Hi there! Yes... yes here's another one-shot of mine! I hope you guys will
love it! Thanks to my beta reader, Jessy-kun. He loved it so much that he
read it five times ^^ !!
Disclaimer : Card captor Sakura, its story and its characters aren't mine
and will never be.
Warning of slight but delightful shounen ai! If you don't like it, don't
read it and go away!
Toya's P.O.V
The first time Yuki took my hand...
Yuki and I were walking in the street in a beautiful fall night. He was very excited because he knew that the snow would come soon. Maybe not tonight, but it would come soon. Yuki loved the colour white. His room was white from ceiling to floor. I never really understood why he liked that colour so much because I prefer darker colours such ask navy blue... or the sweet amber of his eyes... So Yuki loved snow and even if we were friends since only few months, I knew it.
-To-ya! He smiled as he saw that I was staring at him.
He was saying my name like that often. Just because he seemed to like to say it. Without expecting any answer ... and the way he had to say it made me smile more than once. My name seemed a thousand times sweeter when it was him saying it... It sounded like a laughter full of pure joy, like a so soft melody that you mentally associate the nicest coulors and patterns to it.
And then, without any warning, he took my hand and started to drag me along. I was shocked. No body ever show the need of that kind of intimacy with me. Maybe Kaho, but Kaho was my... lover. With Yuki, I understood it later that night, physical contact were natural and kind of basic... His hand was warm and pleasant. There was a pang in my heart and I stepped back quickly, breaking the contact. He turned around and he saw my wide eyes. A shadow of pain passed in his face as I saw in his eyes that I had hurt him.
-I am sorry To-ya...
I blinked once, twice.
-No, I'm the one who should apologize.
I understood- too late- that to touch me was essential... spontaneous to him... And I guess he understood that I wasn't used to that...
-I didn't mean to hurt you, I said.
-I know, To-ya. I know that you can't do such a thing.
There was so much trust , so much gentleness in his voice that I just wanted to erase every tiny bit of pain from his eyes.
Then he smiled... I was so happy to see that smile, at that moment, on his pale face.
A day... a day it will be natural for me to let you take my hand, to let you look at me tenderly, to touch your soft cheeks with my hands. But tonight, I'll make you believe in me again, I'll make you believe in us again. I'll let the night heal the injury I caused you tonight when I jerked back at your touch. I'll let you understand that it wasn't any kind of rejection. Yes, you have to understand... because I know that you're scared. I can feel that you're scared that I'll never let you touch me. I startled you, Yuki, forgive-me... Let me the night to tame you again, to erase that fear I caused in you. That fear of me never understanding your need to touch me... but I understood, I understood at the very second my fingers touched your warm skin. I'll make you believe in us again. Tonight, I'll just be your best friend, but tomorrow, it'll be different.
It's the end of the fanfic, but it's the beginning of something so much bigger... It's the beginning of love.
The first time Yuki took my hand...
Yuki and I were walking in the street in a beautiful fall night. He was very excited because he knew that the snow would come soon. Maybe not tonight, but it would come soon. Yuki loved the colour white. His room was white from ceiling to floor. I never really understood why he liked that colour so much because I prefer darker colours such ask navy blue... or the sweet amber of his eyes... So Yuki loved snow and even if we were friends since only few months, I knew it.
-To-ya! He smiled as he saw that I was staring at him.
He was saying my name like that often. Just because he seemed to like to say it. Without expecting any answer ... and the way he had to say it made me smile more than once. My name seemed a thousand times sweeter when it was him saying it... It sounded like a laughter full of pure joy, like a so soft melody that you mentally associate the nicest coulors and patterns to it.
And then, without any warning, he took my hand and started to drag me along. I was shocked. No body ever show the need of that kind of intimacy with me. Maybe Kaho, but Kaho was my... lover. With Yuki, I understood it later that night, physical contact were natural and kind of basic... His hand was warm and pleasant. There was a pang in my heart and I stepped back quickly, breaking the contact. He turned around and he saw my wide eyes. A shadow of pain passed in his face as I saw in his eyes that I had hurt him.
-I am sorry To-ya...
I blinked once, twice.
-No, I'm the one who should apologize.
I understood- too late- that to touch me was essential... spontaneous to him... And I guess he understood that I wasn't used to that...
-I didn't mean to hurt you, I said.
-I know, To-ya. I know that you can't do such a thing.
There was so much trust , so much gentleness in his voice that I just wanted to erase every tiny bit of pain from his eyes.
Then he smiled... I was so happy to see that smile, at that moment, on his pale face.
A day... a day it will be natural for me to let you take my hand, to let you look at me tenderly, to touch your soft cheeks with my hands. But tonight, I'll make you believe in me again, I'll make you believe in us again. I'll let the night heal the injury I caused you tonight when I jerked back at your touch. I'll let you understand that it wasn't any kind of rejection. Yes, you have to understand... because I know that you're scared. I can feel that you're scared that I'll never let you touch me. I startled you, Yuki, forgive-me... Let me the night to tame you again, to erase that fear I caused in you. That fear of me never understanding your need to touch me... but I understood, I understood at the very second my fingers touched your warm skin. I'll make you believe in us again. Tonight, I'll just be your best friend, but tomorrow, it'll be different.
It's the end of the fanfic, but it's the beginning of something so much bigger... It's the beginning of love.