Part 2
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Kathryn reached up and rubbed the back of her neck, *how long have I been sitting here* lifting the cup to her lips she spat it out "Urgh cold"
She rose and moved to the replicator "coffee hot, black" she took the cup and said a silent prayer to the God of replicators that it was on its best behaviour tonight. Returning to the sofa, she lifted her legs under her and watched the stars.
She was.. tired. Exhausted physically and emotionally while he had been gone she had not slept properly for fear for his safety. Now he was back she did not sleep properly for fear of what?
Now he was back.
The fact he had come back should have been enough but how he had come back had proven to her as if she needed it, how much she had come over the years to rely on him and she had missed him.
Chakotay. Her Chakotay had stayed behind on that planet.
Damn even her own mind betrayed her where he was concerned *her Chakotay* by what right did she claim him as hers. She really did need to sleep, she moved toward her bedroom.
Since Scorpion she had spent many fruitless nights unable to sleep, thinking over their relationship. The only conclusion she had come to so far one morning after another sleepless night was that she couldn't come to a conclusion. She had never been able to make a decision regarding him, and stick to it anyway. She would be determined to keep him at a distance, and then find her hand on his chest. That bothered her. She couldn't be indecisive. The crew needed a Captain who knew her mind and stuck to it. She sighed she knew already that's how they saw her most of the time, a strong a confident Captain who would get them home. She could never let them see this indecisive side of her.
After showering she put on her nightdress then brushed her hair. Slipping beneath the covers and tried to sleep.
But that it was pointless her mind was not ready to sleep;
She had become accustomed to his smile the one he saved only for her. Even his twisted sense of humour appealed to her. Yes they argued and he had strong views but always she had known no one could break their friendship. How could she be expected to handle this now when she was fighting with herself to keep control of her feelings?
She smiled wishing she could talk to Chakotay about this. But that was the problem wasn't it the fact she had come to rely on talking things through with him. He understood the confines she had to work in. A Captain, alone light years from Star Fleet, and the protocols she relied on.
Daddy! Thinking of the alien earlier reminded her Father of how she felt after he died.
The thought made her sit up was that it? Was Chakotay depressed? Kathryn had experienced depression when her father died but never having seen it from the outside looking in is this what it was like? Watching someone you care for withdraw into themselves.
They had come to rely on each other. His comfort, his support, she couldn't get that from anyone else aboard Voyager, not even Tuvok although he tried. Chakotay was the only one she felt understood her. Now he needed her.
To help him meant she would have to break through the barrier she had put up, because she knew once she stepped into the darkness to help him back into the light she would have to tell him why she needed him.
To travel through the stars with her. Always.
She turned on her back and closed her eyes she needed to sleep.
Next door in his cabin Chakotay sat looking at the stars go by.
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Kathryn reached up and rubbed the back of her neck, *how long have I been sitting here* lifting the cup to her lips she spat it out "Urgh cold"
She rose and moved to the replicator "coffee hot, black" she took the cup and said a silent prayer to the God of replicators that it was on its best behaviour tonight. Returning to the sofa, she lifted her legs under her and watched the stars.
She was.. tired. Exhausted physically and emotionally while he had been gone she had not slept properly for fear for his safety. Now he was back she did not sleep properly for fear of what?
Now he was back.
The fact he had come back should have been enough but how he had come back had proven to her as if she needed it, how much she had come over the years to rely on him and she had missed him.
Chakotay. Her Chakotay had stayed behind on that planet.
Damn even her own mind betrayed her where he was concerned *her Chakotay* by what right did she claim him as hers. She really did need to sleep, she moved toward her bedroom.
Since Scorpion she had spent many fruitless nights unable to sleep, thinking over their relationship. The only conclusion she had come to so far one morning after another sleepless night was that she couldn't come to a conclusion. She had never been able to make a decision regarding him, and stick to it anyway. She would be determined to keep him at a distance, and then find her hand on his chest. That bothered her. She couldn't be indecisive. The crew needed a Captain who knew her mind and stuck to it. She sighed she knew already that's how they saw her most of the time, a strong a confident Captain who would get them home. She could never let them see this indecisive side of her.
After showering she put on her nightdress then brushed her hair. Slipping beneath the covers and tried to sleep.
But that it was pointless her mind was not ready to sleep;
She had become accustomed to his smile the one he saved only for her. Even his twisted sense of humour appealed to her. Yes they argued and he had strong views but always she had known no one could break their friendship. How could she be expected to handle this now when she was fighting with herself to keep control of her feelings?
She smiled wishing she could talk to Chakotay about this. But that was the problem wasn't it the fact she had come to rely on talking things through with him. He understood the confines she had to work in. A Captain, alone light years from Star Fleet, and the protocols she relied on.
Daddy! Thinking of the alien earlier reminded her Father of how she felt after he died.
The thought made her sit up was that it? Was Chakotay depressed? Kathryn had experienced depression when her father died but never having seen it from the outside looking in is this what it was like? Watching someone you care for withdraw into themselves.
They had come to rely on each other. His comfort, his support, she couldn't get that from anyone else aboard Voyager, not even Tuvok although he tried. Chakotay was the only one she felt understood her. Now he needed her.
To help him meant she would have to break through the barrier she had put up, because she knew once she stepped into the darkness to help him back into the light she would have to tell him why she needed him.
To travel through the stars with her. Always.
She turned on her back and closed her eyes she needed to sleep.
Next door in his cabin Chakotay sat looking at the stars go by.
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