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A/N: Set sometime after Coming Home.

It would have been so easy to say yes, come with us, travel for a while. He was helpless and in pain, physically and emotionally. Gabrielle later told me the look on his face when he thought he had killed me almost broke her heart.

After everything I was almost ready to forgive, but I knew I could never forget. I think he knew too. So with one final bittersweet kiss, we parted. I guess I never thought it would ever end. I sometimes catch myself waiting for him to arrive in an amazing shower of blue, or come walking over the hill just ahead, that smart ass grin plastered upon his features.

It won't happen though. The only time I see him is in my dreams, they aren't happy dreams. I see his face, contorted with pain, his dark eyes which used to look at me with so much love glazed over, blood everywhere. So much blood, spilling out onto the grass, turning it red.

His body then falls, hitting the hard ground, as he takes his final breath he whispers my name and I wake up in a cold sweat.

It would have been so easy to say yes, come with us, travel for a while. So why did I say no?