This is it! The last chapter! Thank you to everyone who has reviewed, you have no idea how much it means to me! I have responded to some of the reviews at the bottom, just a few comments. Note to all, no sequel this is it! No more for this story! I will be starting another story very soon I have to start to type it first… I'm lazy! But most of it is written yeah! So please R/R this story, and look for my new one soon! I don't own Harry Potter, J. K. Rowling does! Thank you all!

The days leading up to Christmas were good. The Gryffindors had a big snowball fight the Saturday before term ended and Remus and some of the Professors played. Harry got Remus a few times and then with the 5th year boys they rushed at the fort the other team had put up. He slammed right into Remus and both went down laughing. Sirius was there and he barked loudly as though laughing when they hit the ground. He ran over and helped to destroy the fort. He jumped on a few students playfully and was loved by everyone.

They also went to Hogsmeade where Harry bought presents for everyone. He spent most of the day trying to figure out what to do get Remus. He searched every shop and came up with a few books and some tricks. He got Ron and Hermione some boxes of candy. Remus and Sirius were staying at Hogwarts for Christmas and Harry was glad Remus was around. They spent nights in the Gryffindor Tower playing chess, Remus always helped Harry play against Ron and with his help, and he managed to beat Ron. Ron then challenged to Remus to a game and they played long, tiring game. Remus was an excellent chess player.

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It was Christmas morning. Ron as usual woke Harry up long before he was ready to be awake. By the time Harry had finally gotten up Ron was deep in his pile and had already unwrapped his Weasley sweater and sweets from his mom. Harry crawled to the edge of his bed and looked at his presents. He saw his sweater from Mrs. Weasley and unwrapped this first to find a green sweater with a Gryffindor lion on it. He then opened a pie and some fudge from Mrs. Weasley.

When the two had finished opening their gifts and exchanged them they went into the common room to find the twins waiting for them. They both had on their sweaters and were pretending to weep over their last Christmas at Hogwarts. The four of them went down to the Great Hall to eat with Fred and George hanging on to Ron and Harry still weeping.

As mad as he was at Sirius, he couldn't help laugh as during the meal he went to every student and teacher excluding Snape and Malfoy begging for food. Remus of course had put a plate down on the ground for him but he had engulfed that in about 5 minutes. Presently he was at Professor Sprout who seemed to be a very big lover of dogs.

Remus rolled his eyes at Sirius and exclaimed, "He will never leave you alone now." He watched as Sprout gave Sirius some more meat and he licked her hands in appreciation.

"Oh he is the cutest dog I have ever seen," she scratched behind Snuffle's ears making Remus roll his eyes again. Snuffles grinned as best he could as a dog to Remus and turned back to Sprout.

"Disgusting mutt," Snape growled. He sat a few seats away from Sprout.

"Oh Severus you are being unkind to poor cute Snuffles," Sprout gave him more food causing both Snape and Remus to roll their eyes.

"Go bother someone else Snuffles," Remus ordered. Snuffles though gave Remus a nasty look and put his head on Sprout's lap.

When the meal was over Harry and Ron got up to leave. They had planned to go back to the common room and have a nice quiet game of chess but Remus hurried over to them.

"Can I speak to you?" He asked.

Ron told Harry he would meet him up in the common room and left.

"I was wondering if we could go on a little walk?" Remus asked.

"Sure!" Harry shrugged.

"Come on Snuffles," Remus called and Snuffles came out of the Great Hall.

With a look at Remus, Harry followed the two outside. Remus took out his wand and performed a Heating Charm on all three of them. They walked down the stairs and Remus motioned them to get in the carriage that was waiting for them. Thinking they were going into Hogsmeade he got in and sat next to Remus leaving the other side for Sirius. Sirius stayed a dog and put his head between his paws in a comfortable dog position.

They didn't talk as the went to Hogsmeade. Remus looked out the window and hummed as Harry kept his glaze down knowing that he eyes of his godfather were on him. In Hogsmeade, they got up and inside of going into any of the stores they walked towards the mountains with Sirius in the lead.

They started to go up the path leading to the mountains, Sirius ran ahead and Remus and Harry tried to follow. Harry didn't ask any questions on where they were going. They kept climbing, Harry figured they were going into the cave that Sirius had hid in during Harry's 4th year but they didn't. They went right past it and kept climbing.

They climbed for about an hour. Harry was getting tired and he knew that Remus was tired too. Finally Remus took a turn and stopped. Harry came up beside him and looked around. Although it was snowing, there was flowers and green grass. It looked very much out of place.

"Er, what is this?"

"This is James' work," Remus looked down at him. "When he started going out with Lily he brought her up here and fixed it up a little bit you could say. The flowers and grass will never go away unless the spell is taken off and through a few tricky spells the grass is always neat and the flowers beautiful."

"Your mother loved flowers so James did this for her. They would come up here all the time, usually on James's broom and sit here and talk for hours," Sirius took out. "He proposed to her here, about a year after we graduated."

"So what are we doing here?" Harry looked around. They were high up, the snow was falling all around him but not piece hurt the grass or landed on the flowers.

"Well, I was hoping you would talk to your godfather," said Remus.

"No!" Harry had had his back to Remus looking at all the flowers but now he whipped around.

"Harry," Sirius approached him, "please hear me out. I… Remus and I talked and I think I know why you are mad at me."

"You are wrong, you don't know!" Harry snapped at him.

"Harry I'm sorry, I'm sorry for everything," Sirius begged. "I'm not experienced in this sort of thing. Remus explained it all to me, well what he thought I was doing wrong. I never meant to look at you with pity as Remus says but I just can't stand to see you in pain. Everytime you are hurt I feel like I have failed you again. All I've ever done is failed you, and I don't want to lose you. You and Remus are all I have left. I would never do anything to harm you, or do anything I thought would harm you, you mean so much to me."

Harry listened and looked at Sirius, "I don't want you die because of me."

"Harry, I can look after myself, and I'm the one who is supposed to be worried about that kind of stuff not you. Anyway, Voldemort wants me dead, he's always wanted me dead and knowing you doesn't change that. If Voldemort only wanted me for you, it wouldn't matter I would take that risk because I love you and you are my godson."

"You won't understand," Harry said and then his voice dropped, "I don't want you to be angry with me."

"I know I have a bit of a temper but I'm at myself most of time because if something happens to me, I'm stuck in as a dog unable to help you. I want to be there to help you," Sirius told him. "I think I do understand. Remus said he mentioned a few things that maybe I did during Azkaban and he's right. Harry we both did for different reasons but the goal was the same. I understand more than you think."

Harry looked at him, he bit his lip, "and I don't want to get you into anymore trouble."

"What do you mean?" asked Sirius.

"You didn't tell him?" Harry looked at Remus.

"That is for you to tell him," Remus said seriously.

Harry looked back at his godfather scared. "I… I er… well."

Remus looked at Sirius, he knew his friend was dying to know what Harry was trying to say. His brow wrinkled and he stared at his godson. Harry better get this one out, Remus thought still watching his friend.

"He… did it," Harry blurted out and looked away scared.

"Did what?" Sirius asked clearly not knowing who he was.

"He… him," Harry struggled. "Vernon." He whispered.

Sirius's expression changed from confusion to understanding very slowly. He seemed to be thinking and then his eyes open wide and Remus knew he got what Harry was saying. He looked down at the ground and took a deep breath.

"And you didn't tell me because you thought I would be angry with you?" Sirius asked.

"I don't want you to go back to Azkaban for really killing someone," Harry whispered.

Sirius put a hand to his mouth thinking. He didn't take his eyes off Harry. He shook his head, "I'm sorry you feel like you couldn't tell me that."

"I didn't tell anyone," said Harry.

"But I should be the one you feel confident to tell anything to, I'm your godfather," Sirius sighed deeply. "I'm sorry. I keep failing you."

"No it is me you fails you," Harry shook his head.

Sirius's mouth opened wide at his godson's comment, "How can you ever say that? I'm the one who deserted you. Where was I when you needed me? In Azkaban! And since I got out where have I been… hiding! I should have been with you, you should been living with me during the summers. You should be having the childhood you never had but because I'm stupid and I don't think first you have to go to hell every summer. Well never again! I don't care what Dumbledore says, you are coming with me this summer, we'll go back to the Black Mansion, I'll take you to a shack if I have to, you aren't going back there!"

Harry and Sirius looked at each other their eyes did not leave other. Remus looked between the two hoping that someone was going to make the first move. He nodded at Sirius and made a face at him to get a move on. Sirius looked at him and opened his arms for Harry.

Harry looked at Remus who nodded to him. He looked back at Sirius and for a full minute, he stood there never taking his eyes off of Sirius. Then with one sudden movement he threw himself in his godfather's open arms and cried.

Sirius let him cry for awhile. He then lifted Harry's head and whispered, "Can I let you in on a little secret. When I was in Azkaban, I always thought of you. I thought what you might be doing, how your day was, and how you were doing in school. I pictured in my mind what you looked like and how you acted. You kept me going Harry. When I saw Peter in the newspaper I thought you were in danger and I wanted to protect you, I knew I had to. That is what gave me the strength to escape."

"How can you stand me? I let Peter get away?" cried Harry.

"You were right though," Sirius shook his head, "James would have kicked me if I killed Peter. You know sometimes I feel he is with me and when I mess up, he kicks me like he used to. He's making sure I help you grow up. You were doing what James would have done and that is quite an accomplishment. He was a great man and you are turning out so much like him."

"If I let you kill Peter though Voldemort wouldn't be alive today," Harry protested.

"Voldemort would have come back anyway somehow, its not your fault," Sirius told him.

"You carry so much on your shoulders, I want to be there and help you carry some of it.

Harry nodded and put his head against Sirius's chest. He sniffed a few times but did not remove it. Sirius looked up at Remus who nodded.


Finally he sniffed and lifted his head from Sirius' shoulder. The spot was very wet but Sirius didn't mind. He looked between Sirius and Remus. "I've been an idiot haven't I?" He asked quietly.

"No Harry," Sirius said, "it's been a confusing time for you. It's alright now though."

"I suppose you want to know everything?" asked Harry.

"Only if you feel like it," said Sirius.

Harry sighed and took a deep breath. He felt much better after talking and being in his godfather's arms. He looked at Remus and then at Sirius. "I guess we better go back to the castle, I'm sure Dumbledore would like to hear this and I don't want to tell it twice."

"Let's go," Sirius put his arm around Harry's shoulder and smiled at Remus. They left.

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Later that night since the common room was empty, Sirius, Remus, Harry and Ron sat around the fire talking. Harry sighed in relief, he knew things would never be normal again, he had these memories and thoughts that would never go away. But as he sat around the fire, hearing stories about his father and mother he knew things would be fine. He was lucky, he thought, he had a wonderful godfather, a good friend and two unreplaceable friends Ron and Hermione. He smiled and looked into the fire, life was indeed good.

The End!

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myself- lol as you can see it didn't turn out Harry/Remus. I don't do slash… ick!

candledot- lol! I wouldn't make Harry gay, of course Snape has to be cruel to him, its so much fun to write when he's cruel! If I let Harry finish it then there goes my story… I could do one and have Sirius have a major guilt trip but no fun!

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purple water –Thanks for the review! Gotta love Remus, I haven't read a story where Remus is the one who talks to him yet so I had to do it and cause he's a great guy!

catspook – I had to give Dumbledore a big part, I love him! He's my hero! Though he's an ass in this story!

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Nicky –well Snape might have orders from Dumbledore to leave Harry alone but having him nasty and insulting his family is fun to write! No fun if Snape can't taunt Harry!

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