Dawn of the New Morning: A Gensomaden Saiyuki Fan Fic 14
Author's notes: Thank you so much for reviewing!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I guess this is the 2nd to the last chapter.
Just to let you know, I'm now a Shoujo Kakumei Utena fan! It's so cute!!!!!!! I practically don't like Chu-chu very much, but I like Touga/Utena pairings to let me live my life.
* our POV * * same timeline *
He gingerly laid her down the cold cobblestone, his hand brushing a stray tendril of her mauve hair. He cast one more loving glance at the figure lying before him, before going away to catch up with his comrades.
"Sayonara…Yaone-san."
* Hakkai's POV *
"Oi, Hakkai, are you feeling well?" I heard Gojyo's voice ask me. It had been a month since that fateful day, when we successfully killed and stopped Gyumao's resurrection…and when she died.
"Oi, Hakkai?"
I didn't answer him; instead I just sat there before him with my head hanging low. I just realized that I almost became suicidal after a week of Yaone-san's death. I remember what I foolishly did as we settled down in a town near the temple Sanzo had resided in a few years ago.
*
"Don't disturb him, Gojyo. He's probably feeling suicidal right now. You don't know how much he's been scarred." I heard Sanzo say from the other room. Thankfully, Sanzo understood what I went through that time, and they left me in my own privacy to reflect on my useless life.
Suicidal…maybe if I kill myself, I'd end this foolishness.
I'm becoming more and more reckless, thoughts of killing myself invading my sanity every now and then. It was not I…not like me at all.
But what can you do when two people you dearly love die before you?
Probably become insane.
I can't deny it. Probably you people would think I would never be scarred my whole life, scarred so much to think of suicide. That time I was traumatized. All I thought about was killing myself, ending the burdens I'm probably causing on Sanzo, Gojyo and even possibly Goku's shoulders. I smiled a wicked smile, feeling that my demonic side invading me as I grabbed a knife that lay silent on the table.
I opened my green eyes and locked my sight on my left wrist, the knife held tightly in my hand. Slowly I cut my wrist open, feeling the open air sting my new wound. I watched silently as blood trickled down my arm, red liquid assaulting the sleeves of my pale lavender shirt. My brain actually thought that there was no pain at all, my mind curiously going blank. My vision blurred, every color that my eye can read becoming black and white, fading every second. And for all I knew I was already unconscious as Gojyo hurriedly went into the room I was in.
"Hakkai! What were you doing?! That was dangerous!" Gojyo scolded me as he wrapped my wrist in bandages. I smiled, that smile I always wore and scratched my head with a free hand.
"I guess I went out of my mind, Gojyo." I replied sheepishly, still smiling at Gojyo. For some reason, he blushed, shifting his gaze from my face to my bandaged wrist. At that moment, I heard someone snigger, making me turn to the person who was.
And to my surprise I saw Sanzo smiling, hiding his face from the two of us.
"Sanzo, is something wrong?" I asked the blonde monk, my green eyes focused on him. He merely shook his head and tried to restrain himself from laughing.
*
"Me? Right…I'm all right." I answered him, smiling and making him blush. At last I began to speak up. "Why are you blushing?"
At my question, I instantly heard Sanzo laughing.
"Blushing?" Gojyo asked, his face becoming redder and redder every moment. "Ehehehe…"
"Usen da yo…ero-kappa" Goku started to mumble as he slept. I laughed at him for a moment before turning back to Gojyo.
* the next day *
* mid-afternoon *
* our POV *
"Oi, Hakkai, I want to tell you something." Gojyo mumbled, opening the door to Hakkai's room.
"What is it?" Hakkai asked, his green eyes on the redheaded demon.
"It's really personal, and…it's a secret, though that bouzo already knows about it…and I want you to promise me not to freak out or anything when I tell you this." Gojyo asked Hakkai, sitting beside his best friend.
"I promise I wouldn't." Hakkai alleged, looking at his best friend. "Is it really important?"
"Um…to you…I guess not but to me, it is. I just need you to tell me you wouldn't hate me forever when you hear what I'm going to say, or think I'm a freak or a bastard or anything like that. You'd still be my best friend when I say this to you, wouldn't you?" Gojyo inquired, his voice getting softer and softer by the minute.
"Of course I will." Hakkai reassured. "Now, what is it?"
"What would you say if…well…a man loves another man?" Gojyo asked quietly.
"You mean a man loves a man?" Hakkai questioned, seemingly not understanding at first what Gojyo had said.
"Umm…yeah."
"It's…well…absurd, though we couldn't help it if he, or who this person might be, does." Hakkai answered, looking out the window.
"Then what would you say if…"
"If…?"
"I said that…"
"You said that…?"
"*coughcoughcoughIloveyoucoughcoughcough*"
"Sumimasen?"
"I…ahem…umm…I…"
"You…?"
"Iloveyou." Gojyo said quickly, in the smallest of voices.
"You love me?" Hakkai asked in bewilderment, his green eyes widening. Gojyo loves him! And to think that Gojyo was a playboy…
"You wouldn't freak out at all, would you?"
"Um…well…"
"You promised you wouldn't freak out and all…you'd still be my best friend, right?"
Hakkai coughed. He wasn't exactly sure on how to handle this kind of situation.
Author's notes: Yes, the chap's short. The next chap will be the last one!
Thank for all your help and reviews!
Ja ne!
-A. Pikachu