Author: Oujo-chan
Email: spookylonegungal@aol.com
Title: A Rose is Just a Rose [4/4] - Zurücknahme (Redemption)
Type: Series
Teaser: Ken finds out where the flower arrangement is really supposed to go.
Rating: PG-13
Spoilers: not any that I can think of...
Warnings: language, shounen-ai, suicide, angst, blood
Keywords: Angst, KenxAya
Archive: sure, if you really want to....
A Rose is Just a Rose Part IV
Zurücknahme
Ken sat upon his bed, looking at the large kitchen knife in his hands. What was life without Aya? What was life without love? Nothing. Well, that's what Jimmy Hendrix said. He laughed bitterly. The tears in his eyes had long since dried up. Nothing was left for him, not even those precious tears. Well, there was one thing.
He watched as the blade caught a glint of light from the window's bright sunshine. Sometimes it was too damn bright. It wouldn't matter. People won't mourn for me. Well, maybe Omi or Yohji, but certainly not Aya.
He took a deep breath and raised the knife to his left wrist. With a wince of excruciating pain, he dragged the heavy knife jaggedly across the wrist, making sure to hit each vein. He screamed, barely biting back a sob. 'Goodbye.' He carefully lifted the blade with his left hand. Suicide was a quite precarious matter, he thought. He proceeded to slice through his right wrist. Crimson blood spilled from the wounds. It poured thickly and quickly. He decided to make a few extra slashes for good measure. Dropping the knife, he thought, 'it will all be over soon.'
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Aya took deep, calming breaths. He was about to go and talk to Ken. He gripped a lily tightly in his hands. A gift for Ken. He prayed that Ken would find it in his heart to forgive him. He needed this so badly..
He knocked on Ken's door. No reply. That's odd. He's not down stairs… Maybe he's just sleeping. Maybe I should come back later… Suddenly he got a hinted feeling, deep in his conscious. He had to go in there now, otherwise it would be too late. It had to be now. He had never been this nervous before, it was eating him alive. I have to do this now, otherwise I'm going to lose my nerve.
He, with a renewed confidence, pushed open the door to Ken's room.
The scene that met his violet eyes had not been the one he was expecting. Ken lay on the pale blue sheets, drenched in blood. "KEN-KUN!" He rushed to him, dropping the white lily. It floated silently to the floor. He felt Ken's neck for a pulse. There was none to find. "Oh, shit!"
"OMI! YOHJI! CALL AN AMBULENCE!! RIGHT NOW!" he hollered at the top of his lungs. He was afraid. Very afraid. There was no way Ken could die on him, no. It can't happen. Why would Ken do this anyway? Was it his fault? Blood continued to spill from Ken's wrists as he lay unconscious. He grabbed a blue sheet, attempting to staunch the blood. The sheet quickly dyed red. "OMI! YOHJI! HURRY DAMN IT! PLEASE HURRY!" "shit shit shit".. He lifted Ken into his arms, noticing how light the younger man was. He quickly carried him out of the room.
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'ow! Shit!' The pain was unbearable. But, wait, he was alive. Damn it, why was he alive? I was supposed to die! He heard a loud beeping sound, probably medical equipment. There were faint voices in the background.
He slowly opened his eyes. He snapped them closed again, the brightness burning his pupils. He flashed them open and closed, adjusting to the lighting.
He couldn't believe what his eyes saw. Omi and Yohji were talking in a far corner. Aya was there. Right there, sitting next to his bed in a chair, staring back. "A…Ay..Aya-kun?" I asked. "Damn it, Aya. I was supposed to die! Don't you get that?!?! I wanted to die Aya. I couldn't have you, so I wanted my death."
"Ken-kun, your awake." He smiled gently, ignoring Ken's words. "You gave us quite the scare. Don't you ever do that again, do you hear me? Ken-kun before when I said..what I said, I meant that I wanted to wait until you were ready. I broke it off with Hitomi. I 'm very sorry, Ken-kun. I love you. If you don't want me back, I'll understand, but please oh please take me back. I can't live without you Ken-kun." His eyes pleaded as he bent down to kiss me on the forehead.
"Wo ai ni, Aya-kun." I whispered to him and then I felt a smile creep to my face for the first time in what seemed like ages. And then darkness took over my consciousness again.
~owari~
Email: spookylonegungal@aol.com
Title: A Rose is Just a Rose [4/4] - Zurücknahme (Redemption)
Type: Series
Teaser: Ken finds out where the flower arrangement is really supposed to go.
Rating: PG-13
Spoilers: not any that I can think of...
Warnings: language, shounen-ai, suicide, angst, blood
Keywords: Angst, KenxAya
Archive: sure, if you really want to....
A Rose is Just a Rose Part IV
Zurücknahme
Ken sat upon his bed, looking at the large kitchen knife in his hands. What was life without Aya? What was life without love? Nothing. Well, that's what Jimmy Hendrix said. He laughed bitterly. The tears in his eyes had long since dried up. Nothing was left for him, not even those precious tears. Well, there was one thing.
He watched as the blade caught a glint of light from the window's bright sunshine. Sometimes it was too damn bright. It wouldn't matter. People won't mourn for me. Well, maybe Omi or Yohji, but certainly not Aya.
He took a deep breath and raised the knife to his left wrist. With a wince of excruciating pain, he dragged the heavy knife jaggedly across the wrist, making sure to hit each vein. He screamed, barely biting back a sob. 'Goodbye.' He carefully lifted the blade with his left hand. Suicide was a quite precarious matter, he thought. He proceeded to slice through his right wrist. Crimson blood spilled from the wounds. It poured thickly and quickly. He decided to make a few extra slashes for good measure. Dropping the knife, he thought, 'it will all be over soon.'
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Aya took deep, calming breaths. He was about to go and talk to Ken. He gripped a lily tightly in his hands. A gift for Ken. He prayed that Ken would find it in his heart to forgive him. He needed this so badly..
He knocked on Ken's door. No reply. That's odd. He's not down stairs… Maybe he's just sleeping. Maybe I should come back later… Suddenly he got a hinted feeling, deep in his conscious. He had to go in there now, otherwise it would be too late. It had to be now. He had never been this nervous before, it was eating him alive. I have to do this now, otherwise I'm going to lose my nerve.
He, with a renewed confidence, pushed open the door to Ken's room.
The scene that met his violet eyes had not been the one he was expecting. Ken lay on the pale blue sheets, drenched in blood. "KEN-KUN!" He rushed to him, dropping the white lily. It floated silently to the floor. He felt Ken's neck for a pulse. There was none to find. "Oh, shit!"
"OMI! YOHJI! CALL AN AMBULENCE!! RIGHT NOW!" he hollered at the top of his lungs. He was afraid. Very afraid. There was no way Ken could die on him, no. It can't happen. Why would Ken do this anyway? Was it his fault? Blood continued to spill from Ken's wrists as he lay unconscious. He grabbed a blue sheet, attempting to staunch the blood. The sheet quickly dyed red. "OMI! YOHJI! HURRY DAMN IT! PLEASE HURRY!" "shit shit shit".. He lifted Ken into his arms, noticing how light the younger man was. He quickly carried him out of the room.
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'ow! Shit!' The pain was unbearable. But, wait, he was alive. Damn it, why was he alive? I was supposed to die! He heard a loud beeping sound, probably medical equipment. There were faint voices in the background.
He slowly opened his eyes. He snapped them closed again, the brightness burning his pupils. He flashed them open and closed, adjusting to the lighting.
He couldn't believe what his eyes saw. Omi and Yohji were talking in a far corner. Aya was there. Right there, sitting next to his bed in a chair, staring back. "A…Ay..Aya-kun?" I asked. "Damn it, Aya. I was supposed to die! Don't you get that?!?! I wanted to die Aya. I couldn't have you, so I wanted my death."
"Ken-kun, your awake." He smiled gently, ignoring Ken's words. "You gave us quite the scare. Don't you ever do that again, do you hear me? Ken-kun before when I said..what I said, I meant that I wanted to wait until you were ready. I broke it off with Hitomi. I 'm very sorry, Ken-kun. I love you. If you don't want me back, I'll understand, but please oh please take me back. I can't live without you Ken-kun." His eyes pleaded as he bent down to kiss me on the forehead.
"Wo ai ni, Aya-kun." I whispered to him and then I felt a smile creep to my face for the first time in what seemed like ages. And then darkness took over my consciousness again.
~owari~