Longtime - EMF
You come, you go
I see you, it snows
I see you, its fine
Let it happen slowly
You come, you go
You've got a life, and that's fine
But you're here, and you're mine
I haven't seen you in a long time
Gonna make it, gonna do it
Now it's dark
Now it's time
Gonna make it, gonna do it
Through the darkness you're mine
The way it's going to happen
It's the way it's going to go
It's the only way to do it
It's the only way I know
Lex woke up, for the second time that day and stared with dark dull eyes at Bray sitting on the chair beside the bed. Lex shifted on his side and tapped his fingers on the pillow as he continued to stare at Bray and he remembered earlier - Bray telling him the news, the argument, how he broke down in tears, Bray comforting him.
"We can leave soon" Bray spoke softly as he stared back at Lex, and he rubbed his jaw with his hand before glancing down to the floor at a bag, "I packed your stuff. You just need to get changed and then when you're ready we can go. so its up to you"
Lex blinked tiredly and glanced at his nails, eyes trailing down his fingers, his hand and back to that bandage.. he looked up and moved his hand off the pillow, "can we go now?" he asked.
"Yeah if its what you want. The others at the mall can't wait for you to get back"
"Hmm" Lex licked his lips before pushing himself to sit up. His lank hair fell past his face again as he shoved the quilt away. "Where's my clothes?"
"I left you some jeans and a top out on the chair" Bray nodded to the other side of the bed where the clothes were folded neatly and draped over the back of the chair.
". thanks" Lex mumbled as he swung his legs over the side of the bed and looked at them.
"Well.. I'll go and leave you to get changed, I'll talk with the doctors and sort out forms and stuff" Bray said. After seeing Lex nod, he turned and left the room, giving a quick glance over his shoulder before the door swung shut.
Lex let out a deep breath as he started to undress from the hospital wear, and as he tugged it over his head, he saw the flash of scars over his arms, his pale bare skin.
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The moonlight reflected off the blade as it swept down and sliced the flesh, the pain numb and hot. As the blade was pulled back the moonlight hit it again and the red liquid dripped off.
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Lex shut his eyes tight and willed the flash back to go away. When he opened his eyes again he blinked a few times at the chair where Bray had left out the clothes. He shook his head as he grabbed the top and yanked it over his head, carefully letting the sleeves fall down his arms, the material lightly pressing against the bandages.
Bray put down the last signature on the form and gave a small smile as he handed it to the doctor.
"Thankyou Bray. Well seeing as that's all sorted you can leave" the young male doctor smiled at him.
"That's great, but really thank you for all your help and that"
"Hey no problem, all part of the job" the doctor gave a lopsided smile.
"Well I'll just go get Lex then" Bray smiled and turned to leave.
"Oh um, hold on a moment" the doctor called and started rummaging in his pocket. Bray stopped and turned facing him waiting for whatever the doctor wanted. "Uh, we found this in the pocket of your friend's coat" the doctor spoke in a low voice as he held out a pocketknife to Bray. "Considering the circumstances I think you should hold onto it"
"Uh.yeah, thanks" Bray swallowed as he turned it in his hand and stared at it.
Lex finished dressing by putting on his boots, resting his foot against the chair as he did up the laces. He then sat there silently on the edge of the bed, legs swinging slightly and listened to the over loud ticking of the clock in the room. He hardly noticed it before.
He glanced back as he saw through the glass in the door, the figure of Bray walking towards the room. He peered through and caught Lex's eye before pulling the door open and walking in. "Everything's settled so. we can go" he announced.
Lex nodded; "yeah that'd be great" he hopped off the bed and slowly walked around to pick up his bag.
"Hey no I'll get that" Bray insisted and hurried past, scooping the bag up and slinging it over his shoulder. He looked up at Lex and gave a small smile and saw Lex look down as he gave one back. "Nervous about going back?" he asked.
"Yeah. I don't want everyone thinking of me as just the 'psycho' now or something"
"Believe me they don't. It'll be fine" Bray said assuringly and looked Lex up and down, "you look a bit better now out of that hospital gear"
"Yeah, I also feel a bit better than I did" Lex ran a hand through his mussed hair.
"You do? That's great" Bray smiled.
"Don't get too over excited by it" Lex rolled his eyes, "um, about yesterday"-
"Hey forget about it, for now" Bray told him, patting his shoulder, "we can talk about it some other time, but for now, lets just get you back"
"Yeah" Lex sighed and gave a grateful smile as Bray led him out the room and down the hallway, heading towards the exit and leaving behind the numbing white building.
They walked all the way back to the mall in silence, side by side. Bray kept looking at Lex, as if paranoid he's suddenly run off or something, but Lex remained walking by his side, looking down at the ground as he walked.
When they arrived at the mall they both stopped outside the building and glanced up at it. "You going to be okay?" Bray asked.
"Hmm" Lex replied looking around before giving a short nod, "can we get inside, its freezing"
Bray gave a small smile as he held the door open for him then led Lex inside and through the mall.
"Hey its Bray!" they heard Jack speak up, "he's got Lex with him too!"
As the two stopped at the bottom of the stairs, Lex a step back feeling nervous, they heard movement through the mall as some others came to greet them.
"Lex!" Amber smiled from the top of the stairs and began to walk down quickly, "I'm glad you're back this early. You're looking better" she said as she reached the bottom of the stairs. She watched as Lex took another step backwards and bit his lip and her smile faltered.
"Yeah, it's a good sign, things should be looking up soon" Bray smiled at her.
"Hey guys" Salene spoke from at the top of the stairs, "you want anything to eat or drink?"
"Uh I'm fine thanks" Bray said and glanced behind and a slightly fearful looking Lex, "we're both a bit tired and well Lex needs his rest"
"Hey that's understandable. I can fix you up something later" Salene smiled at them both, "and Lex, good to have you back" she said before disappearing.
"Yeah good to have a suicidal psycho back at the mall" May muttered from her seat in the cafeteria and she got elbowed by Pride who glared at her.
Lex shifted on his feet and looked to Bray who was holding his bag.
"Right then" Bray sighed and started to walk away across the mall, glancing back to see Lex hurrying after him to follow him. Together they walked the familiar route to Lex's bedroom and Bray pushed the door open allowing them both to step inside.
Bray put the bag down on the desk and unzipped it, starting to take out stuff as Lex slowly walked in and looked around. Bray looked at him then stopped saying, "uh sorry, maybe you'd like to unpack"-
"Its okay" Lex mumbled as he slowly walked towards the bed and sat on the edge of it, feeling the mattress dip a little under his weight.
"Um, do you want me to go so you can sleep or something?" Bray asked turning to face him.
Lex stared around the room as he gave a little shake of his head no. He blinked then snapped his gaze to Bray, "I could do with a bath really"
"Oh. well yeah sure" Bray ran a hand through his hair and shifted on his feet.
Lex nodded, "okay, I'll do that" he stood up.
"Okay" Bray said slowly and watched Lex head towards the door before following him. Lex stopped and faced Bray. "What you coming to watch or something?" he raised an eyebrow.
"Well no its just um, I think I should uh"-
"Check and make sure there's no sharp things that crazy little Lex can't use to harm himself hmm?" Lex shifted on his feet and stared at Bray.
"Its not that I want to, its just"-
"You have to, right Bray I get it" Lex rolled his eyes.
"Its not like that Lex" Bray warned.
"Did I say anything?" Lex shrugged, "its fine go ahead, I'm not going to do anything like that anyway I just want to have a bath and sort out my hair okay"
"I.I know. But"-
"Just go do what you have to do Bray" Lex rolled his eyes and waited. With an apologetic embarrassed look Bray went into the bathroom and searched for razors and other things.
After a moment he came out and was scratching his face, "uh go on" he mumbled.
"Ta" Lex groaned as he walked past Bray and closed the door. Bray shifted on his feet and put his hand in his pocket, feeling the pocketknife that was Lex's in there, and he waited outside the door.
You come, you go
I see you, it snows
I see you, its fine
Let it happen slowly
You come, you go
You've got a life, and that's fine
But you're here, and you're mine
I haven't seen you in a long time
Gonna make it, gonna do it
Now it's dark
Now it's time
Gonna make it, gonna do it
Through the darkness you're mine
The way it's going to happen
It's the way it's going to go
It's the only way to do it
It's the only way I know
Lex woke up, for the second time that day and stared with dark dull eyes at Bray sitting on the chair beside the bed. Lex shifted on his side and tapped his fingers on the pillow as he continued to stare at Bray and he remembered earlier - Bray telling him the news, the argument, how he broke down in tears, Bray comforting him.
"We can leave soon" Bray spoke softly as he stared back at Lex, and he rubbed his jaw with his hand before glancing down to the floor at a bag, "I packed your stuff. You just need to get changed and then when you're ready we can go. so its up to you"
Lex blinked tiredly and glanced at his nails, eyes trailing down his fingers, his hand and back to that bandage.. he looked up and moved his hand off the pillow, "can we go now?" he asked.
"Yeah if its what you want. The others at the mall can't wait for you to get back"
"Hmm" Lex licked his lips before pushing himself to sit up. His lank hair fell past his face again as he shoved the quilt away. "Where's my clothes?"
"I left you some jeans and a top out on the chair" Bray nodded to the other side of the bed where the clothes were folded neatly and draped over the back of the chair.
". thanks" Lex mumbled as he swung his legs over the side of the bed and looked at them.
"Well.. I'll go and leave you to get changed, I'll talk with the doctors and sort out forms and stuff" Bray said. After seeing Lex nod, he turned and left the room, giving a quick glance over his shoulder before the door swung shut.
Lex let out a deep breath as he started to undress from the hospital wear, and as he tugged it over his head, he saw the flash of scars over his arms, his pale bare skin.
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The moonlight reflected off the blade as it swept down and sliced the flesh, the pain numb and hot. As the blade was pulled back the moonlight hit it again and the red liquid dripped off.
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Lex shut his eyes tight and willed the flash back to go away. When he opened his eyes again he blinked a few times at the chair where Bray had left out the clothes. He shook his head as he grabbed the top and yanked it over his head, carefully letting the sleeves fall down his arms, the material lightly pressing against the bandages.
Bray put down the last signature on the form and gave a small smile as he handed it to the doctor.
"Thankyou Bray. Well seeing as that's all sorted you can leave" the young male doctor smiled at him.
"That's great, but really thank you for all your help and that"
"Hey no problem, all part of the job" the doctor gave a lopsided smile.
"Well I'll just go get Lex then" Bray smiled and turned to leave.
"Oh um, hold on a moment" the doctor called and started rummaging in his pocket. Bray stopped and turned facing him waiting for whatever the doctor wanted. "Uh, we found this in the pocket of your friend's coat" the doctor spoke in a low voice as he held out a pocketknife to Bray. "Considering the circumstances I think you should hold onto it"
"Uh.yeah, thanks" Bray swallowed as he turned it in his hand and stared at it.
Lex finished dressing by putting on his boots, resting his foot against the chair as he did up the laces. He then sat there silently on the edge of the bed, legs swinging slightly and listened to the over loud ticking of the clock in the room. He hardly noticed it before.
He glanced back as he saw through the glass in the door, the figure of Bray walking towards the room. He peered through and caught Lex's eye before pulling the door open and walking in. "Everything's settled so. we can go" he announced.
Lex nodded; "yeah that'd be great" he hopped off the bed and slowly walked around to pick up his bag.
"Hey no I'll get that" Bray insisted and hurried past, scooping the bag up and slinging it over his shoulder. He looked up at Lex and gave a small smile and saw Lex look down as he gave one back. "Nervous about going back?" he asked.
"Yeah. I don't want everyone thinking of me as just the 'psycho' now or something"
"Believe me they don't. It'll be fine" Bray said assuringly and looked Lex up and down, "you look a bit better now out of that hospital gear"
"Yeah, I also feel a bit better than I did" Lex ran a hand through his mussed hair.
"You do? That's great" Bray smiled.
"Don't get too over excited by it" Lex rolled his eyes, "um, about yesterday"-
"Hey forget about it, for now" Bray told him, patting his shoulder, "we can talk about it some other time, but for now, lets just get you back"
"Yeah" Lex sighed and gave a grateful smile as Bray led him out the room and down the hallway, heading towards the exit and leaving behind the numbing white building.
They walked all the way back to the mall in silence, side by side. Bray kept looking at Lex, as if paranoid he's suddenly run off or something, but Lex remained walking by his side, looking down at the ground as he walked.
When they arrived at the mall they both stopped outside the building and glanced up at it. "You going to be okay?" Bray asked.
"Hmm" Lex replied looking around before giving a short nod, "can we get inside, its freezing"
Bray gave a small smile as he held the door open for him then led Lex inside and through the mall.
"Hey its Bray!" they heard Jack speak up, "he's got Lex with him too!"
As the two stopped at the bottom of the stairs, Lex a step back feeling nervous, they heard movement through the mall as some others came to greet them.
"Lex!" Amber smiled from the top of the stairs and began to walk down quickly, "I'm glad you're back this early. You're looking better" she said as she reached the bottom of the stairs. She watched as Lex took another step backwards and bit his lip and her smile faltered.
"Yeah, it's a good sign, things should be looking up soon" Bray smiled at her.
"Hey guys" Salene spoke from at the top of the stairs, "you want anything to eat or drink?"
"Uh I'm fine thanks" Bray said and glanced behind and a slightly fearful looking Lex, "we're both a bit tired and well Lex needs his rest"
"Hey that's understandable. I can fix you up something later" Salene smiled at them both, "and Lex, good to have you back" she said before disappearing.
"Yeah good to have a suicidal psycho back at the mall" May muttered from her seat in the cafeteria and she got elbowed by Pride who glared at her.
Lex shifted on his feet and looked to Bray who was holding his bag.
"Right then" Bray sighed and started to walk away across the mall, glancing back to see Lex hurrying after him to follow him. Together they walked the familiar route to Lex's bedroom and Bray pushed the door open allowing them both to step inside.
Bray put the bag down on the desk and unzipped it, starting to take out stuff as Lex slowly walked in and looked around. Bray looked at him then stopped saying, "uh sorry, maybe you'd like to unpack"-
"Its okay" Lex mumbled as he slowly walked towards the bed and sat on the edge of it, feeling the mattress dip a little under his weight.
"Um, do you want me to go so you can sleep or something?" Bray asked turning to face him.
Lex stared around the room as he gave a little shake of his head no. He blinked then snapped his gaze to Bray, "I could do with a bath really"
"Oh. well yeah sure" Bray ran a hand through his hair and shifted on his feet.
Lex nodded, "okay, I'll do that" he stood up.
"Okay" Bray said slowly and watched Lex head towards the door before following him. Lex stopped and faced Bray. "What you coming to watch or something?" he raised an eyebrow.
"Well no its just um, I think I should uh"-
"Check and make sure there's no sharp things that crazy little Lex can't use to harm himself hmm?" Lex shifted on his feet and stared at Bray.
"Its not that I want to, its just"-
"You have to, right Bray I get it" Lex rolled his eyes.
"Its not like that Lex" Bray warned.
"Did I say anything?" Lex shrugged, "its fine go ahead, I'm not going to do anything like that anyway I just want to have a bath and sort out my hair okay"
"I.I know. But"-
"Just go do what you have to do Bray" Lex rolled his eyes and waited. With an apologetic embarrassed look Bray went into the bathroom and searched for razors and other things.
After a moment he came out and was scratching his face, "uh go on" he mumbled.
"Ta" Lex groaned as he walked past Bray and closed the door. Bray shifted on his feet and put his hand in his pocket, feeling the pocketknife that was Lex's in there, and he waited outside the door.