Disclaimer: I have no intention of saying that I own everything in this story. My mind's not worthy. Sirius Black, James Potter, Remus Lupin, Peter Pettigrew, Lily Evans (and everything wizarding and/ or witchcraft in nature), Ms. JK Rowling created them. I'm but a mere fan. As for the other girl characters (Lae Bevin, Gin Plata-Connor, JK R'phael and Professor Kiadara Wildfire) my friends and I own them. I repeat: They are not from any of the HP books. "IRIS" is by the Goo Goo Dolls.
Author's notes: This is a songfic inspired by the song "Could it be any Harder" by The Calling. I've divided the verses and made a story out of the lyrics. Each chapter is titled by lines of other alternative songs (except chapter 6: the line came from Could it be any Harder) The lyrics of the song are enclosed in the ! J anyway… enuf of my introduction… I love SIRIUS BLACK! (Thanks ALEX BAND and AARON KAMIN for writing this heartfelt song. You have eternally changed my life.)
Of Wizards and Faerys: Chapter 1 "and I don't want the world to see me, coz I don't think that they'd understand…I just want you to know who I am…"
You left me with goodbye and open arms
A cut so deep I don't deserve
April 1978
"Hey, watch it. That was my foot." James almost shouted underneath his invisibility cloak.
"Oops. Sorry." Sirius snickered.
"If you two don't hush down, we will awaken the whole Tower before we get there."
Peter said as he walked slowly under the cloak.
"You know, it's almost midnight. Moony wont be able to wait for us, you know." Peter added.
"Well if you're in such hurry, go on first." Sirius said as he nudged Peter.
James broke their little argument and moved along.
"Oh darn it!" Sirius said. "What now?" James asked. He didn't have to wait for the answer.
They were face to face with four Gryffindor witches. One of which, a prefect.
"I told you it would work." Lae told the girls.
Lae, Gin, JK and Lily stood in front of the portrait hole. Arms crossed before them.
"They can see us?" Peter whispered as quietly as he could.
"You're busted guys. Take it off." Lily said and waited. "Don't." Sirius told his friends.
"Sirius, remember that necklace I gave you?" Lae asked.
The guys stood still underneath the cloak. James looked at Sirius. Sirius held his chest and felt the necklace with the small pendant.
"The one that lights up when you're up to something mischievous?" Lae asked.
Sirius took it out of his shirt. The pendant almost lit up their faces.
"Nice work, Lae!" Gin commented and the four of them walked to the guys. JK pulled the cloak off of them.
"Hi girls!" The guys greeted with wide smiles on their faces.
"Mhm. Explain yourselves." Lily crossed her arms on her chest like the prefect she is.
"We were…" James attempted.
"Um… see… um…" Peter was a bad liar.
"Lae, hun, it's not exactly what it looks like." Sirius walked to Lae and tried to wrap an arm around his girlfriend.
"If it doesn't look like you guys are sneaking out at this time of the night then maybe you're right, Sirius." Lae said as she avoided Sirius' arm.
"We're not just sneaking out." James said. The girls all crossed their arms and waited.
"We're doing it in style." He added desperately.
The girls loosened their arms and walked lazily to the guys.
"You guys, aren't going anywhere." JK said.
They dragged the guys, Gin pulled Peter, Lily pulled (her husband) James, and Lae pulled Sirius, across the room.
"Wait." JK said. They stopped and turn to her. " Where's Remus?" she asked.
"Fine question you might ask," Sirius said then he walked back to the center of the room.
"Padfoot, no." James warned.
"Well, I don't see the point in hiding it to them. I mean, we've all grown pretty close. I mean, look here, Prongs. Gin and Moony, well, let's just say she's spending more time in our dormitory. Lae and I… are… getting there," Lae hit him on the shoulder. "and Lily and you are married." Lily's turn to hit the wizard. Sirius smiled. "Why do we continue to hide it to them?" Sirius asked.
A brief moment of silence. Then he broke the silence first.
"Wormtail, you think I'm right, do you?" Sirius asked. James looked at him.
"Well…Padfoot does have a point, Prongs. It's not like we cant trust them." Peter said. The guys looked at each other.
"What is up with you guys and pet names?!" Lae asked confusingly.
"Does this have something to do about Remus being a werewolf?" Gin asked as she sat down.
They looked at her in astonishment. "What? Don't you think I would've known by now?" Gin asked the guys.
"Wait. What did you say?" Lae asked her.
"Oh, sorry. I promised not to tell but… Remus is a werewolf. Don't you think that's odd? A werewolf with a werewolf hunter? Funny if you ask me." Gin said casually, as if it was ordinary that she always had a werewolf for a boyfriend.
"Remus is a werewolf?" Lily exclaimed.
"Sshh. Lily don't tell the whole world." James hushed. "Sorry." she uttered.
"What does your sneaking out have to do with Remus?" JK asked. "Everything." Sirius answered.
They had a hard time travelling from the Gryffindor Tower to the Whomping Willow under the invisibility cloak. And the guys had a hard time convincing the girls it was harmless to pass it once Peter had pressed on a small branch. They arrived 20 minutes before midnight. It was enough time for the guys to explain to the girls.
"Oh, wicked! You are guys are animagi too!" JK said.
"That is so cool!" she added. The guys looked at the girls in confusion.
"Do you really think that you're the only ones who can accomplish a transformation just like that?" she asked.
"Explain further." James asked.
"Professor Wildfire taught and trained us to become animagi too." Gin said.
"Shall we?" she turned to her friends and they all stood. "Be amazed." JK said.
"I'll pass. I'm not feeling so good." Lae said.
"What? Why?" Gin asked. "Please." She begged. She looked into Gin's eyes and pleaded.
"Alright." Gin said.
"What?! No way. I wanna see what animagus you are. You saw me. Unfair." Sirius said.
He sat beside Lae and placed his head on her shoulder.
"That's right, Padfoot, be a good dog." Lae combed Sirius' hair with her fingers like an owner to its pet.
"Lae, you have to. Or else you're in danger if you don't. Um, you do know I'll be turning into a werewolf any minute now, right? I'm not saying I would but, do you want your leg bitten off?"
Remus said in the shadows. Lae looked at the girls.
This is so insane. They'd know at once. She stood up and prepared to transform.
"Yey!" Sirius cheered.
"You are so matured Sirius." Lae said with a twisted smile.
One-Two-Three… Gin turned into a German Shepherd. JK turned into a Scottish Terrier. and Lily turned into a ginger cat. The guys were watching her, waiting for her to transfigure. She sighed heavily and changed.
Solicitude.
A purple-blue-green monarch butterfly flew across the room of the Shrieking Shack. Remus rushed out of the room.
"It's time." James said and the three guys took their animal forms.
James, a stag with majestic antlers. Peter, a rat whose tail was long and thin. Sirius, a massive black dog.
The butterfly rested on Padfoot's nose. Padfoot looked and observed the butterfly. It had large wings and the color seemed to flow like water through its wings. It didn't have a solid color. It changed constantly.
Loud howls broke the silence as the werewolf in the other room took form.
June 1978
It has been two months since he witnessed his love transform before him. It has been two months but until now, he didn't have any idea why Lae would turn into a butterfly.
"Mr. Black," Sirius heard Professor Trelawney call him.
"Yes, professor?" he asked.
"Did you observe the planets correctly? It says here in your chart that you will topple and create an avalanche next week. Do you honestly think I can consider this correct?" she asked.
"Professor, I am shocked! I would've expected you'd understand my inner eye more than anyone else would. I am deeply hurt!"
He was a great actor, no doubt about that.
"And I was beginning to consider taking double Divination again next year, triple, if I can pull it." Professor Trelawney's face lit up and her eyes glistened.
"I was beginning to find you, I mean your subject, highly important. It hurts that you question my abilities, Professor."
Most of their classmates (who were Hufflepuffs) began teasing and cheering on him.
"Very well, Sirius." Trelawney fixed her hair. "I'm sorry for offending you." She placed a hand on his shoulder.
Lae almost rushed to hit her but JK pulled her back. She was never fond of her. In fact, she hated Trelawney.
"No problem, Professor."
Sirius touched her hand in return. Professor Trelawney walked back to her chair with a huge smile on her face.
The Marauders laughed silently as they congratulated Black on pulling another trick. Trelawney was easiest to fool, especially because she fancied Sirius.
"Gin, wait." Sirius followed Gin before she entered the girl's washroom after Double Divinations.
"What's up?" she asked. "I have to ask you something," he asked.
"Go ahead. What's on your mind?" she asked.
"Remember during the Easter Holidays, when you guys told us about…"
"Yeah, yeah, what about it?"
"By any chance, do you know why she assumes a butterfly?" Gin clearly didn't expect that.
"Um, no, I don't." she became very uncomfortable.
"Come on, Gin. It's a simple question. Don't tell me you weren't curious and you didn't ask her." He convinced. "I know you did. I mean, it's you, come on." He added.
"Sirius look. As much as I would want to tell you, I'm not in the position to say anything." She said.
"So there is something more to it?" he asked hastily. Gin pulled the door of the washroom but Sirius pushed it back.
"Please, Gin." He begged.
"Ask her, not me." She said then entered the washroom.
September 1978
"Hey… you guys… I've been… looking… all over… for you."
Remus panted when he reached Peter, James and Lily.
"Whoa, Moony. Slow down. What's up why were you running. You know the train doesn't leave in 15 minutes."
James said. Remus shook his head.
"Yeah… but… that's not… the point." He sighed heavily and straightened up. "Where's Sirius?" he asked.
"Inside, they're looking for an empty cubicle." Peter said.
"Thanks." And Remus disappeared in a pop.
"Wonder what's wrong with him." Lily said.
"A Lanon what?!" Sirius asked.
"No, no. A leanen sidhe (shee) L-E-A-N-A-N. Leanan sidhe. A water faery from Ireland. Oi, why didn't I notice all these years?" Remus sank on the seat.
"What are you blabbering about Remus? Where did you get all of these?" Sirius asked as he sat down across him.
"I've been putting it together in my head. Don't you remember? I have this capacity to feel what others feel. And for the longest time, I haven't been feeling anything from Lae from our earlier years. It's like she doesn't have feelings. And then last year, I started to feel something from her. Like she was beginning to be hungry. But not for food. Neither was it sexual. It was hunger unlike I had never felt before. She felt like she had to feed on something. For her survival. And it started when you two got together. And I began to wonder. She is from Scotland. But she looks and sounds so Irish. So I asked her. And she said her parents are from Ireland. They moved to Scotland after she was born because people in Ireland were in chaos that time. 1962. In 1962, all Muggles searched the island for death faerys because men were dying because of unknown causes. And in library at Hogwarts, I found out that Leanan sidhes during the 1960s were hunted down and killed." Remus said so quickly Sirius almost missed half of it.
"What does the history lesson have in connection to Lae?" Sirius asked.
"Sirius, I know it sounds weird but think about it. Every time the headmaster calls me to his office, Lae is also called. During those times, I go to the hospital wing and get checked. Lae goes to the Dungeons and then we switch. I've always wondered why she was sent there. And think about it, she always looks as if fresh air breathes against her. And her eyes,"
"Reflect the waters of the ocean."
"Exactly. And didn't you ever wonder why she took butterfly form every time she transfigured? Faerys in general are believed to be small humans who have powerful magic and fly with butterfly-like wings. Haven't you noticed that she sometimes never use wands but still manages to do magic?"
Remus had obviously given this much thought.
"Think about it." He said.
"What I don't get is, why she feels hungry."
Remus thought out loud. Sirius looked at him and began thinking himself.
You were always invincible in my eyes
The only thing against us now is time
"Are you a Leanan Sidhe?"
Lae and Sirius laid on his four-poster the night they arrived in school.
"What?"
She sat up and faced him. Her face was dejected. Sirius giggled.
"See, Remus had this crazy conclusion he shared with me on the train this morning."
He didn't stop giggling. Lae was nervous.
"And um, he said something about you being a laenan sidhe. I mean, I don't really know what he meant by it. But it sure sounded weird. You're pure blood right? I mean how can you be a faery? Faerys are small and tiny. And you are not near tiny. I mean, you're almost as tall as I am, how can you be a faery?" Lae held his hands.
"You did put a silencing charm around this, right?" Lae asked. "Yeah." Sirius sighed.
"Sirius…" she started. "I need you to listen to me." she continued.
"I'm listening." He said.
"Remus is right. I'm surprised he only told you now. I was expecting a Howler from you. It's true. I am what he says." She confessed. "I'm afraid you might fear me if I tell you," she said. And Sirius listened.
"My mum is a leanan sidhe. As so I will be."
"When I was born, of course I was born in the ocean, some Muggles saw my dad collect me out of the sea. And it was weird you know. If the ocean handed a baby to a man, wouldn't Muggles think something magical was going on? Of course, in Ireland everything they don't understand, they give magical meanings. My dad brought me to Glasgow for refuge. We had to stay by the seas for my mum to be able to see me. She always had to stay near a body of water when she was in dry land."
"They brought me up mugglely. I only knew about my true identity when I got my letter. That's when he explained. See, even I couldn't see my own mother. Only my dad could see her. Because he was under her spell. He wasn't suppose to survive her curse this long, but because he's a wizard he could prolong his life long enough to be able to see me grow. He's not good these days. He's beginning to be sick. I don't really have a choice, either. I have to do the same thing for survival. I would chose to die but only another laenan sidhe can kill me. and my own mum wouldn't do that. I don't have a choice."
"Is that all?" Sirius asked after she explained and she nodded.
"Well, you have nothing to fear, Lae. I think I already made it clear."
He crawled to her and wrapped his arms around her tiny waist.
"Well if I didn't. I love you." he whispered to her ear.
"I think you understand that. Nothing can take you away from me. You don't have anything to be worried about."
He turned her head to face him with his index finger.
"I'm not going anywhere. Even if death is the final resort to what we will have. I don't really care. As long as I get to spend the rest of my days with you, knowing that you love me and that you are willing to give up your destiny just to be with me, that's more than enough consolation."
"when everything's made to be broken…
I just want you to know who I am…"
-more in chapter 2-
AN: sorry for the changes J how do you like it so far? Reviews pls… J LaEnAn-DeVnEt-BeViN J