AN: Sorry Kt but i got 3 for Piper and 1 for Phoebe.

Part 4

There came a time in my life,
When everything seemed alright,
But everything turned out wrong,
And now I've got to carry on,
Without you in my life,
Sleep through the day into the night,
Roll out of bed, what can be said?
I'm living now but I feel dead.


Malichi hovered above dark fog as he worked his power on the next weakest charmed
one. He accessed her darkest moment. He chuckled to himself as he realised he had a
wide selection of devastating memories.

Oh now he had something that would definitely help his plan. She had tried to take her
own life once, which meant she was a 'dead' cert. Pun intended. He brought her painful
past back and he felt as the blackness consumed her.

All he had to do now was sit back and watch as another charmed one is lost.

******

Piper stood in front of the stove. She carefully added ingredients to the pot.

Leo entered the kitchen and went straight to his wife's side. "What are you making?" he
asked softly. She hadn't yet acknowledged his presence.

"keeping my hands busy." she said in the emotionless tone she seemed to have
adopted.

Leo reached out and placed his hand on her back only to have Piper shrug him off. He
had severe deja vu to how she reacted when Prue died. It made sense that she would
be hurting s much... In the same way as before but blaming him? Not again. Honestly
he blamed his self but he always did when a charge was hurt.

He couldn't stand being blanked from Piper anymore, "I'm going to keep busy myself.
Call if you need me." He then orbed out and Piper let herself breathe.

But it hurt. It hurt breathing, it hurt being in the same room as somebody else, it hurt
just standing there.

She felt so alone, so invisible.

Everything was rushing around inside her head and she had no way of slowly them
down... there was one way to make them stop.

She took the BOS from the kitchen table where Prue had left it a couple of days ago
and started to search through it. After a few minutes she came to what she was looking
for - natural poison. She knew it would work, Prue had used it to get rid of a ghost.

She quickly set about making and was lucky to get no interruptions. Her sisters were
too busy dealing with themselfs to care about what she was doing.

Staring at the red liquid she thought about why she was going to do this. Then it all
came to her. The grief, the sadness, the loneliness. Over all the pain. She had to make
it stop, once and for all.

In one smooth gulp she drank the mix and stood there wide eyed before falling to the
kitchen floor with a thud.

******

Prue and Phoebe decided to go and get Piper. This was no time for any of them to be
alone. The only way to get through the lost would be together.

It what both their worst nightmares come true when they saw Piper unconscious on the
floor.

Phoebe rushed forward and turned Piper over trying hard not to think about how limp
she was. She prayed Piper had fainted from all the stress but she was proved wrong
when she put her fingers to Piper's neck. Nothing.

She looked up at her big sister, "She's dead." Was all she could managed before her
voice was replaced with sobs.

Prue couldn't hear Phoebe's voice she all ready knew. She could feel it.

She backed away from her sisters until the wall stopped her. She sank down and hid
behind her hands as she curled up in a ball. Refusing to look at the scene before her,
she went to the only place left, her mind.