Walk the Distance Part 5
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Author's Note: Sorry it took me so long to get this next chapter out. I've been home for the past month and I don't have my computer. Next week I'll be back at my place where I have my computer 24/7 so there shouldn't be this long of a delay between the chapters. I hope I haven't lost any readers. I didn't get many reviews for part 4. Thanks to those who did. If I'm starting to get way off base with the characters, please let me know and I'll fix it.
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It was about a half hour early that she arrived to work the next day. Sadie was set on talking to Swersky before her shift. There were some issues that she wanted to discuss. One thing she had thought about all night long.
"Come in," Swersky said. "You needed to see me?"
"Yeah. I know it's only my second day here, but I need you to do me a favor."
"What would that be?"
"If you hear word of an Aaron Murdock from the 29th getting a transfer here, you'll tell me?" There that was the most important thing, she thought.
"May I ask why?"
"It's personal, sir. Let's just say that if he comes here, I'm going back to fighting fires," she said weakly.
"I'll do my best. Anything else?"
"Actually, when do you think I'll get a permanent partner?"
"I've been thinking about that. Your record is outstanding and I think you'd have a lot to teach. How'd you and Gusler get along?"
"Great. He seemed real eager. In fact he helped me out a lot. I don't know the precinct that well yet and I let him drive. I don't know why he says the other officers think he's a joke. He knows what he's doing."
"It must just be you then, because almost every officer I've put him with says he's an accident waiting to happen. I think he just needs the right teacher. I think you could be that teacher. Your record is outstanding and I think that you have what it takes to turn Gusler into a great cop."
"I don't know if that's true. He has it in him, that I know. Me though? I'm not that great, but if you feel I'm the person to help him . . . We'll get along just fine. I'm sure." Sadie smiled.
"Glad to hear it. Go get dressed and ready for roll call." He walked her to the door. "Glad to have you here."
"Thanks again."
Sadie began to walk to the locker room. It was starting to fill. She didn't recognize any of the officers she saw. The locker next to hers looked like it hadn't been open so figured Faith wasn't in yet. Neither was Maurice. Gently she pulled off her top not caring about the men in the room. She was used to changing in front of men, but that was also why she always wore a tank top under her clothing.
"That's a nasty cut there," an older officer said.
"Compliments of Vito DiPaulo." She ran her hand over the cut on her shoulder. "They all are."
"You that undercover from the 29?"
"Yeah, Sadie Logan. Just got transfered." She extended her hand.
"John Sullivan. You are one brave lady."
"Yeah, I don't think even I would do what you did," a second officer piped up. "Oh, I'm Ty Davis."
"Hi." She smiled. They seemed friendly.
The door burst open and Bosco came flying through. She took in his appearance. He didn't look well rested and it didn't seem like he hadn't shaved. He went straight to his locker and only glanced over at Sadie for a second.
"Up all night with that lady of yours?" Davis joked.
"Shut up," Bosco snapped.
"I liked you better a week ago," Davis grumbled then walked away.
"What's eating you?" Sully questioned.
"Nothing." He quickly changed then left.
"I heard about you and Bosco. He really just kiss you like that?" Davis came up to Sadie after Bosco left.
"It wasn't what it seemed." She put her gun in its holster before exiting. Gusler was waiting for her in roll call.
"Hey partner."
"Lieu tell you then?" She asked.
"Yes, Officer Logan."
"No, it's Sadie" She smiled.
"Then call me Steve. I hate my last name."
"Listen up." Swersky announced. "The 29th just gave us a heads up. DiPaulo has apparently expanded his operations over into our neck of the woods. The D.A. just wants us to document any activity that we see. It's not your jobs to do surveillance or anything like that. If you happen to notice anything, document it. Of course if there is anything illegal going on, do your job. No harassing." He shot a glance at Sadie.
"Yeah, right," she mumbled.
"You say something, Logan?" Sergeant Christopher stepped up.
"Not a word." She smiled with fakeness.
"That's all." Swerksy dismissed.
Sadie stood up and began to walk away. Gusler followed. Her mind was racing. DiPaulo thought he could expand his drug operation? She'd just have to shut him down before he could shut her down. And she had no doubt that if given the opportunity and time, he would. Once outside she tossed the keys to Gusler.
"You drive."
"Sadie," Bosco called. "Don't go after DiPaulo. Making it personal only causes more problems."
"What do you know?"
"Ask Sully. He went after this Russian guy who ruffed up his stepson or something. At the same time I was following this hood, C-Note. Turns out C-Note wanted to take out the Russian while Sully and Davis were in the restaurant. Davis got shot. My partner that day . . . I'm grateful each day Faith was with Gusler . . . anyway my partner that day got shot and killed. If Sully had made it personal by going after this guy, he never would have been there, and Davis wouldn't have gotten shot. You make it personal and things get messy."
"It's already personal and you know it." Sadie felt him pull her close.
"You don't know how much I want to kill him for what he did to you. I almost lost you once. I won't let you go after DiPaulo and get yourself killed or put in jail."
"Is that right?"
"Yeah."
She looked into his eyes trying to read him. His eyes always gave something away. This time, she wasn't sure what she saw. Determination? What was it?
"What?" She softened. "There's more?
"I realized I'm not giving you a chance to explain things. It's time we work this out."
"You mean all this time you've actually been listening to me." She backed up a bit. "Does this mean we can stop pretending we don't know each other. We can stop acting like we don't . . . didn't . . . that there was an us."
"I miss you." He sighed. "There is an us. Not was."
"That doesn't answer my question." She crossed her arms.
"Will this work?" Bosco pulled Sadie over to Sully and Davis who were just coming out.
"Hey," Davis said.
"Yeah. Hey. Can you two stay here for a second?" He turned to Sadie and pulled her into a kiss. When they pulled apart he turned to the two stunned men. "Sadie and I have been dating for two months."
"Maurice?" Sadie took a deep breath.
"That's what you wanted, right? For people to know? Now they do." He looked at Sully and Davis. "This is my girlfriend Sadie." Bosco then turned to Faith. "Ready?"
"Ah, yeah. Sure."
Sadie stood still. She couldn't believe he had done that. Sully and Davis now looked more amused than shocked. Other cops who were around finally got back to their jobs once Bosco left. She didn't know how she was going to get through that day. Bosco had a big surprise waiting for him.
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Bosco made his way to her apartment. He and Faith had gotten done late and Sadie had left by then. She had placed a note in his locker saying that if he really wanted to work things out then he better call her. He decided to do one better. He lifted his hand and knocked.
"Coming," her voice grumbled. She opened the door. "Hey, come in."
He took in her appearance. She was wearing a pair of black sweatpants that had the NYPD logo on them and a long sleeved shirt with the FDNY logo. Little pig slippers covered her feet. His eyes fell on the kitchen table where her gun lay. She followed his gaze.
"Just cleaning it," she said.
"You doing ok?"
"Now I am." She walked to her gun, picked it up then placed it in her desk drawer. "Want something to drink?"
"Nah." He sat on the couch. "I can't believe I didn't know."
"I got rid of anything that might clue people into the fact that I was a cop. Connors kept it all for me. One time though, you almost found a picture of my squad back when I was I a firefighter."
"Why?" He looked up at her.
"Why did I go undercover?"
"Among other things."
"It started six months ago. That guy, Murdock, would come onto me every chance he got. It made me uncomfortable. Then one night I was in the locker room changing after my shift. He came out of nowhere and grabbed me. I was pushed into the wall. He had this crazy look in his eyes." She quickly wiped a few stray tears away. "He put his gun to my neck and said if I moved he'd kill me." This time the tears fell but she made no attempt to wipe them away.
"He didn't . . .," he trailed off. Slowly he reached his hand to her face.
"He started to pull my shirt up. I kicked him in the groin which only made him more angry. He almost had my pants . . . my pants unbuckled . . . I was crying so hard by then. Begging him not to go any farther. Then all of a sudden he let go and pulled me into a hug. I looked over his shoulder to see my partner standing there. I wanted so badly to scream out loud what he tried to do, but Murdock whispered in my ear that I'd be sorry. I kept my mouth shut."
"Son of . . . I should have killed him. I knew there was a reason I wanted to kill him. I'm so sorry," he said.
"That's what Connors said when I told him. He was the only person I knew who wasn't intimidated by Murdock. Instead of doing the honorable thing and just helping me get my transfer he had me go undercover. He said the F.B.I. didn't think DiPaulo was really in the drug trade and that he was our problem, so Connors took it upon himself to take him down. I never truly believed that he was drug dealer either until my cover was blown. But, what can ya do? No evidence, no arrest."
He felt like a world class jerk in that moment. Everything Sadie had done was to protect herself. It wasn't her fault that Connors was slime ball who used her to further his own goals. It wasn't really her fault that she had to lie to him either. The first time they met she told him she wasn't interested.
"So, when we met . . . is that why brushed me off?"
"At first. I was still nervous ya know with everything that happened with Murdock. I knew from the get go you were a cop. Your mom boasted about it. I was scared you'd some how pick up that I was one too. I tried to let you down but you just wouldn't let up. I thought I could just be your friend . . . I was so wrong." She laughed slightly.
Bosco thought back to the night he met her. He had gone to talk to his mom. Instead he saw her and spent the whole night just watching her. He could remember exactly how she looked in her fitted jeans and NYU shirt. His mother had introduced them, then whispered to him how she was cute and single. That was his mother, always trying to find him the perfect girl.
At first he just found Sadie cute. She wasn't the model type. She wasn't like the other girls he dated. The more he watched the more he fell in love with her smile and her laugh. She was hesitant to have any sort of conversation with him. After that night he stopped by more often. The more he thought about it, the more he realized the first real conversation they had was the night Sadie found him drunk in a corner booth.
"Maurice? What is going on in that head of yours?"
"I was just thinking of that night I got so drunk you had to take me home."
"I fell in love with you that night." She leaned in towards him and took his hand.
"You gotta be kidding, I was a wreck," Bosco admitted.
"Yeah, you were," she agreed. "And all because of me. You jumped to conclusions and thought that I was seeing someone, so what do you do? You get plastered. I wanted to tell you that night that who I really was. I couldn't though."
"Yeah, and you let me spill my guts out to you."
"If you hadn't told me how you felt, I never would have opened up to you. I never told you this but that night I first saw you . . . I knew you were watching me. Bet you didn't know I was watching you too."
"No you weren't."
"Yes I was. I thought to myself, he's the one. He's the guy I always told Alex I'd be with. Not too tall, built, great eyes, brown hair, sweet to his mom, and he'd have a killer smile. Ask Alex. I'm not making this up. You were the guy. So, I'm sorry I lied but I'm not sorry for loving you."
"Me either." He leaned in to kiss her gently on this lips.
"I'm glad you came." She pulled back and away from Bosco.
"There's something else you want to tell me?"
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Sadie took a deep breath. Here it was. The moment of truth. She had gone over this scenario in her head since the day she found she was pregnant. Each time it came out different and each time Bosco had a different reaction. She prayed that he would be happy.
"There was a reason Vito took me and it wasn't because he knew I was a cop. His people can't be involved with anyone. He says it makes his job easier. He found out about us."
"Yeah? How?"
"He didn't really know who I was seeing, just that I was seeing someone." She closed her eyes. "He found something out."
"What?"
"I'm pregnant."
"Come again?" Bosco managed to get out.
"I'm pregnant," she repeated. She refused to jump to conclusions. She would wait until he said how he felt before she reacted.
"Pregnant?"
"Yes."
"Pregnant? You're pregnant?"
"Yes!"
"You're going to have a baby."
"For the last time yes," she said. She could tell by his voice he wasn't angry.
"Ok, just so we're clear on this. You are going to have a baby."
"No, you and I are going to have a baby."
"That's just . . . oh wow. Wow." Bosco got up and started to pace. "I need a drink." He looked at her in silence.
"Say something!" she screamed. Her eyes were pooling up with tears. He had grown quiet and Sadie was finding it hard to think he was happy about this.
"How far along?" he finally asked.
"Two months. I would have told you sooner, it's just I was so scared."
"Are you keeping it?"
"Yes! God yes. You may not think this is a good thing, but I do. There is a child growing inside of me. And that child will stay there for the next 7 months." She got up and faced him. "Stop looking at me like that and talk to me."
"I just need a minute."
"Fine. Take all the time you need. I know this must be a lot for you to take in," she softened.
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Bosco was still trying to wrap his mind around what Sadie said. She was pregnant. He felt like an idiot when all he could do was ask her the same thing over and over again. It was just something he never really believed would happen to him. For the first time in his life he would have a real family. He knew that Sadie must be thinking he was upset by this. She told him to take all the time he needed. It was a few minutes later when he broke out in a huge smile.
"What?" she cried.
"This is great, right?"
"I thought it was, you I wasn't so sure." She smiled.
"It's great. A shock, but it's great."
"Oh thank god. I was so scared you'd leave me or something. I couldn't handle that. I need you. And I'm so glad you're ok with this."
"I love you so much Sadie. To think I almost ruined us. I'm sorry." Bosco reached out and pulled her into a hug.
"I love you too."
"We're in this together now. You and me. Soon, there will be three of us." He looked into her eyes and noticed just how tired she was. "You need sleep. Let me help you to bed."
"Can you just hold me and watch some A-Team re-runs with me?"
"I never did understand your fascination with TV Land," he said as he sat down on the couch. He lowered Sadie to rest on his lap.
She took one of his hands and placed it on her stomach. That's when it hit him. He was going to be a dad. He was both terrified and happy. He looked down at her as she watched Mr. T and Face chase some bad guys. He played with her hair with his free hand. Soon he could feel her body start to loosen up and knew she was fast asleep.