disclaimer; there's only so many ways you can say that something
doesn't belong to you especially when it's 1:03 a.m. dbz doesn't belong
to me.
author's note; but everything else (i.e. authors notes rants and
sometimes quotes) does belong to me. On a serious note (yes I do have
serious moments...ooh ah) this is a serious chapter, answers some questions
about Lazandra's past that nobody has asked about. There is definitely
some rape type violence here made as vague as possible but still
recognizable if you have 3/4's of a brain (not half a brain - 3/4's
I tell you). So if you're not comfortable reading it then don't. Don't
flame me because you were stupid and read it when I am warning you now.
random rant #1; why the hell does Mr. Sandman seem to hate me! I swear I
Must repulse him or something! Either that or Mrs. Sandman is jealous of
my beautiousness (yeah right) and keeps Mr. Sandman busy while he's
supposed to put me to sleep!
random quote; "..." -my brain at 1:17 a.m.
random rant#2; dammit man i had a really good quote too! Damn my poor
memory! I didn't mean that memory, I love you...please be kind to me...
please?
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That night Gohan got up from bed and stumbled towards the kitchen looking for some
water. He stopped when he saw her lying on the couch. He looked down at her, her face lit by
moonlight. She was tossing and turning. Forgetting the water he came out for he quietly made his
way over to her side and watched her as she slept. As he watched her expression turn to one of
anguish he didn't care whether he felt the pain he felt the first time he touched her. He
wanted nothing more than to protect her from the ghosts and demons of her past.
He moved his hand to caress her cheek and was immediately assaulted with images of her
as a young woman in what he assumed to be her home before it was destroyed. He saw her with a
young man, her twin brother by the identical color eyes and hair he had. Then he saw them. The
androids. They were coming straight towards the town. Her dream flashed forward to her cradling
her brother's lifeless body crying in pain as their father came to them followed closely by some
of the other townspeople. "Get out of here. I promised your mother that I would protect you. Now
get out before they find you." Her father said harshly.
"Let them come! Let them kill me I don't care anymore." Then she turned to her father.
"You're just like them. You don't care whether I live or die." She turned back to her brother.
"He was the only one who cared, the only one who even understood. Go father; go join the rest
of them. Tell them where I am so you can kill me and end my misery." She cried, mocking his
title of father.
So he turned without a second thought and called to the others letting the survivors
know where they were. Within moments she was surrounded by an angry mob of people looking for
someone to blame.
"Kill her!" she heard a woman shout.
"Nothing but bad things has happened to this town ever since those two were born!"
This comment was met with a chorus yeah's.
"No! Wait." Her father called. "I have a better idea."
"Don't try to save her, it won't work." A voice came from the mob.
Her father looked at the person like they had lost their mind. "Why would I want to
save her? She may be my daughter but she is the reason my wife is dead!" he shouted. "I say
the next time the androids come we should hand her over to them. We will give her as a peace
offering to them."
Gohan couldn't believe what he was hearing, her own father suggesting something like
that. "How could you even think that way? She's your daughter! The only child you have left!"
But his shouts fell on deaf ears.
"He never cared about me or my brother."
Gohan turned to see Lazandra standing behind him
"He always blamed us for moms death. She died during child birth." She said sadly.
He grasped her shoulders in his hands and looked into her eyes. "That shouldn't matter.
You were his daughter."
She shook herself from his grasp. "There's nothing pleasant to see here. Go back."
He looked at her, unsure of what to say. Then he understood. "If you can survive
through this hell I'm not going to turn away. You don't have to keep this to yourself." He
grabbed her shoulders and lifted her face so he could look her in the eyes. "I'm not going to
turn and walk away like you father did." He pulled her close and held her in a strong embrace
when he saw how she was fighting her tears.
As soon as she felt his arms around her she felt safe and protected. She cried into his
shoulder, she let out all the tears she had been holding back since seventeen had taken her
brother from her.
Gohan looked up as the scenery began to change once again then he looked down at her as
he sensed her fear and shame of what was about to happen next. She hid her face in his shoulder
and he got a sinking feeling in the pit of his stomach.
Next thing he knew he was floating in the air above her hometown with her still in his
arms. A few yards off he saw seventeen hovering in the air with Lazandra's past self. Even
though it was a whispered comment he could hear what he said in her ear.
"You know, it's a pity my sister couldn't be here to see this. She'd find this very
amusing, humans giving me one of there own thinking that I'd actually leave them in peace."
With that 17 lifted his hand and blasted the little town to ashes.
Gohan watched in horror as what was left of her life was destroyed before her. He began
to power up when he heard her whisper. "It won't do any good this is the past, merely a dream,
nothing you do can change what happens." She glanced over at herself. "It doesn't get much
better either."
Gohan looked up at where the android was and once again had a sinking feeling. He
remembered the conversation they had when he had first brought her to his home,
*flashback*
'But they're androids, machines they don't feel anything.' Gohan insisted.
'Yes they do. I probably wouldn't be alive if they didn't.'
'When 17 got me last time there were...extenuating circumstances.'
*end flashback*
All of a sudden he understood. He held her tighter to him, not willing to let her
suffer the next few scenes alone.
17 threw her against a wall and leaned in close to Lazandra's ear and whispered, "I've
always wondered why human men thought this was so enjoyable."
He watched, his anger for the cyborg increasing ten fold. The pain he felt for
Lazandra tore him up inside. But, she was right the androids did feel something. When 17 was
done he let her fall to the ground. "I don't understand what the big deal is." He muttered
uncomfortably looking around. He left her where she was, eager to get away. Through it all
she had let 17 feel her fear and her pain.
She curled up in a ball where she lay, holding her ribs where he had punched her. After
seeing how the android had brutalized her Gohan was surprised 17 hadn't killed her or at the
very least broken one of her ribs.
He held Lazandra tighter still. "I'm so sorry. If only I had gotten there sooner."
"You would have succeeded in getting yourself killed." She said through her tears.
"It's ok. He's never coming near you again. I'll die before I let him touch you." He
promised her. He kissed the crown of her head stroking her hair and making comforting sounds
until they woke up in each other's arms. He was on his knees next to her, and she was sitting
up crying into his shoulders. He put one arm around her back the other under her knees and
picked her up so he could turn and sit on the couch with her in his lap.
He stayed with her like that for what seemed like an eternity, until she spoke. "Stay
with me? I don't want to be alone again, not after that." She pleaded quietly.
He pulled her away from him enough so that he could look into her eyes. "I'll stay as
long as you want me here."
An understanding passed between them. He laid down gently pulling her with him. He
pulled the blanket around them and they found a comfortable position. After a moment she
relaxed into him, using his chest as a pillow. He wrapped his arms around her continuing to
massage small circles over her back until she fell into a dreamless sleep with him soon
following.
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Ok so what did you people think of that? Please, please r&r so I know
whether or not I should continue to post, or whether it shall remain for
a private audience such as the court of random.
doesn't belong to you especially when it's 1:03 a.m. dbz doesn't belong
to me.
author's note; but everything else (i.e. authors notes rants and
sometimes quotes) does belong to me. On a serious note (yes I do have
serious moments...ooh ah) this is a serious chapter, answers some questions
about Lazandra's past that nobody has asked about. There is definitely
some rape type violence here made as vague as possible but still
recognizable if you have 3/4's of a brain (not half a brain - 3/4's
I tell you). So if you're not comfortable reading it then don't. Don't
flame me because you were stupid and read it when I am warning you now.
random rant #1; why the hell does Mr. Sandman seem to hate me! I swear I
Must repulse him or something! Either that or Mrs. Sandman is jealous of
my beautiousness (yeah right) and keeps Mr. Sandman busy while he's
supposed to put me to sleep!
random quote; "..." -my brain at 1:17 a.m.
random rant#2; dammit man i had a really good quote too! Damn my poor
memory! I didn't mean that memory, I love you...please be kind to me...
please?
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That night Gohan got up from bed and stumbled towards the kitchen looking for some
water. He stopped when he saw her lying on the couch. He looked down at her, her face lit by
moonlight. She was tossing and turning. Forgetting the water he came out for he quietly made his
way over to her side and watched her as she slept. As he watched her expression turn to one of
anguish he didn't care whether he felt the pain he felt the first time he touched her. He
wanted nothing more than to protect her from the ghosts and demons of her past.
He moved his hand to caress her cheek and was immediately assaulted with images of her
as a young woman in what he assumed to be her home before it was destroyed. He saw her with a
young man, her twin brother by the identical color eyes and hair he had. Then he saw them. The
androids. They were coming straight towards the town. Her dream flashed forward to her cradling
her brother's lifeless body crying in pain as their father came to them followed closely by some
of the other townspeople. "Get out of here. I promised your mother that I would protect you. Now
get out before they find you." Her father said harshly.
"Let them come! Let them kill me I don't care anymore." Then she turned to her father.
"You're just like them. You don't care whether I live or die." She turned back to her brother.
"He was the only one who cared, the only one who even understood. Go father; go join the rest
of them. Tell them where I am so you can kill me and end my misery." She cried, mocking his
title of father.
So he turned without a second thought and called to the others letting the survivors
know where they were. Within moments she was surrounded by an angry mob of people looking for
someone to blame.
"Kill her!" she heard a woman shout.
"Nothing but bad things has happened to this town ever since those two were born!"
This comment was met with a chorus yeah's.
"No! Wait." Her father called. "I have a better idea."
"Don't try to save her, it won't work." A voice came from the mob.
Her father looked at the person like they had lost their mind. "Why would I want to
save her? She may be my daughter but she is the reason my wife is dead!" he shouted. "I say
the next time the androids come we should hand her over to them. We will give her as a peace
offering to them."
Gohan couldn't believe what he was hearing, her own father suggesting something like
that. "How could you even think that way? She's your daughter! The only child you have left!"
But his shouts fell on deaf ears.
"He never cared about me or my brother."
Gohan turned to see Lazandra standing behind him
"He always blamed us for moms death. She died during child birth." She said sadly.
He grasped her shoulders in his hands and looked into her eyes. "That shouldn't matter.
You were his daughter."
She shook herself from his grasp. "There's nothing pleasant to see here. Go back."
He looked at her, unsure of what to say. Then he understood. "If you can survive
through this hell I'm not going to turn away. You don't have to keep this to yourself." He
grabbed her shoulders and lifted her face so he could look her in the eyes. "I'm not going to
turn and walk away like you father did." He pulled her close and held her in a strong embrace
when he saw how she was fighting her tears.
As soon as she felt his arms around her she felt safe and protected. She cried into his
shoulder, she let out all the tears she had been holding back since seventeen had taken her
brother from her.
Gohan looked up as the scenery began to change once again then he looked down at her as
he sensed her fear and shame of what was about to happen next. She hid her face in his shoulder
and he got a sinking feeling in the pit of his stomach.
Next thing he knew he was floating in the air above her hometown with her still in his
arms. A few yards off he saw seventeen hovering in the air with Lazandra's past self. Even
though it was a whispered comment he could hear what he said in her ear.
"You know, it's a pity my sister couldn't be here to see this. She'd find this very
amusing, humans giving me one of there own thinking that I'd actually leave them in peace."
With that 17 lifted his hand and blasted the little town to ashes.
Gohan watched in horror as what was left of her life was destroyed before her. He began
to power up when he heard her whisper. "It won't do any good this is the past, merely a dream,
nothing you do can change what happens." She glanced over at herself. "It doesn't get much
better either."
Gohan looked up at where the android was and once again had a sinking feeling. He
remembered the conversation they had when he had first brought her to his home,
*flashback*
'But they're androids, machines they don't feel anything.' Gohan insisted.
'Yes they do. I probably wouldn't be alive if they didn't.'
'When 17 got me last time there were...extenuating circumstances.'
*end flashback*
All of a sudden he understood. He held her tighter to him, not willing to let her
suffer the next few scenes alone.
17 threw her against a wall and leaned in close to Lazandra's ear and whispered, "I've
always wondered why human men thought this was so enjoyable."
He watched, his anger for the cyborg increasing ten fold. The pain he felt for
Lazandra tore him up inside. But, she was right the androids did feel something. When 17 was
done he let her fall to the ground. "I don't understand what the big deal is." He muttered
uncomfortably looking around. He left her where she was, eager to get away. Through it all
she had let 17 feel her fear and her pain.
She curled up in a ball where she lay, holding her ribs where he had punched her. After
seeing how the android had brutalized her Gohan was surprised 17 hadn't killed her or at the
very least broken one of her ribs.
He held Lazandra tighter still. "I'm so sorry. If only I had gotten there sooner."
"You would have succeeded in getting yourself killed." She said through her tears.
"It's ok. He's never coming near you again. I'll die before I let him touch you." He
promised her. He kissed the crown of her head stroking her hair and making comforting sounds
until they woke up in each other's arms. He was on his knees next to her, and she was sitting
up crying into his shoulders. He put one arm around her back the other under her knees and
picked her up so he could turn and sit on the couch with her in his lap.
He stayed with her like that for what seemed like an eternity, until she spoke. "Stay
with me? I don't want to be alone again, not after that." She pleaded quietly.
He pulled her away from him enough so that he could look into her eyes. "I'll stay as
long as you want me here."
An understanding passed between them. He laid down gently pulling her with him. He
pulled the blanket around them and they found a comfortable position. After a moment she
relaxed into him, using his chest as a pillow. He wrapped his arms around her continuing to
massage small circles over her back until she fell into a dreamless sleep with him soon
following.
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Ok so what did you people think of that? Please, please r&r so I know
whether or not I should continue to post, or whether it shall remain for
a private audience such as the court of random.