New life, New friends, and Eventually a New Love
Chapter 2: Unsettling Realization, Newfound Determination, and Protective Outers
~DreamBlaze
Hi, Thanks for the reviews. This was one of my first fics and I wasn't sure whether it was good enough to use. I'll keep trying for those of you who are interested.
Kotono: You convinced me ^^ truth is she's my fave inner too, I just had a hard time picturing Mamo-baka with another of the Inner ::sheepish grin:: I'm lazy to even think.
Well, I hope you like the chapter…. Please Review
!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ….. that's my answer for you Nick Johnson… ::sheepish grin:: truth is I don't know where I'm going with this and I'm doing this as I go along. I kno I'm probably disappointing you when I don't answer your questions but I'll try to make my fic to answer it^^ I don't kno yet. Thank you for your review it meant lots, it made me think more too^^. I hope you read it anyway and give me more good suggestions and advice cuz reading your email made me realize I needed it.
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What have I done? I… I never meant to, I honestly thought I loved him. How wrong was I, Rei thought bitterly. All at the loss of my best friend, my only family, my sister: Usagi. She was there for me when Grandpa died and I disregarded her all because she had everything I've always wanted. I'm too late, she's gone, and no one has seen her for a week. It's my entire fault!! How blind am I! I lost her to a stupid no good cheating baka who said he loved me. He didn't, and I lost my sister for it. Why did I get jealous of her? Jealous that she took my boyfriend, I should've saw, should've saw he only used me from the beginning. I thought that if Usagi was out of the way, my relationship with Mamoru would get better and we'd stop fighting, it got worse he took me for granted after that. I wish I could go back to that day, I can't ask Setsuna, she knows what happened, the Outers have all been glaring at us since she left and Haruka is barely restraining herself. If it weren't for Michiru, we'd be blown to the wind by now but I have a feeling she wants a hand in torturing us.
Why was I blind? Blind to the love Usa shown us, the love she'd given to us so freely? Ever since Usa left life has been dim, not just for me but it seems for everyone she's met. Even the earth seems mellow of her departure. Motoki seemed a bit down to find his other 'little sister' gone. Unazaki (is that Motoki's sister name?) was sad her childhood friend had left. Naru was depressed her best friend left. Rei felt even guiltier at that. They were the ones who took Usagi away from Naru in the first place. Even Haruna, Usagi's teacher, was sad that she was gone. Usagi's parents went ballistic when she went missing and Shingo became despondent that his sister had left. It's all my fault; I drove her away. I love her, I shouldn't have allowed my envy of her get in the way of my true feelings, she really was the one that took away my pain, she gave me a family when I myself had come from a broken home.
==Flashback==
Rei had just gotten off the phone, her father told her he was too busy to visit and Rei felt depressed as ever. A tear fell to her eye thinking her own father thought her a convenience she got mad, brushing the tear away she threw an ancient scroll she had been previously working on before the call.
::Gasp::
There, at the entrance of her room, Usagi stood, eyes wide opened. Rei thought the sight of seeing the usually calm priestess, well when Usagi wasn't around, shocked her. Truth was that Usagi could feel pain and sadness from the usually fiery tempered maiden.
"Rei?" Usagi spoke softly.
Then and there the dam broke, Rei fell down to her knees and cried, crying for her unloving childhood, her father who didn't like her, for a life she wish was better.
Usagi went to her, tilted her chin and looked her straight in the eyes; deep violet shaded eyes stared to silvery blue eyes centimeters from her own.
"Rei," Usagi spoke so softly that it was hard to hear even at her close range, "know I'll always be here for you, if you need a shoulder to cry on, a friend to gossip to, or a sister to yell at," smiling softly, "I'll be there."
Tears started to fall again, not because of sadness but because of completeness, she had found her family.
==End Flashback==
Even through all that, I continued to betray her, all for a bastard who should never have been born, thought Rei cynically.
==Flashback==
"Rei-chan!!" yells out a voice not to far away. Rei turns her head and sees Usagi running up the temple steps and trip. Rei then smiles at Usagi's goofiness.
==End Flashback==
Usagi always managed to make her smile when she felt down, like the times she would get arguments with Mamoru. Whenever Usagi had her klutz attacks, she forgets the argument and just laughs. It was like she knew what I needed even if she didn't, Rei thought sadly.
==New Flashback==
Rei is sobbing in the garden of the Hikawa Temple, her grandfather had just passed away, and she was alone. Usagi comes up from behind Rei and slowly hugs her; Rei tenses then relax and lean into the embrace. Usagi holds Rei although the night, "I'll always be here for you Rei."
==End Flashback==
A tear falls. She always kept her promise, and I've never kept mine.
==Flashback==
"Rei! Come on! We're gonna be late!" screams Usagi. Rei hurries after her, flustered that it was Usagi doing the reprimanding and not her, "I'm coming Odango Atama! Hold your horses!"
The two walk in on a new café. Usagi talks to the manager then pulls a surprised Rei to the stage, "Happy Birthday Rei," smiles Usagi, "You've always wanted to sing again ever since the festival and I thought this would be the perfect place."
Rei stares at Usagi, eyes are slightly watery at her gift, she throws a quick hug to Usagi then returns to the stage and sings a song for her best friend.
==End Flashback==
The best present ever given to me, to the person that means the most.
==Flashback==
Horrified eyes stare back at Rei, haunting her very soul, and then those eyes glance to the person holding her in his arms.
Mouth opens to speak but no words come out.
After getting over the guilt Rei taunts to Usagi, "What? You act as if you're surprised," stated Rei in the nastiest voice ever, "don't tell me you was oblivious to our relationship?! Are you that dense, I thought you'd learn more over the pass few years? I guess I was wrong," the sentence finished with a sneer.
"Really Rei," interrupted a voice, "you expected that much of her?"
"Mina, just by mere observation its obvious that Usagi is incapable of such a feat, Rei was just jesting." Inquired Ami.
"Ditto to what Ami said," Makoto bellowed out.
"I.. I .. How… Could .. After all.. Done for you!" cried Usagi.
"Look at her," Ami said in a snide tone, "she's reformed to a preschool level, the grade she should have stayed in."
"Quite right Ami," exclaimed the black guardian cat perched on said person's shoulder, "She is rather pathetic."
More knives twisted in the heart of the victim. It would be later, Rei realized, that those knives reciprocated her own.
==End Flashback==
After we attacked her, I realized what I've done. I stared in revulsion at my hands that night, the hands that hurt her, and the hands that were meant to protect her. I got no acquiesce of agreements from my 'friends' the next day. What I did was horribly wrong.
Forgive me Usagi, I'm sorry. Tears fall again. I'll find you, tell you I'm sorry and if you should take me back, I'll treat you the way you should have been treated.
With that determined goal. Rei transported to the Time Gates ready to face the Time Guardian, and the Soldier of Pluto: Setsuna, even if it meant death.
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We shall see, thought Setsuna, as she gazed at the Senshi of Mars through the mists of time. Although she knew she'd allow Rei to find her princess, she still found it hard for her to accept Rei. What Rei and the others had done was unacceptable, in her eyes, and she'd be damned if she allowed the Inners to hurt her princess again, but it would be good for Usagi, it would ease her soul. Rei really meant a lot to Usagi and Setsuna had to admit that. It didn't mean that she'd threaten Rei that if she ever hurt her princess again she'd personally send her to her Uncle Hades.
Usagi meant that much to Setsuna. Usagi may have been her princess but she was also her friend. Usagi would visit her at the lonely, dark, and dreary corridors of the Time Gate and lift Setsuna's heart with happiness and light. It wasn't jus that also; it was that Usagi was more like a daughter to her than anything else. She watched her all her life and had a hand in taking care of her also. Usagi was her light, the light of everyone's life, and she'd do anything to keep it that way. If that light should die out of sadness and grief, there would be hell to pay.
Hotaru looked to her companion, she knew Setsuna would allow Rei to find their hime, it was still hard to accept. Being a slight telekinetic she was able to see the brutal way they had treated their princess, it had pained her so. The darker side of her; Saturn, wanted to give them death with no chance of rebirth, but she held back, the reason was beyond her. She hated how they treated Usagi, or as she preferred hime-mama or Usa-mama, like she was nothing when in fact she was everything in ways that many could never imagined. Usagi was a light that shone through the darkness. An angel who healed the soul. A girl who brightened lives. A being that created warmth and sunlight just by being in peoples present. She was a flame to a moth (did it on purpose^^). If she were down the earth itself would match her mood, hoping to ease the pain by taking the pain she felt, which, by all means, was hardly ever. When Usa-mama left, Earth has been raining non-stop ever since; the earth misses her child. she is the celestial creature of the universe, if she should die the cosmos would collapse in a matter of minutes. But most of all she was the girl who befriended her, no questions asked. The girl who accepted her when she found about her powers (she was just Hotaru; not Saturn yet, it hadn't been revealed). The girl who took care of her and loved her for who she was. Her light that shown through the darkness when sealed in the horrible stillness that was The Silence. She supported her on her fight against Pharaoh 90, she even took care of her as a baby for that short while she was orphaned. Usagi was everything to her and she would be damned if she let those assholes (If Michi ever found out what she was thinking she'd not only agree but have Ruka sleep on the couch tonight^^) hurt her anymore. (Seems like the two dark and mysterious sailor soldiers think alike^^).
Looking back at the mist her heart settled a little, maybe Rei's intentions were true, no one could make the most pitiful expression like she could, be it true or false. Still it didn't mean she wouldn't watch her like a hawk that stalks its prey.
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Unknown to them, a figure watched, silently, patiently, waiting for it's time to reveal itself.
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How do you like it? I had to put my fave Inner and my fave Outer in it. It just wouldn't be right without them :P don't worry, the outers will be her too cuz I like all of them, just Sets the best, and if I'm convinced enough maybe the other Inners will reform and we'll all have one big happy reunion..
Ja for now… -.~
Chapter 2: Unsettling Realization, Newfound Determination, and Protective Outers
~DreamBlaze
Hi, Thanks for the reviews. This was one of my first fics and I wasn't sure whether it was good enough to use. I'll keep trying for those of you who are interested.
Kotono: You convinced me ^^ truth is she's my fave inner too, I just had a hard time picturing Mamo-baka with another of the Inner ::sheepish grin:: I'm lazy to even think.
Well, I hope you like the chapter…. Please Review
!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ….. that's my answer for you Nick Johnson… ::sheepish grin:: truth is I don't know where I'm going with this and I'm doing this as I go along. I kno I'm probably disappointing you when I don't answer your questions but I'll try to make my fic to answer it^^ I don't kno yet. Thank you for your review it meant lots, it made me think more too^^. I hope you read it anyway and give me more good suggestions and advice cuz reading your email made me realize I needed it.
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What have I done? I… I never meant to, I honestly thought I loved him. How wrong was I, Rei thought bitterly. All at the loss of my best friend, my only family, my sister: Usagi. She was there for me when Grandpa died and I disregarded her all because she had everything I've always wanted. I'm too late, she's gone, and no one has seen her for a week. It's my entire fault!! How blind am I! I lost her to a stupid no good cheating baka who said he loved me. He didn't, and I lost my sister for it. Why did I get jealous of her? Jealous that she took my boyfriend, I should've saw, should've saw he only used me from the beginning. I thought that if Usagi was out of the way, my relationship with Mamoru would get better and we'd stop fighting, it got worse he took me for granted after that. I wish I could go back to that day, I can't ask Setsuna, she knows what happened, the Outers have all been glaring at us since she left and Haruka is barely restraining herself. If it weren't for Michiru, we'd be blown to the wind by now but I have a feeling she wants a hand in torturing us.
Why was I blind? Blind to the love Usa shown us, the love she'd given to us so freely? Ever since Usa left life has been dim, not just for me but it seems for everyone she's met. Even the earth seems mellow of her departure. Motoki seemed a bit down to find his other 'little sister' gone. Unazaki (is that Motoki's sister name?) was sad her childhood friend had left. Naru was depressed her best friend left. Rei felt even guiltier at that. They were the ones who took Usagi away from Naru in the first place. Even Haruna, Usagi's teacher, was sad that she was gone. Usagi's parents went ballistic when she went missing and Shingo became despondent that his sister had left. It's all my fault; I drove her away. I love her, I shouldn't have allowed my envy of her get in the way of my true feelings, she really was the one that took away my pain, she gave me a family when I myself had come from a broken home.
==Flashback==
Rei had just gotten off the phone, her father told her he was too busy to visit and Rei felt depressed as ever. A tear fell to her eye thinking her own father thought her a convenience she got mad, brushing the tear away she threw an ancient scroll she had been previously working on before the call.
::Gasp::
There, at the entrance of her room, Usagi stood, eyes wide opened. Rei thought the sight of seeing the usually calm priestess, well when Usagi wasn't around, shocked her. Truth was that Usagi could feel pain and sadness from the usually fiery tempered maiden.
"Rei?" Usagi spoke softly.
Then and there the dam broke, Rei fell down to her knees and cried, crying for her unloving childhood, her father who didn't like her, for a life she wish was better.
Usagi went to her, tilted her chin and looked her straight in the eyes; deep violet shaded eyes stared to silvery blue eyes centimeters from her own.
"Rei," Usagi spoke so softly that it was hard to hear even at her close range, "know I'll always be here for you, if you need a shoulder to cry on, a friend to gossip to, or a sister to yell at," smiling softly, "I'll be there."
Tears started to fall again, not because of sadness but because of completeness, she had found her family.
==End Flashback==
Even through all that, I continued to betray her, all for a bastard who should never have been born, thought Rei cynically.
==Flashback==
"Rei-chan!!" yells out a voice not to far away. Rei turns her head and sees Usagi running up the temple steps and trip. Rei then smiles at Usagi's goofiness.
==End Flashback==
Usagi always managed to make her smile when she felt down, like the times she would get arguments with Mamoru. Whenever Usagi had her klutz attacks, she forgets the argument and just laughs. It was like she knew what I needed even if she didn't, Rei thought sadly.
==New Flashback==
Rei is sobbing in the garden of the Hikawa Temple, her grandfather had just passed away, and she was alone. Usagi comes up from behind Rei and slowly hugs her; Rei tenses then relax and lean into the embrace. Usagi holds Rei although the night, "I'll always be here for you Rei."
==End Flashback==
A tear falls. She always kept her promise, and I've never kept mine.
==Flashback==
"Rei! Come on! We're gonna be late!" screams Usagi. Rei hurries after her, flustered that it was Usagi doing the reprimanding and not her, "I'm coming Odango Atama! Hold your horses!"
The two walk in on a new café. Usagi talks to the manager then pulls a surprised Rei to the stage, "Happy Birthday Rei," smiles Usagi, "You've always wanted to sing again ever since the festival and I thought this would be the perfect place."
Rei stares at Usagi, eyes are slightly watery at her gift, she throws a quick hug to Usagi then returns to the stage and sings a song for her best friend.
==End Flashback==
The best present ever given to me, to the person that means the most.
==Flashback==
Horrified eyes stare back at Rei, haunting her very soul, and then those eyes glance to the person holding her in his arms.
Mouth opens to speak but no words come out.
After getting over the guilt Rei taunts to Usagi, "What? You act as if you're surprised," stated Rei in the nastiest voice ever, "don't tell me you was oblivious to our relationship?! Are you that dense, I thought you'd learn more over the pass few years? I guess I was wrong," the sentence finished with a sneer.
"Really Rei," interrupted a voice, "you expected that much of her?"
"Mina, just by mere observation its obvious that Usagi is incapable of such a feat, Rei was just jesting." Inquired Ami.
"Ditto to what Ami said," Makoto bellowed out.
"I.. I .. How… Could .. After all.. Done for you!" cried Usagi.
"Look at her," Ami said in a snide tone, "she's reformed to a preschool level, the grade she should have stayed in."
"Quite right Ami," exclaimed the black guardian cat perched on said person's shoulder, "She is rather pathetic."
More knives twisted in the heart of the victim. It would be later, Rei realized, that those knives reciprocated her own.
==End Flashback==
After we attacked her, I realized what I've done. I stared in revulsion at my hands that night, the hands that hurt her, and the hands that were meant to protect her. I got no acquiesce of agreements from my 'friends' the next day. What I did was horribly wrong.
Forgive me Usagi, I'm sorry. Tears fall again. I'll find you, tell you I'm sorry and if you should take me back, I'll treat you the way you should have been treated.
With that determined goal. Rei transported to the Time Gates ready to face the Time Guardian, and the Soldier of Pluto: Setsuna, even if it meant death.
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We shall see, thought Setsuna, as she gazed at the Senshi of Mars through the mists of time. Although she knew she'd allow Rei to find her princess, she still found it hard for her to accept Rei. What Rei and the others had done was unacceptable, in her eyes, and she'd be damned if she allowed the Inners to hurt her princess again, but it would be good for Usagi, it would ease her soul. Rei really meant a lot to Usagi and Setsuna had to admit that. It didn't mean that she'd threaten Rei that if she ever hurt her princess again she'd personally send her to her Uncle Hades.
Usagi meant that much to Setsuna. Usagi may have been her princess but she was also her friend. Usagi would visit her at the lonely, dark, and dreary corridors of the Time Gate and lift Setsuna's heart with happiness and light. It wasn't jus that also; it was that Usagi was more like a daughter to her than anything else. She watched her all her life and had a hand in taking care of her also. Usagi was her light, the light of everyone's life, and she'd do anything to keep it that way. If that light should die out of sadness and grief, there would be hell to pay.
Hotaru looked to her companion, she knew Setsuna would allow Rei to find their hime, it was still hard to accept. Being a slight telekinetic she was able to see the brutal way they had treated their princess, it had pained her so. The darker side of her; Saturn, wanted to give them death with no chance of rebirth, but she held back, the reason was beyond her. She hated how they treated Usagi, or as she preferred hime-mama or Usa-mama, like she was nothing when in fact she was everything in ways that many could never imagined. Usagi was a light that shone through the darkness. An angel who healed the soul. A girl who brightened lives. A being that created warmth and sunlight just by being in peoples present. She was a flame to a moth (did it on purpose^^). If she were down the earth itself would match her mood, hoping to ease the pain by taking the pain she felt, which, by all means, was hardly ever. When Usa-mama left, Earth has been raining non-stop ever since; the earth misses her child. she is the celestial creature of the universe, if she should die the cosmos would collapse in a matter of minutes. But most of all she was the girl who befriended her, no questions asked. The girl who accepted her when she found about her powers (she was just Hotaru; not Saturn yet, it hadn't been revealed). The girl who took care of her and loved her for who she was. Her light that shown through the darkness when sealed in the horrible stillness that was The Silence. She supported her on her fight against Pharaoh 90, she even took care of her as a baby for that short while she was orphaned. Usagi was everything to her and she would be damned if she let those assholes (If Michi ever found out what she was thinking she'd not only agree but have Ruka sleep on the couch tonight^^) hurt her anymore. (Seems like the two dark and mysterious sailor soldiers think alike^^).
Looking back at the mist her heart settled a little, maybe Rei's intentions were true, no one could make the most pitiful expression like she could, be it true or false. Still it didn't mean she wouldn't watch her like a hawk that stalks its prey.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Unknown to them, a figure watched, silently, patiently, waiting for it's time to reveal itself.
_________________________________
How do you like it? I had to put my fave Inner and my fave Outer in it. It just wouldn't be right without them :P don't worry, the outers will be her too cuz I like all of them, just Sets the best, and if I'm convinced enough maybe the other Inners will reform and we'll all have one big happy reunion..
Ja for now… -.~