Crimson Vision

Chapter 17: Two: Diary of the Forgotten

Untold truth, untold story, renewed feelings.

I stand alone in darkness.

I feel her sorrow and her pain, my heart weeps as if I knew her.

I am alone in darkness.

Memories return, memories that I fear greatly. Perhaps this was too much for me to handle; perhaps it is too late to go back.

I live alone in darkness.

I know no one yet everyone knows me.

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June 9

Dear Diary,

We have finally reached my grandfather's summer house. Although it's a bit isolated from the nearby town it's a wonderful place to relax and just think about all the great things that are out there in the world. This may seem like an ordinary trip to the summer house but this time it's special. Grandfather has decided that Shadow, his project, is ready to interact with others and has brought him with us to the house. This would mean that I will have someone to talk to and keep me company if none of the children in town would want to know me. Sometimes I think that it's best that we're out here and secluded, I feel as if Shadow and I are in our own world where nothing could go wrong.

Some of grandfather's colleagues feel that bringing Shadow here away from the lab is too dangerous. They fear he might transform into his beast form like he did a few months ago just after he was created. But I believe that Shadow will not, he seemed to have realized all the damage and pain he had cause during those attacks and now tries to keep himself calm and relaxed. He knows that we are all like family and he tells me that he would do anything he can to not break up this 'family'. I trust Shadow and I know that he will keep his word and not destroy us for he is my friend.

June 22

Dear Diary,

The past few weeks here have been a bit busy just with settling in but now that everything is all unpacked Shadow and I now have time to dream about what's beyond the forest behind the house or even play around outside. He's shown signs that the other scientist can trust him and not live in fear of being around Shadow. He's helped out with the cleaning, gardening, and even helped grandfather with some of his work although I tell grandfather not to bring any here. We came here to get away from that and just spend time together enjoying the summer atmosphere. He's become very fond of Shadow and even treats my friend like he's my brother. Shadow tells me that the feeling of being accepted is wonderful and he wouldn't want to lose it.

Shadow, grandfather, and I have gone out on a few outings into the town. Every trip we would take would be like an adventure for Shadow discovering what things are and what certain places are as well. Grandfather would answer each of Shadow's questions of things he did not know about and just watching Shadow full of curiosity made the outing more fun. It was such a great feeling knowing that Shadow was learning about the world this way, by way of his family. It would help strengthen his bond between us and eventually Shadow will do something for all of us in return.

Today we had another outing and Shadow learned about a few places he should avoid and seemed interested about the graveyard on the other side of town. But now all of that is behind us. With dinner eaten and everyone off to their rooms for the night Shadow and I stayed up a bit late conversing about the graveyard. He asked why people died and what it was like to die. Me, not knowing much about death, explained to Shadow my theory on death. I saw it as leaving the world you knew behind and entering a new one where you are lonely and have very little friends. My theory seemed depressed and darkened so I decided that we should stop and go to sleep ourselves

Now he's fast asleep on his bed that's next to mine. Just looking at him and thinking about his interest in death made me wonder if this was how he was going to grow. If it was I feared for his future and hoped that he would change soon.

July 15

Dear Diary

Something terrible has happened. Shadow must have been aggravated by someone again and has transformed into his beast form. He's gone into town and terrorized the people there. Here at the house grandfather and his colleagues are quickly working on gathering the sedative to rest Shadow. Grandfather has sent me and a colleague of his up to his study at the top of the house. Now we're here waiting for grandfather and the others to return with Shadow hopefully encapsulated and rested. Perhaps bringing Shadow here was wrong after all… but he promised to me that he would not do this.

I remember back in the laboratory facility Shadow told me that he promised me that he would do whatever he can to try not to transform into the beast. I knew he was sincere and honest about his promise, I could see it in his eyes. He then went on and said that if he did transform into the beast he would do whatever he could to prevent it from happening ever again or even prevent himself from becoming his true form. Shadow was honest and true to every word he spoke. Why did it have to happen? Why?

But whatever happens I just hope that no one is harmed or even killed in this— Oh no! Grandfather and his colleagues are trying to fight off Shadow. It seems like he's become too powerful for them to handle and— no! It can't be!! …..Shadow killed grandfather. Shadow why? After all that you said to me it seemed like you would change for good, but I guess I was

That was it; the entry stopped there. What looked like dried up bloodstains were all over the page and I….. was at a lost for words. Sudden emotions struck my heart that caused me to feel a pain that I, for some reason, recognized. It felt like my heart was torn in two, I gripped my chest dropping the dairy and breathed deeply. This strange new emotion hurt me both physically and mentally digging deep into my heart. I couldn't think of anything else but guilt. It was if my mind was locked on it.

I looked over at my double who just smirked at me. This was some sort of trick he was pulling on me. I just knew it.

"What….. are you doing?" I asked nearly out of breath.

"What am I doing? Absolutely nothing. Your memory is coming back that's all that's happening." he replied. "Besides I said that everything you see, read, and feel are no tricks of mine. So this is all real Shadow. Kinda regret getting so deep into this don't you?"

Regret was the last thing on my mind. I wanted to kill that replica of me and make sure that he didn't return. I leapt out towards him and grabbed his neck. Slowly I lifted him up off his feet but he still held that smirk on his face.

"Killing me won't do you any good. You created me to be indestructible. That's what you wanted and now that you're memory is coming back maybe that'll convince you to let me finish my only purpose of existing." he said to me.

"Never!" I shouted at him. "It's not going to end like this. Not now or ever! I'll make sure of it!"