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A/N: Here's the 3rd Chapter hope you enjoy! Thanks to my reviewers: glory (Ron's coming up in Chapter 4), Lady Slytherin, Sex Angel (Glad you like this one too! Sex will come :D), Riverchick1998 (here you go). Thanks so much, and please keep in reviewing i heart reviews! Oh and last: Is anyone interested in being a beta-reader for this story? Email me at corinna@rockstargirl.net
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Hanging by a moment - Stuck in the past
Chapter 3: I'm always where you are!
I awoke very early in the morning and shuddered at the thought of my dream. Once again, the object of my nightmares had been Malfoy. Who else? Ever since we had met him for the second time, I had scary dreams about him. Malfoy kidnapping Lily, Malfoy setting our house on fire, Malfoy torturing us, all that kind of things.
Of course I knew that these were just VERY scary nightmares, nothing more, nothing less. But it still bugged me. I didn't want to dream of Malfoy at all!
I slowly go up, and prepared breakfast. Preapring it the muggle way that is. Sometimes I like doing that, it remembers me of my parents and my own childhood.Carefully setting up my coffee, I started humming a silent melody to me. I'm like a bird I only fly away, I don't know where my soul is, I don't know where my home is.
It was quite a coincidence that I had started humming THAT song. 'Such lonely times isn't that so...' His words started ringing in my head. Not that I cared about it, god no! But in his own stupid way, he had been very right. I was lonely, definitely. Extremely lonely. I mean, I had Lily and all, but I definitely missed talking to people my age, and I rarely got the chance to. Sometimes I met Ron and Lavender, but they had children too, and so didn't have much time either.
Lonely. Wiping my worries away, I finished preparing breakfast. Bread, marmelade, honey, hot chocolate for Lily, and coffee for me. All Lily needed for breakfast was hot chocolate and strawberry marmelade. She loved that to pieces. I however always needed all that different kind of food to get satisfied.
That day, we were finished with breakfast quite fast however. Lily was still munching on her bread, while I was already cleaning up. I wanted to go shopping today. Just a few new clothes. I had no idea for whom I was dressing up, but I guess I just needed it once in a while.
Two more hours, many difficulties of getting Lily to hurry and a muggle bus drive later we had finally arrived in Diagon Alley. Lily had never been here, but I used to go there very often. Usually in shops much too expensive for me, but since I didn't go shopping very often, I could afford buying some clothes there, every once in a while.
First we went into a shop for shoes. I had quite and obsession with shoes, and a pair of deep red high-heeled sandals immediately caught my eyes. They looked very classy, and of course costed a LOT. I bought them anyway. Like I said, I had a strong shoe obsession, and I absolutely loved the shoes.
Next stop was a shop for gowns and dresses. Very fine dresses. As soon as I got there, I knew I was going to buy one. Not that I expected to go on any party, but I loved to dress up, and dance around at home. I tried different gowns, all very expensive. One was deep green with strap holders, but that reminded me way to much of Slytherin. A black one I tried looked too casual. And then I found the perfect one. Deep red, just like me shoes. It was made of velvet and silk and it looked absolutely beautiful. The 3/4 sleeves were embroidered with wonderful ornaments, just like the hem, it was very low cut in the back, almost to my bottom, and had nice criss-cross straps all over the back. In the front, it was kind of low-cut to, and the whole chest-parts was covered with beautiful ornaments too. The upper-part was close-fitting, and clinged to my body, as if it was only made for me. My shoes fitted it perfectly, and I bought it without even checking the price.
Call me crazy for buying expensive clothes, when I don't even have an occasion for wearing them, but that's just me. That's how i kept myself from going crazy.
A sign saying "Men's clothing for special occasions" caught my attention then. I have no idea why exactly I went into that shop, but I did. I found myself staring at expensive suits, robes, and togas. I just stared at them, although I of course wouldn't buy one. For whom anyway? Still, I couldn't draw away my eyes, not even when Lily started wailing, because of being bored.
"You shouldn't ignore a child like that."
I snapped. The drawling cold voice sounded all to familiar! No,no no and no! Impossible. It couldn't be him again, could it?
"Look mommy, it's Mr. Draco!"
Okay, so it was him. God. Does he always have to be where I am? I slowly turned around, and found him gazing at me curiously. He looked handsome, just like last time. Tight black pants, and a shining white muscle shirt, and his hair tousled, and slightly slicked back.
"Who are you buying clothes for, Ms Granger?" he asked me, and his polite tone annoyed me once again "Is little Lily getting a new Daddy?" A new Daddy? So he thinks I got a new boyfriend? I unconciously had to smile at the thought. He actually believed I was in a new relationship. I wanted to let him think that, but my daughter obviously had other intentions.
"I ain't got a new daddy, Mr. Draco." She pouted. "Mommy always promises, but I still ain't got one. Will you be my daddy?"
"Lillith!" I exclaimed rather shocked. Malfoy being her new daddy, what a horrible thought!
Malfoy however brought his attention to my bags. He quickly snapped them out of my hands and looked through them. How dare he disturb my privacy like that?
"Malfoy! What do you think your doing?"
"Just looking, Hermione." he grinned. I cringed when he called me by my first name. As far as I remembered he had never before called me Hermione. Always Granger or mudblood.
"I see, Hermione." he continued "you bought quite a nice dress. Intending to go out?"
"Maybe." I didn't want to let him know of my real intentions. Of dancing around in the living room.
"I should look for something that matches it." With that he walked to the sales agent of the shop, still carrying my bags. "Excuse me mister, could you get me a suit or robe, that matches with this dress?"
"Malfoy!" I interrupted him angrily. "Would you please give me my dress back? It's not like him going out with you!"
"You're sure? We're going to have a big, expensive party at the manor! Maybe you want to come?" he smirked mockingly.
"Not in a million years!" I exclaimed, but my smart-ass little daughter decided to speak at the same time "Yes mommy go there. I could stay with uncle Ron and auntie Lavender. You never go out, mommy!"
God, why does she always talk so much? That wasn't the kind of information I wanted Malfoy to know. Great, now I knows I rarely go out. Great, great, great.
"Like I said, such lonely times..." Malfoy said, suddenly smiling, while the salesman had brought him his suit. He seemed quite content with it, and gave me my dress back, while talking to the man. "Thanks, Mister, I think I'll take it without trying on. It's just TOO hot today, for trying a suit. Swimming would be much better."
"Oh yes, mommy, let's go swimming!" No! Lord, no! I hated him. God, how did he know that Lily loves swimming?
"Lily, honey-" I tried to calm her down. "We really don't have the time to-"
"We have a nice pool at the manor." Malfoy interrupted me, and grinned winningly.
"Mommy please!" Lily wailed, and started crying. She was able to start crying when she wanted to, and I hated seeing her crying.
"Honey, see, we can go another day, I just didn't have planned it today. We could go tomorrow okay? Just the two of us, and for the whole day?"
"But, mommy!" Now she pouted and sobbed at the same time. "I want Mr. Draco to come too. And I want to go now. Mommy, please. Please?"
I never had been able to say no to her. And she definitely was spoilt. I mean, of course she was! I had fulfilled her every wish, being afraid I wouldn't be a good mother for her otherwise. At that moment, I wished I had been more strict. But I hadn't been, and now I had to solve the problems. Or rather give in, that is.
"Okay..." I said slowly, and Lily smiled immediately. "But not at that stupid manor." That was directed to Malfoy. "I will only go, if we go to a public pool."
"A muggle one?!" Malfoy asked curiously.
"No, not a muggle one. There's a wizard's public pool here in London, not far from our here." Malfoy grinned again. I hated seeing him so self-satisfied, so I quickly added another condition. "And we definitely won't go there together. I want to go home with Lily - alone - and get changed. We meet there in 1 hour."
With that I grabbed Lily's hand - she was still smiling happily - and pulled her our of the shop. I really had had enough conversation with Malfoy, especially since I was going to spend my precious afternoon with him. I shouldn't have agreed to that going swimming idea in first place, but I just couldn't deny Lily anything."
"Wait!" Malfoy called after me. "How do I find that pool?"
I rolled my eyes at him. "Don't be such a baby Malfoy! Ask!"
We soon arrived at home. Lily couldn't get into her swimming trunks fast enough. She was beaming with anticipation. Good lord, I really shouldn't have agreed to it. With Malfoy's fake charm, and the repeated conversations with him, she probably hoped he was going to be her new Daddy! I really had no luck in life! First my husband died, right when I was pregnant, and now our daughter chooses our worst enemy as her new Daddy.
Of course he wasn't as bad as he used to be. He hadn't insulted me at all, and he had even called me by my first name. And he wore muggle clothes. I supposed this was because his father wasn't alive anymore. Lucius Malfoy had died in the same incident Harry had. Everyone assumed that it even had been Harry who had killed Lucius, but noone knew for sure. I don't think anyone cared, either. The only important fact was that Voldemort was defeated, dead, gone.
Yeah, the death of his father probably caused his little changes. But apart from being a tiny bit nicer, he still was quite the same. Drawling voice, smirking, sneering smile, all that aristocratic arrogant crap.
I snapped out of my thoughts, and finally chose my own swimming trunks. A simple black bikini combination. Nothing too fancy, but still appealing. I knew, I looked nice in it, but nice for whom? Definitely not for Malfoy!
"Mommy!" Lily wailed again "Can we finally go?"
Oh god, what did I get myself into? I must be completely nuts! Completely!
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More to come (Ron!) soon in Chapter 4 (Have it all planned already!)