You're So Beautiful
By: Psyche
Email: psychemegami@yahoo.com ~~NEW EMAIL!! YEAH!!!
Website: http://www.angelfire.com/anime2/paradox/
http://gundamwinghq.trifocus.net/
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Dear Readers,
Well...I know it's been awhile...Gomen ne! I'm SOOOO sorry! I've
been sick, and I've had major writers block! So I got this out as soon
as possible! Gomen ne!!!!!
Luvz yaz lotz!!
~~Psyche~~
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Chapter VI
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Vegeta sat there for some time. Deep in thought. Deep in emotion. Why did such an
innocent girl have to be put through so much pain and suffering.
She couldn't handle it. The death of her friends. But there was something bothering
him. Something he couldn't quite place. The feeilng...the feeling of...of...of...
He couldn't describe it! It just made him uneasy.
He looked back down at her. The crescent still on her forhead. What had that bastard
done to her? She wasn't evil. No. Vegeta knew what it was like to be evil. Caught in
a path that wasn't his own. Death. Destruction.
It was so...strange seeing her like this.
He paused, then whispered softly. "Come back to us, Usagi. Gohan needs you..."
He took a deep breath, fighting back tears. "I need you."
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Saffir lay on his bed, thinking. Thinking. Thinking. As always, he had been a man who
thought. He didn't do anything unless he was required to. Unless he had to. He always
made the plans, and let others fulfill them.
But now. Now it was all out of control. That hadn't been part of the plan. The plan was
for Usagi to kill the senshi, then Gohan to hate her, and Usagi would have had no choice
but to fall into Dimando's arms. Saffir hadn't made the plan. Dimando had. But Saffir
loved Dimando. So he had helped him. Helped him revise the plan...helped him fulfill it.
But what had Dimando done?
Why had he done it?
Dimando loved Serenity. There was no doubt about that. But...but...
There was something different about Dimando. He couldn't quite place it, but there was
something very very wrong about this entire thing...
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The Darkness laughed. It had won the battle. The little pawns were moving exactly as
planned. It was the marionette. It had held the strings. They were nothing more than
puppets to be played with.
It laughed.
The stage was set. The actors and actresses were in place. The path was clear.
The silence was coming. The blessed silence.
Already, the Moon Princess had fallen into it's trap of sightless agony. She was now its
possession. She was hopelessly devoted to the pain...
But it was worried. There were powerful beings...the Saiyans...and they could ruin
everything. They were strong. Unbeatable. And very protective of their little Princess.
But it was patient. Soon the final act would begin. And it's plan would continue as it
had intended it to.
The Darkness laughed again.
The Dark Moon Prince would also continue to do as it commanded...not knowing the
truth. But then again, truth is in the eye of the beholder...and the Darkness knew it's
mission. The Darkness would destroy the truth...
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I was lost. Lost. Lost.
Caught in the dreams that would never come true.
The world was crashing around me. And I couldn't move.
Death. Death. Death.
I deserved to die. I was the one who had killed mercilessly.
I was the one. The one who had murdered the ones who meant to protect me...the
world.
And now. Now it was all over.
Dimando had one. He had won. I was finally defeated.
~~~~
It had been several weeks since I had begun my endless journey through the dark
depths of despair. How could I survive now? How could I live with what I had done?
I wasn't sure about anything.
All I knew was the pain inside me...and the comforting presence of Vegeta. (AN: As
you can see, I'm a big Vegeta fan...glares..and don't you dare say ONE thing bad
about him...)
Why was this happening to me? When did my life spin out of control like this? Why
was I so foolish as to believe Dimando really would help me?
...I guess I really am weak...ditzy...dumb...stupid...clumby...airheaded...
All those things.
If only.
If only I had seen the truth.
If only I had trusted the Outers enough to stay with them, then maybe...this wouldn't
have happened.
But I was too caught up in my feelings of rage, anger, pain, sorrow...love...to notice
that they were the ones that could truly help me.
Now they are dead. So are the Inner Senshi...
And there is a power out there...that I can feel. It is trying to find me. It is trying to
take me.
I'm so close to giving in...that I don't even know if life is worth living anymore.
The Darkness....it's slowly consuming me...
And I am confused.
Slowly, I feel all my strength leaving me...am I dying? No. I'm not...
But...where is the truth? Where is the truth...about everything.
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Dimando stared at his glass of wine. His mind a blur. His thoughts moving so fast even
he couldn't comprehend them. His mind was dark. Lost in the depths of the endlessness.
Yet. One thought seemed so clear that even he could not ignore it. Serenity.
Serenity.
Serenity.
She was everything. Light. Darkness. Good. Evil. She was the answer. She was the
question. She was the world. Yet, she was meant to protect the world. She was an
angel from heaven. And at times, an angel from hell. She was so young and innocent.
Yet so old in knowledge. She had been through so much. Seen so much. Heard so much.
Yet she was still the beautiful, strong, caring, noble Princess that she was born to be.
Dimando was confused. What was his goal? To kill the Princess or to save her? He
wasn't sure. The Darkness told him it was the only way to be truly happy. But. Why
would it say that? Why would he take away the only thing in his life worth keeping?
...Dimando stopped thinking this way. He had to. Or else the Darkness would get angry.
And he may lose the only other thing as important as Serenity.
...Safffir...
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...Saffir...
What was it about him? That made me doubt everything I had been doing?
Was it his innocence? Or was it his lack of innocence?
He had already been through so much to protect Dimando and myself. But I was blind
to everything he was telling me. I was lost in my own despair that was now killing me.
Death. It was so strange, this knowing. This thinking. This hating. I had never been
able to hate anyone before.
But now I hate myself. I hate what I was. I hate what I did. I hate what I am doing...
I hate what I have become.
Life has no more reason anymore. Life has no more goal.
Life...is no longer beautiful to me.
So...
Why can't I just die?
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The Darkness laughed to itself insanely.
Truth.
Truth.
It would destroy the truth. Already the memories of the past were slipping from the
little moon child. Already the regret for the deaths was consuming her.
It was time.
Time for the last act and the grand finale. It was time for the destruction to consume
them.
It was time.
The Darkness laughed from inside it's host. Held it's own prisoner hostage.
It had been so easy to capture him. So easy to grasp onto it's prey and destroy his
willpower.
Love had no power. Love had no truth.
The Darkness continued to laugh from inside it's host....it was the parasite...it was the
virus...and the host. Was Mamoru.
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Well...REVIEW! smiles innocently...k? ja ne!
Email me!!!
psychemegami@yahoo.com ~~NEW EMAIL!! YEAH!!!!!
Thanx!
~~Psyche~~
By: Psyche
Email: psychemegami@yahoo.com ~~NEW EMAIL!! YEAH!!!
Website: http://www.angelfire.com/anime2/paradox/
http://gundamwinghq.trifocus.net/
~~~~
~~~~
Dear Readers,
Well...I know it's been awhile...Gomen ne! I'm SOOOO sorry! I've
been sick, and I've had major writers block! So I got this out as soon
as possible! Gomen ne!!!!!
Luvz yaz lotz!!
~~Psyche~~
~~~~
~~~~
Chapter VI
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~~~~
Vegeta sat there for some time. Deep in thought. Deep in emotion. Why did such an
innocent girl have to be put through so much pain and suffering.
She couldn't handle it. The death of her friends. But there was something bothering
him. Something he couldn't quite place. The feeilng...the feeling of...of...of...
He couldn't describe it! It just made him uneasy.
He looked back down at her. The crescent still on her forhead. What had that bastard
done to her? She wasn't evil. No. Vegeta knew what it was like to be evil. Caught in
a path that wasn't his own. Death. Destruction.
It was so...strange seeing her like this.
He paused, then whispered softly. "Come back to us, Usagi. Gohan needs you..."
He took a deep breath, fighting back tears. "I need you."
~~~~
Saffir lay on his bed, thinking. Thinking. Thinking. As always, he had been a man who
thought. He didn't do anything unless he was required to. Unless he had to. He always
made the plans, and let others fulfill them.
But now. Now it was all out of control. That hadn't been part of the plan. The plan was
for Usagi to kill the senshi, then Gohan to hate her, and Usagi would have had no choice
but to fall into Dimando's arms. Saffir hadn't made the plan. Dimando had. But Saffir
loved Dimando. So he had helped him. Helped him revise the plan...helped him fulfill it.
But what had Dimando done?
Why had he done it?
Dimando loved Serenity. There was no doubt about that. But...but...
There was something different about Dimando. He couldn't quite place it, but there was
something very very wrong about this entire thing...
~~~~
The Darkness laughed. It had won the battle. The little pawns were moving exactly as
planned. It was the marionette. It had held the strings. They were nothing more than
puppets to be played with.
It laughed.
The stage was set. The actors and actresses were in place. The path was clear.
The silence was coming. The blessed silence.
Already, the Moon Princess had fallen into it's trap of sightless agony. She was now its
possession. She was hopelessly devoted to the pain...
But it was worried. There were powerful beings...the Saiyans...and they could ruin
everything. They were strong. Unbeatable. And very protective of their little Princess.
But it was patient. Soon the final act would begin. And it's plan would continue as it
had intended it to.
The Darkness laughed again.
The Dark Moon Prince would also continue to do as it commanded...not knowing the
truth. But then again, truth is in the eye of the beholder...and the Darkness knew it's
mission. The Darkness would destroy the truth...
~~~~
I was lost. Lost. Lost.
Caught in the dreams that would never come true.
The world was crashing around me. And I couldn't move.
Death. Death. Death.
I deserved to die. I was the one who had killed mercilessly.
I was the one. The one who had murdered the ones who meant to protect me...the
world.
And now. Now it was all over.
Dimando had one. He had won. I was finally defeated.
~~~~
It had been several weeks since I had begun my endless journey through the dark
depths of despair. How could I survive now? How could I live with what I had done?
I wasn't sure about anything.
All I knew was the pain inside me...and the comforting presence of Vegeta. (AN: As
you can see, I'm a big Vegeta fan...glares..and don't you dare say ONE thing bad
about him...)
Why was this happening to me? When did my life spin out of control like this? Why
was I so foolish as to believe Dimando really would help me?
...I guess I really am weak...ditzy...dumb...stupid...clumby...airheaded...
All those things.
If only.
If only I had seen the truth.
If only I had trusted the Outers enough to stay with them, then maybe...this wouldn't
have happened.
But I was too caught up in my feelings of rage, anger, pain, sorrow...love...to notice
that they were the ones that could truly help me.
Now they are dead. So are the Inner Senshi...
And there is a power out there...that I can feel. It is trying to find me. It is trying to
take me.
I'm so close to giving in...that I don't even know if life is worth living anymore.
The Darkness....it's slowly consuming me...
And I am confused.
Slowly, I feel all my strength leaving me...am I dying? No. I'm not...
But...where is the truth? Where is the truth...about everything.
~~~~
Dimando stared at his glass of wine. His mind a blur. His thoughts moving so fast even
he couldn't comprehend them. His mind was dark. Lost in the depths of the endlessness.
Yet. One thought seemed so clear that even he could not ignore it. Serenity.
Serenity.
Serenity.
She was everything. Light. Darkness. Good. Evil. She was the answer. She was the
question. She was the world. Yet, she was meant to protect the world. She was an
angel from heaven. And at times, an angel from hell. She was so young and innocent.
Yet so old in knowledge. She had been through so much. Seen so much. Heard so much.
Yet she was still the beautiful, strong, caring, noble Princess that she was born to be.
Dimando was confused. What was his goal? To kill the Princess or to save her? He
wasn't sure. The Darkness told him it was the only way to be truly happy. But. Why
would it say that? Why would he take away the only thing in his life worth keeping?
...Dimando stopped thinking this way. He had to. Or else the Darkness would get angry.
And he may lose the only other thing as important as Serenity.
...Safffir...
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...Saffir...
What was it about him? That made me doubt everything I had been doing?
Was it his innocence? Or was it his lack of innocence?
He had already been through so much to protect Dimando and myself. But I was blind
to everything he was telling me. I was lost in my own despair that was now killing me.
Death. It was so strange, this knowing. This thinking. This hating. I had never been
able to hate anyone before.
But now I hate myself. I hate what I was. I hate what I did. I hate what I am doing...
I hate what I have become.
Life has no more reason anymore. Life has no more goal.
Life...is no longer beautiful to me.
So...
Why can't I just die?
~~~~
The Darkness laughed to itself insanely.
Truth.
Truth.
It would destroy the truth. Already the memories of the past were slipping from the
little moon child. Already the regret for the deaths was consuming her.
It was time.
Time for the last act and the grand finale. It was time for the destruction to consume
them.
It was time.
The Darkness laughed from inside it's host. Held it's own prisoner hostage.
It had been so easy to capture him. So easy to grasp onto it's prey and destroy his
willpower.
Love had no power. Love had no truth.
The Darkness continued to laugh from inside it's host....it was the parasite...it was the
virus...and the host. Was Mamoru.
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~~~~
Well...REVIEW! smiles innocently...k? ja ne!
Email me!!!
psychemegami@yahoo.com ~~NEW EMAIL!! YEAH!!!!!
Thanx!
~~Psyche~~