I wonder how I am supposed to never judge people, and yet still preach
constantly about why they are wrong. And I wonder how come people keep
telling me the Bible has all the answers when I can't seem to find half of
MY questions' answers.
I wonder why so many shows these days are filled with sex and drugs and lust. And I wonder why it takes all that shit to entertain some people these days. Would it make any difference if everyone on earth were Christian? No. Not at all. Non-Christians are not the only ones enjoying this type of entertainment. I myself find it funny sometimes. I just don't understand why almost every successful "adult" show out there has to promote these things.
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I would like to thank 2 of my reviewers, by the way. You will notice I will be using the term "non-Christians" now instead of saying "unbelievers." You both are right, that's a terrible term to use. Shame on me.
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I wonder why I sometimes find myself crying for no reason whatsoever. Does anyone else ever do that? And I feel lost inside, like I'm stuck in this prison I call a spirit and I can't seem to find my way out, no matter how hard I try.
It is at these times only that I find myself finding out how lost I really and truly am. When I was younger, I was immune to hurt, I sometimes think. No, I don't mean the falling-down-and-scraping-your-knee kind of hurting, I mean REAL Deep Hurt, the kind you feel when you wake up to find you've lost something, but you can't figure out what it is.
I sometimes go through the day looking inside of myself and others for whatever it is I've lost, but I can't seem to find it. And chances are I never will. But eventually there will be something or someone to fill the hole, and I move on. Because if I didn't move on, I'd end up like so many teenagers these days, in cults, gangs, or suicides.
I wonder why I've always taken everything people I trusted tell me as fact. And I wonder why the second I did start to question it, it seemed all wrong, like a bunch of puzzle pieces that just don't fit.
I wonder why it took me so long to come up with my current beliefs, and why I still have so many questions about my faith. And I wonder why sometimes when I ask these questions to my fellow Christians, they shrug it off as they say, "The Bible is Truth. You have to believe everything it says or else there is doubt in you, and if there is doubt in you you are a bad Christian."
No, not every Christian believes that. But the ones I talk to all tell me about the same thing. I guess the ones that say that to me think because I am already a Christian it will be easy for me to accept this. And I guess they are surprised when I can't, when I keep looking for the answers. Because truth is, I am not a goose. I can't live that way, even though I sure wish I could.
NewYorkBabe
A/N-Thanks to everyone who has reviewed and special thanks to K2 and Eve for the tip. I'm sorry if I offended anyone. I do realize this is scattered again. Sorry.
I wonder why so many shows these days are filled with sex and drugs and lust. And I wonder why it takes all that shit to entertain some people these days. Would it make any difference if everyone on earth were Christian? No. Not at all. Non-Christians are not the only ones enjoying this type of entertainment. I myself find it funny sometimes. I just don't understand why almost every successful "adult" show out there has to promote these things.
*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~
I would like to thank 2 of my reviewers, by the way. You will notice I will be using the term "non-Christians" now instead of saying "unbelievers." You both are right, that's a terrible term to use. Shame on me.
*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~
I wonder why I sometimes find myself crying for no reason whatsoever. Does anyone else ever do that? And I feel lost inside, like I'm stuck in this prison I call a spirit and I can't seem to find my way out, no matter how hard I try.
It is at these times only that I find myself finding out how lost I really and truly am. When I was younger, I was immune to hurt, I sometimes think. No, I don't mean the falling-down-and-scraping-your-knee kind of hurting, I mean REAL Deep Hurt, the kind you feel when you wake up to find you've lost something, but you can't figure out what it is.
I sometimes go through the day looking inside of myself and others for whatever it is I've lost, but I can't seem to find it. And chances are I never will. But eventually there will be something or someone to fill the hole, and I move on. Because if I didn't move on, I'd end up like so many teenagers these days, in cults, gangs, or suicides.
I wonder why I've always taken everything people I trusted tell me as fact. And I wonder why the second I did start to question it, it seemed all wrong, like a bunch of puzzle pieces that just don't fit.
I wonder why it took me so long to come up with my current beliefs, and why I still have so many questions about my faith. And I wonder why sometimes when I ask these questions to my fellow Christians, they shrug it off as they say, "The Bible is Truth. You have to believe everything it says or else there is doubt in you, and if there is doubt in you you are a bad Christian."
No, not every Christian believes that. But the ones I talk to all tell me about the same thing. I guess the ones that say that to me think because I am already a Christian it will be easy for me to accept this. And I guess they are surprised when I can't, when I keep looking for the answers. Because truth is, I am not a goose. I can't live that way, even though I sure wish I could.
NewYorkBabe
A/N-Thanks to everyone who has reviewed and special thanks to K2 and Eve for the tip. I'm sorry if I offended anyone. I do realize this is scattered again. Sorry.