Disclaimer: I have no intention of saying that I own everything in this story. My mind's not worthy. Sirius Black, James Potter, Remus Lupin, Peter Pettigrew, Lily Evans (and everything wizarding and/ or witchcraft in nature), Ms. JK Rowling created them. I'm but a mere fan. As for the other girl characters (Lae Bevin, Gin Plata-Connor, JK R'phael and Professor Kiadara Wildfire) my friends and I own them. I repeat: They are not from any of the HP books. "HEAVEN" is by Bryan Adams.
Author's notes: This is a songfic inspired by the song "Could it be any Harder" by The Calling. I've divided the verses and made a story out of the lyrics. Each chapter is titled by lines of other alternative songs (except chapter 6: the line came from Could it be any Harder) The lyrics of the song are enclosed in the ! J anyway… enuf of my introduction… I love SIRIUS BLACK! (Thanks ALEX BAND and AARON KAMIN for writing this heartfelt song. You have eternally changed my life.)
Of Wizards and Faerys: Chapter 2 "and baby you're all that I want… when I'm lying there in your arms…"
Could it be any harder
To say goodbye and without you
Could it be any harder
To watch you go
To face what's true…
November 1978
"You know, you have a girlfriend now. You can't just go out without telling her. She's going crazy at the common room, looking for you."
Remus said when they saw Sirius down by the lake. It was dusk and the sun had just set.
"Don't I have the right to go where I want to?" Sirius said grumpily.
He threw a stone and it skipped across the lake.
"Come on, Sirius." James insisted.
"I'll be right behind you." he said, rather annoyed.
Another stone. His three best friends looked at each other. Then, they sat down beside him.
"What's wrong?" James asked calmly.
Sirius threw another stone. He watched the stone as it skipped. He looked at the horizon. He didn't say anything.
"Lae's driving everyone insane. She says you weren't at Lunch. And you weren't in practice either." James said.
"You didn't even sit together in our classes." Peter added.
"Wildfire told us to lay off, don't you remember?" Sirius said without looking at them.
"And you'll be obeying?" Remus asked. Sirius looked at him.
"Oh, come on, Sirius, don't give us that rubbish. It's not Wildfire," Remus said.
"Remus is right. You wouldn't really care what teachers would say. You're Sirius Black. You get away with everything," James said.
Sirius stared at the horizon once more.
"This has something to do with her…" Peter started.
"Don't even go there,"
Sirius shook his head as he took one pebble and threw it to the lake. The giant squid surfaced as it swam by.
"You know, it's so silly." Sirius uttered, shaking his head and smiling slightly. "I mean, look at her now. She cant get enough of me. She wants me beside her 24/7 when only a few months ago she loathed me."
He said. He sighed, "Funny." He looked at James. "What do you reckon? Drop her now or wait a few more months till she cant live without me?"
Sirius was looking at James with tired but restless eyes. James, Remus and Peter were utterly stunned. None of them spoke because of so much shock.
"I'd love to see the look on her face when she finds out I slept with Nicole." He said.
"Remember Nicole, that Ravenclaw who used to run around watching me?" he continued.
The smile on his face widened.
"It was such a pleasure having another girl scream my name."
He was the only one laughing.
"I'm wasting my time with this exclusive thing. Other girls are waiting in line for a night with Sirius Black. I don't have the right to put them down." He said.
SLAM! A hand hit his head from the back with great impact.
"The fuck—" Sirius said.
He turned to James. He was flaming with anger.
"Thank you, Prongs. I was about to do that."
Sirius turned to Remus and saw him replace his hand on the ground.
"What the fuck is up your arse?!" Sirius shouted at James.
"What the fuck is up yours?! How dare you say that?" James asked in an equally loud voice.
"You don't have the right to ask me that." Sirius stood from the ground.
"Do you have a problem with what we used to do, huh, James?"
Sirius pointed at his best friend's face. The other stood up. Peter went in between the two tall wizards.
"Guys, cool down," he said.
"The problem with you, James, is that after Lily, you no longer had time for us. To the point you forgot how it is to have fun." Sirius shouted at his best friend's face.
"The problem with you, Sirius, is that you wont face your problems like a man! You run off and screw with girls when you're upset," James shouted.
Sirius turned the other way and put his hands over his head.
"You have a girlfriend who's very willing to sacrifice the very essence of her life and what do you do? You take out your heat with another girl? I am utterly disgusted with you." he spat.
"Aaarrrggghhh! Dammit, James! I don't need you to remind me of that! Don't you think I am aware of that?!"
"Then why did you have sex with Nicole?"
"I don't know!"
The skies were darker but the lake was calmer.
"Sirius," Remus started.
"This wasn't supposed to happen." Sirius said. "I wasn't suppose to fall in love with her," he continued. "We were getting along hating each other. That was how we were supposed to be. Since we were kids, it has always been like that," he said immediately.
"Isn't hate just a security blanket for hiding what you truly feel?" Remus asked.
"Yes, and it worked very very well. For the longest time, I always believed it myself. I believed I hated her. She believed she hated me. It worked the way we wanted it." Sirius answered.
"I don't get it. How do kids hate each other?" Peter asked.
"We weren't normal kids. We may have been eight, but we were magic folks, and even though she had no idea until lately, she had cast a spell on me." Sirius said and the guys waited.
This was the explanation they've been waiting for since day one at Hogwarts.
"She almost killed me. I still don't know what spell it was. See, in Muggle Primary, we had this swimming time, and she was a really good swimmer. She dared me to jump off from the adult springboards. I was confident of myself because I could always charm myself and prevent me from drowning. So I did. But when I jumped off and dove into the water, I nearly drowned. It was really a big chaos.
"My dad went to school. When he saw her, she knew she wasn't Muggle. But he didn't tell me. And I, all arrogant of a wizard I am, challenged her to a duel. How was I supposed to know? She hated me for calling her a witch. Then on, my entire liking for her fled my body. It was such a relief that I thought I wasn't going to see her again when we moved into a wizarding town. I feared the liking would come back when I see her again." He explained.
"I didn't have to encounter her again. And I didn't have to know she really is a witch. Much more didn't I have to know she's a death faery. How am I to explain that to my folks? 'Mum, Dad, I'm in love with a death faery'? Falling in love clearly wasn't suppose to happen."
"But it did," James said.
Sirius looked at him with those restless eyes. James put a hand on Sirius' shoulder.
"Sirius, listen. Of all people in the world, I would know how you truly feel. We're like brothers that way… and I would know if you're lying." He paused. "And I know you don't believe a word you're saying." He continued. Sirius turned away. He didn't want to be studied like that.
~ * ~ * ~
If I only had one more day…
"Lae!"
Sirius shouted when he entered the common room.
"Upstairs." JK said.
Sirius rushed upstairs to the girls' dormitory. He found Lae sitting by the window.
"Lae," he said.
He locked the door and rushed beside his love. Lae turned around and hugged Sirius as tight as he could.
"I have a confession to make," he whispered to her.
"I already know." She said when they pulled away.
"H-- How? Wh-- Who?" Sirius asked nervously. Lae put a finger on his lips.
"Nobody told me. You forgot I could feel you…" she smiled.
"Oh no, please don't smile." Sirius was really tensed. "Hate me, please. Hit me, come on. Give it your best shot."
Sirius offered his cheek. Lae stood up and pulled him closer to her body.
"For what?" she said through his hair.
"For hurting you. For doing what I did. For cheating on you when I said I wouldn't." he uttered, almost in tears.
"Sirius, love, I could never do that. I cannot hate you for doing what you did."
She pulled away and held his face with her cupped hands.
"I cannot hate you for being scared," she said with an honest gaze into his deep black eyes.
The tears that formed behind his eyes trickled down his cheeks.
"I'm sorry," he whispered.
Lae kissed him then hugged him as tight as she could.
"I'm sorry for putting you up with this."
She held her love tightly in her arms. She didn't want to let go. He felt safe once again. And his fears were erased with her touch.
"I'm finding it hard to believe…
we're in heaven…"
-more in chapter 3-
AN: sorry for the changes in format… J reviews please? How do u like the flow so far? Tell me what u think… J LaEnAn-DeVnEt-BeViN J