You're So Beautiful
By: Psyche
Email: psyche_lakeshore@yahoo.com
Website: http://www.angelfire.com/anime2/paradox/
http://gundamwinghq.trifocus.net/
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Dear Readers,
Well...the next chapter...out sooner than you expected, huh? winks...lol...
Luvz yaz lotz!!
~~Psyche~~
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Chapter IV
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I smiled slightly to myself. It had been so long...too long.
Slowly, my hand reached up...through her hair...short...soft...I could just imagine it...
blonde...tom-boyish...and then the shape of her face...her jaw...and forehead. Her
eyebrows and eyes. Nose and cheeks. Lips. She smiled at my actions as I felt her
face...tracing it...placing it in my memory.
"Koneko...I never knew you cared..." She whispered.
I pulled away immediately, blushing. I couldn't even see her...and already she was
making me blush...
"Haruka!" Michiru scolded, and the sound of a soft thump could be heard, telling me
that once again, Michiru had hit Haruka's arm. A familiar motion that I still remembered
seeing so many times before as Haruka flirted with the unsuspecting girls around her.
I smiled again, before turning towards Michiru. I traced her features, again placing them
in my memory. I never wanted to forget them again. Never.
Then Setsuna. As always, her face was set in an almost sad expression. I could just
imagine her eyes...garnet...all-knowing...sad...
Then came Hotaru. So young. Much younger than I remembered. But older than when
I had last seen her. She had grown up from the little girl she had become after the
battle with Pharoh 90...
I smiled slightly. I would never have children, though I had always dreamed of having
them. With someone I love. It would never happen. Not when I was completely blind.
How could anyone love me when I'm like this...?
"-Usagi...are you okay?" I jump at the sound. I guess I had drifted off.
"Gomen, Gohan...I guess everythings just catching up to me..."
"Come on...I'll take you back to your room." He whispered.
I shake my head. Men. Think they have to do EVERYTHING...especially for me! "No. I
can make it there on my own." I whisper. Sleep sounded so good right now. After the
dream I had last night...I didn't get much sleep..and what sleep I *did* get, was restless.
"I'll go help you..." I hear Haruka say as I began to get up.
How could I say no to her? I never have been able to? So I nodded.
I could feel Gohan's energy rise at this. Guess he was a little angry that I let Haruka
help me and not him...nothing personal, Gohan...but I haven't talked to Haruka in YEARS.
When we reached my room, I sighed...letting myself rest in Haruka's familiar and
comfortable embrace. (AN: NO!! This is NOT Yuri readers...gags...get a LIFE! I would
never...okay...ALMOST never...okay okay! You know I MIGHT...okay okay okay! I *would*
make a Yuri...after all, I've written Yaoi...and Usa/Haru is such a CUTE couple...but this is
a Usa/GOHAN fic...NOT Haru...glares...smiles innocently...well...on with the fic!)
~~Flashback~~
I sat there, tears running down my bruised cheeks. Yet another gift from my wonderful
Mamo-chan. Why? Why was he doing this?
I wiped them away almost frantically, but the tears continued. I had to get away from
here...I had to get away...somewhere I could be alone...somewhere where I could think.
I rushed out of Mamo-chan's apartment, past the strangers on the street. Faster and
faster...
Until...
WHAM!
I felt myself falling towards the ground, and I didn't move to stop it. I was too caught
up in my tears...in the blurs that had once been people.
But I never hit the ground. Instead, a familiar scent of roses filled my senses, and I felt
myself being pulled into a warm embrace. "Shhh, Koneko...you're safe now...you're
going to be okay..." I heard Haruka whisper in my ear, and I couldn't stop it. I sobbed
as she comforted me.
~~End Flashback~~
We sat there for a while before she spoke.
"What happened to you, Koneko?" She whispered.
I hesitated. "About a year ago, there was a fire...it...it...k-killed my parents...and Shingo.
Soon afterwards, Mamoru broke up with me. He...he never cared about me...Never-"
I could feel Haruka's grip tighten as I said this.
"...Then...then he left, with Rei. And the rest of the Inner Senshi disappeared one by
one...to college, to travel...I was left to fend for myself...I...I didn't know what to think
when the four of you never returned. They had all betrayed me. I didn't know if each
of you had betrayed me as well...then...then Bulma came. And they took me in."
There was another silence. "And what's the deal with Gohan...?"
I smiled slightly to myself. Gohan.
"I've seen that look before." Haruka whispered in my ear...making me blush. "You're
in love with him, aren't you, Koneko?"
My blush deepened. There was no denying it. I could never deny anything to Haruka.
I didn't understand...why did I always have to love thoes who didn't return my feelings.
Unrequited love...
"Why, Haruka? Why?" I whispered, and like I had so many years ago, I sobbed. "Why."
And Haruka couldn't answer. How could she? When she didn't have the answer...
Gohan could never love me. Never. I was already a burden to him...
Before I realized what had happened...I felt myself drifting to sleep.
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Stop! No! Leave me alone!!
My thoughts drifted. I couldn't breath. I couldn't speak. Everything was dark. I could
feel the eyes upon me. The hands upon my throat. Strangling me. Sufficating me. And
there was nothing I could do about it.
I struggled against the strong arms. Against the one holding me.
And I gasped out, my breaths becoming shorter, more desperate. Please...stop...no...
I...can't breath...I can't...think...
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I gasped awake. It was that dream. It had been a dream...or a memory. I could never
tell anymore. But everytime I had it...it went a little farther...it continued to torment me
with flashes that were painful and so real...
Like a memory...or a preminition.
I slowly drew in a long breath, attempting to regain control of my senses. Where was I?
The bed I was laying in wasn't familiar...but it was soft. I sighed. For a moment not
caring where I was...or why...
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~~3rd Person~~
(AN: And I thought I could make it through this fic without going to 3rd Person. shrugs
looks like I failed that...lol...laughs nervously)
Gohan sighed to himself. Jealousy boiling within him. He didn't like the idea of Haruka
flirting with *his* Usa-chan. His eyes narrowed at the thought. Ever since they had met,
he had felt very protective of his golden-haired nymph. And he didn't want Haruka taking
her away from him. Not when he was so close to finally admitting...admitting...
There was a sound at the top of the stairs...and Haruka came back down with a sleeping
Usagi in her arms.
"We're leaving." She said, and the other three stood up, nodding.
"What!?!" Gohan gasped softly, anger starting to rise within him, mixing with the
jealousy.
"Like I said, we're leaving, and Usagi is going to be going with us." She continued.
"No. She's not." Gohan hissed, his power rising at the thought of losing her.
The Outers glared at him. "She's our responsibility now." They said, and before he could
stop them...they seemed to disappear out the door.
Gohan lashed out at the closest thing...and there was a loud crash.
As his anger simmered down, and his took a long breath. An erie silence followed...
After a moment, he opened his eyes. "Damn."
There sat Bulma's favorite vase...
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~~Back to Usa's POV~~
I lay there...thinking...It hadn't taken me long to figure out where I was. The smell of
roses. The soft sound of classical music. The voices downstairs.
I was at the Outer's mansion. It had been so long since I had come here. I missed this
place...the last time I had been here...
~~Flashback~~
I rushed towards the mansion, a smile on my face. They would be so proud of me. I
clutched the actually EDIBLE cookies in my hand. Mamo-chan had gone to work. The
Inner Senshi were too busy to even talk to me...I couldn't find Rei anywhere!
But it didn't matter. The Outer's would always be there.
I rushed up to the door, not even knocking as I entered...
And I stopped dead. The house was completely dark...and when I turned on the light...
I found that it was completely empty.
Where...where were they?
I rushed from room to room...I couldn't find them anywhere.
Then...on the fridge, I found a note in Haruka's familiar handwriting. (AN: As you can
see, I ADORE Haruka! lol)
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Koneko-chan,
We are sorry that we have to leave like this, but we
must continue to protect the solar system. And we can
not do that here. Please don't worry...and be strong,
Princess. We will always care for you.
Do not blame the Inners for our leaving, it was by
choice...not force. Our methods do not agree with one
another, and so the Inners and Outers can never be the
friends you have attempted to make us.
We love you...never forget that, Koneko.
Love always,
Haruka
Michiru
Setsuna
Hotaru
~~
For a long moment, I sat there...stunned.
Gone.
They were gone.
Then the tears came freely. They were gone...and I suddenly felt completely alone. But.
I had the Inners...and Mamo-chan.
Why was I feeling so...alone.
~~End Flashback~~
I smiled to myself. This place. It felt like home to me. The same way I felt at Bulma's. Or
whenever I was with Gohan...
I suddenly gasped, sitting up. Gohan!
I pushed myself off the bed, attempting to find the door. Dammit. I tripped over almost
everything in my path. I almost tripped down the stairs, but I caught the rail quickly
enough.
Where was Gohan?
I couldn't sense his energy anywhere close by...
I rushed through the house as quickly as I could...Gohan...
Then I ran into something...and as I began to fall, it caught me.
"Calm down, Koneko! You're safe." Haruka said, attempting to calm me down.
"Where's Gohan!" I asked, almost desperately. Where was he? I couldn't sense his
energy. Please...I had to find him...
He...he...
"Calm down!" She held my arms down by my side, practically dragged me to the couch
to sit down. "He's not here, Koneko. We brought you back with us."
I sat there. "Why?"
Haruka hesitated. "Because you are our responsibility now. The Inner Senshi have
deserted you, and your so-called Prince has left you. It is our job to protect you..."
There was another hesitation, as if she was about to say something else...but didn't.
My eyes narrowed slightly. Yes. The Outer's cared about me...they were extremely
protective of me, in fact...but...they wouldn't have left their posts, guarding the solar
system, for me. Never. It wasn't their...method.
"Who is it?" I whispered, I could here my voice breaking at this.
"What?" She was very confused.
"Who is it? I'm not stupid, Haruka-chan. Who is the enemy attacking Earth?" That was
the only reason they would have returned.
Haruka sighed...began to speak...but another voice interupted her.
"Stop." Setsuna.
I sighed. Why was I not surprised.
"You will not tell her, Haruka." Setsuna's soft voice came out much softer than usual.
"We can't keep it from her much longer, Setsuna." Haruka growled.
"You can and you will, Uranus." Setsuna growled angrily.
What was it? What were they keeping from me? What? My eyes narrowed.
"As your Princess, I order you to tell me." I whispered.
"I'm sorry, Princess, but it is for your protection that we do not tell you. We must keep
this information from you." Michiru whispered.
"You may not tell her, but I will..." A new voice whispered...
And I gasped. That voice. It was familiar. Too...familiar.
The next thing I knew, was Haruka was pushing me behind her. And I could here them
all transforming.
The voice laughed. "I'm not here to fight you. Just to warn you. You will be mine,
Serenity." The air in the room was thick with tension. The silence long and angry.
Then everything calmed down...and the soft sound of a teleportation told me he had
disappeared.
Why? Why was this happening?
Tears coarsed their way down my cheek. The world seemed to be against me. That was
the only answer. The ENTIRE FUCKING WORLD was AGAINST ME!!!
"Koneko?"
"Leave me alone, Haruka." I whispered angrily. This was too much. Too much.
Why him? Why did it have to be HIM!?!
Warm arms encircled me...letting me cry on her shoulder. "Why...why him...why..." I
whispered.
Why Dimando?
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Well...REVIEW! smiles innocently...k? ja ne!
Email me!!!
psyche_lakeshore@yahoo.com
Thanx!
~~Psyche~~
By: Psyche
Email: psyche_lakeshore@yahoo.com
Website: http://www.angelfire.com/anime2/paradox/
http://gundamwinghq.trifocus.net/
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~~~~
Dear Readers,
Well...the next chapter...out sooner than you expected, huh? winks...lol...
Luvz yaz lotz!!
~~Psyche~~
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Chapter IV
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I smiled slightly to myself. It had been so long...too long.
Slowly, my hand reached up...through her hair...short...soft...I could just imagine it...
blonde...tom-boyish...and then the shape of her face...her jaw...and forehead. Her
eyebrows and eyes. Nose and cheeks. Lips. She smiled at my actions as I felt her
face...tracing it...placing it in my memory.
"Koneko...I never knew you cared..." She whispered.
I pulled away immediately, blushing. I couldn't even see her...and already she was
making me blush...
"Haruka!" Michiru scolded, and the sound of a soft thump could be heard, telling me
that once again, Michiru had hit Haruka's arm. A familiar motion that I still remembered
seeing so many times before as Haruka flirted with the unsuspecting girls around her.
I smiled again, before turning towards Michiru. I traced her features, again placing them
in my memory. I never wanted to forget them again. Never.
Then Setsuna. As always, her face was set in an almost sad expression. I could just
imagine her eyes...garnet...all-knowing...sad...
Then came Hotaru. So young. Much younger than I remembered. But older than when
I had last seen her. She had grown up from the little girl she had become after the
battle with Pharoh 90...
I smiled slightly. I would never have children, though I had always dreamed of having
them. With someone I love. It would never happen. Not when I was completely blind.
How could anyone love me when I'm like this...?
"-Usagi...are you okay?" I jump at the sound. I guess I had drifted off.
"Gomen, Gohan...I guess everythings just catching up to me..."
"Come on...I'll take you back to your room." He whispered.
I shake my head. Men. Think they have to do EVERYTHING...especially for me! "No. I
can make it there on my own." I whisper. Sleep sounded so good right now. After the
dream I had last night...I didn't get much sleep..and what sleep I *did* get, was restless.
"I'll go help you..." I hear Haruka say as I began to get up.
How could I say no to her? I never have been able to? So I nodded.
I could feel Gohan's energy rise at this. Guess he was a little angry that I let Haruka
help me and not him...nothing personal, Gohan...but I haven't talked to Haruka in YEARS.
When we reached my room, I sighed...letting myself rest in Haruka's familiar and
comfortable embrace. (AN: NO!! This is NOT Yuri readers...gags...get a LIFE! I would
never...okay...ALMOST never...okay okay! You know I MIGHT...okay okay okay! I *would*
make a Yuri...after all, I've written Yaoi...and Usa/Haru is such a CUTE couple...but this is
a Usa/GOHAN fic...NOT Haru...glares...smiles innocently...well...on with the fic!)
~~Flashback~~
I sat there, tears running down my bruised cheeks. Yet another gift from my wonderful
Mamo-chan. Why? Why was he doing this?
I wiped them away almost frantically, but the tears continued. I had to get away from
here...I had to get away...somewhere I could be alone...somewhere where I could think.
I rushed out of Mamo-chan's apartment, past the strangers on the street. Faster and
faster...
Until...
WHAM!
I felt myself falling towards the ground, and I didn't move to stop it. I was too caught
up in my tears...in the blurs that had once been people.
But I never hit the ground. Instead, a familiar scent of roses filled my senses, and I felt
myself being pulled into a warm embrace. "Shhh, Koneko...you're safe now...you're
going to be okay..." I heard Haruka whisper in my ear, and I couldn't stop it. I sobbed
as she comforted me.
~~End Flashback~~
We sat there for a while before she spoke.
"What happened to you, Koneko?" She whispered.
I hesitated. "About a year ago, there was a fire...it...it...k-killed my parents...and Shingo.
Soon afterwards, Mamoru broke up with me. He...he never cared about me...Never-"
I could feel Haruka's grip tighten as I said this.
"...Then...then he left, with Rei. And the rest of the Inner Senshi disappeared one by
one...to college, to travel...I was left to fend for myself...I...I didn't know what to think
when the four of you never returned. They had all betrayed me. I didn't know if each
of you had betrayed me as well...then...then Bulma came. And they took me in."
There was another silence. "And what's the deal with Gohan...?"
I smiled slightly to myself. Gohan.
"I've seen that look before." Haruka whispered in my ear...making me blush. "You're
in love with him, aren't you, Koneko?"
My blush deepened. There was no denying it. I could never deny anything to Haruka.
I didn't understand...why did I always have to love thoes who didn't return my feelings.
Unrequited love...
"Why, Haruka? Why?" I whispered, and like I had so many years ago, I sobbed. "Why."
And Haruka couldn't answer. How could she? When she didn't have the answer...
Gohan could never love me. Never. I was already a burden to him...
Before I realized what had happened...I felt myself drifting to sleep.
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Stop! No! Leave me alone!!
My thoughts drifted. I couldn't breath. I couldn't speak. Everything was dark. I could
feel the eyes upon me. The hands upon my throat. Strangling me. Sufficating me. And
there was nothing I could do about it.
I struggled against the strong arms. Against the one holding me.
And I gasped out, my breaths becoming shorter, more desperate. Please...stop...no...
I...can't breath...I can't...think...
~~~~
I gasped awake. It was that dream. It had been a dream...or a memory. I could never
tell anymore. But everytime I had it...it went a little farther...it continued to torment me
with flashes that were painful and so real...
Like a memory...or a preminition.
I slowly drew in a long breath, attempting to regain control of my senses. Where was I?
The bed I was laying in wasn't familiar...but it was soft. I sighed. For a moment not
caring where I was...or why...
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~~3rd Person~~
(AN: And I thought I could make it through this fic without going to 3rd Person. shrugs
looks like I failed that...lol...laughs nervously)
Gohan sighed to himself. Jealousy boiling within him. He didn't like the idea of Haruka
flirting with *his* Usa-chan. His eyes narrowed at the thought. Ever since they had met,
he had felt very protective of his golden-haired nymph. And he didn't want Haruka taking
her away from him. Not when he was so close to finally admitting...admitting...
There was a sound at the top of the stairs...and Haruka came back down with a sleeping
Usagi in her arms.
"We're leaving." She said, and the other three stood up, nodding.
"What!?!" Gohan gasped softly, anger starting to rise within him, mixing with the
jealousy.
"Like I said, we're leaving, and Usagi is going to be going with us." She continued.
"No. She's not." Gohan hissed, his power rising at the thought of losing her.
The Outers glared at him. "She's our responsibility now." They said, and before he could
stop them...they seemed to disappear out the door.
Gohan lashed out at the closest thing...and there was a loud crash.
As his anger simmered down, and his took a long breath. An erie silence followed...
After a moment, he opened his eyes. "Damn."
There sat Bulma's favorite vase...
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~~Back to Usa's POV~~
I lay there...thinking...It hadn't taken me long to figure out where I was. The smell of
roses. The soft sound of classical music. The voices downstairs.
I was at the Outer's mansion. It had been so long since I had come here. I missed this
place...the last time I had been here...
~~Flashback~~
I rushed towards the mansion, a smile on my face. They would be so proud of me. I
clutched the actually EDIBLE cookies in my hand. Mamo-chan had gone to work. The
Inner Senshi were too busy to even talk to me...I couldn't find Rei anywhere!
But it didn't matter. The Outer's would always be there.
I rushed up to the door, not even knocking as I entered...
And I stopped dead. The house was completely dark...and when I turned on the light...
I found that it was completely empty.
Where...where were they?
I rushed from room to room...I couldn't find them anywhere.
Then...on the fridge, I found a note in Haruka's familiar handwriting. (AN: As you can
see, I ADORE Haruka! lol)
~~
Koneko-chan,
We are sorry that we have to leave like this, but we
must continue to protect the solar system. And we can
not do that here. Please don't worry...and be strong,
Princess. We will always care for you.
Do not blame the Inners for our leaving, it was by
choice...not force. Our methods do not agree with one
another, and so the Inners and Outers can never be the
friends you have attempted to make us.
We love you...never forget that, Koneko.
Love always,
Haruka
Michiru
Setsuna
Hotaru
~~
For a long moment, I sat there...stunned.
Gone.
They were gone.
Then the tears came freely. They were gone...and I suddenly felt completely alone. But.
I had the Inners...and Mamo-chan.
Why was I feeling so...alone.
~~End Flashback~~
I smiled to myself. This place. It felt like home to me. The same way I felt at Bulma's. Or
whenever I was with Gohan...
I suddenly gasped, sitting up. Gohan!
I pushed myself off the bed, attempting to find the door. Dammit. I tripped over almost
everything in my path. I almost tripped down the stairs, but I caught the rail quickly
enough.
Where was Gohan?
I couldn't sense his energy anywhere close by...
I rushed through the house as quickly as I could...Gohan...
Then I ran into something...and as I began to fall, it caught me.
"Calm down, Koneko! You're safe." Haruka said, attempting to calm me down.
"Where's Gohan!" I asked, almost desperately. Where was he? I couldn't sense his
energy. Please...I had to find him...
He...he...
"Calm down!" She held my arms down by my side, practically dragged me to the couch
to sit down. "He's not here, Koneko. We brought you back with us."
I sat there. "Why?"
Haruka hesitated. "Because you are our responsibility now. The Inner Senshi have
deserted you, and your so-called Prince has left you. It is our job to protect you..."
There was another hesitation, as if she was about to say something else...but didn't.
My eyes narrowed slightly. Yes. The Outer's cared about me...they were extremely
protective of me, in fact...but...they wouldn't have left their posts, guarding the solar
system, for me. Never. It wasn't their...method.
"Who is it?" I whispered, I could here my voice breaking at this.
"What?" She was very confused.
"Who is it? I'm not stupid, Haruka-chan. Who is the enemy attacking Earth?" That was
the only reason they would have returned.
Haruka sighed...began to speak...but another voice interupted her.
"Stop." Setsuna.
I sighed. Why was I not surprised.
"You will not tell her, Haruka." Setsuna's soft voice came out much softer than usual.
"We can't keep it from her much longer, Setsuna." Haruka growled.
"You can and you will, Uranus." Setsuna growled angrily.
What was it? What were they keeping from me? What? My eyes narrowed.
"As your Princess, I order you to tell me." I whispered.
"I'm sorry, Princess, but it is for your protection that we do not tell you. We must keep
this information from you." Michiru whispered.
"You may not tell her, but I will..." A new voice whispered...
And I gasped. That voice. It was familiar. Too...familiar.
The next thing I knew, was Haruka was pushing me behind her. And I could here them
all transforming.
The voice laughed. "I'm not here to fight you. Just to warn you. You will be mine,
Serenity." The air in the room was thick with tension. The silence long and angry.
Then everything calmed down...and the soft sound of a teleportation told me he had
disappeared.
Why? Why was this happening?
Tears coarsed their way down my cheek. The world seemed to be against me. That was
the only answer. The ENTIRE FUCKING WORLD was AGAINST ME!!!
"Koneko?"
"Leave me alone, Haruka." I whispered angrily. This was too much. Too much.
Why him? Why did it have to be HIM!?!
Warm arms encircled me...letting me cry on her shoulder. "Why...why him...why..." I
whispered.
Why Dimando?
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~~~~
Well...REVIEW! smiles innocently...k? ja ne!
Email me!!!
psyche_lakeshore@yahoo.com
Thanx!
~~Psyche~~