You're So Beautiful
By: Psyche
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Dear Readers,
Luvz yaz lotz!!
~~Psyche~~
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Chapter VI
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I gasped, turned around, and found myself staring into his eyes. Gohan.
His eyes, though black, were beautiful. His face chisled. His anger evident
on his face.
"Gohan?"
Cautiously, I reached up towards his face, tracing it gently. He...he...
The words escaped my lips. "You're so beautiful."
And I was struck speechless after that. He had always been taller than
me, but now it was quite evident. I stood only to about his shoulder,
and kami..what a shoulder! What a everything!! He was gorgeous. He
was strong...I found myself falling in love with his appearance as well.
But...he was angry. His eyes held a confused look that I couldn't quite
place...What was wrong? Why was he so...angry at me...?
"Gohan?" I whispered, concerned. I stepped closer. "What's wrong?"
He pulled away. He practically growled the next words to me. "You
killed them." Three words...yet they struck my heart...I almost collapsed
from the pain my heart felt from them.
"But...I did it for you!"
I barely noticed the group behind Gohan. The Goku, ChiChi, Vegeta, Bulma, and
Trunks.
Vegeta's eyes suddenly filled with knowledge. I had almost forgotten our
conversation so long ago...He raised an eyebrow at me...
But...I had begun. I had to continue. "Gohan, I...I did it for you, Gohan.
I love you!"
His eyes narrowed, showing no signs of surprise or awareness of what I
had just confessed. "What could killing them do for me?" His voice was
a whisper. "How does kiling them prove that you love me..."
I felt the tears in my eyes. Behind me, Dimando was chuckling. Beside
him, Saffir was scowling.
The Outers...they were smirking. Did they plan this? Did they tell Gohan
about the Senshi...about me...?
I turned from person to person. Each with a different expression. Some
contempt. Some love. Some confusion. Some anger. Some disapproval.
Some approval.
It was all so confusing. "But...but...demo..."
There was a silent pause, then Dimando's voice broke through. "You know
what you have to do, Serenity. Finish the Outer Senshi off."
I almost cursed aloud. The words were in my mind. Spoken in many
different languages. My eyes narrowed at the sight of the Outers once
more. And I nodded.
I had to do this. This was the only way. The only way to have my sight.
The only way to get Gohan. He may disapprove now, but he will approve
later on. He will!
The Outers' eyes widened. Setsuna stared, slightly shocked. (AN: Oooers!
Alliteration!!! lol) Haruka held a look of betrayal. Michiru's face held a
pained look. Little Hotaru, now Saturn, held a blank gaze.
Suddenly, I was covered in a bright light, the crystal. It was giving me its
power...its strength. I stared at the Outer Senshi, into their eyes...and
then, let the light engulf them too. When the light disappeared, so had
the Outer Senshi.
I stared where they had stood not too long before, then turned to
Dimando. "They're gone." I whispered.
Dimando nodded his head, smirked. "Then it's time for reward, Serenity."
The next thing I knew, was the pain in my head. The intense burning
pain. More pain that I had ever experienced in my life. I was confused.
I was disoriented. I was completely and utterly...
...When the pain cleared. All I saw was dark. And all I heard was
Dimando's laughter.
And the words I spoke were so rage-filled, so angry, so full of hatred and
self-loathe...that they seemed to echo throughout the entire world.
"DAMN YOU, DIMANDO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"
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Tears. Tears. Tears.
One. Two. Three.
I hadn't moved from my spot all day...all week...all through the past two
weeks.
Oh, Kami...what had I done?
The Senshi were dead. Dimando had tricked me. Gohan and the others
hated me. Even the crystal refused to listen to me now.
So I sat. And mourned. And tried to figure out the reason why...
I didn't eat. I didn't sleep. I didn't do anything.
I really wasn't sure exactly how much time had passed. They would
come in and leave without a word.
Oh, Kami...Gohan. He hated me.
Tears. Tears. Tears.
One. Two. Three.
And the world turned on. And the world ignored. And the world...it didn't
give a damn about me or my problems. But then again, at the moment,
neither did I...
I wanted to die. I wanted to just end it.
But I didn't have the courage or the will-power to do the deed. I didn't
even have the strength to move anymore. Time was like an endless
river...it flowed on and on and on...not caring about anything but the
path it must take.
Oh no. How could things have gotten this bad. How could I have let this
happen. Dimando had tricked me! Saffir had known something terrible
would happen. Why hadn't I listened? WHY HADN'T I LISTENED!?!?!?
Gohan. He hated me. He hated me. He hated me.
My thoughts were a jumble of this and that and that and this. And all I
could comprehend through it all was that the Senshi were dead, Gohan
hated me, and Dimando had tricked me.
And the tears. They fell. One. Two. Three. Each one counted. Each
one a memory. Each one a tribute to those I had killed...
But, Kami...it hurts so much.
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~~3rd Person~~
"How is she?"
"Not good."
"Has she eaten anything today?"
"No. I've tried to get her too...but...it's like she's an empty shell."
"Have you tried giving her an injection of the nutrients? She can't go
on much longer without food..."
"I've tried, it's almost as if her body and mind are on the same wavelink.
Both reject anything I do to help her..."
There was a pause. "She's so thin...so pale..."
Gohan closed his eyes. Kami, he loved her. He loved her so much. And
it hurt. Hurt his heart to see her like this. He didn't know what had
gone over him. He had no clue. But now...she thought he hated her.
She had confessed her love for him, and he had rejected it.
He sighed. There wasn't much he could do to help her now...
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Vegeta stood outside the door, pausing to think a moment. To open. Or
not to open.
He wasn't sure...To see Usagi like this. It was heartbreaking, even for the
Prince of Saiyans.
So...he opened the door.
Usagi lay on her bed, staring up at the ceiling blankly. It was almost as if
she was dead.
Vegeta shuddered slightly at the thought.
So the truth had come out. Usagi was in love with Gohan. All this time...he
hadn't even noticed. None of them had. Were they really that blind to the
truth. Strange. Out of all of them, Usagi was probably the only one with
true sight. They had been blind to the truth, and she had known everything.
How strange.
Vegeta stared at her. Then he sat beside her on the bed. "Usagi?"
No response.
"Come on, Usagi...wake up..."
The tears. They ran down her cheeks. And she still gave no response.
Shock. She was overcome with shock. Her friends were dead...and she had
killed them.
The world was crashing down around her...
He knew how she felt. He had been the same. So so long ago. After he had
first killed someone.
~~Flashback~~
Prince Vegeta stood as tall as he could, staring down at the beaten warrior.
The fight was over...at least, that's what he thought.
"Finish him." His father's voice said coldly.
Vegeta glanced at his father, then the fallen warrior...then back at his father.
He had no choice. Gathering his energy, he attacked one last time, when
the dust cleared, nothing remained of the warrior.
Vegeta felt the tug at his heart...the pain...the...the...the loss of innocence.
He had killed. He had taken the life of a fellow living creature. A breathing,
intellegent, reasoning creature.
~~End Flashback~~
And from that moment on, Vegeta withdrew into himself. And he no longer
called it killing or murder. That would have been too much for him. No.
He said he was sending them into the next dimension. The phrase was so
much easier to live with than the previous two. Murder. Kill. Death. Such
terms that Usagi should never have to use.
...but it was too late now. Not only had she killed, but she had done it out
of love for Gohan.....and now it was over. She believed Gohan didn't love
her, and that the world hated her.
...Hai. He knew what she felt. He had felt it every day of his life. Before
Usagi and come and brightened all their lives.
Usagi...please...be okay... Vegeta thought to himself.
But he knew the truth. No one can forgive themselves for taking a life.
No one.
It is an unforgivable sin.
And Usagi had now commited it.
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Thanx!
~~Psyche~~
By: Psyche
Email: psychemegami@yahoo.com ~~NEW EMAIL!! YEAH!!!
Website: http://www.angelfire.com/anime2/paradox/
http://gundamwinghq.trifocus.net/
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Dear Readers,
Luvz yaz lotz!!
~~Psyche~~
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Chapter VI
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~~~~
I gasped, turned around, and found myself staring into his eyes. Gohan.
His eyes, though black, were beautiful. His face chisled. His anger evident
on his face.
"Gohan?"
Cautiously, I reached up towards his face, tracing it gently. He...he...
The words escaped my lips. "You're so beautiful."
And I was struck speechless after that. He had always been taller than
me, but now it was quite evident. I stood only to about his shoulder,
and kami..what a shoulder! What a everything!! He was gorgeous. He
was strong...I found myself falling in love with his appearance as well.
But...he was angry. His eyes held a confused look that I couldn't quite
place...What was wrong? Why was he so...angry at me...?
"Gohan?" I whispered, concerned. I stepped closer. "What's wrong?"
He pulled away. He practically growled the next words to me. "You
killed them." Three words...yet they struck my heart...I almost collapsed
from the pain my heart felt from them.
"But...I did it for you!"
I barely noticed the group behind Gohan. The Goku, ChiChi, Vegeta, Bulma, and
Trunks.
Vegeta's eyes suddenly filled with knowledge. I had almost forgotten our
conversation so long ago...He raised an eyebrow at me...
But...I had begun. I had to continue. "Gohan, I...I did it for you, Gohan.
I love you!"
His eyes narrowed, showing no signs of surprise or awareness of what I
had just confessed. "What could killing them do for me?" His voice was
a whisper. "How does kiling them prove that you love me..."
I felt the tears in my eyes. Behind me, Dimando was chuckling. Beside
him, Saffir was scowling.
The Outers...they were smirking. Did they plan this? Did they tell Gohan
about the Senshi...about me...?
I turned from person to person. Each with a different expression. Some
contempt. Some love. Some confusion. Some anger. Some disapproval.
Some approval.
It was all so confusing. "But...but...demo..."
There was a silent pause, then Dimando's voice broke through. "You know
what you have to do, Serenity. Finish the Outer Senshi off."
I almost cursed aloud. The words were in my mind. Spoken in many
different languages. My eyes narrowed at the sight of the Outers once
more. And I nodded.
I had to do this. This was the only way. The only way to have my sight.
The only way to get Gohan. He may disapprove now, but he will approve
later on. He will!
The Outers' eyes widened. Setsuna stared, slightly shocked. (AN: Oooers!
Alliteration!!! lol) Haruka held a look of betrayal. Michiru's face held a
pained look. Little Hotaru, now Saturn, held a blank gaze.
Suddenly, I was covered in a bright light, the crystal. It was giving me its
power...its strength. I stared at the Outer Senshi, into their eyes...and
then, let the light engulf them too. When the light disappeared, so had
the Outer Senshi.
I stared where they had stood not too long before, then turned to
Dimando. "They're gone." I whispered.
Dimando nodded his head, smirked. "Then it's time for reward, Serenity."
The next thing I knew, was the pain in my head. The intense burning
pain. More pain that I had ever experienced in my life. I was confused.
I was disoriented. I was completely and utterly...
...When the pain cleared. All I saw was dark. And all I heard was
Dimando's laughter.
And the words I spoke were so rage-filled, so angry, so full of hatred and
self-loathe...that they seemed to echo throughout the entire world.
"DAMN YOU, DIMANDO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"
~~~~
Tears. Tears. Tears.
One. Two. Three.
I hadn't moved from my spot all day...all week...all through the past two
weeks.
Oh, Kami...what had I done?
The Senshi were dead. Dimando had tricked me. Gohan and the others
hated me. Even the crystal refused to listen to me now.
So I sat. And mourned. And tried to figure out the reason why...
I didn't eat. I didn't sleep. I didn't do anything.
I really wasn't sure exactly how much time had passed. They would
come in and leave without a word.
Oh, Kami...Gohan. He hated me.
Tears. Tears. Tears.
One. Two. Three.
And the world turned on. And the world ignored. And the world...it didn't
give a damn about me or my problems. But then again, at the moment,
neither did I...
I wanted to die. I wanted to just end it.
But I didn't have the courage or the will-power to do the deed. I didn't
even have the strength to move anymore. Time was like an endless
river...it flowed on and on and on...not caring about anything but the
path it must take.
Oh no. How could things have gotten this bad. How could I have let this
happen. Dimando had tricked me! Saffir had known something terrible
would happen. Why hadn't I listened? WHY HADN'T I LISTENED!?!?!?
Gohan. He hated me. He hated me. He hated me.
My thoughts were a jumble of this and that and that and this. And all I
could comprehend through it all was that the Senshi were dead, Gohan
hated me, and Dimando had tricked me.
And the tears. They fell. One. Two. Three. Each one counted. Each
one a memory. Each one a tribute to those I had killed...
But, Kami...it hurts so much.
~~~~
~~3rd Person~~
"How is she?"
"Not good."
"Has she eaten anything today?"
"No. I've tried to get her too...but...it's like she's an empty shell."
"Have you tried giving her an injection of the nutrients? She can't go
on much longer without food..."
"I've tried, it's almost as if her body and mind are on the same wavelink.
Both reject anything I do to help her..."
There was a pause. "She's so thin...so pale..."
Gohan closed his eyes. Kami, he loved her. He loved her so much. And
it hurt. Hurt his heart to see her like this. He didn't know what had
gone over him. He had no clue. But now...she thought he hated her.
She had confessed her love for him, and he had rejected it.
He sighed. There wasn't much he could do to help her now...
~~~~
Vegeta stood outside the door, pausing to think a moment. To open. Or
not to open.
He wasn't sure...To see Usagi like this. It was heartbreaking, even for the
Prince of Saiyans.
So...he opened the door.
Usagi lay on her bed, staring up at the ceiling blankly. It was almost as if
she was dead.
Vegeta shuddered slightly at the thought.
So the truth had come out. Usagi was in love with Gohan. All this time...he
hadn't even noticed. None of them had. Were they really that blind to the
truth. Strange. Out of all of them, Usagi was probably the only one with
true sight. They had been blind to the truth, and she had known everything.
How strange.
Vegeta stared at her. Then he sat beside her on the bed. "Usagi?"
No response.
"Come on, Usagi...wake up..."
The tears. They ran down her cheeks. And she still gave no response.
Shock. She was overcome with shock. Her friends were dead...and she had
killed them.
The world was crashing down around her...
He knew how she felt. He had been the same. So so long ago. After he had
first killed someone.
~~Flashback~~
Prince Vegeta stood as tall as he could, staring down at the beaten warrior.
The fight was over...at least, that's what he thought.
"Finish him." His father's voice said coldly.
Vegeta glanced at his father, then the fallen warrior...then back at his father.
He had no choice. Gathering his energy, he attacked one last time, when
the dust cleared, nothing remained of the warrior.
Vegeta felt the tug at his heart...the pain...the...the...the loss of innocence.
He had killed. He had taken the life of a fellow living creature. A breathing,
intellegent, reasoning creature.
~~End Flashback~~
And from that moment on, Vegeta withdrew into himself. And he no longer
called it killing or murder. That would have been too much for him. No.
He said he was sending them into the next dimension. The phrase was so
much easier to live with than the previous two. Murder. Kill. Death. Such
terms that Usagi should never have to use.
...but it was too late now. Not only had she killed, but she had done it out
of love for Gohan.....and now it was over. She believed Gohan didn't love
her, and that the world hated her.
...Hai. He knew what she felt. He had felt it every day of his life. Before
Usagi and come and brightened all their lives.
Usagi...please...be okay... Vegeta thought to himself.
But he knew the truth. No one can forgive themselves for taking a life.
No one.
It is an unforgivable sin.
And Usagi had now commited it.
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~~~~
Well...REVIEW! smiles innocently...k? ja ne!
Email me!!!
psychemegami@yahoo.com ~~NEW EMAIL!! YEAH!!!!!
Thanx!
~~Psyche~~