he-he died over the summer. After we had that fight over you being head girl and me being head boy we went out to celebrate and he died. Voldemort killed him. I didn't tell anyone other than Sirius and Remus. But I still didn't take any of my feelings seriously. Even though I wished you were there with me at my dads funeral. I needed you more than ever at that time." He took in another shaky breathe. "But I finally stopped being an ass when that whole telepathy thing wore of because I felt-I felt as if I'd lost a part of myself. I felt as if I was incomplete without you buzzing around in my head. And I wanted to be whole again Lily." He looked at her pleadingly.
I'll always remember
It was late afternoon
In places no one will find
all your feelings so deep inside (deep inside)
Was then that I realized
that forever was in your eyes
Lily didn't know what to say. He'd just spilled out all her feelings to her. She knew his darkest secrets. It made her feel...special. It made HER feel whole. He'd told her all his secrets.
"Please let me be whole again." He pleaded and stared into her eyes.
Lily hugged him in response. She suddenly pulled back.
"No." she whispered. "You'll cheat on me again. You'll leave me the moment Jackie and her boyfriend break up." She shook her head tears falling out of her eyes. "I won't be made a fool of twice James Potter."
The moment I saw you cry
Baby cry
James wiped his tears before they fell from his eyes.
"Do you know how much that hurts?" he asked. He kissed her lightly on the lips before getting up to leave.
"NO!" Lily exclaimed. "So you're just going to leave me?! You're not even going to argue?! You're just going to say fine she doesn't trust me so I'll just leave she's not worth it?!" Lily broke down into loud sobs. Her tears mixed in with the rain. "You can't leave me!" she exclaimed. "You just can't leave me like that!"
James bent down and grabbed her by the shoulders.
"Lily look at me." He said sternly.
Lily looked up. He kissed her.
The moment that I saw you crying
Oh no no
This kiss was different than the kisses he'd given her during the play. Those had been reluctant and forced. This was filled with fiery passion. Lily felt her stomach do a flip flop and she wasn't aware of her surroundings. She kissed back eagerly and she felt his hand slide up her leg and rest on her knee. She fell backwards onto the ground with him on top. They were thoroughly soaked by now because of the rain. Still kissing James rolled over so that she was on top. He ran his fingers through her hair and finally pulled back from lack of oxygen.
"If you ever EVER go near Jackie again I'll kill you." Said Lily sternly.
James chuckled. "Deal." He said and removed a wet leaf from Lilys wet hair. She sat up with her legs still on either side of him.
"I must look a mess." She said staring at her hair. She had mud on her clothes and her hair was slightly muddy and wet and filled with leaves.
"You don't." said James. "You look perfect."
Lily stood up and offered him her hand. James took it and pulled her back down again on top of him.
"You think I'm stopping this soon?" he asked cocking his head to one side.
He then kissed her again.
I think I saw you cry
The moment I saw you cry
After awhile Lily sat up.
"James." she said carefully.
"yea?" he asked sitting up.
"Tell me about your life." She said bluntly.
"Its not normal that's for sure." He said as they stood.
"And neither is mine." Said Lily smiling as he put an arm around her.
"And never will be." James added.
"But you know what. I'm glad I don't have a normal life. If I did this would've never happened." She said smiling.
James smiled down at her and kissed her one more time before they made their way up to the Hogwarts castle.
"I'll tell you every single detail of my life tonight. Unless we have to mourn for Professor Whites death."
"Why?" asked Lily.
"He'll have a heart attack the moment he sees us kissing." Said James.
I wanted to know you...
I wanted to make your everything alright...
A/N: See THEY GOT TOGETHER FINALLY!!!! I just HAD to have this song in here! This chapters been written for a long time and yes I know that NOW the song is kind of old but I'd already written the chapter and well...yea. Ok now do you guys want me to write one more chapter about everyones reactions when they see Lily and James together and how James proposes to Lily and all that? DO you? Tell me if you do and I will! But it'll only be one more chapter and it'll be the last. Then I'll start on another story! Its already forming in my head. Actually two or three are but my rule is no more than doing three stories at a time and since this was my third story and im done with it im not sure which story to write next.
A/N: I have had this chpater written for forever! IT is not betad OR reread through so there will be some grammer mistakes and spelling mistakes...I was in a hurry to get this chappy out! BUT I had some problems...one) SOMEONE wanted Anthony aris action...and I was confused about how to fit that in...but worry not I found a loop whole! There will be AA action...just not in his chapter. Why? Read and find out. The moment you've all been waiting for...drum roll please...
I'll always remember
It was late afternoon.
Lily walked around the lake happily humming to herself. The sky was like it had been a few weeks ago. Dark and gray almost as if it were going to rain. It was late September and afternoon and Lily hugged herself to keep warm as a cool breeze was blowing. She wasn't wearing warm clothes. Her clothes were just lay back comfortable type. She was wearing short shorts frayed at the edges and an overly large dark blue sweatshirt with white block letters saying USA on it. The sleeves were also long and went a few inches past her arms and hands.
It lasted forever
And ended so soon
There was a clap of thunder and its started to rain. She made her way to the other side of the lake where there was a tree. As she ran closer she saw a figure sitting there. She looked closer and saw that it was James.
You were all by yourself
Staring up at a dark gray sky
Lily came and sat down beside him. He promptly looked down not meeting her eyes and buried his head in his arms that were propped up on his knees which were close to his chest.
"James whats wrong?" asked Lily concerned.
He looked up at Lily felt her breathe catch. His eyes were a mirror of pure torture. They were red from crying and his face was tear streaked.
"I can't take it anymore." He choked out. "Sure I go about acting as if I have a normal life a perfect life but I don't."
Lily stared at him. "What happened?" she asked.
"Everyday I wake up and hope that it'll all just go away. Every minute I'm awake I wish I could just go to sleep until everything passes. Until everythings alright again." He swallowed. "Voldemort Lily. He-he killed my family. My aunts, uncles all of them. Even my newborn cousin. My mum she's the only one left."
I was changed.
In places no one will find all your feelings so deep inside. (deep inside)
Was then that I realized
That forever was in your eyes
"Oh James." said Lily and she didn't know what else to do. What else to say. So she hugged him. He broke down in sobs into her shoulder.
"Why them? Why not me?" he sobbed. "I'm the one he's after not them."
"Don't talk like that." Said Lily as she rubbed his back comfortingly.
"Why? Why not? Why not me Lily? Why does he have to go for them? Is he that cruel that he'll kill people for fun?"
"James you forget. He killed my mum for no reason at all." Said lily into his shoulder.
"But why couldn't he just kill me?" asked James. "It would've saved everyone a lot of trouble. My family wouldn't be dead-"
"He killed them to get to your cousin." Lily cut in. "Not you."
But James went on ignoring her.
"You would've been happy atleast. No more James Potter bugging the hell out of you."
Lily held him at arms length.
"Don't you ever ever say that again." Said Lily.
"Why?" asked James bitterly. "It's true. The only good thing about this is that Voldemort miraculously stopped hunting the Potters. He knows I'm still alive but he doesn't consider me much of a threat anymore. But still the truth is that I killed them. "
"It isn't the truth. Stop talking like that. I couldn't bear it if anything happened to you." Said Lily desperately. She felt tears spring to her eyes just thinking about.
The moment I saw you cry
Cry
James looked at her suddenly realizing what she was saying.
The moment that I saw you cry
It was late in September
And I've seen you before
You were always the cold one
She was crying...
She was crying.
For him.
She was crying for him.
She'd never cried for him.
He didn't want her to cry though.
"I couldn't bear it if you left me." She went on.
James was now almost positive she had feelings for him the way he did.
He felt like holding her in his arms until everything passed.
But I was never that sure
You were all by yourself staring up at a dark gray sky
I was changed
In places no one will find
All your feelings so deep inside
Deep inside
"I hate you James." she sobbed. "I hate you for every damn thing you ever did to me but I can't help loving you at the same time."
He stared at her. He didn't know what to say to that.
He stared into her eyes and he felt as if everything was alright again.
He felt as if he was...strange as it may sound...he felt as if he was returning home. He felt truly complete. The rains started to come through the tree and fall on them.
Was then that I realized that forever was in your eyes
The moment I saw you cry
Lily hugged him hard.
"I'm so stupid." She sobbed. "Here I am thinking about myself and crying while you've just lost your family. Its O.K." she said. "Let it out. Cry. Just let everything out. Don't make the same mistake I did and keep everything pent up inside you."
"Do you really want me to feel better?" he asked into her shoulder.
Lily nodded and he felt tear drops drop onto his shirt.
"Then let me just sit here and stare into your eyes. Let me just sit here and hold you in my arms forever. Let me just be with you."
I wanted to hold you
I wanted to make it go away
I wanted to know you
I wanted to make your everything alright
This sent Lily into more sobs.
"How long?" was all she could say.
"I don't remember when the hate I had for you turned to love." He whispered. "I just remember it was suddenly there."
"Was it when we were working on the play?" she asked.
"No." James whispered. He took a deep breath. "I-I think it really started the-the night of the Christmas ball when you got drunk. I felt as if you needed me Lily and-and I was glad that you needed me. It made me think I could be there for you when you wanted. It made me feel I dunno apart from the others because I helped you through something and-and that something was a secret between us. An inside joke. Something me and you only knew...I dunno if I'm even making sense."
"You're making perfect sense." Said Lily. "Go on."
"Then there was the feeling I got whenever we kissed. But I still shunned my feelings to the side thinking it was nothing more than a silly infatuation. Thinking that the only reason I go this feeling was because it bugged me that you were the only girl in school that didn't swoon at my kiss. Then over the summer I kept on seeing your face when I closed my eyes. There you were smiling at me, batting your eyelashes and twirling strands of your hair. My dad he-he died over the summer. After we had that fight over you being head girl and me being head boy we went out to celebrate and he died. Voldemort killed him. I didn't tell anyone other than Sirius and Remus. But I still didn't take any of my feelings seriously. Even though I wished you were there with me at my dads funeral. I needed you more than ever at that time." He took in another shaky breathe. "But I finally stopped being an ass when that whole telepathy thing wore of because I felt-I felt as if I'd lost a part of myself. I felt as if I was incomplete without you buzzing around in my head. And I wanted to be whole again Lily." He looked at her pleadingly.
I'll always remember
It was late afternoon
In places no one will find
all your feelings so deep inside (deep inside)
Was then that I realized
that forever was in your eyes
Lily didn't know what to say. He'd just spilled out all her feelings to her. She knew his darkest secrets. It made her feel...special. It made HER feel whole. He'd told her all his secrets.
"Please let me be whole again." He pleaded and stared into her eyes.
Lily hugged him in response. She suddenly pulled back.
"No." she whispered. "You'll cheat on me again. You'll leave me the moment Jackie and her boyfriend break up." She shook her head tears falling out of her eyes. "I won't be made a fool of twice James Potter."
The moment I saw you cry
Baby cry
James wiped his tears before they fell from his eyes.
"Do you know how much that hurts?" he asked. He kissed her lightly on the lips before getting up to leave.
"NO!" Lily exclaimed. "So you're just going to leave me?! You're not even going to argue?! You're just going to say fine she doesn't trust me so I'll just leave she's not worth it?!" Lily broke down into loud sobs. Her tears mixed in with the rain. "You can't leave me!" she exclaimed. "You just can't leave me like that!"
James bent down and grabbed her by the shoulders.
"Lily look at me." He said sternly.
Lily looked up. He kissed her.
The moment that I saw you crying
Oh no no
This kiss was different than the kisses he'd given her during the play. Those had been reluctant and forced. This was filled with fiery passion. Lily felt her stomach do a flip flop and she wasn't aware of her surroundings. She kissed back eagerly and she felt his hand slide up her leg and rest on her knee. She fell backwards onto the ground with him on top. They were thoroughly soaked by now because of the rain. Still kissing James rolled over so that she was on top. He ran his fingers through her hair and finally pulled back from lack of oxygen.
"If you ever EVER go near Jackie again I'll kill you." Said Lily sternly.
James chuckled. "Deal." He said and removed a wet leaf from Lilys wet hair. She sat up with her legs still on either side of him.
"I must look a mess." She said staring at her hair. She had mud on her clothes and her hair was slightly muddy and wet and filled with leaves.
"You don't." said James. "You look perfect."
Lily stood up and offered him her hand. James took it and pulled her back down again on top of him.
"You think I'm stopping this soon?" he asked cocking his head to one side.
He then kissed her again.
I think I saw you cry
The moment I saw you cry
After awhile Lily sat up.
"James." she said carefully.
"yea?" he asked sitting up.
"Tell me about your life." She said bluntly.
"Its not normal that's for sure." He said as they stood.
"And neither is mine." Said Lily smiling as he put an arm around her.
"And never will be." James added.
"But you know what. I'm glad I don't have a normal life. If I did this would've never happened." She said smiling.
James smiled down at her and kissed her one more time before they made their way up to the Hogwarts castle.
"I'll tell you every single detail of my life tonight. Unless we have to mourn for Professor Whites death."
"Why?" asked Lily.
"He'll have a heart attack the moment he sees us kissing." Said James.
I wanted to know you...
I wanted to make your everything alright...
A/N: See THEY GOT TOGETHER FINALLY!!!! I just HAD to have this song in here! This chapters been written for a long time and yes I know that NOW the song is kind of old but I'd already written the chapter and well...yea. Ok now do you guys want me to write one more chapter about everyones reactions when they see Lily and James together and how James proposes to Lily and all that? DO you? Tell me if you do and I will! But it'll only be one more chapter and it'll be the last. Then I'll start on another story! Its already forming in my head. Actually two or three are but my rule is no more than doing three stories at a time and since this was my third story and im done with it im not sure which story to write next.