"I'm such a fucking asshole." Shane muttered into Matt's shoulder.
Matt hugged him tighter.
"No you're not Shane. It's ok to lose it. Everyone does. If you didn't lose it under these circumstances I'd be concerned."
"Nidia didn't lose it." Shane commented and broke out of Matt's embrace.
"You're right, Nidia didn't lose it. But she can handle hospitals, you can't. Remember when we went to go see Jeff before?"
"Yeah I couldn't stand it. But I still stayed in the room! Matt I ran out when my daughter needs me the most!"
"Then you'll have to build enough confidence to go back in."
"Matt I hate hospital rooms! Add IV's and tubes and I, I, I just can't do it. I just can't." Shane was already starting to lose it just thinking about it.
"Shane it's alright." Matt said and put his hand on Shane's shoulder.
"It's not alright! I know I have to be in there with her but at the same time I can't. I can't even imagine myself going in there without getting all crazy."
"Don't think about it." Matt said simply.
"What?"
"Just walk into the room without thinking about it. Once you realize it you'll be comfortable where you are already."
"Oh Matt I don't know."
"Ok well you know what you do before you do a new wrestling move?" Matt asked. Shane thought about it then nodded. "Ok well do that. Trying a new move is a thousand time harder because there's a lot of risks, some as harsh as death. You have no risks walking in that room."
"Thank you so much Matt."
"Are you going now?"
"Not yet." Shane answered embarrassed.
"It's ok Shane. Take your time."
"I'll go later tonight."
"Good."
~~~~~~~
Modesty looked at the list and wanted to cry. It was so long! It was almost as if she didn't narrow anything down at all. But if she wanted to look on the bright side, which she did, she now had a list of names to work with. That was one step closer, even if it was tiny.
"Destiny we're never going to find this person! I mean the list is just so long!" Modesty wailed, losing hope.
"Moddy don't say that. Don't lose help! Even if for some reason you go to jail, which you won't, I won't give up the search. I won't let my best friend go to jail for something she didn't do." Destiny said. Modesty wiped her eyes and hugged Destiny.
"Thank you." She whispered then gasped.
"What?" Destiny asked. Modesty pushed Destiny out of the way and grabbed a picture.
"This! Who is this?" Modesty screamed.
"I don't know. Why?"
"Her! We used to be the biggest enemies! I don't remember her name but I remember we hated each other with a passion!"
"How do you not remember her name?"
"Drugs." Modesty answered sadly and flopped down on the couch.
~~~~~~~~
"I heard Shayleen is allowed visitors." Jen Concanon said. Shane nodded. "Will you come in with me?" She asked. Shane's head snapped up.
"What?" He asked.
"I want to go see her. Will you take me?"
"Sure." Matt answered for him.
"Matt!" Shane hissed.
"Thank you." Jen said, grabbed Shane's hand and dragged him down the hall.
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"Oh wow." Jen breathed out. Shane sat in a chair in a corner with his eyes squeezed shut.
"Don't say anything." Shane said slowly.
"Are you scared?" Jen asked.
"Yes."
"Have you had any bad hospital experiences?"
"Maybe."
"Ok I won't force you to talk."
"Good."
"Do you want to go?"
"No. But I have to."
"Ok come on." She took his hand again and led him out of the room.
~~~~~~
"Come on. Come on." Modesty muttered as she flipped through the pages. She had the picture of the girl in her hand and she was flipping through the yearbook. That girl, whoever she was, was definally in this book.
"I got it!" Modesty yelled.
"Oh! Who?" Destiny asked. Modesty made a face.
"Jen Concanon? I don't remember her at all. Maybe she's not the right person. I could have sworn I loathed her though."
~~~~~~~
"Mr. and Mrs. Helms?" Doctor Schindler said.
"Yes?" Nidia answered.
"I am sorry to inform you that Shayleen Helms has had a heart attack."
"No you're not Shane. It's ok to lose it. Everyone does. If you didn't lose it under these circumstances I'd be concerned."
"Nidia didn't lose it." Shane commented and broke out of Matt's embrace.
"You're right, Nidia didn't lose it. But she can handle hospitals, you can't. Remember when we went to go see Jeff before?"
"Yeah I couldn't stand it. But I still stayed in the room! Matt I ran out when my daughter needs me the most!"
"Then you'll have to build enough confidence to go back in."
"Matt I hate hospital rooms! Add IV's and tubes and I, I, I just can't do it. I just can't." Shane was already starting to lose it just thinking about it.
"Shane it's alright." Matt said and put his hand on Shane's shoulder.
"It's not alright! I know I have to be in there with her but at the same time I can't. I can't even imagine myself going in there without getting all crazy."
"Don't think about it." Matt said simply.
"What?"
"Just walk into the room without thinking about it. Once you realize it you'll be comfortable where you are already."
"Oh Matt I don't know."
"Ok well you know what you do before you do a new wrestling move?" Matt asked. Shane thought about it then nodded. "Ok well do that. Trying a new move is a thousand time harder because there's a lot of risks, some as harsh as death. You have no risks walking in that room."
"Thank you so much Matt."
"Are you going now?"
"Not yet." Shane answered embarrassed.
"It's ok Shane. Take your time."
"I'll go later tonight."
"Good."
~~~~~~~
Modesty looked at the list and wanted to cry. It was so long! It was almost as if she didn't narrow anything down at all. But if she wanted to look on the bright side, which she did, she now had a list of names to work with. That was one step closer, even if it was tiny.
"Destiny we're never going to find this person! I mean the list is just so long!" Modesty wailed, losing hope.
"Moddy don't say that. Don't lose help! Even if for some reason you go to jail, which you won't, I won't give up the search. I won't let my best friend go to jail for something she didn't do." Destiny said. Modesty wiped her eyes and hugged Destiny.
"Thank you." She whispered then gasped.
"What?" Destiny asked. Modesty pushed Destiny out of the way and grabbed a picture.
"This! Who is this?" Modesty screamed.
"I don't know. Why?"
"Her! We used to be the biggest enemies! I don't remember her name but I remember we hated each other with a passion!"
"How do you not remember her name?"
"Drugs." Modesty answered sadly and flopped down on the couch.
~~~~~~~~
"I heard Shayleen is allowed visitors." Jen Concanon said. Shane nodded. "Will you come in with me?" She asked. Shane's head snapped up.
"What?" He asked.
"I want to go see her. Will you take me?"
"Sure." Matt answered for him.
"Matt!" Shane hissed.
"Thank you." Jen said, grabbed Shane's hand and dragged him down the hall.
~~~~~~
"Oh wow." Jen breathed out. Shane sat in a chair in a corner with his eyes squeezed shut.
"Don't say anything." Shane said slowly.
"Are you scared?" Jen asked.
"Yes."
"Have you had any bad hospital experiences?"
"Maybe."
"Ok I won't force you to talk."
"Good."
"Do you want to go?"
"No. But I have to."
"Ok come on." She took his hand again and led him out of the room.
~~~~~~
"Come on. Come on." Modesty muttered as she flipped through the pages. She had the picture of the girl in her hand and she was flipping through the yearbook. That girl, whoever she was, was definally in this book.
"I got it!" Modesty yelled.
"Oh! Who?" Destiny asked. Modesty made a face.
"Jen Concanon? I don't remember her at all. Maybe she's not the right person. I could have sworn I loathed her though."
~~~~~~~
"Mr. and Mrs. Helms?" Doctor Schindler said.
"Yes?" Nidia answered.
"I am sorry to inform you that Shayleen Helms has had a heart attack."