Author's Note: This is my attempted sequel. It's more poetic but it's badly poetic because the character is like that. It doesn't focus on Spot because I couldn't beat a dead horse so it's the other side of the little messed up relationship. It really doesn't make all that much sense until you read the story that involves them (Which I'm not writting til I'm in writter's craft, I want it to be my best story.) Anyway, Enjoy and review! PLEASE REVIEW!! *Begging*

Can't Just Say....
 By Randomness

I can't just say I trust you, I know that isn't true. I lose my friends all the time, I even lost you. I can't just say I know you, because I thought I did. You lied to me and you hurt me when you chose them over me and I was left alone. You picked popularity over 4 years, my Friend, and you wonder why I don't jump to trust you again? I can't just say I forgive you, even if it happened a long time ago. I had no friends for years to come because you had to go. You were my friend forever and then you picked them over me. It's hard for someone, who's always alone, to trust people when they get stabbed so close to home.
They wonder why I'm quiet, they say I don't give you a chance. If they knew what you used to be, they wouldn't trust you at all. I knew you then, you weren't ashamed and then your parents died. Now you're out of your mansion and in the streets and your past, you have to hide. So I was the last thing you had, to link you to that life. You dropped my like broken glass and now you wonder why?
Funny thing is, you don't even remember that day you turned away. You didn't even say goodbye, you didn't look me in the face. You followed them after they teased and joked, and made my feelings hurt. I tell you, that's the hardest thing for a seven year old to cope with. My best friend left me and went with them and I was left alone.
So I can't forgive you, not yet for that, though a decade had past. I gave up all my life to enter your home and be your friend and you just dumped me because I wasn't good enough anymore. You don't remember what happened there. I know because you just told me that you loved me so.
I love you too. I have forever, but I can't be with you; not now or ever. I gave an excuse, it was a half truth but the facts are much deeper here. You broke my heart when I was seven, you think I would trust you with it again? Thing is Spot, I know the truth. If given the same choice again, you would pick them. Your Ego is way too big. I guess I can say I know you, because deep down I do. I know that you'll hurt me again, if I trust in you. I won't just give my heart away. Trust you? That's the one thing I can't say.

Author's Note: This is for my friend Andrea who helped me develop this character, though she didn't know it at the time. Thanks Anya!! PS: I know that sounded really rambly and bitter but she really is a nice character.