A.N: *sigh* sorry for the wait..just been doing a heap of
homework...schools going to be starting soon...*sigh* oh
well...Anyway..here's my fifth chapter!!! So happy...
Okay..on to the story...
Learning to Love
Chapter five:
The waves gently lapped against the shore, seagulls' cries faintly calling in the distance. Tomoyo dragged a long stick behind her, making a snail- like trail. Occasionally she stopped to pick up a shell then continued to walk again in silence.
She looked at Eriol who seemed to just be staring out at the sea aimlessly, at times he seemed to be looking for something out there, some kind of answer.
Tomoyo sighed to herself, it was beginning to become hotter and the sun seemed to be beating down on her back even harder than before. She gestured to Eriol to sit in the shade for a moment until the sun lost some of its strength.
He walked drunkenly towards the shade with her, slumping into the sand, glad to be out of the suns overpowering rays.
Tomoyo looked out across the jaded blue ocean, the water so clear she could see the reef a few hundred metres out. She sighed deeply, closing her eyes and looking up toward the soft blue sky, allowing the wind to breathe over her face, her loose hair whipping at her cheeks.
She paused and looked over at Eriol, a blush suddenly creeping to her face. She shook her head, what was wrong with her?
She looked out to the sea but out of the corner of her eyes, she could see him, still staring out to the ocean, seemingly searching for something.
"Eriol-kun??" she asked, not sure what was wrong with him since he hadn't said a word since they left the bungalow.
"Nani?" he asked, his voice almost a whisper, ready to be carried away by the wind.
"Is there something bothering you?" she asked softly.
'Yes, of course there is,' he thought, 'you are bothering me, I have no idea why but..there's just something about you, something that I can't explain, something I've never felt before..'
"Eriol-kun?" she asked again after he didn't answer, a worried note in her voice.
"Iie..there's nothing wrong..." he lied.
Tomoyo leaned back with a sigh, lying face up in the sand, "Do you ever wonder whether this is all it'll ever be?" she asked out of the blue.
"Huh?" Eriol asked confused.
"Well...if this is all your life will ever be, if this is as far as it goes. Do you ever wonder if there is something more out there, if you should maybe work harder to get it?"
"I'm not sure, I never really thought about it."
"I used to think that living up to people's expectations was all that mattered, that if I just kept on working harder and harder perhaps there was something else out there that was for me, but for the last past weeks, things just changed and I felt that I had finally achieved what I wanted, that I was finally happy with my life.... It was when you arrived." She said finally coming to a realization.
Eriol looked down at her, looking at the feeling of shock plastered on her face. Gently, he took her hand and squeezed it, " I'm sure it's not me, probably something else..." he smiled.
She sat up and stared at him, she seemed to want to hide it yet, her hurt betrayed through her eyes. She pulled her hand away from his and got up, dusting her skirt.
"I have to go back to the bungalow, I'm waiting for a phone call," she said awkwardly, as she walked back to the bungalow.
Tomoyo walked not looking back. Right now she felt so empty, like she couldn't belong anywhere, that she had lost something so important to her.
How could he? How could he just say he didn't want to be a part of her life, not even friends. Perhaps he hadn't meant it that way....Maybe he was referring to something else. Or maybe her life was just so unimportant that he didn't want to be responsible for a change.
She closed her eyes tight as she continued walking. Her eyes stung, no, she wouldn't cry, not over him, it was just the sea spray and sand.
How many times had she lay awake at night, wondering what was it about her that pushed everyone away. First Syaoran and Sakura, then slowly her old friends began to leave Japan for new and exciting places. Then Masatake. After she put her heart and soul into their relationship, he had turned away and run off to another place, far away from her. It was always like this, people running away, even in kindergarten.
Her tears began to flow freely now. Even Eriol didn't find her interesting, she had just become close friends with him and he had pushed her away, wanting to escape.
She had reached the bungalow and walked up to her room, wiping away at her tear-stained cheeks, sobs escaping her.
She flung herself onto the bed and cried her heart out, swearing never to get close to anyone again.
Eriol sat under the palm tree, cursing at himself. He looked to the direction where she walked, as she slowly became a dot in the horizon. Why had he done that? Even after he knew what she was going through with Masatake, he had to go and push it. He looked down at his right hand, making a fist and punching the sand. Why'd he have to go and be so stupid?
Perhaps he should go after her? By now she would be halfway to the bungalow, she even forgot her shells. He sat still, deciding that he should give her some time to calm down, that would be a better thing to do, and then he could explain to her what he meant.
But what did he really mean when he had said that? What had he actually meant by saying it wasn't him. He slammed his fist into the sand once more. Had she just over-reacted? If so, she would just cool down if he gave her the time, right?
Eriol clutched his hair and tugged at it violently, how stupid he was, why couldn't he have said something different to her rather than those few words.
Gradually after thinking about it for sometime and thinking that she had had enough time, he got up and started the long slow walk back to the bungalow.
When Eriol got back to the bungalow it was almost twilight He slid open the door to the living room finding no-one there. He walked over to Tomoyo's room and found her gone. Her bed covers were a mess, tear stains on the pillow.
He walked over to the window in search of her and saw her sitting outside watching as the waves rolled in. He wanted to yell her name, but decided against it.
Quickly he rushed down the stairs and out the door but stopped once her caught sight of her.
She was absolutely beautiful; her hair blew wildly in the wind, her loose summer dress doing the same. She sat hugging her knees, contemplating something or other. He watched her as she tucked her raven hair behind her ear, but always in a few moments it would fly out again.
'Breathtaking,' he thought, 'absolutely breathtaking'
Tomoyo sat on the beach, thinking about her decision, perhaps she was over- reacting? Maybe it didn't have to be so extreme? No, she couldn't, she'd just get hurt even more. Never, was the only word that seemed to be repeating in her mind over and over again. Never would she love anyone, never would she become friends with a new person, never would she become close to anyone.
She felt someone staring at her and turned her head slightly. She saw Eriol standing like a lost puppy, staring at her. Her heart melted, but she stopped herself, only allowing a smile and a gesture for him to sit with her.
As he walked towards her, she repeated the word in her mind once more, Never..
A.N: Well..that's the fifth chapter...WooHoo....don't know how many more chapters...probably about up to ten.. Okay.. Hope you had fun..
Remember to Review!!!! Thanks..
Learning to Love
Chapter five:
The waves gently lapped against the shore, seagulls' cries faintly calling in the distance. Tomoyo dragged a long stick behind her, making a snail- like trail. Occasionally she stopped to pick up a shell then continued to walk again in silence.
She looked at Eriol who seemed to just be staring out at the sea aimlessly, at times he seemed to be looking for something out there, some kind of answer.
Tomoyo sighed to herself, it was beginning to become hotter and the sun seemed to be beating down on her back even harder than before. She gestured to Eriol to sit in the shade for a moment until the sun lost some of its strength.
He walked drunkenly towards the shade with her, slumping into the sand, glad to be out of the suns overpowering rays.
Tomoyo looked out across the jaded blue ocean, the water so clear she could see the reef a few hundred metres out. She sighed deeply, closing her eyes and looking up toward the soft blue sky, allowing the wind to breathe over her face, her loose hair whipping at her cheeks.
She paused and looked over at Eriol, a blush suddenly creeping to her face. She shook her head, what was wrong with her?
She looked out to the sea but out of the corner of her eyes, she could see him, still staring out to the ocean, seemingly searching for something.
"Eriol-kun??" she asked, not sure what was wrong with him since he hadn't said a word since they left the bungalow.
"Nani?" he asked, his voice almost a whisper, ready to be carried away by the wind.
"Is there something bothering you?" she asked softly.
'Yes, of course there is,' he thought, 'you are bothering me, I have no idea why but..there's just something about you, something that I can't explain, something I've never felt before..'
"Eriol-kun?" she asked again after he didn't answer, a worried note in her voice.
"Iie..there's nothing wrong..." he lied.
Tomoyo leaned back with a sigh, lying face up in the sand, "Do you ever wonder whether this is all it'll ever be?" she asked out of the blue.
"Huh?" Eriol asked confused.
"Well...if this is all your life will ever be, if this is as far as it goes. Do you ever wonder if there is something more out there, if you should maybe work harder to get it?"
"I'm not sure, I never really thought about it."
"I used to think that living up to people's expectations was all that mattered, that if I just kept on working harder and harder perhaps there was something else out there that was for me, but for the last past weeks, things just changed and I felt that I had finally achieved what I wanted, that I was finally happy with my life.... It was when you arrived." She said finally coming to a realization.
Eriol looked down at her, looking at the feeling of shock plastered on her face. Gently, he took her hand and squeezed it, " I'm sure it's not me, probably something else..." he smiled.
She sat up and stared at him, she seemed to want to hide it yet, her hurt betrayed through her eyes. She pulled her hand away from his and got up, dusting her skirt.
"I have to go back to the bungalow, I'm waiting for a phone call," she said awkwardly, as she walked back to the bungalow.
Tomoyo walked not looking back. Right now she felt so empty, like she couldn't belong anywhere, that she had lost something so important to her.
How could he? How could he just say he didn't want to be a part of her life, not even friends. Perhaps he hadn't meant it that way....Maybe he was referring to something else. Or maybe her life was just so unimportant that he didn't want to be responsible for a change.
She closed her eyes tight as she continued walking. Her eyes stung, no, she wouldn't cry, not over him, it was just the sea spray and sand.
How many times had she lay awake at night, wondering what was it about her that pushed everyone away. First Syaoran and Sakura, then slowly her old friends began to leave Japan for new and exciting places. Then Masatake. After she put her heart and soul into their relationship, he had turned away and run off to another place, far away from her. It was always like this, people running away, even in kindergarten.
Her tears began to flow freely now. Even Eriol didn't find her interesting, she had just become close friends with him and he had pushed her away, wanting to escape.
She had reached the bungalow and walked up to her room, wiping away at her tear-stained cheeks, sobs escaping her.
She flung herself onto the bed and cried her heart out, swearing never to get close to anyone again.
Eriol sat under the palm tree, cursing at himself. He looked to the direction where she walked, as she slowly became a dot in the horizon. Why had he done that? Even after he knew what she was going through with Masatake, he had to go and push it. He looked down at his right hand, making a fist and punching the sand. Why'd he have to go and be so stupid?
Perhaps he should go after her? By now she would be halfway to the bungalow, she even forgot her shells. He sat still, deciding that he should give her some time to calm down, that would be a better thing to do, and then he could explain to her what he meant.
But what did he really mean when he had said that? What had he actually meant by saying it wasn't him. He slammed his fist into the sand once more. Had she just over-reacted? If so, she would just cool down if he gave her the time, right?
Eriol clutched his hair and tugged at it violently, how stupid he was, why couldn't he have said something different to her rather than those few words.
Gradually after thinking about it for sometime and thinking that she had had enough time, he got up and started the long slow walk back to the bungalow.
When Eriol got back to the bungalow it was almost twilight He slid open the door to the living room finding no-one there. He walked over to Tomoyo's room and found her gone. Her bed covers were a mess, tear stains on the pillow.
He walked over to the window in search of her and saw her sitting outside watching as the waves rolled in. He wanted to yell her name, but decided against it.
Quickly he rushed down the stairs and out the door but stopped once her caught sight of her.
She was absolutely beautiful; her hair blew wildly in the wind, her loose summer dress doing the same. She sat hugging her knees, contemplating something or other. He watched her as she tucked her raven hair behind her ear, but always in a few moments it would fly out again.
'Breathtaking,' he thought, 'absolutely breathtaking'
Tomoyo sat on the beach, thinking about her decision, perhaps she was over- reacting? Maybe it didn't have to be so extreme? No, she couldn't, she'd just get hurt even more. Never, was the only word that seemed to be repeating in her mind over and over again. Never would she love anyone, never would she become friends with a new person, never would she become close to anyone.
She felt someone staring at her and turned her head slightly. She saw Eriol standing like a lost puppy, staring at her. Her heart melted, but she stopped herself, only allowing a smile and a gesture for him to sit with her.
As he walked towards her, she repeated the word in her mind once more, Never..
A.N: Well..that's the fifth chapter...WooHoo....don't know how many more chapters...probably about up to ten.. Okay.. Hope you had fun..
Remember to Review!!!! Thanks..