Detached

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Disclaimer\Warning: I do not own Kingdom Hearts or the song Days, from Digimon. The song is the italic and bold so you can separate it from thought. Contains spoilers and is set during hollow bastion during Riku and Sora's second fight. **Riku's POV**

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I glance around. An impossible scene lies before my eyes. Myself. I see myself, fighting who was once my best friend. A fight in which no one can emerge victorious, Ansem's work. Dive deeper into the darkness he told me. Look where it's gotten me, standing apart from myself. Detached.

The clang of metal shatters my thoughts and throws me back into reality. The fight continues on.  Keyblade against keyblade. And I feel every blow. Impulsively I clutch my hand to my stomach. Blood? The deep crimson seeps through my shirt staining my hand. Why does the pain radiate throughout my body while the other me doesn't flinch. Does he even feel what I feel? I beg them to stop. They don't hear me. They don't see me. They don't know. To my knees I fall and soon I'm on all fours panting. What will happen to me if I lose? What will happen to Kairi and Sora if I lose?

Kairi… So peacefully lying in the middle of the conflict. Like an angel without wings. She glowed a bright white while I began to glow a deep black. Like day and night. Light and Dark. Life and Death.

The light that spreads through the pale sky is continuous
The repeating days, excuses and lies and don't know
I just wonder why I exist here
You stayed nearby without saying anything and gave me happiness
 
All I had wanted was to save her. Make her love me, the way I loved her. Her cheerful smile and energetic nature, always so happy, ready to cheer you up. She was beautiful in every way. Now she lies, peaceful, yet almost lifeless. But even if she didn't, she would never return my affection, would she?
 
Bury the heart that is tangled with love and every day with kisses
More than now, more than this, hold me tight so that I might break
More tighter more more...
The pain from time that sways behind my eyelids wants to become stronger
The troubling days, reality and vacancy and refrain from looking
 
I look at her glowing, a pure white light engulfing her body, and myself the same. But the light is black, total darkness, like a moonless night.  
 
Even if I got hurt and move away from the building uneasiness
Will you still stay there unchanged and give me kindness?
Wishing at the love and every day, we will draw our future
More than now, more than this, I will stare stronger at the future
More always more more...
 
I did this to her. My eyes glimpse up at the fight, the keyblade that unlocks hearts, the words echo in my mind. I never could have saved her. Because, her heart never belonged to me. That's why the keyblade, the keyblade that was mine, chose him instead. Sora has you heart. Sora has your love. I'll never see you again, will I?
 
Bury the heart that is tangled with love and every day with kisses
More than now, more than this, hold me tight so that I might break
More tighter more more...
Wishing at the love and every day, we will draw our future
More than now, more than this, I will stare stronger at the future
More always more more...
 
I can feel myself fading, the black glow, the darkness, consuming me. Before I go…I lift Kairi into my arms. I trace her face with my hand and softly kiss her. I'll never forget you.
 
This wasn't the way it was supposed to be. It should have been the three of us together. Friends forever.
 
[Flashback]
 
A young Kairi held out her hand. "Friends forever?" the sun was setting on the beach and even the sand seemed to sparkle.

Riku and Sora exchanged a sideways glance before placing their hands on hers "Forever" Riku Smiled.

[End flashback]

"I love you Kairi." I Say as I gently place her on the floor and fade away. Into oblivion. Into the darkness.

 
Aozameta sora nijinda hi no hikari
Kurikaeshi hibi doko mademo kimi to
 
 
 
The light that spreads through the pale sky
The repeating days, with you forever...
 
 
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Authors Notes: Hope you liked it. I wanted to do something in first person and I wrote this. I'd appreciate it if you reviewed and told me what you thought.
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