Warau Kisetsu

by: yumeneko

Chapter 4: Kokuhaku

(Confession)

Boku ni kimi ga nani wo kanjiru ka o hanashite kudasai.

Boku ni kimi no kokoro ni iru koto o hanashite kudasai.

Boku ga shinpai suru no de, sore wa riyuu.

Please tell me what you feel about me.

Please tell me what is in your heart.

I worry, that is the reason.

------------------

Winter came upon Nijiyama. The whole of Ranika's Kawaii Ryodan were out camping. The rest were Christmas shopping.

"What's the thing Miyuki wants for Christmas again?" Shizuka forgot.

Yet, going back to our real subject, the Sanzo-ikkou were in Hokkaido.

"Yes, we can always count on Hakkai for the money..." Gojyo smiled.

"A Hoshizora. Famous in Nijiyama for all that money." Sanzo huffed, "Even Hibiemi has a huge amount of it."

"Very true..." Hakkai smiled, "But we aren't snobs... We're all good-hearted."

"Haraheta..." Goku moaned.

"Urusai, bakazarou!" Both Gojyo and Sanzo yelled.

"Yare, yare..." Hakkai said as usual as they reached the Hoshizora's private Hokkaido manor.

Gojyo grabbed his snowboard, "Yoshi! Race you to the foot of the mount, bakazarou!"

"I'll just help the butler move all of these to our rooms." Hakkai smiled as Sanzo took his skis.

"Aa. I'll see you later, Hakkai." Sanzo said as he headed for the slopes.

I'd wish I could have told you how I feel about you just right now...

"Sanzo."

"Nani, Hakkai?"

"... Nan demo nai."

But all these feelings are blocked. I don't have the courage. I wish I could have only said those words. Simple words. Not so special. I don't even think you'd even respond... I love you.

Hakkai sighed as he walked on with bags in hand. He took a look at Sanzo's leaving figure before entering the manor.

Will you smile, just once for me? Would you cry, tell me that you love me, too? Will you confess, leave my heart lonely or alive? Just tell me... Tell me...

Hakkai remembered the first time he met Sanzo...

Flashback

'Oi! What's with all the bags?' The young blonde neighbor asked the younger brunette. The brunette didn't smile.

'You look like you just cried.' The blonde noticed, seeing the brunette's eyes were misty, 'Where are your parents?'

The brunette turned to look at the blonde. The blonde wasn't smiling but the brunette's eyes were locked on the blondes. The emotions of the blonde were unshown yet, the young brunette could see that the blonde was also hurt deep inside. An emotion inside the brunette wanted to take the blondes hand and ask him, 'What hurts? Tell me. Maybe we share the same pain?' But the brunette didn't take that action. He looked away and walked into the mansion.

Hakkai snapped back to reality. In his hand was the matches. The night was coming. He lit the logs in the fireplace. The warmth of the fire reminded him of his sister's words.

Fire signs are really energetic. They're like the sun. They warm the earth, heat the water and make the air rise.

"Sou desu..." Hakkai whispered, "Sanzo's a Sagittarius."

Water signs are very intimate. They like to be close to people. They soften the earth, cool the heat of fire and make the air cool.

"Gojyo..." Hakkai whispered, "No wonder he has been my best friend for such a long time..."

Onii-chan. We are both earth signs. We're both intelligent and down-to-earth. We guide the waters, absorb the heat of fire and keep the air up.

Hakkai remembered his young sister, Hibiemi. But something else came to mind...

Onii-chan. What happened to Okaa-chan? Did I ever have one?

Hakkai laid back. His mother died when Hibiemi was born. He had seen his sister and kept it a secret from his real father. But somehow, he found out. He beat Hakkai's mother to death in front of Hakkai's eyes. The next thing he knew was that he was in court. His real father was sentenced to death and he was to live with Tenshin Hoshizora, his mother's lover and father to Hibiemi.

Just as he was remembering, he heard the door open.

"Hakkai." Gojyo's voice was heard. He plopped down on the couch with Hakkai, "You've been remembering the past again." Hakkai's respose was a simple nod of the head. Gojyo held Hakkai's hand, "I've been wondering... We've been friends for such a long time. I was pretty much amazed at what I feel. Everytime you were away from me, I felt this void in my heart. I was thinking... what if we were more than friends?"

Time stood still for both.

"Gojyo..." Hakkai hugged his friend, "You're my friend. You can't be my lover. You can't be two people at the same time. And besides that, I want to make someone smile for me. If you ever become my lover, who would be my best friend!" Hakkai laughed as he imagined that playing in the arcades wouldn't be a friendly get-together, but a date.

"Ah..." Gojyo smiled, exchanging high-fives with his best friend, "You're falling for Sanzo, are you?"

Hakkai turned red in contrast with the green of his sweater.

"Tee hee! You look like a Christmas ornament! Oi! Sanzo! Let's hang this guy on the tree!"

"Gojyo..." Hakkai turned even redder.

"It would be more stupid if anyone of us would fall for either of the Ms. Genkis!"

"Gojyo..." Hakkai's expression became annoyed, "You're targeting my sister..."

"Oh, Hibi-chan! I know you're a Virgo like your bro. He doesn't want to be my lover, can I be yours?"

"Gojyo!!" Hakkai became more annoyed, "What the hell do you want with my sister!"

"Oh, Lirin-chan! I know you're a Leo. You'd look so cute with Goku..."

"Gojyo!!" Hakkai worried, "Kougaiji won't like this..."

"Doushite? Lirin?" Goku's head peeped through the door.

"Nan demo nai, bakazarou." Gojyo shoved Goku out as he continued annoying Hakkai, "Then, what if I dated both?"

"Gojyo!!!!!!!!"

"Ah... An intelligent first-year high student and a hyperactive first-year college student... Both are so pure and innocent..."

"Gojyo!!!!!!!!"

"What to choose? Your sister or Kougaiji's sister?"

Hakkai got extremely annoyed, "YOU'RE TOO OLD FOR MY SISTER!!!"

"Is your sister free on Christmas Eve?"

"IIE DESU!!!!!!!!!" Hakkai whined, "You're TEN, and I repeat TEN YEARS OLDER than my sister!"

"Or are you thinking of incest?"

"FUCK YOU!!!!" That was Gojyo's hobby, fishing foul words from Hakkai's mouth.

"Wow. The kappa did it again." Sanzo said expressionless.

"The 'Are you going to preform incest on your sister?' technique!" Goku laughed.

"Goku, can I have Lirin?"

"GOJYO!!!!" Both Hakkai and Goku yelled.

"Ero-kappa!" Goku yelled.

"Child molester!" Hakkai yelled.

'Bam' went the paper fan on Gojyo's head.

"Damatte, douhou..." Sanzo said cooly.

"If you'd like, I'll get Yaone-chan..."

'Bam' went the paper fan again...

"Yare, yare..."

~ End Chapter 4 ~

A/N: Note on the Ryodans: Ryodan literally means 'brigade' and don't think of linking all this to Hunter X Hunter. Turns out the person who slapped me in the face with a wad of hate letters was a rabid HxH fan, so I might as well have a little tribute to get revenge.