Alone. That's what I am now, alone. Bulma is dead, well obviously I knew it
would happen someday, I'm not a baka! But it just happened sooner than I
thought; one minute we were fighting about me training too much and then
everything is silent. I miss her incessant shouting. I didn't think it
would hurt quite like this, I knew I loved the blue haired onna but I also
knew I wasn't in love with her. But now she's gone there is a hole, I'm not
sure where the hole is I don't think it's my heart, I'm not convinced I
have one of those. But there is a hole none the less. In the end she got
old. I couldn't see it because even though her body aged her spirit stayed
and she was as fiery as ever. But she did age and then she died, peacefully
in her sleep. I would not have wanted it any other way! She died surrounded
by what she herself had built up, and with her family near by. Ah yes,
family. My son, Trunks, well he lives near but not like he used to. He
lives with Goten now. That's right, the youngest brat of Kakarot's. Who
would have thought, well I suppose if I had paid attention I would have
seen it, but I didn't, my son and that of Kakarot's.in love. I was not
pleased at first, not because of the fact my son is gay I care not about
that, but because he is a prince and Goten is the son of a third-class! But
what say in it did I have. I have come to see now that they belong
together, they make each other truly happy. They both have similar families
too. Both have fathers whom to put it kindly were not the best they could
have been, and they both had mothers that were really something else! I
mean even Kakarot couldn't contend with the harpy. That isn't really
respectful to the deceased is it? Hmmm, well ChiChi then. Yes, she died
too, Kakarot was upset, devastated in fact. But he like me was never in
love with her. He couldn't have been, but I will not say anything to him or
anyone else that proves otherwise. They are all content to believe they
were in love and who am I to change that. Well the Saiyajin no Ouji
actually. But that's not really the point.
I am alone now, as far as I can see. Kakarot still comes to see me he stays sometimes. I think he feels alone now too. But if he is by me doesn't that mean I am not alone. Does this mean that all this time I thought I was alone Kakarot was there with me to prevent that very thing. We are together and yet alone.
He started his little visits about half a year ago now. At first they were not appreciated but tolerated because I saw his pain and loneliness. But I have come to enjoy them. It all started when he came to Capsule Corp. to spar. It started to get late and he was desperately trying to find excuses to stay a bit longer, not to go back to his now empty home.
"Uh, Vegeta are ya hungry? I could make something for ya if ya'd like?"
"No Kakarot, that will not be necessary. Besides both you and I know that you cooking skills leave much to be desired!" He looked so heart broken, for a minute I faltered and now his stays are regular. He is almost his old happy-go-lucky self, you wouldn't think that staying with me would make him happy but it does. Slowly we got used to being around each other we relaxed. And then he took the final step. One night I had settled him into his room and then gone to my own. I collapsed into my soft bed and was just drifting off when I felt the bed dip to my right. I must have been too tired to even pay attention to his ki getting closer. I was just about to go straight into a long and very loud rant but was caught out when I saw him properly in bed beside me. He was on his side one arm loosely around my waist, his head nuzzled in the crook of my neck, his dark lashes resting lightly on pale cheeks. The epitome of innocence and yet a powerful warrior. I exhaled sharply and scowled to alert him to the fact this was not appropriate but then laid back down. He smiled against the skin on my shoulder over his small victory and then nuzzled me further before we both fell into peaceful slumber. Afraid. A strange feeling that I have always despised. Fear is weakness. But I am afraid, I'm afraid of my feelings for Kakarot. He has gotten too close to me. I know that I love him; as much as it sickens me to admit it I do love the baka. But now I'm afraid I might be falling in love with him. In love! With Kakarot! It's almost laughable. But it's so obscure it almost makes sense. It is as if it was destined to be this way. We are the last of our kind we understand each other completely. We are like two halves of the same person one completes the other. I need him. I'm not exactly sure when my feelings towards him changed so drastically. Maybe I have always loved him, I shall never know. If I have denied myself happiness I shall not dwell on it. But how do I tell Kakarot this? How do I explain these feelings?
I suppose I could ask my son, after all he had to confess his love to a Son. But could I swallow my pride. My pride is everything to me, without it what is left?
I cannot tell Kakarot.
I'm so glad I have him. He is what keeps me going. Well my sons too of course but Vegeta is.Vegeta. What can I say, he's almost perfect, and in fact to me he is perfect. I have always found him fascinating; from the very first moment I met him. He is what kept me from ending my life when ChiChi died. It hurt so bad, I didn't think it would hurt like that. I mean I loved her don't get me wrong! But I wasn't in love with her. I think Vegeta knows that, but he doesn't say anything, wonder why. I love Vegeta completely, with all my heart. I have no problem admitting it! I am in love with Vegeta. Well I have no problem admitting it to you guys anyway it's just when it comes to telling Vegeta I have problems! Heh heh.
I will never forget the first time I climbed into bed with him. Um.it's not as hot as it sounds I'm afraid! I just snuggled up to him and slept. Still it was very nice and he was so warm and soft, I didn't expect him to be so soft. I wonder sometimes what would happen if I told him about how I felt. The way I see it, it would go one of two ways. Either he would scream his head off at me then kill me or kiss me passionately and well you know. I think the first one is the more likely of the two.
I have thought about telling Goten and Trunks to see what they think. Actually that's really not a bad idea.
"Hello? Goten? Trunks? You guys home?" I wandered into their home as I had done many times before. I walked down the hall thinking about how exactly I was going to explain this to them. I was so caught up in my thoughts I didn't even hear the moans coming from the living room.
"Ahhh Trunks.Mmmmm!"
"Oh Goten!.Uh"
I walked in on them in a rather interesting position.
"Oops! Sorry guys!"
"Goku-san! What are you doing here?" said Trunks with a rather surprised look on his face.
"I um wanted to talk with you two, but if you're busy."
"No no dad it's ok. What did you want to talk about?" Goten asked looking flushed.
"Well you guys had better sit down."
"Is something wrong Goku?"
"No nothing's wrong. You guys know I have been spending a lot of time with Vegeta right?"
"Yeah we think it's great! Don't we Koi!" "Yeah!"
"Well you see the thing is.I think I'm in love with him!" My hand went to the back of my head in my age-old pose. "In love?"
"With dad?" "Whoa!" They said in unison. "Well dad.have you told Vegeta?" "Well actually that's why I came to talk with you I need to know if you think it's a good idea to tell him." We talked for a long time in the end we decided that in a few weeks I should cook Vegeta dinner and spend a nice relaxing evening with him and then tell him.
I am alone now, as far as I can see. Kakarot still comes to see me he stays sometimes. I think he feels alone now too. But if he is by me doesn't that mean I am not alone. Does this mean that all this time I thought I was alone Kakarot was there with me to prevent that very thing. We are together and yet alone.
He started his little visits about half a year ago now. At first they were not appreciated but tolerated because I saw his pain and loneliness. But I have come to enjoy them. It all started when he came to Capsule Corp. to spar. It started to get late and he was desperately trying to find excuses to stay a bit longer, not to go back to his now empty home.
"Uh, Vegeta are ya hungry? I could make something for ya if ya'd like?"
"No Kakarot, that will not be necessary. Besides both you and I know that you cooking skills leave much to be desired!" He looked so heart broken, for a minute I faltered and now his stays are regular. He is almost his old happy-go-lucky self, you wouldn't think that staying with me would make him happy but it does. Slowly we got used to being around each other we relaxed. And then he took the final step. One night I had settled him into his room and then gone to my own. I collapsed into my soft bed and was just drifting off when I felt the bed dip to my right. I must have been too tired to even pay attention to his ki getting closer. I was just about to go straight into a long and very loud rant but was caught out when I saw him properly in bed beside me. He was on his side one arm loosely around my waist, his head nuzzled in the crook of my neck, his dark lashes resting lightly on pale cheeks. The epitome of innocence and yet a powerful warrior. I exhaled sharply and scowled to alert him to the fact this was not appropriate but then laid back down. He smiled against the skin on my shoulder over his small victory and then nuzzled me further before we both fell into peaceful slumber. Afraid. A strange feeling that I have always despised. Fear is weakness. But I am afraid, I'm afraid of my feelings for Kakarot. He has gotten too close to me. I know that I love him; as much as it sickens me to admit it I do love the baka. But now I'm afraid I might be falling in love with him. In love! With Kakarot! It's almost laughable. But it's so obscure it almost makes sense. It is as if it was destined to be this way. We are the last of our kind we understand each other completely. We are like two halves of the same person one completes the other. I need him. I'm not exactly sure when my feelings towards him changed so drastically. Maybe I have always loved him, I shall never know. If I have denied myself happiness I shall not dwell on it. But how do I tell Kakarot this? How do I explain these feelings?
I suppose I could ask my son, after all he had to confess his love to a Son. But could I swallow my pride. My pride is everything to me, without it what is left?
I cannot tell Kakarot.
I'm so glad I have him. He is what keeps me going. Well my sons too of course but Vegeta is.Vegeta. What can I say, he's almost perfect, and in fact to me he is perfect. I have always found him fascinating; from the very first moment I met him. He is what kept me from ending my life when ChiChi died. It hurt so bad, I didn't think it would hurt like that. I mean I loved her don't get me wrong! But I wasn't in love with her. I think Vegeta knows that, but he doesn't say anything, wonder why. I love Vegeta completely, with all my heart. I have no problem admitting it! I am in love with Vegeta. Well I have no problem admitting it to you guys anyway it's just when it comes to telling Vegeta I have problems! Heh heh.
I will never forget the first time I climbed into bed with him. Um.it's not as hot as it sounds I'm afraid! I just snuggled up to him and slept. Still it was very nice and he was so warm and soft, I didn't expect him to be so soft. I wonder sometimes what would happen if I told him about how I felt. The way I see it, it would go one of two ways. Either he would scream his head off at me then kill me or kiss me passionately and well you know. I think the first one is the more likely of the two.
I have thought about telling Goten and Trunks to see what they think. Actually that's really not a bad idea.
"Hello? Goten? Trunks? You guys home?" I wandered into their home as I had done many times before. I walked down the hall thinking about how exactly I was going to explain this to them. I was so caught up in my thoughts I didn't even hear the moans coming from the living room.
"Ahhh Trunks.Mmmmm!"
"Oh Goten!.Uh"
I walked in on them in a rather interesting position.
"Oops! Sorry guys!"
"Goku-san! What are you doing here?" said Trunks with a rather surprised look on his face.
"I um wanted to talk with you two, but if you're busy."
"No no dad it's ok. What did you want to talk about?" Goten asked looking flushed.
"Well you guys had better sit down."
"Is something wrong Goku?"
"No nothing's wrong. You guys know I have been spending a lot of time with Vegeta right?"
"Yeah we think it's great! Don't we Koi!" "Yeah!"
"Well you see the thing is.I think I'm in love with him!" My hand went to the back of my head in my age-old pose. "In love?"
"With dad?" "Whoa!" They said in unison. "Well dad.have you told Vegeta?" "Well actually that's why I came to talk with you I need to know if you think it's a good idea to tell him." We talked for a long time in the end we decided that in a few weeks I should cook Vegeta dinner and spend a nice relaxing evening with him and then tell him.