FINDING HEART
CHAPTER TWENTY THREE
BY DRAGONWIND
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The two couples made their way to the Forlindon suite where Konner knocked on the
door, stepping back when Ziellien answered. "Hello," she greeted the foursome.
"Hello Ziellien," Legolas said as he led Iladori inside.
"Good afternoon, Ziellien," Aalyssa greeted with a small curtsy.
"Hello, Ziellien," Konner added to the greetings.
"Ziel," Dori nodded.
Ziellien smiled warmly, "We did not expect to see you or Legolas today, Dor."
Iladori smiled shyly as she continued into the suite.
"Our fault, I am afraid. We invited them to the mid-day meal with us," Aalyssa said from
behind Konner in the hallway.
"We were planning on eating lunch in the hall, when the ladies realized they needed to
change. May we leave them in your capable hands?" Konner inquired.
Ziellien grinned and opened the door wider, "Come on in, Lys."
"Thank you, Ziellien."
Iladori turned to Legolas and kissed him, "I will not be long, love."
"I will not either, sweetness." He kissed her back then hugged her to him.
"I will not be long either, I promise," Aalyssa assured Konner, kissing him gently.
"Love you, a'maelamin."
"I love you too, sweetheart," Aalyssa responded.
Ziellien closed the door behind Konner and Legolas when they left. "Come, you must
bathe and select what you are going to wear."
Aalyssa and Iladori walked quietly behind her to where Myalora waited.
"Dori, we did not expect to see you so soon. Where is Legolas?"
"Getting ready for mid-day meal, Mommy," she explained, heading to her wardrobe.
"Child, you should be enjoying this time with your husband," Myalora exclaimed,
causing Iladori to blush from the root of her hair to the tips of her toes.
Aalyssa smiled quietly, wishing she had had that sort of relationship with her mother,
that her mother would be. . .she shook her head, clearing the thoughts. Her mother had
never been a mother to her. She looked on Laure now as a mother, but her
concentrations for the wedding would be on Konner. A sigh escaped her, knowing her
new mother should be concentrating on her newlywed daughter.
"I sense a story to be told," Ziellien joked, causing Iladori to turn even darker.
"I did not know one could turn that particular shade of red," Tracimia said, emerging
from her room.
"The weather turned warmer as predicted," Myalora announced, changing the topic.
"No need for heavy clothing today."
"I am going to bathe," Iladori said, anxious to escape the teasing. "Legolas will return
soon and I wish to be ready. . ."
"Yes, dearest. I understand. Come along, little ones, let us get you two cleaned and
dressed," Myalora commanded.
Aalyssa followed along, quietly agreeing. "Yes, I promised Konner I would not be long."
"I think a pink for you today, Aalyssa, since the weather is turning beautiful."
"That sounds nice, I like pinks."
"This afternoon, we shall visit the dressmaker to select your bridal dress. And Iladori,
you will attend as well. Legolas can be apart from you for a while, and we need to
select a dress for you as well."
"I need. . ." Iladori frowned.
"You need a few more gowns, Dori," Ziellien stated. "You do wish to look pretty for your
new husband, do you not?"
Iladori did not answer as she slipped into the bathing room, choosing to ignore her
sister's baiting. That would get her more than anything else.
"But Konner has not told me when we will be wed yet. I do not know a date to give the
dressmaker," Aalyssa protested weakly.
Myalora held her arm and guided her into the bathing room, "That will be decided
shortly. Your Father and Konner's father are in morning council with Elrond."
A nervous look crossed Aalyssa's features as she said, "All right." Silently, she
undressed and slipped into the bathing pool. Aalyssa closed her eyes momentarily and
relaxed in the warm water before beginning to wash her hair. She heard Myalora and
Iladori conversing lightly as she became fearful once more that Konner's mother would
report to his father about what they had been doing. For all she knew. . .
Myalora smiled gently at Aalyssa before tilting her chin up, "Aalyssa?"
"Yes, Ma'am?"
"Back to ma'am, are we? Do you have any questions about what your future as a
married woman shall hold?"
"No, not really, ma'am. Thank you," she said softly.
"Please, little one, feel free to come to me with any questions. And call me mama. Or
better yet, Mommy, as Iladori calls me. I like the feeling the endearment triggers within
me."
"Thank you, I will, Ma. . .Mommy," Aalyssa whispered as she slipped out of the water
and grabbed a bathing sheet to wrap around herself.
"Have you a dream dress yet, little one?"
"No, Mama. Every time I think of it, I come up with something different," Aalyssa
explained when she picked up a brush and started on her hair.
"Think some more about it, then. And when we get to the dressmakers, you can see the
sketches so you can visualize better."
"I will get Konner's thoughts on it also," Aalyssa responded, wincing when the brush hit
a tangle. She glanced over at Iladori who was rifling through her wardrobe.
Ziellien walked over and hugged Aalyssa, "Love, men do not care about the dress.
They are more interested in getting you out of it."
"It is his wedding too, and I wish for him to like my dress.
"He will love the dress, what ever you select, because you are wearing it," Ziellien
assured her.
"I suppose." She returned her attention to brushing her hair, getting lost in thought
again. Aalyssa looked up when Tracimia entered, carrying a pink gown trimmed with
burgundy for Aalyssa. She stood and took the dress, "It is lovely, Tracimia. Thank you."
"You are welcome, sweetheart." She became concerned when Aalyssa smiled weakly
at her before beginning to put the dress on.
Aalyssa went off to a corner with the dress, and after slipping it on, struggled silently
with the laces at the side.
"Here, let me help," Tracimia said, moving over to Aalyssa's side and taking the laces
from her.
"Thank you." When the dress was on properly, Aalyssa wondered why Konner was
taking so long. Assured she was completely clothed, she walked out into the common
room to await him. Almost as soon as she had arrived, there was a knock on the door.
Aalyssa answered it, as she was the only person there.
"It is Legolas and I," Konner announced.
"Come in," she told him, stepping to the side.
As Konner entered, he kissed her, "You look beautiful, love."
"Thank you, sweetheart," Aalyssa whispered before returning his kiss and sitting back
down.
"Is Dori ready?" Legolas asked, looking around.
"Almost, I believe," Aalyssa said as Konner sat down next to her. She felt his arm slip
around her waist, but she was lost in her thoughts.
"Come children, time for lunch," Myalora called out, leading Dori and the rest to the
common room.
Aalyssa got to her feet and waited for Konner.
When he stood, he offered Aalyssa one arm and Myalora the other. "May I escort two
of the most lovely women in Rivendell to lunch?"
Both of them took an arm, Aalyssa saying in a wistfully sad tone of voice that she would
be most honored.
He leaned over and whispered, "What is wrong, love?"
"I do not know, Konner," she replied honestly, leaning her head against him in an
attempt to keep her eyes from filling with tears. "I just. . .maybe you should just drop me
off at my room, sweetheart," she whispered.
Konner paused, "Talk to me, Lys. What troubles you so?"
She shook her head, "I cannot. I do not know what to tell you. It just sort of settled on
me."
He watched her with concern as they walked down to the dining hall. Konner was not
aware of Myalora watching her with equal concern.
They walked through the dining hall, the harsh whispers of the court ladies reaching
Aalyssa's ears. Her mood dimmed even further when she heard what they were saying
about her.
At the table, Konner seated Myalora first, sliding the chair in for her. "Thank you
Konner," Myalora smiled at him.
Konner returned her smiled and held a chair out for Aalyssa, right next to Iladori. "My
love," he said.
Aalyssa sat down and looked up at him, "Thank you," she said quietly.
He slid the chair next to her out and sat down. "What is wrong, my love?"
"I have told you I do not know," she replied, the sadness becoming more evident with
every word she spoke.
"Honey, I cannot help if you do not tell me," he pushed.
"But, I. . .I do not know what is wrong," she lied to him. "I still believe you should have
dropped me off at my room."
Konner lifted her hand and kissed it, "Sweetheart, let us just enjoy being with your
family. You said you did not want to be seen as hiding in your rooms."
"I know, I am trying." She looked up, her eyes watery, "I am sorry I am bad company
today."
"I cannot help if you will not let me," he said softly, growing more worried by the minute.
The idea of asking Myalora grew in his mind, but he wanted to do this alone.
Aalyssa lost her composure at his words, "I do not.. . I cannot. . . I am not even sure
what it is," she sputtered as she started crying.
"Love," he whispered, wrapping her in his arms, holding her as she cried against his
shoulder.
Myalora stood and walked over to them, "What is wrong, Aalyssa? You are not having
any pains?"
"N-no," Aalyssa gasped out, shaking her head without removing her face from Konner's
shoulder.
Konner gently rubbed her back, "Just tell us what is wrong, a'maelamin."
"I just. . .I just. . ."
"Just what, honey?"
Iladori shot a look of concern at Legolas, "What is wrong?"
"I do not know, sweetness."
"Lost. I feel lost," Aalyssa stated, pulling away from Konner's shoulder.
"Lost how, little one?"
"I am not going to let anything happen to you, Lyssie," Konner assured her.
She shook her head, "I do not know. It just. . .I just. . .I am getting married, and. . ."
"And?" Myalora prodded, stroking her daughter's hair.
Aalyssa gathered her skirts, "If you all will excuse me, I will just return to my room," she
said through her tears.
Myalora set one hand on her shoulder, using the other to tilt her face up, "We want to
know what is bothering you so we may help you."
"I do not belong anywhere, and I am scared."
"Do not ever think that, little one."
"Love, you belong to Mirkwood, and my family. You also belong to Forlindon and their
family."
She shook her head as she made another attempt to leave for her room, but Konner
placed a hand on each shoulder, holding her in place. "Talk to us, Aalyssa."
"My own mother did not love me enough to want to share this with me, in fact, she said I
was not good enough for a stableboy. She told me enough that I did not belong. And I
will only belong to your family and Mirkwood after we are wed." She turned fear-filled
eyes up to him, "And only then until after the babe is born and you send me over the
sea."
"Where did you get a notion like that?" Konner asked, stunned.
"It is common enough in royal houses after a babe is born. Everyone is talking about it,
how it was a wise decision because I would be nothing but an embarrassment to
Mirkwood."
Iladori nudged Legolas, "She needs you, Legolas. Konner and Mommy are not getting
through to her.
Legolas stood and walked over to kneel in front of Aalyssa. "Lys? What is it?"
"Nothing, Legolas."
"Do not lie to me, something is wrong."
"Lys," Konner began, "I proposed to you before we knew of the babe. I love you with all
of my heart and would never send you away."
"Tell him, Legolas. Tell your brother what my mother always said of my dreams?"
"She ridiculed them, but she is no longer in your life, Lys. You have to get past this and
trust us."
"Aalyssa, I do not care what your Mother said. My heart is yours and only you will do for
my wife. I adore you and treasure you and desire only to be your husband and father of
our children," Konner stated, seeing a glimmer of an attempt of a smile.
"I wish. . .I wish. . ."
Myalora looked softly into Aalyssa's eyes. "You wish you had a Mother of your own who
loves you. I have already taken you into my heart and named you daughter. You do
have someone to share this time with you, and your sisters and I want to help you have
the wedding of your dreams, as all young Ladies should have."
"I do not wish to take you from Iladori. She just got married and will need your
attentions."
"Iladori shall do fine on her own, I can certainly give out advice and plan your wedding.
I have loved three daughters for all of these years, I have room in my heart for one
more. And I wish to repeat something I told you the other day, you are not a free loader
nor a charity case. We wish to help you because you are very sweet and kind, along
with being family."
Aalyssa lowered her head, "I just do not wish to be a burden to anyone, nor an
inconvenience."
"You are not a burden, Lyssa," Konner assured her, pushing her hair back. "We all love
you."
"I bet Mama feels differently after this morning," she whispered.
"What do you mean by that, Aalyssa?" Myalora asked. "What happened?"
Aalyssa lifted her eyes but was unable to tell what had happened, her skin just flushed
and she averted her eyes.
"We were kind of caught making love, ma'am," Konner answered for her.
"I am sure she might have been surprised, but she is not upset. Where does she expect
the babe came from?" Myalora said lightly.
"I am so frightened," Aalyssa admitted.
"What are you frightened of?" Myalora inquired.
"I. . .I do not know how to be a mother. I shall disappoint Konner," she said, wiping
ineffectually at her still flowing tears.
Myalora withdrew a handkerchief from her pocket and handed it to Konner who gently
wiped Aalyssa's eyes.
"Mother will not throw you out, I promise you, Lys. I do not know how to be a father
either, we will have to learn together."
"At least you had a good example while growing up."
"Little one, none of us know how to be parents before having children," Myalora began.
"What if I turn out to be like my mother? I do not want my child to go through what I
did."
"Look at how Mother treated Legolas," Konner said.
"And I turned out all right," his brother finished.
"Aalyssa, you will make a fine mother. You will have people there to help and guide
you. And you may always write to me," Myalora assured her. "You have a good heart
and a lot of love. You may be your Mother's daughter but you are certainly not your
mother."
Aalyssa nodded, starting to feel a little better.
"When you have your babe, you will do what the best of mothers do. Make some
mistakes and learn from them. Little one, Daddy and I are always surprised that Ziellien
turned out as she did, with all of the mistakes we made. But remember one thing. Every
child is different. What you learn from one may not work on the next." She paused to
chuckle, "And what I learned from all of my children I threw out the window when Iladori
arrived."
Legolas smiled at Aalyssa, "I think you will be great mother. I have seen you at home,
mothering the little ones."
Aalyssa smiled weakly at everyone around her, "Thank you Legolas, Mama. I just do
not wish to disappoint Konner or you or your family. I just love this baby so much, I do
not wish to ever hurt him or her in any way."
"Never, Lys. You could never disappoint any of us. We love you too much for that to
happen."
"I will try my best not to," she said, looking in his eyes.
"Mother loves you and has always looked on you as a daughter," Legolas said. "She
tore me up one side and down the other for not coming to her about what your parents
had been doing."
"I am sorry, Legolas. I thought about going to her while you were here with Lord Elrond
but could not get up my nerve." Her eyes darted around the room, finding the women
watching them. Aalyssa became mortified over the scene she had just made, "Konner?
Please take me to my room," she asked quietly.
"No, a'maelamin. We shall remain and act as if nothing happened. You were upset and
allowed for that, after everything that has happened. And if the biddies cannot handle
that, then they can just do what they want."
"Not in public, Konner. It is not appropriate."
"Konner is right, little one. If you flee, you will give them more reason to talk."
"I suppose so. I am sorry I got you in trouble, Legolas."
"Legolas is good at getting himself into trouble, Aalyssa," Konner said teasingly.
"This is a new side to him," she commented.
"Yes, his fool in love side," Konner added, trying to make her laugh. Myalora chuckled
while Legolas made a face at his brother.
Aalyssa smiled weakly at them then turned to Legolas. "You may want to check on your
wife, Legolas. She looks a bit upset."
"What?"
"I said, your wife looks a bit upset."
He glanced over just to see Iladori jump up from her seat and run from the table, and he
took off after her.
"I hope I did not upset her," Aalyssa said to Konner.
"Not this again," he sighed. "Legolas will figure it out, my love."
"It seems to be becoming a habit. I hope she is all right."
Myalora watched the couple leave with concern, "I am certain Legolas can handle it."
"He should do just fine," Konner said.
Aalyssa looked at him skeptically. "This is Legolas we are talking about, right? And
dealing with his relationship?"
"Love made his brain fall out, but I think he is getting hold of himself, darling," Konner
said with a laugh.
"I hope so."
"Why do we not eat while we await their return?" Myalora suggested, sitting next to
Aalyssa and Konner.
Dessert was being served when the married couple returned, sitting in seats on the
other side of the table. Iladori apologized to her family, smiling behind her tear stained
cheeks.
"Is every thing all right, little one?" Myalora asked.
"I just needed a moment alone with Legolas, that is all."
"Then there is nothing to be sorry for, little one." Myalora continued to watch her with
concern.
"Mommy?" Iladori asked softly, in such a way that Myalora instantly stood and went
over to her. Her mother and sisters surrounded her and the female contingent of the
Forlindon family spoke softly.
"What are they talking about?" Konner asked in a hushed whisper.
"It is not mine to say, my love," Aalyssa said. The feeling of not belonging swarmed her
again, seeing herself unneeded by her sister.
"Why do you not go over and join her, a'maelamin? You are her sister, and they went
over on their own."
She nodded, his words making sense. "I will be right back."
Aalyssa walked over and knelt on her sister's right hand side. "Are you all right?" When
her sister shook her head, she inquired, "You and Legolas made a decision then?"
Iladori nodded, tears slipping silently down her cheeks.
"We are all with you, sweetie," Aalyssa assured her.
Legolas walked over to sit next to his brother, a look of distress evident in his eyes.
"What is wrong with her, Legolas? Did Aalyssa upset her when she began crying?"
"No, but Aalyssa apparently discussed this with her earlier."
"What did they discuss?"
"She may be pregnant, and she cannot be pregnant right now."
"Why ever not? The two of you are married."
"No one is supposed to know this yet. . ."
"Know what?" Konner asked, his exasperation with his younger brother growing.
"She is to go with the ring as extra protection, the legacy of the swords she carries. If
she should get hurt and miscarry while we are out there, it could cost us future
children."
"What!" Konner half shouted. "You cannot let her go. It is madness."
"Lower your voice, Konner. Please. She has been training for this all of her life, her
destiny. I f she does not go, none of us may have a future, Konner."
"This is your wife you are speaking of, your child."
"I understand that, and the decision was hard."
"There must be another way. Let me think," Konner said.
"Konner, I know Iladori. If she does not go and Sauron succeeds, she will not be able to
live with herself, knowing she could have done something. There is no other way,
Konner. I wish there were. In fact, I wish the ring had never resurfaced. I am going
along, Konner. I will protect her."
Konner shook his head, "Mother and Father will have a fit, this decision you made.. . "
"I am not telling them of the possibility of the babe."
"How can you not?" Konner asked, aghast.
"Because I do not wish to cause them more hurt than I have already. I came very close
to hurting them terribly last night. And Father will find out during the Council that Dori is
going as well as me."
"Legolas," Konner asked, narrowing his eyes in suspicion, "How long have you known
she was going?"
"Since the night I met her. When I forced her to explain why she would not let me near
her."
A snarl crossed Konner's face as he resisted the urge to hit him, but hissed in his ear,
"And you took her without protection. Are you a total idiot? Knowing this, you did not
take precautions and put her in this position."
"I explained this last night, it was not planned."
"You should have been carrying at all times, Legolas."
"I was not thinking last night. I tried to say no, but. . .I certainly did not expect to get her
pregnant the first time."
"No woman should have to make the choice she is facing, though she might not be
pregnant. It is too soon to know."
"We do not have the time to wait to find out," Legolas replied, lowering his eyes. He
looked back at his brother, his eyes flashing with anger. "But you made Aalyssa make
that choice, Konner."
"No, we decided together, and I was with her. We were both too young."
"Iladori and I decided together and I will be with her. The point is, you put Aalyssa in
that position twice. And yet you lecture me?"
"First, little brother, the first time was an accident, pure and simple. The wrap broke."
"That is convenient, " Legolas sneered at his brother.
"I wish I was lying, but I am not. It broke. But Iladori told you, Legolas. That is the major
difference. You knew she was going to be facing danger that could cause her to die.
Except for what happened this week, Aalyssa never faced that. She is a gentle woman,
raised to keep a home and family, not to go off fighting."
"You are right, on that count," Legolas admitted. "Anyway, it seems she was asking
Aalyssa this morning about the herbs to prevent pregnancy. And Lys just had to
mention that if she was already carrying, the herbs would kill the babe. If she would not
have mentioned that, Iladori could have gotten the herbs and been none the wiser."
Konner sighed, "I agree, I would not have told her. On the other hand, I am certain
Aalyssa is wondering why Iladori would want to take the herbs without knowing. Family
is everything to Aalyssa."
"She has to be wondering. I do not know what sort of explanation Dori gave her, if any."
"It depends on how open she is with the matter."
Legolas nodded, "She would not tell anyone until after the council. I had to drag it from
her lips."
"Just make sure it does not happen again, little brother. Do not put her in this position
again."
"I will not, barring the same problem you had. I will take a supply with me."
The brothers looked over to see Aalyssa standing, her hand pressed against her
stomach, an odd look on her face.
"You know, maybe Aalyssa should not be assisting her on this. Especially after she was
so upset earlier."
A concerned look was in Konner's eyes, "Agreed." He started to walk over to gather her
when Ziellien took her arm.
"Lys, sweetie, why do I not take you to the dressmaker, and Mama can go with Iladori
and Legolas to the herbalist? And Dori? I will have some new gowns made for you in
your colors and preferred styles."
"But, I promised. . ."
Ziellien's arm slipped around Aalyssa's shoulders, "This is really not something you
should have to deal with in your condition, Lys."
Aalyssa nodded and softly spoke to Iladori. "My thoughts and love are with you, Dori."
She hugged her sister and walked away with Ziellien. "Just let me tell Konner we are
leaving and I will be ready."
Ziellien nodded, "Tracimia is going to meet us there also."
"I will be right back," she said before walking over to Konner. "Sweetheart?"
"Yes, a'maelamin?"
"Ziellien is going to take me to the dressmakers. I will be back shortly," she whispered,
moving close to him and kissing him softly.
"Of course. Would you like for me to accompany you?"
Aalyssa smiled, "If you like. I would like your input on the wedding gown, if you do not
mind, as well as the others."
"I do not mind at all, my love," Konner smiled at her. "Though you will look lovely in
anything."
"I love you so much," she whispered.
"Not as much as I love you," he countered.
Ziellien cleared her throat as she walked over, smiling.
"Is it all right if Konner comes along, Ziellien?"
"Call me Ell," she smiled. "And he certainly may, though he cannot see the wedding
dress."
"Not even the design on parchment?" Aalyssa asked, disappointed.
"Not even. Konner, I do have an errand I need you to do first, if you do not mind."
"Yes, Ziellien? What is it?"
"You call me Ell also, please. Please go find one of your parents and ask when the
wedding is to be. They should be in Lord Elrond's library with my father, since they
have not come to lunch."
"Good point. Just do not leave without me," he said, looking softly at Aalyssa. "Please."
"Of course I will not," she assured him.
Ziellien smiled as he ran from the room, Aalyssa watching him longingly. She then
turned to her sister, "In Forlindon, it is a bad omen if the groom sees the bride's gown
before the wedding. When there are weddings."
"I understand, I just desired his input."
"Trust us, we will not lead you astray. As I told you earlier, Konner will love whatever
dress you select because you are wearing it."
She nodded, then gasped.
"What is wrong?"
"I asked Konner for input on other gowns, but I have no money," Aalyssa admitted.
Ziellien squeezed her shoulders, "Do not worry. It has all been taken care of. Mother
has it under control. The only thing you need to worry over is what colors you would
like for your new dresses."
Konner jogged up to the two, almost out of breath, carrying two cloaks. "Father says the
wedding is to be in two days time."
"That soon? We have a lot of work cut out for us then," Aalyssa uttered.
"Easily done," Ziellien said.
"I cannot imagine having a wedding ready in two days."
"Leave it to us, sweetie. Mother is good at these things."
"I brought your cloaks," Konner interrupted. "Mithelier tells me it is still cool outside," he
explained, handing one to Ziellien and one of his to Aalyssa. Ell, make sure she selects
a cloak as well."
"Done," Ziellien smiled.
Ziellien led them from the dining hall to one of the finest dress houses in Rivendell. She
watched Aalyssa looking at the establishment in awe.
"What is it, sweetie?"
"I have never seen anything like it. Mother always took me to the lesser
establishments."
"I understand," Ziellien said as she took Aalyssa's arm and led her through the door
Konner held open for them.
CHAPTER TWENTY THREE
BY DRAGONWIND
Disclaimer: I own nothing of Tolkein's. Those you do not recognize from his works are
mine. NO money is made, written for fun only.
feedback welcome, if constructive
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The two couples made their way to the Forlindon suite where Konner knocked on the
door, stepping back when Ziellien answered. "Hello," she greeted the foursome.
"Hello Ziellien," Legolas said as he led Iladori inside.
"Good afternoon, Ziellien," Aalyssa greeted with a small curtsy.
"Hello, Ziellien," Konner added to the greetings.
"Ziel," Dori nodded.
Ziellien smiled warmly, "We did not expect to see you or Legolas today, Dor."
Iladori smiled shyly as she continued into the suite.
"Our fault, I am afraid. We invited them to the mid-day meal with us," Aalyssa said from
behind Konner in the hallway.
"We were planning on eating lunch in the hall, when the ladies realized they needed to
change. May we leave them in your capable hands?" Konner inquired.
Ziellien grinned and opened the door wider, "Come on in, Lys."
"Thank you, Ziellien."
Iladori turned to Legolas and kissed him, "I will not be long, love."
"I will not either, sweetness." He kissed her back then hugged her to him.
"I will not be long either, I promise," Aalyssa assured Konner, kissing him gently.
"Love you, a'maelamin."
"I love you too, sweetheart," Aalyssa responded.
Ziellien closed the door behind Konner and Legolas when they left. "Come, you must
bathe and select what you are going to wear."
Aalyssa and Iladori walked quietly behind her to where Myalora waited.
"Dori, we did not expect to see you so soon. Where is Legolas?"
"Getting ready for mid-day meal, Mommy," she explained, heading to her wardrobe.
"Child, you should be enjoying this time with your husband," Myalora exclaimed,
causing Iladori to blush from the root of her hair to the tips of her toes.
Aalyssa smiled quietly, wishing she had had that sort of relationship with her mother,
that her mother would be. . .she shook her head, clearing the thoughts. Her mother had
never been a mother to her. She looked on Laure now as a mother, but her
concentrations for the wedding would be on Konner. A sigh escaped her, knowing her
new mother should be concentrating on her newlywed daughter.
"I sense a story to be told," Ziellien joked, causing Iladori to turn even darker.
"I did not know one could turn that particular shade of red," Tracimia said, emerging
from her room.
"The weather turned warmer as predicted," Myalora announced, changing the topic.
"No need for heavy clothing today."
"I am going to bathe," Iladori said, anxious to escape the teasing. "Legolas will return
soon and I wish to be ready. . ."
"Yes, dearest. I understand. Come along, little ones, let us get you two cleaned and
dressed," Myalora commanded.
Aalyssa followed along, quietly agreeing. "Yes, I promised Konner I would not be long."
"I think a pink for you today, Aalyssa, since the weather is turning beautiful."
"That sounds nice, I like pinks."
"This afternoon, we shall visit the dressmaker to select your bridal dress. And Iladori,
you will attend as well. Legolas can be apart from you for a while, and we need to
select a dress for you as well."
"I need. . ." Iladori frowned.
"You need a few more gowns, Dori," Ziellien stated. "You do wish to look pretty for your
new husband, do you not?"
Iladori did not answer as she slipped into the bathing room, choosing to ignore her
sister's baiting. That would get her more than anything else.
"But Konner has not told me when we will be wed yet. I do not know a date to give the
dressmaker," Aalyssa protested weakly.
Myalora held her arm and guided her into the bathing room, "That will be decided
shortly. Your Father and Konner's father are in morning council with Elrond."
A nervous look crossed Aalyssa's features as she said, "All right." Silently, she
undressed and slipped into the bathing pool. Aalyssa closed her eyes momentarily and
relaxed in the warm water before beginning to wash her hair. She heard Myalora and
Iladori conversing lightly as she became fearful once more that Konner's mother would
report to his father about what they had been doing. For all she knew. . .
Myalora smiled gently at Aalyssa before tilting her chin up, "Aalyssa?"
"Yes, Ma'am?"
"Back to ma'am, are we? Do you have any questions about what your future as a
married woman shall hold?"
"No, not really, ma'am. Thank you," she said softly.
"Please, little one, feel free to come to me with any questions. And call me mama. Or
better yet, Mommy, as Iladori calls me. I like the feeling the endearment triggers within
me."
"Thank you, I will, Ma. . .Mommy," Aalyssa whispered as she slipped out of the water
and grabbed a bathing sheet to wrap around herself.
"Have you a dream dress yet, little one?"
"No, Mama. Every time I think of it, I come up with something different," Aalyssa
explained when she picked up a brush and started on her hair.
"Think some more about it, then. And when we get to the dressmakers, you can see the
sketches so you can visualize better."
"I will get Konner's thoughts on it also," Aalyssa responded, wincing when the brush hit
a tangle. She glanced over at Iladori who was rifling through her wardrobe.
Ziellien walked over and hugged Aalyssa, "Love, men do not care about the dress.
They are more interested in getting you out of it."
"It is his wedding too, and I wish for him to like my dress.
"He will love the dress, what ever you select, because you are wearing it," Ziellien
assured her.
"I suppose." She returned her attention to brushing her hair, getting lost in thought
again. Aalyssa looked up when Tracimia entered, carrying a pink gown trimmed with
burgundy for Aalyssa. She stood and took the dress, "It is lovely, Tracimia. Thank you."
"You are welcome, sweetheart." She became concerned when Aalyssa smiled weakly
at her before beginning to put the dress on.
Aalyssa went off to a corner with the dress, and after slipping it on, struggled silently
with the laces at the side.
"Here, let me help," Tracimia said, moving over to Aalyssa's side and taking the laces
from her.
"Thank you." When the dress was on properly, Aalyssa wondered why Konner was
taking so long. Assured she was completely clothed, she walked out into the common
room to await him. Almost as soon as she had arrived, there was a knock on the door.
Aalyssa answered it, as she was the only person there.
"It is Legolas and I," Konner announced.
"Come in," she told him, stepping to the side.
As Konner entered, he kissed her, "You look beautiful, love."
"Thank you, sweetheart," Aalyssa whispered before returning his kiss and sitting back
down.
"Is Dori ready?" Legolas asked, looking around.
"Almost, I believe," Aalyssa said as Konner sat down next to her. She felt his arm slip
around her waist, but she was lost in her thoughts.
"Come children, time for lunch," Myalora called out, leading Dori and the rest to the
common room.
Aalyssa got to her feet and waited for Konner.
When he stood, he offered Aalyssa one arm and Myalora the other. "May I escort two
of the most lovely women in Rivendell to lunch?"
Both of them took an arm, Aalyssa saying in a wistfully sad tone of voice that she would
be most honored.
He leaned over and whispered, "What is wrong, love?"
"I do not know, Konner," she replied honestly, leaning her head against him in an
attempt to keep her eyes from filling with tears. "I just. . .maybe you should just drop me
off at my room, sweetheart," she whispered.
Konner paused, "Talk to me, Lys. What troubles you so?"
She shook her head, "I cannot. I do not know what to tell you. It just sort of settled on
me."
He watched her with concern as they walked down to the dining hall. Konner was not
aware of Myalora watching her with equal concern.
They walked through the dining hall, the harsh whispers of the court ladies reaching
Aalyssa's ears. Her mood dimmed even further when she heard what they were saying
about her.
At the table, Konner seated Myalora first, sliding the chair in for her. "Thank you
Konner," Myalora smiled at him.
Konner returned her smiled and held a chair out for Aalyssa, right next to Iladori. "My
love," he said.
Aalyssa sat down and looked up at him, "Thank you," she said quietly.
He slid the chair next to her out and sat down. "What is wrong, my love?"
"I have told you I do not know," she replied, the sadness becoming more evident with
every word she spoke.
"Honey, I cannot help if you do not tell me," he pushed.
"But, I. . .I do not know what is wrong," she lied to him. "I still believe you should have
dropped me off at my room."
Konner lifted her hand and kissed it, "Sweetheart, let us just enjoy being with your
family. You said you did not want to be seen as hiding in your rooms."
"I know, I am trying." She looked up, her eyes watery, "I am sorry I am bad company
today."
"I cannot help if you will not let me," he said softly, growing more worried by the minute.
The idea of asking Myalora grew in his mind, but he wanted to do this alone.
Aalyssa lost her composure at his words, "I do not.. . I cannot. . . I am not even sure
what it is," she sputtered as she started crying.
"Love," he whispered, wrapping her in his arms, holding her as she cried against his
shoulder.
Myalora stood and walked over to them, "What is wrong, Aalyssa? You are not having
any pains?"
"N-no," Aalyssa gasped out, shaking her head without removing her face from Konner's
shoulder.
Konner gently rubbed her back, "Just tell us what is wrong, a'maelamin."
"I just. . .I just. . ."
"Just what, honey?"
Iladori shot a look of concern at Legolas, "What is wrong?"
"I do not know, sweetness."
"Lost. I feel lost," Aalyssa stated, pulling away from Konner's shoulder.
"Lost how, little one?"
"I am not going to let anything happen to you, Lyssie," Konner assured her.
She shook her head, "I do not know. It just. . .I just. . .I am getting married, and. . ."
"And?" Myalora prodded, stroking her daughter's hair.
Aalyssa gathered her skirts, "If you all will excuse me, I will just return to my room," she
said through her tears.
Myalora set one hand on her shoulder, using the other to tilt her face up, "We want to
know what is bothering you so we may help you."
"I do not belong anywhere, and I am scared."
"Do not ever think that, little one."
"Love, you belong to Mirkwood, and my family. You also belong to Forlindon and their
family."
She shook her head as she made another attempt to leave for her room, but Konner
placed a hand on each shoulder, holding her in place. "Talk to us, Aalyssa."
"My own mother did not love me enough to want to share this with me, in fact, she said I
was not good enough for a stableboy. She told me enough that I did not belong. And I
will only belong to your family and Mirkwood after we are wed." She turned fear-filled
eyes up to him, "And only then until after the babe is born and you send me over the
sea."
"Where did you get a notion like that?" Konner asked, stunned.
"It is common enough in royal houses after a babe is born. Everyone is talking about it,
how it was a wise decision because I would be nothing but an embarrassment to
Mirkwood."
Iladori nudged Legolas, "She needs you, Legolas. Konner and Mommy are not getting
through to her.
Legolas stood and walked over to kneel in front of Aalyssa. "Lys? What is it?"
"Nothing, Legolas."
"Do not lie to me, something is wrong."
"Lys," Konner began, "I proposed to you before we knew of the babe. I love you with all
of my heart and would never send you away."
"Tell him, Legolas. Tell your brother what my mother always said of my dreams?"
"She ridiculed them, but she is no longer in your life, Lys. You have to get past this and
trust us."
"Aalyssa, I do not care what your Mother said. My heart is yours and only you will do for
my wife. I adore you and treasure you and desire only to be your husband and father of
our children," Konner stated, seeing a glimmer of an attempt of a smile.
"I wish. . .I wish. . ."
Myalora looked softly into Aalyssa's eyes. "You wish you had a Mother of your own who
loves you. I have already taken you into my heart and named you daughter. You do
have someone to share this time with you, and your sisters and I want to help you have
the wedding of your dreams, as all young Ladies should have."
"I do not wish to take you from Iladori. She just got married and will need your
attentions."
"Iladori shall do fine on her own, I can certainly give out advice and plan your wedding.
I have loved three daughters for all of these years, I have room in my heart for one
more. And I wish to repeat something I told you the other day, you are not a free loader
nor a charity case. We wish to help you because you are very sweet and kind, along
with being family."
Aalyssa lowered her head, "I just do not wish to be a burden to anyone, nor an
inconvenience."
"You are not a burden, Lyssa," Konner assured her, pushing her hair back. "We all love
you."
"I bet Mama feels differently after this morning," she whispered.
"What do you mean by that, Aalyssa?" Myalora asked. "What happened?"
Aalyssa lifted her eyes but was unable to tell what had happened, her skin just flushed
and she averted her eyes.
"We were kind of caught making love, ma'am," Konner answered for her.
"I am sure she might have been surprised, but she is not upset. Where does she expect
the babe came from?" Myalora said lightly.
"I am so frightened," Aalyssa admitted.
"What are you frightened of?" Myalora inquired.
"I. . .I do not know how to be a mother. I shall disappoint Konner," she said, wiping
ineffectually at her still flowing tears.
Myalora withdrew a handkerchief from her pocket and handed it to Konner who gently
wiped Aalyssa's eyes.
"Mother will not throw you out, I promise you, Lys. I do not know how to be a father
either, we will have to learn together."
"At least you had a good example while growing up."
"Little one, none of us know how to be parents before having children," Myalora began.
"What if I turn out to be like my mother? I do not want my child to go through what I
did."
"Look at how Mother treated Legolas," Konner said.
"And I turned out all right," his brother finished.
"Aalyssa, you will make a fine mother. You will have people there to help and guide
you. And you may always write to me," Myalora assured her. "You have a good heart
and a lot of love. You may be your Mother's daughter but you are certainly not your
mother."
Aalyssa nodded, starting to feel a little better.
"When you have your babe, you will do what the best of mothers do. Make some
mistakes and learn from them. Little one, Daddy and I are always surprised that Ziellien
turned out as she did, with all of the mistakes we made. But remember one thing. Every
child is different. What you learn from one may not work on the next." She paused to
chuckle, "And what I learned from all of my children I threw out the window when Iladori
arrived."
Legolas smiled at Aalyssa, "I think you will be great mother. I have seen you at home,
mothering the little ones."
Aalyssa smiled weakly at everyone around her, "Thank you Legolas, Mama. I just do
not wish to disappoint Konner or you or your family. I just love this baby so much, I do
not wish to ever hurt him or her in any way."
"Never, Lys. You could never disappoint any of us. We love you too much for that to
happen."
"I will try my best not to," she said, looking in his eyes.
"Mother loves you and has always looked on you as a daughter," Legolas said. "She
tore me up one side and down the other for not coming to her about what your parents
had been doing."
"I am sorry, Legolas. I thought about going to her while you were here with Lord Elrond
but could not get up my nerve." Her eyes darted around the room, finding the women
watching them. Aalyssa became mortified over the scene she had just made, "Konner?
Please take me to my room," she asked quietly.
"No, a'maelamin. We shall remain and act as if nothing happened. You were upset and
allowed for that, after everything that has happened. And if the biddies cannot handle
that, then they can just do what they want."
"Not in public, Konner. It is not appropriate."
"Konner is right, little one. If you flee, you will give them more reason to talk."
"I suppose so. I am sorry I got you in trouble, Legolas."
"Legolas is good at getting himself into trouble, Aalyssa," Konner said teasingly.
"This is a new side to him," she commented.
"Yes, his fool in love side," Konner added, trying to make her laugh. Myalora chuckled
while Legolas made a face at his brother.
Aalyssa smiled weakly at them then turned to Legolas. "You may want to check on your
wife, Legolas. She looks a bit upset."
"What?"
"I said, your wife looks a bit upset."
He glanced over just to see Iladori jump up from her seat and run from the table, and he
took off after her.
"I hope I did not upset her," Aalyssa said to Konner.
"Not this again," he sighed. "Legolas will figure it out, my love."
"It seems to be becoming a habit. I hope she is all right."
Myalora watched the couple leave with concern, "I am certain Legolas can handle it."
"He should do just fine," Konner said.
Aalyssa looked at him skeptically. "This is Legolas we are talking about, right? And
dealing with his relationship?"
"Love made his brain fall out, but I think he is getting hold of himself, darling," Konner
said with a laugh.
"I hope so."
"Why do we not eat while we await their return?" Myalora suggested, sitting next to
Aalyssa and Konner.
Dessert was being served when the married couple returned, sitting in seats on the
other side of the table. Iladori apologized to her family, smiling behind her tear stained
cheeks.
"Is every thing all right, little one?" Myalora asked.
"I just needed a moment alone with Legolas, that is all."
"Then there is nothing to be sorry for, little one." Myalora continued to watch her with
concern.
"Mommy?" Iladori asked softly, in such a way that Myalora instantly stood and went
over to her. Her mother and sisters surrounded her and the female contingent of the
Forlindon family spoke softly.
"What are they talking about?" Konner asked in a hushed whisper.
"It is not mine to say, my love," Aalyssa said. The feeling of not belonging swarmed her
again, seeing herself unneeded by her sister.
"Why do you not go over and join her, a'maelamin? You are her sister, and they went
over on their own."
She nodded, his words making sense. "I will be right back."
Aalyssa walked over and knelt on her sister's right hand side. "Are you all right?" When
her sister shook her head, she inquired, "You and Legolas made a decision then?"
Iladori nodded, tears slipping silently down her cheeks.
"We are all with you, sweetie," Aalyssa assured her.
Legolas walked over to sit next to his brother, a look of distress evident in his eyes.
"What is wrong with her, Legolas? Did Aalyssa upset her when she began crying?"
"No, but Aalyssa apparently discussed this with her earlier."
"What did they discuss?"
"She may be pregnant, and she cannot be pregnant right now."
"Why ever not? The two of you are married."
"No one is supposed to know this yet. . ."
"Know what?" Konner asked, his exasperation with his younger brother growing.
"She is to go with the ring as extra protection, the legacy of the swords she carries. If
she should get hurt and miscarry while we are out there, it could cost us future
children."
"What!" Konner half shouted. "You cannot let her go. It is madness."
"Lower your voice, Konner. Please. She has been training for this all of her life, her
destiny. I f she does not go, none of us may have a future, Konner."
"This is your wife you are speaking of, your child."
"I understand that, and the decision was hard."
"There must be another way. Let me think," Konner said.
"Konner, I know Iladori. If she does not go and Sauron succeeds, she will not be able to
live with herself, knowing she could have done something. There is no other way,
Konner. I wish there were. In fact, I wish the ring had never resurfaced. I am going
along, Konner. I will protect her."
Konner shook his head, "Mother and Father will have a fit, this decision you made.. . "
"I am not telling them of the possibility of the babe."
"How can you not?" Konner asked, aghast.
"Because I do not wish to cause them more hurt than I have already. I came very close
to hurting them terribly last night. And Father will find out during the Council that Dori is
going as well as me."
"Legolas," Konner asked, narrowing his eyes in suspicion, "How long have you known
she was going?"
"Since the night I met her. When I forced her to explain why she would not let me near
her."
A snarl crossed Konner's face as he resisted the urge to hit him, but hissed in his ear,
"And you took her without protection. Are you a total idiot? Knowing this, you did not
take precautions and put her in this position."
"I explained this last night, it was not planned."
"You should have been carrying at all times, Legolas."
"I was not thinking last night. I tried to say no, but. . .I certainly did not expect to get her
pregnant the first time."
"No woman should have to make the choice she is facing, though she might not be
pregnant. It is too soon to know."
"We do not have the time to wait to find out," Legolas replied, lowering his eyes. He
looked back at his brother, his eyes flashing with anger. "But you made Aalyssa make
that choice, Konner."
"No, we decided together, and I was with her. We were both too young."
"Iladori and I decided together and I will be with her. The point is, you put Aalyssa in
that position twice. And yet you lecture me?"
"First, little brother, the first time was an accident, pure and simple. The wrap broke."
"That is convenient, " Legolas sneered at his brother.
"I wish I was lying, but I am not. It broke. But Iladori told you, Legolas. That is the major
difference. You knew she was going to be facing danger that could cause her to die.
Except for what happened this week, Aalyssa never faced that. She is a gentle woman,
raised to keep a home and family, not to go off fighting."
"You are right, on that count," Legolas admitted. "Anyway, it seems she was asking
Aalyssa this morning about the herbs to prevent pregnancy. And Lys just had to
mention that if she was already carrying, the herbs would kill the babe. If she would not
have mentioned that, Iladori could have gotten the herbs and been none the wiser."
Konner sighed, "I agree, I would not have told her. On the other hand, I am certain
Aalyssa is wondering why Iladori would want to take the herbs without knowing. Family
is everything to Aalyssa."
"She has to be wondering. I do not know what sort of explanation Dori gave her, if any."
"It depends on how open she is with the matter."
Legolas nodded, "She would not tell anyone until after the council. I had to drag it from
her lips."
"Just make sure it does not happen again, little brother. Do not put her in this position
again."
"I will not, barring the same problem you had. I will take a supply with me."
The brothers looked over to see Aalyssa standing, her hand pressed against her
stomach, an odd look on her face.
"You know, maybe Aalyssa should not be assisting her on this. Especially after she was
so upset earlier."
A concerned look was in Konner's eyes, "Agreed." He started to walk over to gather her
when Ziellien took her arm.
"Lys, sweetie, why do I not take you to the dressmaker, and Mama can go with Iladori
and Legolas to the herbalist? And Dori? I will have some new gowns made for you in
your colors and preferred styles."
"But, I promised. . ."
Ziellien's arm slipped around Aalyssa's shoulders, "This is really not something you
should have to deal with in your condition, Lys."
Aalyssa nodded and softly spoke to Iladori. "My thoughts and love are with you, Dori."
She hugged her sister and walked away with Ziellien. "Just let me tell Konner we are
leaving and I will be ready."
Ziellien nodded, "Tracimia is going to meet us there also."
"I will be right back," she said before walking over to Konner. "Sweetheart?"
"Yes, a'maelamin?"
"Ziellien is going to take me to the dressmakers. I will be back shortly," she whispered,
moving close to him and kissing him softly.
"Of course. Would you like for me to accompany you?"
Aalyssa smiled, "If you like. I would like your input on the wedding gown, if you do not
mind, as well as the others."
"I do not mind at all, my love," Konner smiled at her. "Though you will look lovely in
anything."
"I love you so much," she whispered.
"Not as much as I love you," he countered.
Ziellien cleared her throat as she walked over, smiling.
"Is it all right if Konner comes along, Ziellien?"
"Call me Ell," she smiled. "And he certainly may, though he cannot see the wedding
dress."
"Not even the design on parchment?" Aalyssa asked, disappointed.
"Not even. Konner, I do have an errand I need you to do first, if you do not mind."
"Yes, Ziellien? What is it?"
"You call me Ell also, please. Please go find one of your parents and ask when the
wedding is to be. They should be in Lord Elrond's library with my father, since they
have not come to lunch."
"Good point. Just do not leave without me," he said, looking softly at Aalyssa. "Please."
"Of course I will not," she assured him.
Ziellien smiled as he ran from the room, Aalyssa watching him longingly. She then
turned to her sister, "In Forlindon, it is a bad omen if the groom sees the bride's gown
before the wedding. When there are weddings."
"I understand, I just desired his input."
"Trust us, we will not lead you astray. As I told you earlier, Konner will love whatever
dress you select because you are wearing it."
She nodded, then gasped.
"What is wrong?"
"I asked Konner for input on other gowns, but I have no money," Aalyssa admitted.
Ziellien squeezed her shoulders, "Do not worry. It has all been taken care of. Mother
has it under control. The only thing you need to worry over is what colors you would
like for your new dresses."
Konner jogged up to the two, almost out of breath, carrying two cloaks. "Father says the
wedding is to be in two days time."
"That soon? We have a lot of work cut out for us then," Aalyssa uttered.
"Easily done," Ziellien said.
"I cannot imagine having a wedding ready in two days."
"Leave it to us, sweetie. Mother is good at these things."
"I brought your cloaks," Konner interrupted. "Mithelier tells me it is still cool outside," he
explained, handing one to Ziellien and one of his to Aalyssa. Ell, make sure she selects
a cloak as well."
"Done," Ziellien smiled.
Ziellien led them from the dining hall to one of the finest dress houses in Rivendell. She
watched Aalyssa looking at the establishment in awe.
"What is it, sweetie?"
"I have never seen anything like it. Mother always took me to the lesser
establishments."
"I understand," Ziellien said as she took Aalyssa's arm and led her through the door
Konner held open for them.