Cry Ophelia
Performed by Adam Cohen
Something went wrong
You are not laughing
It's not so easy now to get your smile
You gotta be strong
To walk these streets
And keep from falling
But when you're not, just let yourself cry
You've been working hard
Just trying to pay the rent
Tryin' to draw the line between who you are
and who you invent
But if you throw a stone
Something's gonna shatter somewhere
We're all so fragile
We're all so scared
You say you wanna learn how to live your life
without tears
But we've been trying to do that for thousands of years
So go on and cry Ophelia
It's the only thing to do sometimes
You know I'm crying too
Right there with you
It's alright Ophelia
Everybody cries
Thank god for my bad memory
I've forgotten some of the stupid things
that I've done
I've come to a little wisdom
through a whole lot of failure
So I watch more carefully what rolls off my tongue
You pray for rain
But you don't want it from a storm
You find a rose
And cut your finger on a thorn
So go on and cry Ophelia
It's the only thing to do sometimes
You know I'm crying too
Right there with you
It's alright Ophelia
Everybody cries Ophelia
Lex stared at the door a moment and let out a soft sigh. He felt Bray's presence outside the door, rather then suspected he was waiting outside. So whilst staring at the door he slowly reached over to the taps of the bath and turned them on, letting a mix of hot and cold water gush out and begin filling the bath. He then turned and looked around the small room, noticed the cracks on the tiles, how the light flickered above him, that the cabinet was slightly open from Bray looking through it. He blinked slowly as his gaze caught his reflection in the mirror, and he saw how pale and ill he looked. I look worse than I did before I went to hospitable thought glumly, as he frowned and turned facing the filling bath.
Slowly he pulled his top off over his head, and he looked down, dark hair falling over his face as he looked at his pale thin frame. His eyes wondered to his arms, which he held out in front of himself. His eyes traced the pinkish silver lines on his arms. Short lines, Long lines, thick lines, thin lines, straight lines, jagged lines, thatched over each other. They were a tangled web of a number of truths, each line with a story of its own. Stories he kept hidden to himself, scars no one in the tribe had yet seen. His eyes rested their gaze on the bandages. He tugged at a corner of the bandage and winced, before deciding to leave it.
He shut the taps off quickly and stared at the still water in the bath, before slowly taking off the rest of his clothes and stepping slowly into the bath. The hot water lapped over his body as he sat in and he stared ahead, watching the steam rise from the bath as he pulled his knees up and wrapped his arms around them. He noticed a small spider running along the edge of the bath so he slowly reached over and flicked it off.
He sighed and closed his eyes, feeling himself getting lost in a daze again.
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Lex stumbled out of his bedroom after he heard the front door slam downstairs, a signal his father had left for the pub again. He winced in pain, hands scraping the wall trying to support himself, as he headed down the hallway towards the bathroom. His hand reached shakily for the door handle and he grabbed onto it, rattling it before pressing the rest of his body against the door, groaning as he shoved against the door and it suddenly burst open, sending him flying in and sprawling on the cold tiled floor. He let out a cry of pain and managed to push himself to stand up on his hands and knees, facing the floor as he squeezed his eyes shut and willing the pain to go away. But it didn't.
Shakily he crawled towards the shower and numbly pushed the door open. He went inside and reached up, turning the shower on so cold water burst out and showered down on him. He gasped out and painfully managed to put the rest of his body in, to sit at the bottom of the shower huddled up in the corner, not bothering to take his clothes off. As the cold water poured down on him, making him shiver uncontrollably, he let out uncontrollable sobs.
The water ran a tinted pinkish colour in pools at the bottom of the shower before whirl pooling down the plughole. Soon the colour of the water darkened to a watery red colour. And Lex felt as if he was drowning under the water.
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Lex opened his eyes and gasped out, spluttering on water as he felt pair of hands yank him to sit upright from the warm water. He coughed and attempted pushing the person away as he wiped a hand across his face, gasping for breath.
"Christ Lex! How could you do that?!" he heard Bray shouting hysterically and then Lex realized he'd come into the room and was now stood beside him.
"Do what?" Lex coughed a bit confused, "I didn't do anything" he then seemed to realize and looked up at Bray with a shiver, "you think I tried drowning myself?"
"Well what do you expect me to think!" Bray cried out, "I come in here to find you under the water"
"I didn't try to drown myself!" Lex protested, "I must have fallen asleep or something" he muttered and looked up to see Bray had a face expression that read 'I don't believe you'. "Bray I mean it, I don't know what happened, but I didn't try killing myself!"
"Really?" Bray asked in a still 'i'm not convinced' tone.
"Really" Lex shivered again and his wet hair fell in strands in front of his face, "I just remember getting in the bath, and then, I sort of felt tired and.I kind of. flashbacked to something" he trailed off looking a bit confused as he stared ahead.
"You had a flashback? Like a dream sort of thing?" Bray asked with a sigh.
"Yeah" Lex mumbled.
"What about?" Bray asked.
Lex shook his head, "I don't want to say"
"Oh I should have guessed" Bray rolled his eyes.
"What do you want me to say to convince you I didn't try killing myself again!" Lex snapped frustrated.
"Just get out the bath Lex and get dried and dressed" Bray sighed turning and grabbing a towel.
"Bray why won't you believe me?" Lex whined.
"Take a wild guess Lex!" Bray snapped and glared before closing his eyes and sighing, "look just.. do as I said okay" he put the towel on the edge of the bath and he turned to face the opposite wall.
Feeling very exposed and vulnerable, Lex slowly and feeling embarrassed got out the bath and let it start to drain of the water as he grabbed the towel and wrapped it around himself. "Can you leave for a moment?"
"No Lex, I've realized I can't leave you alone for a second" Bray answered as he stared at the dull wall.
"But Bray"-
"No Lex! Its for your own good okay, you're a risk to yourself right now" Bray cut him off.
Lex gave a hurt look that Bray didn't see, "you can't keep an eye on me 24/7 Bray"
"Can't I?"
"I don't need to be babysat all the time just because of a stupid mistake!" Lex whined.
"Lex don't make this any more difficult than it is" Bray sighed frustrated.
Lex frowned as he began to dry himself and got dressed. Bray stared at the wall and swallowed, hearing Lex get changed behind him. He sighed and thought his eyes looked around the space of the wall. He heard Lex tug on his trousers so he cleared his throat, feeling a bit embarrassed. His eyes looked around and he caught the mirror. His eyes widened as he saw that before Lex yanked his top on, there were all these lines on his arms, above where the bandages were. He quickly averted his eyes to staring at the wall ahead again.
"I'm done" Lex moaned and shifted on his feet as he stared at the floor.
"Uh okay then, um, come with me" Bray coughed as he turned to glance at Lex before opening the bathroom door and walking out. He waited for Lex to step out too before taking a hold if his arm and leading him away back to Bray's room.
"Bray. don't do this" Lex whined quietly as the taller, older man held onto him and led him down to his room. It appeared Bray hadn't listened, but more likely ignored him as he opened his bedroom door and pulled Lex inside before closing the door.
"You're going to have to sleep in here. So you can take the bed, I'll sleep on the floor" Bray said.
"Bray stop doing this!" Lex pleaded.
"No Lex, its for your own good"-
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"Its for your own good boy" Lex's father said as he closed the bedroom door, and the light from the hallway disappeared as the door sealed the room in darkness.
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"Lex are you listening to me?" Bray asked as he saw Lex's eyes appear to glaze over and he looked distant for a moment with a confused expression.
Lex shook his head and bit his lip for a moment, "Bray don't, you're starting to make me feel like a prisoner, I don't like it" he looked up at Bray, as unnoticed tears slipped from his eyes.
Bray stared at him and let out a deep breath as he felt his insides twist. "I'm sorry Lex, but it needs to be done" He watched as Lex looked down at the floor, shoulders slumping as if in some defeat. "um, I have to change the bandages" he ran a hand through his hair.
Lex's fingers clasped around the edges of his sleeves and he looked up to see Bray already getting out the bandages and stuff. He frowned and started heading towards the door, as he reached it he slowly reached to the door handle and tried turning it - to find it locked, and it gave a short rattle.
Bray quickly snapped around to face Lex, "I thought you'd try running off" he muttered.
Lex looked sadly at the door handle and tried rattling it uselessly again, "You're trapping me" he whispered.
Before he knew it, in his mind, and somehow before his eyes the room and everything seemed to melt away, and he was taken back to that darkened bedroom.
"Lex I'm sorry" Bray sighed as he turned holding the bandages, he started to walk towards Lex, "but I"-
"Stay away from me!" Lex screamed at him, pressing against the door looking terrified which made Bray stop raising his eyebrows.
"I'm not going to hurt you Lex, I just need to"-
"Stay away!" Lex screamed at him again and seemed to suddenly snap and lose control as he grabbed the nearby desk and threw it in the direction of Bray, who quickly dived to the side to avoid it. "stay away stay away!" he screamed as he ran back to the door and began to kick it and yank frantically at the door handle.
"Lex! Lex calm down!" Bray asked shakily as he quickly made his way over.
"What's going on in there?" they heard a voice from the other side of the door.
"Lex please just stop doing this" Bray asked as he grabbed Lex from behind, wrapping his arms around him holding his arms down to his sides.
"Let go let go let go let go let go let go!" Lex screamed hysterically in a mantra as he began kicking out, feeling Bray picking him up and started to carry him away from the door. He kicked out and knocked the table over.
"Bray? Lex?" they heard Pride call out worried and freaked from the other side.
"Lex what the hell"- Bray got cut off as Lex struggled and he tripped, sending them both falling backwards and landing harshly on the floor.
"Leave me alone!" Lex shouted again and started to sit up, to scramble away and get out of this place. He felt claustrophobic, trapped.
Bray quickly sat up, and out of panic reached out and grabbed Lex, pulling him back and he clung to him from behind, refusing to let go.
"LET ME GO!" Lex screamed hysterically and began sobbing, as Bray kept an iron like hold of him. He attempted kicking out with his legs but it was useless.
"Lex, please, calm down, its okay.its okay, we're not going to hurt you we're just trying to help you" Bray spoke into Lex's ear as he began rocking the hysterical boy back and forth.
"I want to get out. I want to get out." Lex sobbed and seemed to collapse into Bray's arms letting him continue to rock and try to soothe him.
They were unaware that Pride had been kicking the door, and it seemed to splinter a bit, before the door burst open and Pride ran in, to find the room in a bit of a mess and Bray on the floor holding a hysterical Lex. His eyes widened at the scene and he just froze on the spot.
Bray sighed as he ran a hand over Lex's hair and looked up sadly to pride, shaking his head slightly. Pride looked sadly back and just stood there, before slowly and numbly starting to clear up the mess.
Performed by Adam Cohen
Something went wrong
You are not laughing
It's not so easy now to get your smile
You gotta be strong
To walk these streets
And keep from falling
But when you're not, just let yourself cry
You've been working hard
Just trying to pay the rent
Tryin' to draw the line between who you are
and who you invent
But if you throw a stone
Something's gonna shatter somewhere
We're all so fragile
We're all so scared
You say you wanna learn how to live your life
without tears
But we've been trying to do that for thousands of years
So go on and cry Ophelia
It's the only thing to do sometimes
You know I'm crying too
Right there with you
It's alright Ophelia
Everybody cries
Thank god for my bad memory
I've forgotten some of the stupid things
that I've done
I've come to a little wisdom
through a whole lot of failure
So I watch more carefully what rolls off my tongue
You pray for rain
But you don't want it from a storm
You find a rose
And cut your finger on a thorn
So go on and cry Ophelia
It's the only thing to do sometimes
You know I'm crying too
Right there with you
It's alright Ophelia
Everybody cries Ophelia
Lex stared at the door a moment and let out a soft sigh. He felt Bray's presence outside the door, rather then suspected he was waiting outside. So whilst staring at the door he slowly reached over to the taps of the bath and turned them on, letting a mix of hot and cold water gush out and begin filling the bath. He then turned and looked around the small room, noticed the cracks on the tiles, how the light flickered above him, that the cabinet was slightly open from Bray looking through it. He blinked slowly as his gaze caught his reflection in the mirror, and he saw how pale and ill he looked. I look worse than I did before I went to hospitable thought glumly, as he frowned and turned facing the filling bath.
Slowly he pulled his top off over his head, and he looked down, dark hair falling over his face as he looked at his pale thin frame. His eyes wondered to his arms, which he held out in front of himself. His eyes traced the pinkish silver lines on his arms. Short lines, Long lines, thick lines, thin lines, straight lines, jagged lines, thatched over each other. They were a tangled web of a number of truths, each line with a story of its own. Stories he kept hidden to himself, scars no one in the tribe had yet seen. His eyes rested their gaze on the bandages. He tugged at a corner of the bandage and winced, before deciding to leave it.
He shut the taps off quickly and stared at the still water in the bath, before slowly taking off the rest of his clothes and stepping slowly into the bath. The hot water lapped over his body as he sat in and he stared ahead, watching the steam rise from the bath as he pulled his knees up and wrapped his arms around them. He noticed a small spider running along the edge of the bath so he slowly reached over and flicked it off.
He sighed and closed his eyes, feeling himself getting lost in a daze again.
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Lex stumbled out of his bedroom after he heard the front door slam downstairs, a signal his father had left for the pub again. He winced in pain, hands scraping the wall trying to support himself, as he headed down the hallway towards the bathroom. His hand reached shakily for the door handle and he grabbed onto it, rattling it before pressing the rest of his body against the door, groaning as he shoved against the door and it suddenly burst open, sending him flying in and sprawling on the cold tiled floor. He let out a cry of pain and managed to push himself to stand up on his hands and knees, facing the floor as he squeezed his eyes shut and willing the pain to go away. But it didn't.
Shakily he crawled towards the shower and numbly pushed the door open. He went inside and reached up, turning the shower on so cold water burst out and showered down on him. He gasped out and painfully managed to put the rest of his body in, to sit at the bottom of the shower huddled up in the corner, not bothering to take his clothes off. As the cold water poured down on him, making him shiver uncontrollably, he let out uncontrollable sobs.
The water ran a tinted pinkish colour in pools at the bottom of the shower before whirl pooling down the plughole. Soon the colour of the water darkened to a watery red colour. And Lex felt as if he was drowning under the water.
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Lex opened his eyes and gasped out, spluttering on water as he felt pair of hands yank him to sit upright from the warm water. He coughed and attempted pushing the person away as he wiped a hand across his face, gasping for breath.
"Christ Lex! How could you do that?!" he heard Bray shouting hysterically and then Lex realized he'd come into the room and was now stood beside him.
"Do what?" Lex coughed a bit confused, "I didn't do anything" he then seemed to realize and looked up at Bray with a shiver, "you think I tried drowning myself?"
"Well what do you expect me to think!" Bray cried out, "I come in here to find you under the water"
"I didn't try to drown myself!" Lex protested, "I must have fallen asleep or something" he muttered and looked up to see Bray had a face expression that read 'I don't believe you'. "Bray I mean it, I don't know what happened, but I didn't try killing myself!"
"Really?" Bray asked in a still 'i'm not convinced' tone.
"Really" Lex shivered again and his wet hair fell in strands in front of his face, "I just remember getting in the bath, and then, I sort of felt tired and.I kind of. flashbacked to something" he trailed off looking a bit confused as he stared ahead.
"You had a flashback? Like a dream sort of thing?" Bray asked with a sigh.
"Yeah" Lex mumbled.
"What about?" Bray asked.
Lex shook his head, "I don't want to say"
"Oh I should have guessed" Bray rolled his eyes.
"What do you want me to say to convince you I didn't try killing myself again!" Lex snapped frustrated.
"Just get out the bath Lex and get dried and dressed" Bray sighed turning and grabbing a towel.
"Bray why won't you believe me?" Lex whined.
"Take a wild guess Lex!" Bray snapped and glared before closing his eyes and sighing, "look just.. do as I said okay" he put the towel on the edge of the bath and he turned to face the opposite wall.
Feeling very exposed and vulnerable, Lex slowly and feeling embarrassed got out the bath and let it start to drain of the water as he grabbed the towel and wrapped it around himself. "Can you leave for a moment?"
"No Lex, I've realized I can't leave you alone for a second" Bray answered as he stared at the dull wall.
"But Bray"-
"No Lex! Its for your own good okay, you're a risk to yourself right now" Bray cut him off.
Lex gave a hurt look that Bray didn't see, "you can't keep an eye on me 24/7 Bray"
"Can't I?"
"I don't need to be babysat all the time just because of a stupid mistake!" Lex whined.
"Lex don't make this any more difficult than it is" Bray sighed frustrated.
Lex frowned as he began to dry himself and got dressed. Bray stared at the wall and swallowed, hearing Lex get changed behind him. He sighed and thought his eyes looked around the space of the wall. He heard Lex tug on his trousers so he cleared his throat, feeling a bit embarrassed. His eyes looked around and he caught the mirror. His eyes widened as he saw that before Lex yanked his top on, there were all these lines on his arms, above where the bandages were. He quickly averted his eyes to staring at the wall ahead again.
"I'm done" Lex moaned and shifted on his feet as he stared at the floor.
"Uh okay then, um, come with me" Bray coughed as he turned to glance at Lex before opening the bathroom door and walking out. He waited for Lex to step out too before taking a hold if his arm and leading him away back to Bray's room.
"Bray. don't do this" Lex whined quietly as the taller, older man held onto him and led him down to his room. It appeared Bray hadn't listened, but more likely ignored him as he opened his bedroom door and pulled Lex inside before closing the door.
"You're going to have to sleep in here. So you can take the bed, I'll sleep on the floor" Bray said.
"Bray stop doing this!" Lex pleaded.
"No Lex, its for your own good"-
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"Its for your own good boy" Lex's father said as he closed the bedroom door, and the light from the hallway disappeared as the door sealed the room in darkness.
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"Lex are you listening to me?" Bray asked as he saw Lex's eyes appear to glaze over and he looked distant for a moment with a confused expression.
Lex shook his head and bit his lip for a moment, "Bray don't, you're starting to make me feel like a prisoner, I don't like it" he looked up at Bray, as unnoticed tears slipped from his eyes.
Bray stared at him and let out a deep breath as he felt his insides twist. "I'm sorry Lex, but it needs to be done" He watched as Lex looked down at the floor, shoulders slumping as if in some defeat. "um, I have to change the bandages" he ran a hand through his hair.
Lex's fingers clasped around the edges of his sleeves and he looked up to see Bray already getting out the bandages and stuff. He frowned and started heading towards the door, as he reached it he slowly reached to the door handle and tried turning it - to find it locked, and it gave a short rattle.
Bray quickly snapped around to face Lex, "I thought you'd try running off" he muttered.
Lex looked sadly at the door handle and tried rattling it uselessly again, "You're trapping me" he whispered.
Before he knew it, in his mind, and somehow before his eyes the room and everything seemed to melt away, and he was taken back to that darkened bedroom.
"Lex I'm sorry" Bray sighed as he turned holding the bandages, he started to walk towards Lex, "but I"-
"Stay away from me!" Lex screamed at him, pressing against the door looking terrified which made Bray stop raising his eyebrows.
"I'm not going to hurt you Lex, I just need to"-
"Stay away!" Lex screamed at him again and seemed to suddenly snap and lose control as he grabbed the nearby desk and threw it in the direction of Bray, who quickly dived to the side to avoid it. "stay away stay away!" he screamed as he ran back to the door and began to kick it and yank frantically at the door handle.
"Lex! Lex calm down!" Bray asked shakily as he quickly made his way over.
"What's going on in there?" they heard a voice from the other side of the door.
"Lex please just stop doing this" Bray asked as he grabbed Lex from behind, wrapping his arms around him holding his arms down to his sides.
"Let go let go let go let go let go let go!" Lex screamed hysterically in a mantra as he began kicking out, feeling Bray picking him up and started to carry him away from the door. He kicked out and knocked the table over.
"Bray? Lex?" they heard Pride call out worried and freaked from the other side.
"Lex what the hell"- Bray got cut off as Lex struggled and he tripped, sending them both falling backwards and landing harshly on the floor.
"Leave me alone!" Lex shouted again and started to sit up, to scramble away and get out of this place. He felt claustrophobic, trapped.
Bray quickly sat up, and out of panic reached out and grabbed Lex, pulling him back and he clung to him from behind, refusing to let go.
"LET ME GO!" Lex screamed hysterically and began sobbing, as Bray kept an iron like hold of him. He attempted kicking out with his legs but it was useless.
"Lex, please, calm down, its okay.its okay, we're not going to hurt you we're just trying to help you" Bray spoke into Lex's ear as he began rocking the hysterical boy back and forth.
"I want to get out. I want to get out." Lex sobbed and seemed to collapse into Bray's arms letting him continue to rock and try to soothe him.
They were unaware that Pride had been kicking the door, and it seemed to splinter a bit, before the door burst open and Pride ran in, to find the room in a bit of a mess and Bray on the floor holding a hysterical Lex. His eyes widened at the scene and he just froze on the spot.
Bray sighed as he ran a hand over Lex's hair and looked up sadly to pride, shaking his head slightly. Pride looked sadly back and just stood there, before slowly and numbly starting to clear up the mess.