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Never felt so low
Chapter nineteen-A new day
By The Opal Jade
I touch my smooth hair. Smooth as puffy ice-scream on ice. It is not black anymore. I was worried that the FOH could recognise me after I saw a couple of them in the hall. The ones that were in the mansion that night.
I wonder what would they do to me?
Put me in a lab?
My hair is red now. Orange in the light, but dark deep red in the night.
Red. It is a color that shows agresion and animal instincts. It is the color of blood that I have felt so many times going down my skin, fast or slow. What does it matter anyway?
I am nogthing for the plan of it all, the force that toys with our lives, makes some of us live on dandy little candy while the others eat shit. Just to see who will make it and who will not.
I feel ashamed. The contact is cut with the rest of the X except for Hipnotia, Emma, Wolwerine and telepatichly with the profesor, Jean, Psylock and Chamber.
But lately he does not want to speak to me. He is patroling with Rahne. What good luck. Yey me.
We now know where the main computer is. Me and Wolwie are planing a distraction on two separate ends. Emma will be having lunch with one of the head of security guys. That way she will be able to turn off the intercom systtem in his room. And when he notices that there is something strange going on, she will put him down. Just temporary.
Domino and Hipnotia are going to get everything that they can from the computer. Everything about the mutant files that the FOH has, their plan. Everything.
And then they will destroy it all. Yey us.
Outside, before we strike, Chamber, Rahne and Spyke will provide a distraction in the form of an atack.
When those FOH asses come out with their robots backup will come.
Jean, Psylock and Gambit.
Kitty will be somwhere near just in case.
Everyone has a role. We all have to play up. That means that I can not stay in my room in the headquarters of the FOH that has been my home for the past four weeks. I must get out and talk to them or to hit on them or….something like that.
If a girl does not act in that whorish way they automaticly presume that there is something wrong with her.
Yey me.
I go to the bar. Get something hard to get drunk on. For eight in the morning….it is a little much, I admit. But sorry, no. I have to keep my cool. Get numb just for a while.
Josh is cooming my way. This is surely not one of my more lucky days. Josh is a monster. I watched him slicing the neck of a young mutant with my own eyes. He felt nogthing because that girl for him was nogthing.
I hated him more than ever from that day.
He saw the look on my face. Yelled at me. Why am I sorry for that filthy mutant.
In my defence I placed the fact that he was getting off on it. I said how it bothers me.
It looked like I had a thing for him. And from that damn hell day on….I had to play along.
Dinners, dates, kisses that I hate. And things after wich I go to my room and throw up.
I had to hide my X with make-up. What would he say if he saw it?
I have to cover it up all the time and worry about someone seeing it.
A member of the FOH having an X on her shoulder.
My feather is lost, gone. I did not want to keep it when I am like this. A shell of something. Good thing that the shell soon comes off.
Maybe that is why Chamber will not talk to me. Maybe he is hurt. He sences how I am hiding something from him.
But he must stop with the act. He is not a daisy flower, he is a strong mutant. There are not a lot of things that can get to him. He can not let that happen. What right does he even have over me?
He trew me away from himself like I was his slave that he can use to get his yats out and then send away when he suddenly feels guilt. Damn mother fucker.
O I am so not blocking away this little dialogue from him. Let him have it.
-Hey sweetie.
The bastard kisses my cheek and touches my hair. Does he realise that he is touching, kissing and fucking a mutant? I will keep him around untill everything starts. He is the first one that I will use my sonic kick on. Can not wait to see the look on his face.
-Hey.
-What happend to your hair? Christ! You re a hot fox now, aren t you?
And making sweet love to you….well that just gets me up.
How corny. God! And I have to keep up with him. Sorry but after today….free like a bird.
-Yeah, honey, yeah. I know that.
-I m having time off right now so if you re not buisy or anything….
-Can t. The icky red stuff desided to visit this week.
I was lieing. I never had a period after that last abortion. Lucky for me….how should he know that?
-Well then maybe we can just play games.
-I don t feel like playing games with the icky red stuff.
-How bout me?
-You I can handle.
-You haven t seen nogthing yet baby.
-Well whatever it is that I ll have to see….it s gonna have to wait for couple days or so.
-Too bad.
He kisses me again. Fucking pervert.
Emma knows how I hate this so she comes along with the security guy Mark. He and Josh start discusing one of the newest missions. The Delta fly. I am not sure what are they gonna do, they do not know themselfes. But I do know how they are planing to atack a school in Florida. A mutant school.
That is their tactics. To kill little children so that they do not grow up into strong mutants. I am afraid that the FOH is diging themselfes a grave with that tactics. They are not destroying possibly dangerous mutants. They are making ones that will kill them all. Like us. like me, kitty and Chamber. Like Gambit, Hipnotia and Rahne. Like Domino and Spyke.
A game to deadly for the weak FOH. They will get burned.
Emma smiles.
She knew what I was thinking.
All the way along it was a strange and boring day.
I contacted Psylock just to hear a few words from her. But she gave me just one.
-Focus
Josh shooke my hand a bit.
-You drifted away, you sleepy or something?
-No. Just hungry. Could you order some take out.
-Sure. Who else wants chinese?
Voices from all over the room said «I do». This is the begining. Stage one. Now Domino will come. Emma and Mark went back to his room to have lunch alone.
My adrenaline started to pump and I have not even moved. I want to run, I want to jump, I want to scream. Can not stand the sitting down thing with that ass kissing me and hugging me.
All I can do is wait. For the signal. And the signal is……..a big vlast. Curtosy of Chamber.
But not yet.
I hold my own hand while closing my eyes. It is gonna be here. Any minute now. As soon as Domino comes to the back door to deliver the food. As soon as she gives the signal. As soon as she kicks the brains out of those guys and gets in. Then Chamber does his thing with the others, distracting the robots. Wolwerine is going to make his little party near the control room where Victor Creed is.
I am gonna do mine right here. There are a lot of people here. About a hundred. I can take that on. No problem.
Suddenly an earthquake shakes the whole building. I see Hipnotia standing up and runing off to meet with Domino. I have to keep anybody from following her. If I do not….they will not be able to get out of here alive.
Josh makes a move to go outside. I hold him by his hand.
-No. Do not go.
-Sorry baby…
He tries to look heroic while he takes his gun.
-….but I have to.
-NO!
I pull him down so hard that he hits his head on the table. I use my power to close every exit out of this room. Now nobody goes in or out unless I have a say on that.
Everybody glare at me, the idiots do not still completley understand. Their atenchion is more occupated by the sounds cooming from upstairs. Wolwerine.
He always knew how to throw a party.
I stand above Josh. I am so gonna enjoy this. I am gonna do to him what he did to all the mutants that he killed. Worse.
I take a kick at him. Not just any, I use the sonic kick. He flies across the room all the way to the far wall. His scull cracks open. I wanted it to take more than that but….what can I say.
Now everybody finnaly noticed me. Instead of facing me they just stood scared and let a Slayer 2000 on me.
I am more powerful now than I ever was, more powerful than when i first met with this creature. I sliced him with the sword in a matter of seconds.
Now there were guns. I used my shield against that. I could see every single one coming from a mile away.
After I killed most of them, yes killed. Killed for the benefit of all. I was not supposed to do that but I had to. For my own protection and for the mutants on this planet.
Mistique came. I knew her.
We did not have to say a word. She morphed into her idiot disquises and I atacked her.
Then she morphed into me, she must have thought that it was bothering me. But quite the contrary……it was just giving me the new edge that I had to have.
I could have killed her but…..I could not.
Domino ran trough the room carying the computer files and Hipnotia s body chased by three Slayer 3000 robots.
That was just an excuse. I could have killed her in less than a second. I just felt sorry for her. It was my own weakness that gave in.
So I sliced these robots too. I could not be more amazed to the extent of my power. I went runing out to help everybody with the rest of the FOH.
There was a lot of fire, a lot of smoke. I coughed. Could not smell anything but the smoke.
Tears started runing from my eyes but I never the less kept on going.
I feel something hitting me. From behind. A laser gun in the hands of Mistique. It did nogthing to me because of the healing factor.
I turn around to finish this between me and her. To get her back for Dawn. I wanted to spear her but she choose not to be left alive. Not my deal.
I had a feeeling of danger, of something that is going to happen. But for the first time in my life I choose not to react to my sences who saved my life on numerous ocasions.
How could I not trust them enough.
In situations like this I usually toke my feather just in case. If there would be any trouble, the feather would take care of it.
But not now.
Now revenge and anger blinded me. What is your poison?
Fight, revenge and fight, then fight some more.
Nice poison.
A robot came to me from behind, it was too late for me to spot it in time. It put his sharp rotating blade deep into my back. I fell down and listened to Mistique s laughter while the robot blown its laser at me. Then it has all came to be dark.
I can honestly say how I never ever felt so low.
Darkness.
I feel like letting go.
Epilogue
«Unfortunatley the mutants whose genes we wanted to extract died. We can no longer get hold of them.
We have to find new subjects.»
What happened?
Do you really wanna know?
Profesor Xavier went mad. He could not handle what his students had to do to get the computer files that were fake.
He blamed himself for the atact on the mansion. He blamed himself for everything. Now he went to Indonesia and stayed there. Some believe that he got killed, some believe that he has started a new school there. But no one really knows.
Jean Grey withdrew from the life of a X-men to live with her family. She can t get over Scott s death, she will never be able to do that.
Emma Frost kept pushing the envelope for the issue of mutant rights. She s the mayor of NY now. But….the way she got to that position…..let s just say that it wasn t very honest.
The good thing is that she s doing a world of good.
Wolwerine realised how everybody went to the devil himself so that there is no reason that he doesn t follow them there. Jean will never love him, he knows that for a fact now.
He just went back to his old way of life.
Traveling, fucking and fighting.
But then he suddenly disapeared. There are indications that he was took to a secret lab up in south Canada. Emma is trying to find out where.
Rahne died. On Gambit s hands. She gave him her power of morphing in a way not yet explained. Now Gambit came back to his guild, Married Belladonna, the leader of the assasins guild. He is unhappy and just can t wait to get a chance to escape.
His desire is to see Rogue again.
Rogue is in England. She is still learning how to control her powers.
Domino survived as usual. Now she is in the WINGS. The wings are a highly trained group of mutant agents. She is there along with Psylock and Angel.
She still stayed in contact with Craft. Craft could not join her. Because Craft is in a wheelchair, unable to fight. The only thing from her fantastic powers that she can use is telepathy. She s trying to learn how to control the sword she can create without holding it.
She is keeping everything to herself and not yet even spoke to Rogue who lives in the home of Moira McTagert along with her.
Chamber died. When he saw the robot slicing Craft and burning her with its laser…..he ran to atack it. He managed to destroy it but it also destroyed him. He was controling far too much energy at the same time. So it «ate» his whole body.
Only his body is gone. Not the energy that was in it.
Hipnotia and Kitty went somwhere far away. No one knows where they are.
Evan nearly died. But thanks to Domino he stayed alive to die on the street atacked by a sentinel.
The Generation X is gone to rise no more. the X-men are a part of history.
Everything is gone and everything is ruined. There is noghting but shelles and pain left. Stupid mistakes led to stupid deaths.
-It was not their faults. They were so young, unexperienced. I should have never let them be Generation X. I should have sent them away and fight the FOH alne with Jean, Emma and Wolwerine. This can t be.
The sunrise is over and the night is here. And it s covered with stars. That fly to us and take us up higher.
They are all watching them.
Domino is on a mission. She is waiting to jump out of the bushes and to kick some ass.
Kitty is somwhere lost to the rest of the world. She is scared. She wants to go home but can t.
Gambit is watching the sky and looking for little Rogue up there.
Craft doesn t want to even throw a glare to them up so high.
Jean cries.
Emma barely can hold the sorow in herself.
Logan can t see the stars. He doesn t even know where he is.
The profesor is thinking about life and death. There will be something. Something big.
Rogue watches the sky silently naming one of the stars Remy.