Disclaimer:
Playgirl Taichi: Lily-san does not own Digimon, but Toei does. Nor Alex, Kittamon, and her evolutions. Those are Jamie Bond's!
Lily-san: This chapter is gonna be depressing.
Playgirl Taichi: Like some of her other chapters. :D
Lily-san:.....
Playgirl Taichi: Gomen.
Lily-san: Don't expect much funny stuff this chapter. I'm not feelng too good.
Playgirl Taichi: She don't mean the things she did. Look at me! xD
Lily-san:.......
Playgirl Taichi: Oh boy...well on with the story.
Lily-san: Oh, quick note. This is mostly going to be flashback and such and such, ok? ok. Oh yeah. Lily's sucidal, just like my rp chara. Got a problem? Deal if you're going to read this.
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~`*Love's Eternal Bliss*`~
~`*The Series*`~
~`*Part Twelve*`~
~`*Broken Heart, Broken Fate*`~
That night Matt couldn't sleep.
He turned to the side, where he was facing Lily.
He listened to her breathing, she was still having trouble with it.
Matt had dreamt so many times of spending the rest of his life with her.
Being married, forever by her side.
Joined souls living together forever.
But he knew that wasn't possible if she didn't make it.
He remembered when she first got sick, or when she was at the hospital.
Of course everybody else was fast asleep, so he was basically the only one wide awake.
Tears started to fill up his eyes, and slowly going down his cheek.
Ever since he met that girl, he always wondered that what he felt was love. But now he knows for sure. He wants her to live.
He started to sniffle, but it wasn't really that loud, but Lily did stir.
He got up and sat by her side.
He started to stroke her hair, giving each strand equal attention.
He layed down by her, still stroking her hair.
She continued to stagger breath.
"I love you." he whispered.
Then he noticed that she was freezing and that she had pushed the covers off.
He reached for the quilt and placed it over the brunette.
Then she stopped shivering.
He layed his head down on the pillow, still looking at his beloved.
He adjusted himself where Lily was in his arms and that her head on his chest, with his head on top of hers.
Then he heard her sniffling.
He held her closer.
"It's ok...I'm here..." he whispered in his smooth, comforting voice.
She grabbed his pajama shirt and sobbed into it.
He patted her on the head, almost wanting to cry himself.
"Matt..." she said, between her sobs.
"Don't worry, I won't let you die. Even if I die myself, at least I'll know that you're ok." as he held her tighter, but not too tight.
"I-I'm sorry..."
"For what?"
"F-for making you worry about me."
"Lily, that's my duty. I have to worry about you. I love you, you know that?"
"I love you too, Matt."
"And nothing will destroy our love, do you understand me? Not even stupid little things. I'll love you forever."
"An-and I'll love you forever too."
He kissed her head.
Soon Lily got comfortable and she fell asleep in Matt's arms.
He just stayed on the bed with her. Then he too got cold.
He got the quilt and put it over him, thus making him and Lily closer.
He rubbed her shoulders, then her back.
He was happy, just to be in her presence.
Since the beach in Hawaii, he had convinced himself that he and Lily were destined.
That soon they would be joined.
Joined together, for even longer than death.
He finally closed his eyes with those thoughts.
"I love you." as he fell into a slumber.
Matt didn't realize it but his hand went to her curves, stroking lightly.
Soon it stopped.
It was silent for the rest of the night, well unless you count Tai's snoring.
****
The next morning, Izzy woke up, freezing.
"Why is it so cold?" he thought as he rubbed his arms.
He looked outside and it was snowing.
"No wonder...time to turn the heater." as he walked to the thermoneter (Sp?) to turn on the heat.
Since he had to pass the guest room, he went inside to check on Lily.
He saw Matt holding Lily close to his heart underneath the quilt his great- grandmother gave his mother before she passed away, and they were fast asleep. And it seemed Lily's breathing returned to normal.
He smiled at the couple and closed the door.
"She seems to be in good hands." he thought as he closed the door.
He continued on his way to turn on the heater.
****
Lily was still laying down, while Matt watched her. She had fell asleep again.
No matter what the others say, he would NEVER leave her side.
"No. I love her too much to leave her." he told them.
So they put him in charge of Lily.
Then he noticed that her wrist was hanging from the bedside.
It had a lot of slashes/scars on it.
"Lily...." as he took her hand into his.
He brought it close to his lips and kissed it.
Then he noticed that Lily was crying, but silently.
~`*Lily's Dream*`~
Lily came straight into her room, before anyone asked her what was wrong.
She shut the door and got something out of her backpack from when she was in the kitchen.
It looked like one those really big knives that you cut tough meat with.
She insert in her left wrist and slash it immediatly.
Then she fell on the ground on her knees, crying and holding on to her wrist.
"Why did that boy had to be mean? Why?" she cried softly and as blood trickled down.
Lily grimanced, but somehow she knew that she was going to get used to it.
****
After finding out what Tai did in the Digital World, and after her mother and sister left her alone, she looked at her pillow.
She put her right hand underneath it and was searching for something.
She turned her left wrist around, where there was a lot of scars from previous events.
Finally she pulled a rather long bloody blade.
"I've never thought I'd used this again. I guess I was wrong."
She put the point into her skin and slashed quickly.
"Ow!" she said as quietly as she could.
Blood trickled from her wrist, and started to drip on the comforter.
Tears continued to come out.
"I love you Tai...." she said as she resumed crying.
****
After she cried at her door, she went to her room and slamed the door.
She got out the knife again and slashed herself again.
"Why Matt? Am I really that bad of a friend?" as she cried and blood trickled down.
~`*End Of Lily's Dream*`~
Next thing Lily knew, she was in someone's arms and sitting up.
She looked up and there was Matt stroking her hair and humming "Truly, Madly, Deeply" in his deep, smooth, comforting voice.
"Hey, are you ok?" he asked.
"Yes."
"It doesn't look like it." as he held her left wrist.
She looked at it.
"Care to explain it?"
"I've been getting mosquito bites."
"Sorry. Wrong answer."
She looked at Matt.
"Tell me the truth."
She looked at her wrist again.
"It's none of your concern."
"Yes it is Lily. I love you, and you know I ca--"
"Your just taking pity on me."
"Lily, please. Tell me."
"Why?"
"Because I'm concerned for you!"
"Leave me alone and let me die! I deserve it."
"No you don't. Don't say that."
"Why? Afraid of the truth?"
Then Tai, Izzy and Alex came in.
"What's going on?" asked Tai.
Then they noticed Lily's cut up wrist.
"Lily? What happened?"
She jerked her hand away from Matt's.
"It's none of your concern. I'm as good as dead."
"Yes it is! Lily!"
"Lily, what are you talking about?"
"I'm dying. And once I'm gone, everything will be all cheery again."
"No it won't! Lily, get those thoughts out of your head!" as he shook the brunette.
"Things would be worse."
"Lily, please tell me what happened to your wrist."
"I cut myself. Big whoop."
"Why?"
"It's none of your business. Now leave me alone."
"No. I love you too much!"
Tai was also going to speak up, but he backed down.
Since he made a promise that he would never mention his love for her ever again, except to Kari, since that night.
"Please, Lily, tell me why you cut yourself." said Matt.
She looked up at him then at Tai.
"You both know the answers. Figure it out for yourselves." she said.
Tai looked down, trying his hardest not to cry.
Matt started to think also. Then he looked at the brunette's eyes.
Her eyes had tears in it. You can tell that she didn't want to cry, but she was.
Then Matt held her close again.
"I never ever meant to hurt you. And you know that. Right Tai?" he said as he looked at Tai.
"....."
"Well?"
"R-right."
Then he looked at her again.
"I think I should leave." said Izzy, looking at his watch.
"Yeah. Me too." Alex said as she went off behind Izzy. "Tai? You coming?"
Tai looked at both Matt and Lily. How much he misses Lily in his arms! He wanted to hold her and say those things that comes straight from his heart. He didn't really understood why she chose Matt over him. But he wanted her to be happy.
He then noticed that Lily was crying in Matt's arms, and he was doing everything in his power to comfort her.
There were times where Tai just want to beat Matt down and take Lily back, but he held his ground.
"I love you, Lily. You know I would never want to hurt you ever." he said in a supposed whisper.
Tai knew his eyes were watering up, because he wanted to comfort the brunette, instead of Matt.
"Tai!" called Alex.
Then he snapped back to reality.
"Coming." he said, before he glanced at his one true love.
As he looked at her, he closed the door behind him.
"I love you." he said in his mind.
She looked at the blonde, then resumed crying.
He stroked her hair as she cried and tried to calm her down.
"It's okay. I'm right here to protect you."
"Bu-but I'm dying, Matt." she said in between sobs.
"No you're not. Koushiro's looking for a cure. Dammit! If Jyou were here, it would be a whole lot better."
Soon, Lily stopped crying. Matt put her on the bed and placed the covers over her.
Tears continued to come down her cheek though as she looked at him.
"It'll be okay. {takes her hand and kisses it} I know it will."
She didn't say anything, but she did sniffle.
He leaned forward and kissed her on her forehead.
"Now go back to sleep." as he gave her a reassuring smile.
She smiled back, soon she fell asleep again.
Matt sighed as he looked at her and sat back down.
Then he looked at the fan which was steadily going.
"I wish there was a way to cure her." he thought to himself.
Then he looked around the room, looking for something.
He found what he was looking for and put on the strap.
"Good thing I got this other one." he said as he got out a piece of paper and a pencil out.
Then he started to strum the guitar, making it up as he went along.
There were times where he strummed too loud and Lily moved a bit. But she was practically sound asleep.
He smiled at her and continued his business.
****
Soon he put down the pencil.
"Finally. I thought I would never get done." he thought.
He read the paper and made some markings on it.
"She'll love this. I know she will." he smiled.
Then he fold it up and put it in his music notebook he carries.
Then Tai came in.
"Matt. Izzy needs you." he said.
"Why?"
"Uh...you know his big words confuses me!" as he scratched the back of his head, sweatdropped, and laughed nervously.
"You know I wouldn't leave Lily. No matter what." as he looked at the sleeping girl.
Tai blinked and thought for a little bit.
"Then Gabumon needs you. Man! I get those two mixed up sometimes!"
"Is he okay?"
"Huh? Yeah. Go find out for yourself."
"Okay. I will." as he stood up and put the guitar on the chair he was sitting on. "Hey Tai?"
"Hai?"
"Don't break this one."
"{laughs nervously}"
Then Matt left to go check on Gabumon.
Tai looked out the door and looked both ways then closed the door and locked it.
He walked to the bed, and sat down, looking at the girl.
She was still stagger breathing.
Tai leaned foreword and kissed her on the cheek.
"I love you." he whispered in her ear.
He stroked her hair numerous times.
Tai sighed as he sat there, stroking the girl's hair.
"I really wish you were mine again. You don't know what would I do if you died."
He took her hand and rubbed it on his face.
Then he heard Lily cough really hard, hard enough for blood to come out.
He looked at her with concern in his eyes.
Soon she stopped and she shoved off the covers.
Then she curled up into a ball.
He placed her head on his lap somehow, and continued to stroke her head.
But she wasn't comfortable.
She didn't know who was there so she just placed her head on the pillow she was on.
Tai decided to lay down next to her.
Again, he kissed her on the cheek.
He really missed holding her in his arms. Kissing her, making sure she's near him.
But, once again, fate had been cruel to him, he thought to himself.
He "stretched" his arms over her waist, making her closer to him.
He somehow turned her where she was facing him.
He brought her closer to him.
"I love you." he said again.
Tai wanted to be with her, not just as a friend, but as her boyfriend again.
He put the girl's head on his chest and was trying his hardest not to cry again.
"No matter how many times your going to say it, she'll never say those words to you again. Only to Yamato." his mind mocked him.
He squinted his eyes shut, trying to block out the green-eye monster.
"She loves me. But just not in that way any more." he tried telling himself.
"Yep, and she'll just treat you nothing special than how she treats Yamato." his mind said.
"No! I can't be like that jack-ass Tory!" he said out loud.
"No you can't be like Tory. Yamato is. He's just trying to lay her." the green-eyed monster taunted. "Now you don't want that happening to your precious Lily, ne?"
"N-no. But I know he wouldn't do that."
"Are you sure about that? Are you sure that he wasn't trying to lay her ANY point of time? Besides, your best friend is usually your worst enemy."
Lily opened her eyes slightly.
Tai froze for just that minute.
She smiled and closed her eyes. Soon she was sleeping soundly.
Tai brought her head closer to his heart.
Tai reached for the quilt and placed it over them, but mostly on Lily.
"You are my Tiger Lily." he said as he looked as her.
"Yamato's Tiger Lily. Not Taichi's Tiger Lily. Not ever." the green-eyed monster.
Tai tried to block out the comments.
"Besides, Yamato stole your first crush. He's just after Lily just for the spite of it."
"He didn't even like Sora." he thought, as tears slowly came down his cheeks.
He snuggled with the brunette ever so lovingly.
He stared at her as held her in his arms.
"This is where she belongs in my life." he thought as he closed his eyes.
Then he felt Lily getting more closer.
This, obviously, made him blush.
"She thinks you're Yamato." his mind said.
"I don't care." as he hugged her tight, but not too tight.
"TAI! YOU BETTER OPEN THIS DOOR!!!" shouted Yamato.
This obviously startled him.
"Calm down Yamato! Lily's sleeping!" he heard Alex say.
A few moments later, and Matt came in with hatred in his eyes.
Tai got up.
Matt took Tai by the shirt.
"What's your problem?" he asked Matt.
"What were you doing?"
"I was laying down with Lily! So what?"
Matt shot him a death glare and was about to punch him when he heard Lily say, "Yamato-san?" sleepily.
He glanced at the brunette who was laying down on the bed. He put Tai on the ground and sat down on the bed next to her.
"You okay?" he asked.
"I'm just hungry."
"As usual."
"{giggles} Hai..."
Tai just pretty much stared at the girl laying down.
"Chicken soup?"
"Hai."
"Coming right up." as he kissed her on the cheek.
Soon he left the room.
"How can he change moods that quickly?" he thought.
Then Lily noticed Tai.
"Hiyo." she said.
He blushed inwardly and looked at the ground.
"H-hi."
"What's wrong? You look like you got ants in your pants!"
He laughed.
"Though there are no ants here. Or at least I hope not."
Tai laughed again.
"But that's besides the point."
"Ah it's nothing." he smiled at her.
"You're sure?"
"Hai."
"Ah fine. Be that way."
He smiled at her again.
Tai was about to sit on Matt's guitar when Lily said, "Hey big-butt! Don't break that! Or are you destined to become the great guitar breaker?"
Tai looked at the guitar and laughed again.
"No." as he pulled up another chair.
Then Matt came back in with chicken soup in a bowl (duh...-_-;,) in a tray with a cup full of ice and Sprite.
Lily sat up and said, "Thankies!"
"Any time." he said.
Matt and Tai stared at the girl as she ate.
"What? Do I have a hell of a booger on my face? Crap." she said as she wiped her face.
Matt and Tai both laughed.
"Did I get it? No? EVIL booger....it shall be vanquished..."
They laughed again.
"Where's my slave? Where's my whip? Dammit you just can't find anything anymore, ne?"
"I found what I was looking for." both Matt and Tai thought.
"I need to get rid of this evil booger!! It's EVIL I say!" she said.
By now, both bishys were cracking up.
She drank some of her Sprite.
"Why are you looking at me that way? I swear it was the penguin who stole your underwear, Yamato! You know I wouldn't do such a hentai thing!"
You could tell they were having a blast...^_^;,
Soon she was done.
Yamato took the tray.
"Careful with that."
"Why?"
"Cause that penguin's still loose. And he's willing to steal your underwear even if you're wearing it."
"{Laughs} But why the tray?"
"Because you may fall and break Izzy's laptop. And boy. You don't want to see him when it comes to his laptop. Oy."
"What happened?"
"Er...{sweatdrop} I accidently put a virus on his comp..."
"{Laughs} Typicial you."
"Yes that's right. And don't you forget it!"
"I surely won't." Tai and Yamato thought.
Then she started to cough hard.
"Lily! You okay?"
"Does it look like it?" she said between coughs.
Then she coughed up blood finally.
Matt immediatly went to the bathroom, while Tai rushed to Izzy.
Then Tai and Izzy came back in.
Matt came back in with a towel to clean her up.
Naturally, Matt blushed as he cleaned her up, because it was mostly on her chest.
"Ooh crap." was all Lily could say.
Tai and Izzy lift her up by the arms.
"She needs to take a shower, cause she got blood all over herself and she can't take it alone." infered Izzy.
Naturally (I LOVE that word *_*), Tai and Matt blushed.
"I can take care of myself, thank you very much."
"No Lily, you're ill. What if you were to fall down unconsious and we wouldn't know about it?"
"....."
"Exactly."
"....."
"What?"
"Shutup Izzy."
"...."
"But Lily. You know that Koushiro's right."
"I know. That's why I want him to shut-up."
"But you need someone to...to watch you in the shower." blushed Yamato.
"And I know who's gonna! Alex!"
"But Izzy needs me to help. Get your boyfriend to do it."
By now, Yamato was beet red.
Tai was getting jealous again but he didn't show it.
Lily looked at Matt.
"Okay. Just as long as you'll turn around and don't look at me..." she said with a sweatdrop.
Yamato just stood there like an idiot.
"...Uh okay! Tai! I'm gonna need help."
Now it was Tai's turn to blush.
She walked out of the room and to the bathroom as she coughed up blood again.
****
"ARGH!!! WHY WON'T SHE DIE?!!!" Cheryl screamed on top of her lungs as she was about to pull out her hair.
"Now you know how I felt when I tried to kill her. Damn you Yamato, you damn dumb blonde!"
Cheryl ignored Sora as she was thinking.
"I forgot! It takes time for her to die. She has to suffer. {laughs}"
****
"AHHH!!! STOP LOOKING TAI, YOU PERVERT!!!" as Lily covered herself with the shower curtain.
"What? I'm just trying to wash your legs!"
"......."
"{sweatdrop}"
"Tai, just wash her legs."
"I can't! She won't let me!"
"Lily. Let Tai wash your legs. They are covered in blood and God-knows-what else."
"I can clean my legs myself!"
Matt grabbed the soapy towel and jerked the curtain, of course both closing their eyes, and soaped up her legs.
"There."
"......"
"What?"
"GET YOUR HANDS AWAY FROM THERE!!!!!"
****
As Matt and Tai tried to clean Lily up, Izzy and Alex were trying their hardest to concentrate.
"DAMMIT, STOP LOOKING THERE YOU DAMN PERVERTS!!!!" they heard Lily shout.
Finally Izzy and Alex finally cracked.
Alex and Izzy were just cracking up as Lily shouted at Tai and Matt.
Then Turriririmon walked in.
"What's so funny?" she asked Alex.
Alex was to busy laughing.
"Mew?" as she tilted her head in confusion.
****
A few hours went by and Lily finally came out with a towel wrapped around her body.
Matt and Tai came out also, but they were soaking wet.
"What happened?" asked Izzy, but he knew what, he just wanted to embarass them more.
"Let's just say that Lily also gave us a bath also."
"Man, if the neighbors were here, they'll call the cops for rape or something." said Tai as he tried to pour water out of his ears.
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Lily-san: ._.;; sorry for the LOOONG delay. I just have been busy. Hoped you liked this chapter. ^.^;;
{Angel Yamato and the others appear unhurt}
Lily-san: ANGEL YAMATO! *_*
Angel Yamato: o.o; You were right as usual Koushiro....she did miss me.
Lily-san: {huggles Angel Yamato as tears come out} I was soo worried!!
Angel Yamato: ^_^;; well I'm okay and back to be the disclamier person again.
Playgirl Taichi: {in casts and bandages} -_- Finally you came back. Lily- san was about to murder me...
Lily-san: For one thing NOBODY sent me any yaoi ideas...so it was obvious they didn't like you no more....;-;
Angel Yamato: {looks at the readers} Now look what you done. You made Lily- san cry. *sigh*
Lily-san: But I will still do request stories. Only in these types of genre: Humor, Romance, and Action/Adventure. ._.; as you noticed I still need some learing on that....But ANYWAYS... e-mail me at A HREF="Tigerlily1987@aol.com"Tigerlily1987@aol.com/A! ^.^ E-mail me soon!
Playgirl Taichi: Lily-san does not own Digimon, but Toei does. Nor Alex, Kittamon, and her evolutions. Those are Jamie Bond's!
Lily-san: This chapter is gonna be depressing.
Playgirl Taichi: Like some of her other chapters. :D
Lily-san:.....
Playgirl Taichi: Gomen.
Lily-san: Don't expect much funny stuff this chapter. I'm not feelng too good.
Playgirl Taichi: She don't mean the things she did. Look at me! xD
Lily-san:.......
Playgirl Taichi: Oh boy...well on with the story.
Lily-san: Oh, quick note. This is mostly going to be flashback and such and such, ok? ok. Oh yeah. Lily's sucidal, just like my rp chara. Got a problem? Deal if you're going to read this.
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~`*Love's Eternal Bliss*`~
~`*The Series*`~
~`*Part Twelve*`~
~`*Broken Heart, Broken Fate*`~
That night Matt couldn't sleep.
He turned to the side, where he was facing Lily.
He listened to her breathing, she was still having trouble with it.
Matt had dreamt so many times of spending the rest of his life with her.
Being married, forever by her side.
Joined souls living together forever.
But he knew that wasn't possible if she didn't make it.
He remembered when she first got sick, or when she was at the hospital.
Of course everybody else was fast asleep, so he was basically the only one wide awake.
Tears started to fill up his eyes, and slowly going down his cheek.
Ever since he met that girl, he always wondered that what he felt was love. But now he knows for sure. He wants her to live.
He started to sniffle, but it wasn't really that loud, but Lily did stir.
He got up and sat by her side.
He started to stroke her hair, giving each strand equal attention.
He layed down by her, still stroking her hair.
She continued to stagger breath.
"I love you." he whispered.
Then he noticed that she was freezing and that she had pushed the covers off.
He reached for the quilt and placed it over the brunette.
Then she stopped shivering.
He layed his head down on the pillow, still looking at his beloved.
He adjusted himself where Lily was in his arms and that her head on his chest, with his head on top of hers.
Then he heard her sniffling.
He held her closer.
"It's ok...I'm here..." he whispered in his smooth, comforting voice.
She grabbed his pajama shirt and sobbed into it.
He patted her on the head, almost wanting to cry himself.
"Matt..." she said, between her sobs.
"Don't worry, I won't let you die. Even if I die myself, at least I'll know that you're ok." as he held her tighter, but not too tight.
"I-I'm sorry..."
"For what?"
"F-for making you worry about me."
"Lily, that's my duty. I have to worry about you. I love you, you know that?"
"I love you too, Matt."
"And nothing will destroy our love, do you understand me? Not even stupid little things. I'll love you forever."
"An-and I'll love you forever too."
He kissed her head.
Soon Lily got comfortable and she fell asleep in Matt's arms.
He just stayed on the bed with her. Then he too got cold.
He got the quilt and put it over him, thus making him and Lily closer.
He rubbed her shoulders, then her back.
He was happy, just to be in her presence.
Since the beach in Hawaii, he had convinced himself that he and Lily were destined.
That soon they would be joined.
Joined together, for even longer than death.
He finally closed his eyes with those thoughts.
"I love you." as he fell into a slumber.
Matt didn't realize it but his hand went to her curves, stroking lightly.
Soon it stopped.
It was silent for the rest of the night, well unless you count Tai's snoring.
****
The next morning, Izzy woke up, freezing.
"Why is it so cold?" he thought as he rubbed his arms.
He looked outside and it was snowing.
"No wonder...time to turn the heater." as he walked to the thermoneter (Sp?) to turn on the heat.
Since he had to pass the guest room, he went inside to check on Lily.
He saw Matt holding Lily close to his heart underneath the quilt his great- grandmother gave his mother before she passed away, and they were fast asleep. And it seemed Lily's breathing returned to normal.
He smiled at the couple and closed the door.
"She seems to be in good hands." he thought as he closed the door.
He continued on his way to turn on the heater.
****
Lily was still laying down, while Matt watched her. She had fell asleep again.
No matter what the others say, he would NEVER leave her side.
"No. I love her too much to leave her." he told them.
So they put him in charge of Lily.
Then he noticed that her wrist was hanging from the bedside.
It had a lot of slashes/scars on it.
"Lily...." as he took her hand into his.
He brought it close to his lips and kissed it.
Then he noticed that Lily was crying, but silently.
~`*Lily's Dream*`~
Lily came straight into her room, before anyone asked her what was wrong.
She shut the door and got something out of her backpack from when she was in the kitchen.
It looked like one those really big knives that you cut tough meat with.
She insert in her left wrist and slash it immediatly.
Then she fell on the ground on her knees, crying and holding on to her wrist.
"Why did that boy had to be mean? Why?" she cried softly and as blood trickled down.
Lily grimanced, but somehow she knew that she was going to get used to it.
****
After finding out what Tai did in the Digital World, and after her mother and sister left her alone, she looked at her pillow.
She put her right hand underneath it and was searching for something.
She turned her left wrist around, where there was a lot of scars from previous events.
Finally she pulled a rather long bloody blade.
"I've never thought I'd used this again. I guess I was wrong."
She put the point into her skin and slashed quickly.
"Ow!" she said as quietly as she could.
Blood trickled from her wrist, and started to drip on the comforter.
Tears continued to come out.
"I love you Tai...." she said as she resumed crying.
****
After she cried at her door, she went to her room and slamed the door.
She got out the knife again and slashed herself again.
"Why Matt? Am I really that bad of a friend?" as she cried and blood trickled down.
~`*End Of Lily's Dream*`~
Next thing Lily knew, she was in someone's arms and sitting up.
She looked up and there was Matt stroking her hair and humming "Truly, Madly, Deeply" in his deep, smooth, comforting voice.
"Hey, are you ok?" he asked.
"Yes."
"It doesn't look like it." as he held her left wrist.
She looked at it.
"Care to explain it?"
"I've been getting mosquito bites."
"Sorry. Wrong answer."
She looked at Matt.
"Tell me the truth."
She looked at her wrist again.
"It's none of your concern."
"Yes it is Lily. I love you, and you know I ca--"
"Your just taking pity on me."
"Lily, please. Tell me."
"Why?"
"Because I'm concerned for you!"
"Leave me alone and let me die! I deserve it."
"No you don't. Don't say that."
"Why? Afraid of the truth?"
Then Tai, Izzy and Alex came in.
"What's going on?" asked Tai.
Then they noticed Lily's cut up wrist.
"Lily? What happened?"
She jerked her hand away from Matt's.
"It's none of your concern. I'm as good as dead."
"Yes it is! Lily!"
"Lily, what are you talking about?"
"I'm dying. And once I'm gone, everything will be all cheery again."
"No it won't! Lily, get those thoughts out of your head!" as he shook the brunette.
"Things would be worse."
"Lily, please tell me what happened to your wrist."
"I cut myself. Big whoop."
"Why?"
"It's none of your business. Now leave me alone."
"No. I love you too much!"
Tai was also going to speak up, but he backed down.
Since he made a promise that he would never mention his love for her ever again, except to Kari, since that night.
"Please, Lily, tell me why you cut yourself." said Matt.
She looked up at him then at Tai.
"You both know the answers. Figure it out for yourselves." she said.
Tai looked down, trying his hardest not to cry.
Matt started to think also. Then he looked at the brunette's eyes.
Her eyes had tears in it. You can tell that she didn't want to cry, but she was.
Then Matt held her close again.
"I never ever meant to hurt you. And you know that. Right Tai?" he said as he looked at Tai.
"....."
"Well?"
"R-right."
Then he looked at her again.
"I think I should leave." said Izzy, looking at his watch.
"Yeah. Me too." Alex said as she went off behind Izzy. "Tai? You coming?"
Tai looked at both Matt and Lily. How much he misses Lily in his arms! He wanted to hold her and say those things that comes straight from his heart. He didn't really understood why she chose Matt over him. But he wanted her to be happy.
He then noticed that Lily was crying in Matt's arms, and he was doing everything in his power to comfort her.
There were times where Tai just want to beat Matt down and take Lily back, but he held his ground.
"I love you, Lily. You know I would never want to hurt you ever." he said in a supposed whisper.
Tai knew his eyes were watering up, because he wanted to comfort the brunette, instead of Matt.
"Tai!" called Alex.
Then he snapped back to reality.
"Coming." he said, before he glanced at his one true love.
As he looked at her, he closed the door behind him.
"I love you." he said in his mind.
She looked at the blonde, then resumed crying.
He stroked her hair as she cried and tried to calm her down.
"It's okay. I'm right here to protect you."
"Bu-but I'm dying, Matt." she said in between sobs.
"No you're not. Koushiro's looking for a cure. Dammit! If Jyou were here, it would be a whole lot better."
Soon, Lily stopped crying. Matt put her on the bed and placed the covers over her.
Tears continued to come down her cheek though as she looked at him.
"It'll be okay. {takes her hand and kisses it} I know it will."
She didn't say anything, but she did sniffle.
He leaned forward and kissed her on her forehead.
"Now go back to sleep." as he gave her a reassuring smile.
She smiled back, soon she fell asleep again.
Matt sighed as he looked at her and sat back down.
Then he looked at the fan which was steadily going.
"I wish there was a way to cure her." he thought to himself.
Then he looked around the room, looking for something.
He found what he was looking for and put on the strap.
"Good thing I got this other one." he said as he got out a piece of paper and a pencil out.
Then he started to strum the guitar, making it up as he went along.
There were times where he strummed too loud and Lily moved a bit. But she was practically sound asleep.
He smiled at her and continued his business.
****
Soon he put down the pencil.
"Finally. I thought I would never get done." he thought.
He read the paper and made some markings on it.
"She'll love this. I know she will." he smiled.
Then he fold it up and put it in his music notebook he carries.
Then Tai came in.
"Matt. Izzy needs you." he said.
"Why?"
"Uh...you know his big words confuses me!" as he scratched the back of his head, sweatdropped, and laughed nervously.
"You know I wouldn't leave Lily. No matter what." as he looked at the sleeping girl.
Tai blinked and thought for a little bit.
"Then Gabumon needs you. Man! I get those two mixed up sometimes!"
"Is he okay?"
"Huh? Yeah. Go find out for yourself."
"Okay. I will." as he stood up and put the guitar on the chair he was sitting on. "Hey Tai?"
"Hai?"
"Don't break this one."
"{laughs nervously}"
Then Matt left to go check on Gabumon.
Tai looked out the door and looked both ways then closed the door and locked it.
He walked to the bed, and sat down, looking at the girl.
She was still stagger breathing.
Tai leaned foreword and kissed her on the cheek.
"I love you." he whispered in her ear.
He stroked her hair numerous times.
Tai sighed as he sat there, stroking the girl's hair.
"I really wish you were mine again. You don't know what would I do if you died."
He took her hand and rubbed it on his face.
Then he heard Lily cough really hard, hard enough for blood to come out.
He looked at her with concern in his eyes.
Soon she stopped and she shoved off the covers.
Then she curled up into a ball.
He placed her head on his lap somehow, and continued to stroke her head.
But she wasn't comfortable.
She didn't know who was there so she just placed her head on the pillow she was on.
Tai decided to lay down next to her.
Again, he kissed her on the cheek.
He really missed holding her in his arms. Kissing her, making sure she's near him.
But, once again, fate had been cruel to him, he thought to himself.
He "stretched" his arms over her waist, making her closer to him.
He somehow turned her where she was facing him.
He brought her closer to him.
"I love you." he said again.
Tai wanted to be with her, not just as a friend, but as her boyfriend again.
He put the girl's head on his chest and was trying his hardest not to cry again.
"No matter how many times your going to say it, she'll never say those words to you again. Only to Yamato." his mind mocked him.
He squinted his eyes shut, trying to block out the green-eye monster.
"She loves me. But just not in that way any more." he tried telling himself.
"Yep, and she'll just treat you nothing special than how she treats Yamato." his mind said.
"No! I can't be like that jack-ass Tory!" he said out loud.
"No you can't be like Tory. Yamato is. He's just trying to lay her." the green-eyed monster taunted. "Now you don't want that happening to your precious Lily, ne?"
"N-no. But I know he wouldn't do that."
"Are you sure about that? Are you sure that he wasn't trying to lay her ANY point of time? Besides, your best friend is usually your worst enemy."
Lily opened her eyes slightly.
Tai froze for just that minute.
She smiled and closed her eyes. Soon she was sleeping soundly.
Tai brought her head closer to his heart.
Tai reached for the quilt and placed it over them, but mostly on Lily.
"You are my Tiger Lily." he said as he looked as her.
"Yamato's Tiger Lily. Not Taichi's Tiger Lily. Not ever." the green-eyed monster.
Tai tried to block out the comments.
"Besides, Yamato stole your first crush. He's just after Lily just for the spite of it."
"He didn't even like Sora." he thought, as tears slowly came down his cheeks.
He snuggled with the brunette ever so lovingly.
He stared at her as held her in his arms.
"This is where she belongs in my life." he thought as he closed his eyes.
Then he felt Lily getting more closer.
This, obviously, made him blush.
"She thinks you're Yamato." his mind said.
"I don't care." as he hugged her tight, but not too tight.
"TAI! YOU BETTER OPEN THIS DOOR!!!" shouted Yamato.
This obviously startled him.
"Calm down Yamato! Lily's sleeping!" he heard Alex say.
A few moments later, and Matt came in with hatred in his eyes.
Tai got up.
Matt took Tai by the shirt.
"What's your problem?" he asked Matt.
"What were you doing?"
"I was laying down with Lily! So what?"
Matt shot him a death glare and was about to punch him when he heard Lily say, "Yamato-san?" sleepily.
He glanced at the brunette who was laying down on the bed. He put Tai on the ground and sat down on the bed next to her.
"You okay?" he asked.
"I'm just hungry."
"As usual."
"{giggles} Hai..."
Tai just pretty much stared at the girl laying down.
"Chicken soup?"
"Hai."
"Coming right up." as he kissed her on the cheek.
Soon he left the room.
"How can he change moods that quickly?" he thought.
Then Lily noticed Tai.
"Hiyo." she said.
He blushed inwardly and looked at the ground.
"H-hi."
"What's wrong? You look like you got ants in your pants!"
He laughed.
"Though there are no ants here. Or at least I hope not."
Tai laughed again.
"But that's besides the point."
"Ah it's nothing." he smiled at her.
"You're sure?"
"Hai."
"Ah fine. Be that way."
He smiled at her again.
Tai was about to sit on Matt's guitar when Lily said, "Hey big-butt! Don't break that! Or are you destined to become the great guitar breaker?"
Tai looked at the guitar and laughed again.
"No." as he pulled up another chair.
Then Matt came back in with chicken soup in a bowl (duh...-_-;,) in a tray with a cup full of ice and Sprite.
Lily sat up and said, "Thankies!"
"Any time." he said.
Matt and Tai stared at the girl as she ate.
"What? Do I have a hell of a booger on my face? Crap." she said as she wiped her face.
Matt and Tai both laughed.
"Did I get it? No? EVIL booger....it shall be vanquished..."
They laughed again.
"Where's my slave? Where's my whip? Dammit you just can't find anything anymore, ne?"
"I found what I was looking for." both Matt and Tai thought.
"I need to get rid of this evil booger!! It's EVIL I say!" she said.
By now, both bishys were cracking up.
She drank some of her Sprite.
"Why are you looking at me that way? I swear it was the penguin who stole your underwear, Yamato! You know I wouldn't do such a hentai thing!"
You could tell they were having a blast...^_^;,
Soon she was done.
Yamato took the tray.
"Careful with that."
"Why?"
"Cause that penguin's still loose. And he's willing to steal your underwear even if you're wearing it."
"{Laughs} But why the tray?"
"Because you may fall and break Izzy's laptop. And boy. You don't want to see him when it comes to his laptop. Oy."
"What happened?"
"Er...{sweatdrop} I accidently put a virus on his comp..."
"{Laughs} Typicial you."
"Yes that's right. And don't you forget it!"
"I surely won't." Tai and Yamato thought.
Then she started to cough hard.
"Lily! You okay?"
"Does it look like it?" she said between coughs.
Then she coughed up blood finally.
Matt immediatly went to the bathroom, while Tai rushed to Izzy.
Then Tai and Izzy came back in.
Matt came back in with a towel to clean her up.
Naturally, Matt blushed as he cleaned her up, because it was mostly on her chest.
"Ooh crap." was all Lily could say.
Tai and Izzy lift her up by the arms.
"She needs to take a shower, cause she got blood all over herself and she can't take it alone." infered Izzy.
Naturally (I LOVE that word *_*), Tai and Matt blushed.
"I can take care of myself, thank you very much."
"No Lily, you're ill. What if you were to fall down unconsious and we wouldn't know about it?"
"....."
"Exactly."
"....."
"What?"
"Shutup Izzy."
"...."
"But Lily. You know that Koushiro's right."
"I know. That's why I want him to shut-up."
"But you need someone to...to watch you in the shower." blushed Yamato.
"And I know who's gonna! Alex!"
"But Izzy needs me to help. Get your boyfriend to do it."
By now, Yamato was beet red.
Tai was getting jealous again but he didn't show it.
Lily looked at Matt.
"Okay. Just as long as you'll turn around and don't look at me..." she said with a sweatdrop.
Yamato just stood there like an idiot.
"...Uh okay! Tai! I'm gonna need help."
Now it was Tai's turn to blush.
She walked out of the room and to the bathroom as she coughed up blood again.
****
"ARGH!!! WHY WON'T SHE DIE?!!!" Cheryl screamed on top of her lungs as she was about to pull out her hair.
"Now you know how I felt when I tried to kill her. Damn you Yamato, you damn dumb blonde!"
Cheryl ignored Sora as she was thinking.
"I forgot! It takes time for her to die. She has to suffer. {laughs}"
****
"AHHH!!! STOP LOOKING TAI, YOU PERVERT!!!" as Lily covered herself with the shower curtain.
"What? I'm just trying to wash your legs!"
"......."
"{sweatdrop}"
"Tai, just wash her legs."
"I can't! She won't let me!"
"Lily. Let Tai wash your legs. They are covered in blood and God-knows-what else."
"I can clean my legs myself!"
Matt grabbed the soapy towel and jerked the curtain, of course both closing their eyes, and soaped up her legs.
"There."
"......"
"What?"
"GET YOUR HANDS AWAY FROM THERE!!!!!"
****
As Matt and Tai tried to clean Lily up, Izzy and Alex were trying their hardest to concentrate.
"DAMMIT, STOP LOOKING THERE YOU DAMN PERVERTS!!!!" they heard Lily shout.
Finally Izzy and Alex finally cracked.
Alex and Izzy were just cracking up as Lily shouted at Tai and Matt.
Then Turriririmon walked in.
"What's so funny?" she asked Alex.
Alex was to busy laughing.
"Mew?" as she tilted her head in confusion.
****
A few hours went by and Lily finally came out with a towel wrapped around her body.
Matt and Tai came out also, but they were soaking wet.
"What happened?" asked Izzy, but he knew what, he just wanted to embarass them more.
"Let's just say that Lily also gave us a bath also."
"Man, if the neighbors were here, they'll call the cops for rape or something." said Tai as he tried to pour water out of his ears.
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Lily-san: ._.;; sorry for the LOOONG delay. I just have been busy. Hoped you liked this chapter. ^.^;;
{Angel Yamato and the others appear unhurt}
Lily-san: ANGEL YAMATO! *_*
Angel Yamato: o.o; You were right as usual Koushiro....she did miss me.
Lily-san: {huggles Angel Yamato as tears come out} I was soo worried!!
Angel Yamato: ^_^;; well I'm okay and back to be the disclamier person again.
Playgirl Taichi: {in casts and bandages} -_- Finally you came back. Lily- san was about to murder me...
Lily-san: For one thing NOBODY sent me any yaoi ideas...so it was obvious they didn't like you no more....;-;
Angel Yamato: {looks at the readers} Now look what you done. You made Lily- san cry. *sigh*
Lily-san: But I will still do request stories. Only in these types of genre: Humor, Romance, and Action/Adventure. ._.; as you noticed I still need some learing on that....But ANYWAYS... e-mail me at A HREF="Tigerlily1987@aol.com"Tigerlily1987@aol.com/A! ^.^ E-mail me soon!