CHAPTER: Doors.
She opened the door and took one last look at him. That's when he realized he had to tell her, if he let her leave now he would never get to be with her. He forgot all that was in his head and decided to give his heart a chance. He walked up and held her hand. " What is it Alec," she asked looking at him. For a moment she knew what is was. She always wondered what that look meant, but now it was quite evidential what it was. He had this pleading look in his eyes every time he looked at her, she wasn't sure what it meant but she could almost take it for love. " Max please don't go." She was silent; she wasn't sure what to make of this. He let go of her hand and started to paste up and down in an agitated manner. Max was baffled by his behavior. He came to halt in front of her and thus began: " I know I'm being really selfish by asking you to do this but I have to because I will not be able to live with myself if I don't." he took a deep breath. " You see, I know for a fact if you leave here now I'll never see you again, not the way I have in the past few days. Max I feel like my head is going to explode; I have to tell you the truth. And the truth is I'm love with you." Max didn't know what to say as she looked at him as he was staring at her. This was the biggest surprise he had ever given her. He realized her lost for words and decided he should explain himself, "Max I honestly believe that you and I are meant to be together. What I feel for you can't just be a coincident, it's too strong for that." She still had a blank expression on her face. "I know that my timing is a little off, but I promise you if you stay here with me you will never regret it" All she wanted to do was say that she would stay, but she found herself moving away from him. " Alec I can't." He suddenly felt like the idiot of the decade. He poured his heart out and he got nothing in return. He felt the air drain from his lungs; he didn't know what to do, so he did what he did whenever he got scared about something. He put him self in a protective shell, blocked his emotions form the world. So he pretended he was 'all right'. He acted like he did around everyone else, " Well it was worth a try," he said faking a smile, " just trying to save you from the misery that is Logan Cale." She knew this act. She had seen it before. From that moment she knew she lost his trust. " Alec I'm so sorry," He fixed his face like he didn't know hat she was talking about, but his throat was dry and his eyes leaking, as he would call it. " I'm fine." She walked away slowly from him and watched him pretend to be 'fine'. He closed the door behind him and exhaled. He felt sick and dizzy. He went to his bed and curled up his sheet he took the pillow where Max laid before and hugged it. It smelt like her shampoo. He berried his face in it and let the tears out. He knew he had lost her forever. They couldn't even go back to the way they were before not after she knew that he felt that way. He wanted some alcohol in his system but his troth was tight it would not hold it up. It kept playing back in his mind all the thing he spilled out and cursed himself for letting his true feelings known but most off all he cursed that darn Lottery ticket. ~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~* ~* Inside Logan's Apartment. Asha and Logan laid in bed together, over the past few days they had gotten really close. After the incident when Max and Alec walked in on them kissing, they figured it was ok since Max took it so lightly and she did say she kissed Alec. That was invitation enough for Logan to tender. ~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~* Max stopped outside Logan's apartment door. She couldn't bring herself to know on the door. She didn't even want to do. She wanted to be somewhere else with someone else. Alec to be exact. She missed him already. She remembered the night when she had the dream about Ben and she woke up afraid and cold, he had been there for her. His arms around her made her feel safe. She longed to have that feeling again. Then it suddenly hit her what she just did. She walked away from the only person who truly understood her, the only person she could be happy with. The fact that she was outside Logan's door became ridiculous. Why was she here and not with Alec. She turned around and went down the elevator. ~*~*~*~*~*~*
She kept silently in his apartment. He was on his bed coved up. She crawled into bed with him.
Alec couldn't believe what he was seeing. She had come back to him. He reached out for her and took her in his arms. With out saying a word they laid there holding each other.
NOTE: Reviews Please. I'm sorry I took so long with this chapter but I had computer problems. I didn't write these before like my other stories.
And I have a message board that's about Jensen it' at http://toonmili.hyperboard2.com
She opened the door and took one last look at him. That's when he realized he had to tell her, if he let her leave now he would never get to be with her. He forgot all that was in his head and decided to give his heart a chance. He walked up and held her hand. " What is it Alec," she asked looking at him. For a moment she knew what is was. She always wondered what that look meant, but now it was quite evidential what it was. He had this pleading look in his eyes every time he looked at her, she wasn't sure what it meant but she could almost take it for love. " Max please don't go." She was silent; she wasn't sure what to make of this. He let go of her hand and started to paste up and down in an agitated manner. Max was baffled by his behavior. He came to halt in front of her and thus began: " I know I'm being really selfish by asking you to do this but I have to because I will not be able to live with myself if I don't." he took a deep breath. " You see, I know for a fact if you leave here now I'll never see you again, not the way I have in the past few days. Max I feel like my head is going to explode; I have to tell you the truth. And the truth is I'm love with you." Max didn't know what to say as she looked at him as he was staring at her. This was the biggest surprise he had ever given her. He realized her lost for words and decided he should explain himself, "Max I honestly believe that you and I are meant to be together. What I feel for you can't just be a coincident, it's too strong for that." She still had a blank expression on her face. "I know that my timing is a little off, but I promise you if you stay here with me you will never regret it" All she wanted to do was say that she would stay, but she found herself moving away from him. " Alec I can't." He suddenly felt like the idiot of the decade. He poured his heart out and he got nothing in return. He felt the air drain from his lungs; he didn't know what to do, so he did what he did whenever he got scared about something. He put him self in a protective shell, blocked his emotions form the world. So he pretended he was 'all right'. He acted like he did around everyone else, " Well it was worth a try," he said faking a smile, " just trying to save you from the misery that is Logan Cale." She knew this act. She had seen it before. From that moment she knew she lost his trust. " Alec I'm so sorry," He fixed his face like he didn't know hat she was talking about, but his throat was dry and his eyes leaking, as he would call it. " I'm fine." She walked away slowly from him and watched him pretend to be 'fine'. He closed the door behind him and exhaled. He felt sick and dizzy. He went to his bed and curled up his sheet he took the pillow where Max laid before and hugged it. It smelt like her shampoo. He berried his face in it and let the tears out. He knew he had lost her forever. They couldn't even go back to the way they were before not after she knew that he felt that way. He wanted some alcohol in his system but his troth was tight it would not hold it up. It kept playing back in his mind all the thing he spilled out and cursed himself for letting his true feelings known but most off all he cursed that darn Lottery ticket. ~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~* ~* Inside Logan's Apartment. Asha and Logan laid in bed together, over the past few days they had gotten really close. After the incident when Max and Alec walked in on them kissing, they figured it was ok since Max took it so lightly and she did say she kissed Alec. That was invitation enough for Logan to tender. ~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~* Max stopped outside Logan's apartment door. She couldn't bring herself to know on the door. She didn't even want to do. She wanted to be somewhere else with someone else. Alec to be exact. She missed him already. She remembered the night when she had the dream about Ben and she woke up afraid and cold, he had been there for her. His arms around her made her feel safe. She longed to have that feeling again. Then it suddenly hit her what she just did. She walked away from the only person who truly understood her, the only person she could be happy with. The fact that she was outside Logan's door became ridiculous. Why was she here and not with Alec. She turned around and went down the elevator. ~*~*~*~*~*~*
She kept silently in his apartment. He was on his bed coved up. She crawled into bed with him.
Alec couldn't believe what he was seeing. She had come back to him. He reached out for her and took her in his arms. With out saying a word they laid there holding each other.
NOTE: Reviews Please. I'm sorry I took so long with this chapter but I had computer problems. I didn't write these before like my other stories.
And I have a message board that's about Jensen it' at http://toonmili.hyperboard2.com