Title: Sweet Joey - Loss
Part: 3 - COMPLETED
Author: Chantal aka Mala Website: http://my-dc.cjb.net
Rating: PG
Spoilers: Season 3
Summary: Joey passes on. How will Dawson & Pacey cope?
Category: Joey
Disclaimer: I don't own any of the characters. Author's Note: One of my first fics. It's probably not suitable for publishing but please R&R.
"I love you," Joey said as Pacey rubbed his eyes.
"Joey?" he asked then realised it wasn't really her.
Joey was hovering before him with her long dark hair flowing behind her. She looked like an angel.
"Yes Pacey. And it's time to say goodbye. But please remember that I'll always love you," Joey said as she started to fade.
"No Joey, please don't go. I love you. I need you." Pacey cried out as he reached for her.
Joey smiled softly as she faded. "Take care of Dawson."
Then she was gone and Pacey suddenly woke up. When he realised what the dream was about, he wept like he'd never wept before.
He knew what it meant. But he didn't want to say goodbye.
*
Andie was crying uncontrollably as each person took turns saying goodbye to Joey.
"I love you," Jen said, kissing her on the cheek then moving away.
"I'll miss you too much," Jack said, also kissing Joey on the cheek.
Jack joined Jen then lead her & Andie out of the room as Dawson was left to say his goodbyes.
Dawson sat beside the bed & took Joey's hand. He tried to collect his thoughts before speaking. He watched the line move across the screen monitoring her still heart.
"Joey, no matter what, I'll always love you. You are & will always be my soul mate," Dawson paused then kept speaking. "We'll be together again in the future."
Tears began running down Dawson's face as he kissed her hand & just sat watching her until the doctors forced him to leave.
*
"We should call Pacey. He doesn't know yet," Jack said.
Jen nodded & followed Jack to a pay phone. He dialled Pacey's number & almost didn't recognise his voice as he answered.
"Pacey, it's Jack. I don't know how to tell you this so I'll just say it. Joey died," Jack said.
"I know," Pacey answered brokenly, before hanging up.
Jack looked at Jen with concern as he hung up the phone.
"Pacey said he knew then he hung up," Jack said.
Jen thought for a moment. "I hope he's okay. Should we look for him?"
"Maybe he needs some time alone. Remember what Dawson said about them?" Jack said seriously.
Jen nodded then they both headed back to the group. Dawson was holding Bessie as she cried. The Leery's were holding each other and crying. Jen couldn't see Andie anywhere.
"Where's Andie?" Jen asked with concern.
*
"Pacey," a soft voice said from behind him.
"Joey?" Pacey said, turning around and seeing Andie. "Oh."
Andie sat down beside Pacey and leaned her head on his shoulder.
"I'm sorry," she whispered tearfully.
Pacey leaned his head on her head. "Me too. I can't believe she's gone."
"I got to say goodbye to her. She was so pale," Andie continued.
"This is all my fault!" Pacey cried out. "If only I hadn't tried to force her onto the Ferris wheel. Why do I always behave like that?"
Andie sat up and grabbed Pacey by the shoulders. "It's not your fault Pacey. It was a tragic accident. Don't blame yourself!"
Pacey wiped away his tears. "I love her so much."
Andie's heart broke as she heard him say the words she wished he'd say to her.
"I know. She loved you," Andie said simply.
They sat in silence, with their memories until it began to grow dark. A chilly breeze began to pick up.
"I'm going to head home," Andie said to Pacey.
He nodded but didn't move.
"Will you be okay?" she asked.
He nodded again.
"Give me a call if you need anything. Anything at all," she said, leaning down to give him a kiss.
After Andie left, Pacey broke down again. He cried and cried. Then he stood up. He suddenly made a decision to be with her again. He couldn't let go.
He stood up and began walking to the docks. It was freezing, one of the coldest nights Capeside had ever had.
He reached the docks and walked along a pier. He could barely see the end for all the fog. He didn't care. He knew where he was going.
Pacey reached the edge and looked down into the freezing black water. He couldn't see the bottom.
"I'm coming Jo," he called out as he began to prepare to jump.
He barely heard the voice telling him not to as his body hit the freezing cold water. It sliced through him like a knife and cut off his breathing.
As he lay floating, his last conscious thought was of Joey.
*
Dawson swore as he realised he was going to have to jump in after Pacey. He dove into where he saw Pacey jump. It took a few moments but he finally found his body.
It felt lifeless as Dawson pulled him toward the docks then lifted him up.
"Gee you're heavy," he remarked as he climbed out of the water.
With teeth chattering, he quickly performed CPR onto his friend.
After a few moments, Pacey was spluttering as he coughed up the water in his lungs.
"Dawson?" he asked in disbelief. "Why did you do that?"
"Because I don't want to lose my other best friend. Pacey how could you?!" Dawson asked angrily. "Do you think Joey would want you to do this?"
Pacey shrugged as he sat up.
"Sometimes you just don't think man," Dawson went on.
"Hey that's me. The king of not thinking," Pacey said dryly.
"I'm glad you can joke at a time like this. You almost killed yourself," Dawson said, pulling Pacey to his feet.
"That was the plan," Pacey said as he weakly followed Dawson.
"I know you're hurting. I am too. But that doesn't give you an excuse to kill yourself. I thought you were stronger than that!" Dawson couldn't stop lecturing Pacey. He was so angry.
"Well now you know better," Pacey said, trying to tune Dawson out.
Dawson stopped as he grabbed Pacey by the shoulders. "Pacey stop it. You're going to have to face life without Joey. You may as well start now."
Pacey slumped back to the ground.
"I can't do it Dawson. I can't," Pacey said helplessly.
Dawson sighed as he sat down beside Pacey.
"Do you think it's easy for me?" Dawson asked, tears starting to appear in his eyes. "Especially knowing she didn't love me."
Pacey put an arm across Dawson's shoulder.
"I'm sorry man, I shouldn't have told you like that," Pacey said.
"It's okay," Dawson said. "I should've known. I'm so blind."
Pacey and Dawson looked at each other. Everything they felt was mirrored in the other one's eyes.
"How are we going to live without her?" Dawson asked.
Pacey shrugged. He'd been asking himself that all night.
"Pacey, I don't want to lose you as a friend. I don't really know what happened between you & Joey and it's not really my business. All I know is that you're my best friend & I need you so I can get through this," Dawson said softly.
Pacey felt something in his heart lighten. Joey was gone but he was now closer to Dawson than ever before. Maybe he would survive, especially with Dawson's help.
"That means everything to me, man. It really does," Pacey said.
The two boys sat side by side all night, staring out at the water and reliving memories of happier times.
Part: 3 - COMPLETED
Author: Chantal aka Mala Website: http://my-dc.cjb.net
Rating: PG
Spoilers: Season 3
Summary: Joey passes on. How will Dawson & Pacey cope?
Category: Joey
Disclaimer: I don't own any of the characters. Author's Note: One of my first fics. It's probably not suitable for publishing but please R&R.
"I love you," Joey said as Pacey rubbed his eyes.
"Joey?" he asked then realised it wasn't really her.
Joey was hovering before him with her long dark hair flowing behind her. She looked like an angel.
"Yes Pacey. And it's time to say goodbye. But please remember that I'll always love you," Joey said as she started to fade.
"No Joey, please don't go. I love you. I need you." Pacey cried out as he reached for her.
Joey smiled softly as she faded. "Take care of Dawson."
Then she was gone and Pacey suddenly woke up. When he realised what the dream was about, he wept like he'd never wept before.
He knew what it meant. But he didn't want to say goodbye.
*
Andie was crying uncontrollably as each person took turns saying goodbye to Joey.
"I love you," Jen said, kissing her on the cheek then moving away.
"I'll miss you too much," Jack said, also kissing Joey on the cheek.
Jack joined Jen then lead her & Andie out of the room as Dawson was left to say his goodbyes.
Dawson sat beside the bed & took Joey's hand. He tried to collect his thoughts before speaking. He watched the line move across the screen monitoring her still heart.
"Joey, no matter what, I'll always love you. You are & will always be my soul mate," Dawson paused then kept speaking. "We'll be together again in the future."
Tears began running down Dawson's face as he kissed her hand & just sat watching her until the doctors forced him to leave.
*
"We should call Pacey. He doesn't know yet," Jack said.
Jen nodded & followed Jack to a pay phone. He dialled Pacey's number & almost didn't recognise his voice as he answered.
"Pacey, it's Jack. I don't know how to tell you this so I'll just say it. Joey died," Jack said.
"I know," Pacey answered brokenly, before hanging up.
Jack looked at Jen with concern as he hung up the phone.
"Pacey said he knew then he hung up," Jack said.
Jen thought for a moment. "I hope he's okay. Should we look for him?"
"Maybe he needs some time alone. Remember what Dawson said about them?" Jack said seriously.
Jen nodded then they both headed back to the group. Dawson was holding Bessie as she cried. The Leery's were holding each other and crying. Jen couldn't see Andie anywhere.
"Where's Andie?" Jen asked with concern.
*
"Pacey," a soft voice said from behind him.
"Joey?" Pacey said, turning around and seeing Andie. "Oh."
Andie sat down beside Pacey and leaned her head on his shoulder.
"I'm sorry," she whispered tearfully.
Pacey leaned his head on her head. "Me too. I can't believe she's gone."
"I got to say goodbye to her. She was so pale," Andie continued.
"This is all my fault!" Pacey cried out. "If only I hadn't tried to force her onto the Ferris wheel. Why do I always behave like that?"
Andie sat up and grabbed Pacey by the shoulders. "It's not your fault Pacey. It was a tragic accident. Don't blame yourself!"
Pacey wiped away his tears. "I love her so much."
Andie's heart broke as she heard him say the words she wished he'd say to her.
"I know. She loved you," Andie said simply.
They sat in silence, with their memories until it began to grow dark. A chilly breeze began to pick up.
"I'm going to head home," Andie said to Pacey.
He nodded but didn't move.
"Will you be okay?" she asked.
He nodded again.
"Give me a call if you need anything. Anything at all," she said, leaning down to give him a kiss.
After Andie left, Pacey broke down again. He cried and cried. Then he stood up. He suddenly made a decision to be with her again. He couldn't let go.
He stood up and began walking to the docks. It was freezing, one of the coldest nights Capeside had ever had.
He reached the docks and walked along a pier. He could barely see the end for all the fog. He didn't care. He knew where he was going.
Pacey reached the edge and looked down into the freezing black water. He couldn't see the bottom.
"I'm coming Jo," he called out as he began to prepare to jump.
He barely heard the voice telling him not to as his body hit the freezing cold water. It sliced through him like a knife and cut off his breathing.
As he lay floating, his last conscious thought was of Joey.
*
Dawson swore as he realised he was going to have to jump in after Pacey. He dove into where he saw Pacey jump. It took a few moments but he finally found his body.
It felt lifeless as Dawson pulled him toward the docks then lifted him up.
"Gee you're heavy," he remarked as he climbed out of the water.
With teeth chattering, he quickly performed CPR onto his friend.
After a few moments, Pacey was spluttering as he coughed up the water in his lungs.
"Dawson?" he asked in disbelief. "Why did you do that?"
"Because I don't want to lose my other best friend. Pacey how could you?!" Dawson asked angrily. "Do you think Joey would want you to do this?"
Pacey shrugged as he sat up.
"Sometimes you just don't think man," Dawson went on.
"Hey that's me. The king of not thinking," Pacey said dryly.
"I'm glad you can joke at a time like this. You almost killed yourself," Dawson said, pulling Pacey to his feet.
"That was the plan," Pacey said as he weakly followed Dawson.
"I know you're hurting. I am too. But that doesn't give you an excuse to kill yourself. I thought you were stronger than that!" Dawson couldn't stop lecturing Pacey. He was so angry.
"Well now you know better," Pacey said, trying to tune Dawson out.
Dawson stopped as he grabbed Pacey by the shoulders. "Pacey stop it. You're going to have to face life without Joey. You may as well start now."
Pacey slumped back to the ground.
"I can't do it Dawson. I can't," Pacey said helplessly.
Dawson sighed as he sat down beside Pacey.
"Do you think it's easy for me?" Dawson asked, tears starting to appear in his eyes. "Especially knowing she didn't love me."
Pacey put an arm across Dawson's shoulder.
"I'm sorry man, I shouldn't have told you like that," Pacey said.
"It's okay," Dawson said. "I should've known. I'm so blind."
Pacey and Dawson looked at each other. Everything they felt was mirrored in the other one's eyes.
"How are we going to live without her?" Dawson asked.
Pacey shrugged. He'd been asking himself that all night.
"Pacey, I don't want to lose you as a friend. I don't really know what happened between you & Joey and it's not really my business. All I know is that you're my best friend & I need you so I can get through this," Dawson said softly.
Pacey felt something in his heart lighten. Joey was gone but he was now closer to Dawson than ever before. Maybe he would survive, especially with Dawson's help.
"That means everything to me, man. It really does," Pacey said.
The two boys sat side by side all night, staring out at the water and reliving memories of happier times.