Seras Victoria. There isn't much I can say about her, our first meeting was a bit strange, though from Alucard's reception I suppose she was expecting Integra. We do look alike; I see that now from the pictures on the disks. She seemed a bit distraught, maybe because of the time limit I placed on her beginning with us. When she left the mansion, Alucard had taken his usual seat at the couch and given me a very strange look, almost like he was preparing to pounce on me. I must say, at that point I probably would have enjoyed it, but he never did.

"Seras seemed a little perturbed."

"She would be, we parted on bad terms."

"Oh?"

".."

No reply. I was getting used to that from him. We would get to a point in our conversation and then he would stop. I would hit a nerve and his replies would cease and I never knew what it was that he would stop on either. I love his mystery at times, but then there are others where I want to slap that insensate grin off his face. Sadly, my hitting him is about as likely as his pouncing on me. He's staring at the moon again and it makes me wonder if there isn't some connection between him and it.

"What was she to you?"

"Who?"

"Victoria."

Again, no answer. I looked at him, trying to decipher is facial expressions, but with him there's no telling. Looking at him when he smiles, I have to hold back a laugh. When he does smile, which isn't often, one of his fangs hangs over the side of his mouth, like a bad over-bite. Watching him try regain the composure after something like me laughing at him, is an odd experience. He seems to be at a loss to control his facial muscles, there is no expression on it, but his eyes are revealing. Those eyes, the red tint to them, it makes me wonder sometimes if my eyes aren't like that because of his 'gift.' A gift, he calls the immortality a present that most refuse to take. I still haven't decided, but death is not an option anymore. He's talking again, I realize I haven't heard most of what he's just said. When I look up at him he makes a strangled noise and stops.

"You haven't heard a word have you?"

"Sorry, I was lost."

"Oh?"

God! I hate in when he does that. He just disappeared from his seat in the couch and there his hands are on my shoulders again. His touch, no matter how gentle he tries to be, it still makes my skin crawl. He seems to like the jump he gives me, I can hear him laughing at me. But once again, it appears that my mind has trailed off, I can hear him, whispering something.

".. You're so tense master."

"Alucard. Do you try to scare me?"

"I scare you do I? Well then."

"Well what? I'm human aren't I? Your kind has terrified humans for many a year."

"Hmm.perhaps you're right."

He leaves me a bundle of nerves when he's done playing with me. Sitting in the room, alone. He leaves me, confused and feeling tenser than when we started. The last few nights we've been sharing the bed, it's weird to wake up and see his pale body beside me. I pushed against him last night, my back against his and he fell out of the bed. It was funny, but he didn't get back in with me either. I watched him grab his clothes and leave me. He's been getting more and more secretive recently, it might be the something that I read about in one of Integra's disks.

"Alucard, he has a monster inside of him, something he cannot control. Luckily he doesn't have to, his vampiric tendencies are locked away by the seals on his gloves. If those are released then his grasp on the monster will be void. It scares me to think that there is something more vile under his calm personality."

It makes me wonder if he isn't being forced into something by this other side of him. I'm afraid to ask, I may never ask, unless he does something.