Forever Sinners:
Chapter X—I am Me!
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A/N: I haven't been showing Johnny for a few chapters. He's mad at me, considering. So, this chapter is somewhat devoted to Johnny. Yup. That's all. Enjoy.
Disclaimer: Eek! Jhonen-sama…O.O;; I don't believe fire should touch one's body! OWIE! Anyone got some antiseptic?
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Johnny sat on the couch, watching the world fly by, as usual. He had gone out and check on Todd, as he always had. It wasn't new. It wasn't anything he hadn't done before.
He was bored.
This is why he took his vacation. To get away from moments like this. But it seems they enjoy plaguing him. Haunting him 'til he feels the urge to grab that gun and go back to the insanity that was "the after life."
Also, he was confused. He hated that. D had told him that he and Eff had been given bodies. That's impossible. Then again…meeting the son of the Devil seemed on the impossible order…so what did he know.
What had brought on this confusion was when he checked up on Todd. He saw Todd talking with Pepito, nothing new about that…except…the boy that was with them. He looked familiar. His aura was familiar…
Suddenly they caught each other's eyes. Shock and fear came across the boy's face as he quickly exited the booth.
Johnny left as well.
He couldn't…He couldn't have been…
"Eff…" Johnny was beyond shocked. That styrofoam doll…had actually gotten a body.
His eye lids closed, escaping the world, if just for a moment.
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Dreams…they are what keep me awake…because…when I dream…I remember…If I remember…will I be afraid of what I see…
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I sat in a small wooden desk. It was uncomfortable and small. I hated it. Only sixteen years old…already parentless, considered a freak…what more could go wrong? It seems a lot. The teacher had stepped out of the room. This meant the "children" in my class could gang up on me…as usual.
I allow my eyes to read over the words in my book. So lovely it was to read…to escape this reality to another which could always end in happiness.
"Hey!" A voice rung out. "Noodle Boy! What cha readin'?"
I ignore them, as I always do. Mother told me to do that…before she…
The book is yanked from my hands from a chubby kid, laughing loudly.
"Alice in Wonderland…?!" A loud bark of laughter. "Only babies read this!"
"Yeah!" A freckled face girl cried, laughing along.
Their laughter beat into my head, followed by the other children.
My mother had given me that book. She told me it was her favorite as a child. She said she knew I wouldn't like it because I was a boy…but I read it! I read it to remember her! To remember how sweet she was…how nice she made the world seem. But now I know the truth…how corrupt those are…only a few diamonds but even they are getting corrupted.
Assholes. I'll just have to teach them. Teach them how to respect the dead…teach them how to be kind to others…and they will learn. They will learn so they know how to behave in their next lives!
I pick up the first object next to me. A mechanical pencil. How…interesting.
Blood soon splatters on the floor. Screams follow soon by silence.
"Y-YOU KILLED HIM!"
"OH MY GOD!"
"JEFFERY!"
I calmly walk to the doorway, blocking their escape.
"D-Don't!"
"Let us go!"
"We're sorry!"
"Lies." I say, in calm cold voice. "You only say that because you fear for your lives. If I had asked you to stop you would laugh…as you always have."
"No!"
"We wouldn't!"
"Shut up!" I feel the pent up anger of all those years ago build. "It's time to teach you how to act nice…perhaps your reincarnations will be decent people for once!"
"Y-you're mad…"
I find my smile widening. "We're all mad here[9]."
I raise the bloody pencil. Screams and the splattering of blood upon the ground. The hymn of destruction. Of my mind. My innocence. And the lives of those I claimed.
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Johnny's eyes snapped open. That's right…that was how it happened. All those years…all that pent up hatred. The man who killed his family was to blame. Johnny had never caught that man. How he wanted to kill him…to make him pay. But he never could.
The destruction of his mind from the inside out. Guilt. Hatred for himself. For everyone. It drove him mad.
Johnny panted a bit. Why…why did you leave me all alone…?
"Aww…Johnny don't look so sad."
His head snapped upwards, towards the door.
"It doesn't look good on you at all." D smiled, two fangs sticking out of his mouth.
"…YOU…!"
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TBC?
C&C are welcome!
[9] What the Cheshire Cat says to Alice in the book.
Isn't Johnny really smart at sixteen? Wee!! Oh right…the next chapter is dealing with Eff and Pepito again…@.@;; Fear it?