Dawn of the New Morning: A Gensomaden Saiyuki Fan Fic 15

Author's notes: I am so depressed and queasy and everything you could think of associated to that. I have a VERY HUGE problem about school considering that the problem is about THIS FAN FIC and my other one. Please pray for me that my Computer teacher would be so kind to probably as to some extent this could happen read my fics in that diskette and give it to me and don't tell it to anybody.

But still…there's less and less chances for that to come true.

PRAY FOR ME!

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"Ano…eto…Gojyo?" Hakkai asked suddenly, turning to the reincarnation of Kenren Taisho, smiling with his eyes closed.

"Nani?" Gojyo inquired, refusing to look into Hakkai's eyes.

"I…need some time to think. Is that alright with you?" the green-eyed man requested. Gojyo immediately obliged and stood up, walking briskly to the door without looking back.

"Hakkai…?"

"Hai?"

"I just hope that…well…nandemonai." He remarked before walking out the room to leave Hakkai alone.

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I'm so stupid. I should've known he'd react like that. I shouldn't have said that so suddenly. Not right after two people he loved so much died in front of him.

I'm such a moron… An idiot…

A big fat stupid, idiotic, and moronic jerk.

Gojyo nonchalantly closed the door behind him and sighed deeply. His ruby red eyes darted from Son Goku's sleeping form on the bed and Genjo Sanzo's body sitting somewhere with a newspaper on his lap, then finally settled in eyeing the window. He laboriously walked to the other bed with difficulty, as if his legs suddenly became lead. Gojyo plopped down a bed and sighed heavily for the second time, his head hanging low.

Can anyone blame me then? Could anyone blame me because of this foolishness?

I guess not.

Or maybe…they will…but I can't and couldn't help it if I fell for him…

He's just so beautiful…sublime…he's too beautiful to resist. Heck, I can even mention countless words about him. In other words, he's perfect.

I think I can describe him in ONE word after all.

But I'm still the biggest idiot around.

Maybe even more stupid than that baka saru.

"Oi, Gojyo." The blonde monk's deep voice not making Gojyo move. He disregarded the monk's call and drowned in his trail of thought, also ignoring Goku's wild snores with something in the line of 'I'm hungry' and 'I'm not a saru'.

"Oi, Gojyo." Sanzo repeated, prying his amethyst eyes away from the article he was absorbed in a while ago. The peculiar change in behavior in Gojyo made Sanzo's brain click.

Sanzo's not that dense and insensitive, I guess.

"You told him, didn't you?" Sanzo remarked quietly, but loud enough for the redheaded youkai to understand.

"Aa."

"What did he say?"

"He's surprised."

Awkward silence enveloped the room, filling the space with an uneasy feeling. Seconds passed by and turned into a whole minute, until Sha Gojyo decided to speak up.

"From now on, I'll stay away from men no matter how beautiful they are." Gojyo snickered and looked up, brushing a lock of stray red hair away from his sight. At that remark, Sanzo crept away from Gojyo immediately.

"Nande?!"

"You said 'no matter how beautiful they are'. Then it means I should get away from you." Sanzo pointed out, sneering.

"Whoever said you were beautiful, you corrupt monk?!"

"What, you picking a fight?!"

"As I said, who said you were beautiful?!"

"TEME!!!!!!!!! What are you, deaf?!"

"Actually, water plugged his ears and made him deaf." Son Goku's voice was suddenly heard.

"USEN DA YO, BOUZO TO BAKA SARU!!!!!!!!!!!!!"

"NANDE!?!!?!?!?!???!??!?!??!" Goku and Sanzo exclaimed in unison, glaring at the redheaded demon.

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He loves me…he loves me… this is so ridiculous.

Hakkai silently leaned on the wall, his legs dangling numbly over the bed. He incessantly stared at his palms, his hands mysteriously trembling. Why was he trembling? There was absolutely no use for him to tremble. Yet his hands continue to shiver as he continued to ponder on his best friend's words.

'I love you'

It's a shame I never told her that…maybe because I never had the chance to tell her what I wanted to tell her.

But she told me what she thought of me.

I just thought that it would be proper that she knew that I loved her…so much. I should've told her that before she died. Before she went away to disappear from my arms. From me…why does this have to happen to me?

Sumimasen, demo gomen nasai, Gojyo. I love you as a friend…though…no more than anyone else. I hope you understand.

Wait, why was he saying these things to himself? These words whould be spoken thoroughly and loud enough to be deciphered by the one he was speaking to.

 So maybe that was the thing that Sanzo was laughing about all the time.

And he was too dense to not notice that Gojyo blushed every time he smiled at him; spoke to him, or even by merely looking at him his best friend turned beet red. How come his eyes were to blind to see what Gojyo has been leading up to? 

Maybe because he was too much in love with someone else…that's the reason why.

But someone can never take her away from him.

I wonder how Kougaiji's taking it…

Hakkai looked at the blank wall across him, his fingers stopping from shaking. His eyes went wide then softened, a thought entering his mind as he closed his eyes in relaxation. The mention of the demon prince's name sent an instant message that stimulated his brain.

He laughed top himself before reopening his green eyes, now laying his head back to lean on the wall and stared at the cracked ceiling.

I should remember that I'm not alone in this…I'm not the only one who's going through the loss of her.

Yaone-san.

Author's notes: PLEASE PRAY FOR ME PLEASE PRAY FOR ME PLEASE PRAY FOR ME PLEASE PRAY FOR ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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