Rating: PG
Disclaimer: Stigmatized is by The Calling and I own nothing..blah, blah, blah and so forth
Notes: Thanks to all those who reviewed! It meant a lot to get some good feedback! This will be the very last chapter in 'A Single Tear' and I've decided to go fluffy and sprinkle on the sap. Sorry if you were looking for Shu-chan to bounce off arm-in-arm with Ryu-chan (I was rooting for that one myself, but lack of time forced this upon me LOL) Enjoy please! _______________________________________
*~If I give up on you I give up on me
If we fight what's true, will we ever be
Even God himself and the faith I knew
Shouldn't hold me back, shouldn't keep me from you
Tease me, by holding out your hand
Then leave me, or take me as I am
And live our lives, stigmatized~*
The engine of Yuki's car roared to life and backed out, pulling out of the space. Yuki sat in the driver's seat, drumming his fingers on the wheel. He was going to find Shuichi and if nothing else, tell the younger man how he felt. That he wanted him, loved him, needed him. If this was how it was going to end, so be it, but Yuki wouldn't give up without a fight. He wasn't going to live his life always recalling the love of his life passing him by. He WAS going to find Shuichi. Shuichi was the only thing Yuki had in this world and he was determined not to lose him.
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The rain wasn't letting up any, but Shuichi didn't care. Might as well sit here until it stopped. He had no place to go anyway. Lifting his violet gaze from the ground before him he buried his face in his knees. Of all the endings possible for him and Yuki, Shuichi never saw this one coming quite honestly. It felt as if his world was crumbling around him. Like a wonderful dream shattered by the morning light. What was Yuki doing right now? Did he even bother to give a second thought to Shuichi? More than likely not, Shuichi answered himself with a sigh. He loved Yuki so much, was it too much to ask that Yuki show just the slightest inkling that he felt the same way? Shuichi didn't think so, but he never knew with Yuki. Yuki's heart was a mystery. Completely sheltered in a wall of ice from anyone. How stupid of him to think that Yuki would be willing to let that wall melt for him.
The sound of laughing diverted Shuichi's gaze back up and over to a nearby sidewalk. A man and woman were running together, holding hands lovingly, hiding beneath a dinky piece of newspaper for protection. Though both were completely soaked, they both wore smiles upon their faces, staring at each other with complete adoration as they romped through the rain. Shuichi felt a pang of jealousy in the pit of his stomach and shivered. He and Yuki never did things like that together. In fact they were hardly ever in public together. The thought alone made Shuichi sulk even more and for once he wished that Yuki loved him enough to take him out or walk with him. Shaking his head, causing buckets of water to fly everywhere, Shuichi bit back a sob. Things would never be that way with Yuki.
*~I can feel the blood rushing though my veins
When I hear your voice, driving me insane
Hour after hour day after day
Every lonely night that I sit and pray
Tease me, by holding out your hand
Then leave me, or take me as I am
And live our lives, stigmatized*~
Yuki drove all over the place. Every possible place he thought he may find Shuichi, but his search had been in vain so far. Pulling over into a nearby parking lot Yuki sat in his car silently. The unmelodic beat of rain against his window sounded in the background as he sat in the quiet of his car. The sound of Shuichi's angry voice sounded in his ears..
"Fine! If that's the way you feel than maybe I'll never come back!"
Remembering the tears flowing down the vocalists cheeks Yuki sighed, banging his head gently against the steering wheel. Sometimes he was such an idiot. Frustrated with himself and the silence overwhelming him, Yuki opened his door and got out into the pouring rain. He stood there for a moment, blinking as a few of the harsh rain drops caught in his eye lashes. Shuichi just had to be around here somewhere, Yuki could feel it. He shut the door of his car, deciding he could look around better on foot and took off in search of his lost lover. It was raining cats and dogs, but Yuki kept going. He stopped at cross walk and look to both ways, seeing no sign of his lover. He had to be getting closer, something kept telling him this was where Shuichi was. He just had to be. As Yuki crossed, a young couple hiding beneath a tiny piece of newspaper passed him giggling. Feeling a knot in his stomach Yuki sighed. He never did things like that with Shuichi. That would be one of the first things to change. If Shuichi took him back that is. He'd make sure Shuichi knew he loved him and he'd do so much more with him. He couldn't promise to give his heart completely, but he would offer Shuichi what he could. He just hoped that it would be enough. "Don't give up on me yet, Shuichi." Yuki murmured, picking up his pace.
~* We live our lives on different sides,
But we keep together you and I
Just live our lives, stigmatized
We'll live our lives, We'll take the punches everyday
We'll live our lives, I know we're gonna find our way*~
Wondering vaguely if he planned to just sit here tell he caught cold and died, Shuichi let go of his legs, sitting upon the bench properly. He stared up into the sky, the rain drops seeming to lessen ever so slightly. The strawberry haired man stood slowly, not trusting his legs right away. His legs hurt from sitting cramped up in a little ball for so long, but he shook of the pain. It was nothing compared to the aching in his heart. Taking a few small steps forward, Shuichi dropped his gaze back to the ground, folding his arms over his chest with a shiver. His mind wandered over everything that he and Yuki had been through. Every night they spent making love, every moment they talked, ever kiss or hug they shared. Sometimes Yuki was so loving that it hardly seemed the cold-hearted Yuki that Shuichi saw so much of was real. It didn't matter now though, things were over.
He'd just been kidding himself this whole time, right? It was stupid to think Yuki could ever love him back. No matter how many times Shuichi repeated this to himself, a part of him couldn't let go. Yuki had to love him, he just had to. Why would he let Shuichi stay with him if he didn't? Why would he kiss him and hold him like he did if he didn't love Shuichi? The man stopped dead in his tracks and thought. Yuki never told him he loved him, but he really never had to! All those sweet little things Yuki did for him was Yuki's way of saying he loved Shuichi. They just had to be. Shuichi's mind was working overtime and his eyes widened. He couldn't give up on Yuki yet, no he wouldn't give up on Yuki! Even if it seemed like Yuki disliked him, deep down Shuichi could tell he felt the same way. He felt foolish that he'd never realized this before. Shuichi began again at a quick pace. Now he had to make it back to Yuki before he gave up on him, like Shuichi had almost done to him.
*~I believe in you
Even if no one understands
I Believe in you, and I don't really give a damn
If we're stigmatized
We live our lives on different sides
But we keep together you and I
We live our lives on different sides*~
Yuki sighed in defeat, he wasn't going to find Shuichi. If Shuichi didn't want to be found, he wouldn't be. Yuki slowed down his pace, walking steadily down the wet sidewalk. What he wouldn't give for a cigarette right about now. As his mind wandered, he became aware of a funny feeling in his stomach. It was the same feeling he had earlier when he thought Shuichi had been near. Yuki paused, suddenly feeling anxious. Could he really face Shuichi could he really let him know how he felt. Well...He was going to try. Yuki began walking forward again, his pace increasing as he went. Around the corner, Shuichi was flat-out running. He was glancing around, trying to place the signs. Now that he was less upset he was thinking a bit straighter, but he was still pretty lost. Worrying his bottom lip Shuichi paused at the corner sign. He read it over a few times and tried placing where exactly he was. From what he could tell, he was pretty far from-- Yuki? Out of the corner of his eye Shuichi spotted a familiar blonde form jogging his way. Could it possibly be Yuki? No, it couldn't be! Could it?
*
Yuki spotted a strawberry haired man standing at the corner. The rain blurred his vision, but Yuki knew it was Shuichi. Who else in Japan had hair that color? It seemed that Shuichi had seen him too, but Yuki wasn't sure. Would he run away or would he give Yuki a second to talk? Yuki hoped for the latter. The figure at the corner paused and turned towards Yuki, hesitating before beginning towards him. Yuki almost smiled and when they met halfway down the sidewalk, Yuki wrapped his arms around the smaller man. Shuichi clung to Yuki tightly, letting out sigh.
"Yuki, I wanted to apol-"
"Shh..Shuichi, I..." he stopped, choking on his words.
Shuichi glanced up at him, his violet eyes reflecting his confusion. Yuki sighed, placing a kiss on Shuichi's forehead and tightened his hold on him. Shuichi said nothing, but held the man back. What was going on with Yuki? Did this mean he was sorry? Shuichi hoped with all his might it did. The rain around them seemed to be lightening and now only tiny droplets fell on occasion. Pulling back a little bit from Shuichi, Yuki gave a half smile.
"I.....Gomen nasai[1], koibito[2]." he murmured.
Shuichi blinked, hardly believing what he was hearing. He placed a hand on Yuki's cheek and smiled gently.
"Daijoubu[3], Yuki-chan..."
The man pulled his smaller lover into another hug and nuzzled his neck, placing a gentle kiss there. He shut his eyes tightly and sighed, running his hand through Shuichi's pink locks. Amber eyes opening slowly, he put his mouth beside Shuichi's ear.
"Ai shiteru[4], itooshi[5].."
*~We're gonna live our lives
Gotta live our lives
We're gonna live our lives
We're gonna live our lives, Gonna live our lives, Stigmatized~*
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It's ok I guess, but I'm not all that fond of it. I decided to end it here because I'm starting another Gravi fanfic! I hope you will all go and read it when it's done! Thanks again for all your support. -NoriChan
[1]Gomen Nasai: I'm very sorry
[2]Koibito: lover
[3]Daijoubu: It's alright, It's ok, I'm alright, etc.
[4]Ai shiteru: I love you
[5]Itooshi: Beloved, the one you love
Disclaimer: Stigmatized is by The Calling and I own nothing..blah, blah, blah and so forth
Notes: Thanks to all those who reviewed! It meant a lot to get some good feedback! This will be the very last chapter in 'A Single Tear' and I've decided to go fluffy and sprinkle on the sap. Sorry if you were looking for Shu-chan to bounce off arm-in-arm with Ryu-chan (I was rooting for that one myself, but lack of time forced this upon me LOL) Enjoy please! _______________________________________
*~If I give up on you I give up on me
If we fight what's true, will we ever be
Even God himself and the faith I knew
Shouldn't hold me back, shouldn't keep me from you
Tease me, by holding out your hand
Then leave me, or take me as I am
And live our lives, stigmatized~*
The engine of Yuki's car roared to life and backed out, pulling out of the space. Yuki sat in the driver's seat, drumming his fingers on the wheel. He was going to find Shuichi and if nothing else, tell the younger man how he felt. That he wanted him, loved him, needed him. If this was how it was going to end, so be it, but Yuki wouldn't give up without a fight. He wasn't going to live his life always recalling the love of his life passing him by. He WAS going to find Shuichi. Shuichi was the only thing Yuki had in this world and he was determined not to lose him.
______________________
The rain wasn't letting up any, but Shuichi didn't care. Might as well sit here until it stopped. He had no place to go anyway. Lifting his violet gaze from the ground before him he buried his face in his knees. Of all the endings possible for him and Yuki, Shuichi never saw this one coming quite honestly. It felt as if his world was crumbling around him. Like a wonderful dream shattered by the morning light. What was Yuki doing right now? Did he even bother to give a second thought to Shuichi? More than likely not, Shuichi answered himself with a sigh. He loved Yuki so much, was it too much to ask that Yuki show just the slightest inkling that he felt the same way? Shuichi didn't think so, but he never knew with Yuki. Yuki's heart was a mystery. Completely sheltered in a wall of ice from anyone. How stupid of him to think that Yuki would be willing to let that wall melt for him.
The sound of laughing diverted Shuichi's gaze back up and over to a nearby sidewalk. A man and woman were running together, holding hands lovingly, hiding beneath a dinky piece of newspaper for protection. Though both were completely soaked, they both wore smiles upon their faces, staring at each other with complete adoration as they romped through the rain. Shuichi felt a pang of jealousy in the pit of his stomach and shivered. He and Yuki never did things like that together. In fact they were hardly ever in public together. The thought alone made Shuichi sulk even more and for once he wished that Yuki loved him enough to take him out or walk with him. Shaking his head, causing buckets of water to fly everywhere, Shuichi bit back a sob. Things would never be that way with Yuki.
*~I can feel the blood rushing though my veins
When I hear your voice, driving me insane
Hour after hour day after day
Every lonely night that I sit and pray
Tease me, by holding out your hand
Then leave me, or take me as I am
And live our lives, stigmatized*~
Yuki drove all over the place. Every possible place he thought he may find Shuichi, but his search had been in vain so far. Pulling over into a nearby parking lot Yuki sat in his car silently. The unmelodic beat of rain against his window sounded in the background as he sat in the quiet of his car. The sound of Shuichi's angry voice sounded in his ears..
"Fine! If that's the way you feel than maybe I'll never come back!"
Remembering the tears flowing down the vocalists cheeks Yuki sighed, banging his head gently against the steering wheel. Sometimes he was such an idiot. Frustrated with himself and the silence overwhelming him, Yuki opened his door and got out into the pouring rain. He stood there for a moment, blinking as a few of the harsh rain drops caught in his eye lashes. Shuichi just had to be around here somewhere, Yuki could feel it. He shut the door of his car, deciding he could look around better on foot and took off in search of his lost lover. It was raining cats and dogs, but Yuki kept going. He stopped at cross walk and look to both ways, seeing no sign of his lover. He had to be getting closer, something kept telling him this was where Shuichi was. He just had to be. As Yuki crossed, a young couple hiding beneath a tiny piece of newspaper passed him giggling. Feeling a knot in his stomach Yuki sighed. He never did things like that with Shuichi. That would be one of the first things to change. If Shuichi took him back that is. He'd make sure Shuichi knew he loved him and he'd do so much more with him. He couldn't promise to give his heart completely, but he would offer Shuichi what he could. He just hoped that it would be enough. "Don't give up on me yet, Shuichi." Yuki murmured, picking up his pace.
~* We live our lives on different sides,
But we keep together you and I
Just live our lives, stigmatized
We'll live our lives, We'll take the punches everyday
We'll live our lives, I know we're gonna find our way*~
Wondering vaguely if he planned to just sit here tell he caught cold and died, Shuichi let go of his legs, sitting upon the bench properly. He stared up into the sky, the rain drops seeming to lessen ever so slightly. The strawberry haired man stood slowly, not trusting his legs right away. His legs hurt from sitting cramped up in a little ball for so long, but he shook of the pain. It was nothing compared to the aching in his heart. Taking a few small steps forward, Shuichi dropped his gaze back to the ground, folding his arms over his chest with a shiver. His mind wandered over everything that he and Yuki had been through. Every night they spent making love, every moment they talked, ever kiss or hug they shared. Sometimes Yuki was so loving that it hardly seemed the cold-hearted Yuki that Shuichi saw so much of was real. It didn't matter now though, things were over.
He'd just been kidding himself this whole time, right? It was stupid to think Yuki could ever love him back. No matter how many times Shuichi repeated this to himself, a part of him couldn't let go. Yuki had to love him, he just had to. Why would he let Shuichi stay with him if he didn't? Why would he kiss him and hold him like he did if he didn't love Shuichi? The man stopped dead in his tracks and thought. Yuki never told him he loved him, but he really never had to! All those sweet little things Yuki did for him was Yuki's way of saying he loved Shuichi. They just had to be. Shuichi's mind was working overtime and his eyes widened. He couldn't give up on Yuki yet, no he wouldn't give up on Yuki! Even if it seemed like Yuki disliked him, deep down Shuichi could tell he felt the same way. He felt foolish that he'd never realized this before. Shuichi began again at a quick pace. Now he had to make it back to Yuki before he gave up on him, like Shuichi had almost done to him.
*~I believe in you
Even if no one understands
I Believe in you, and I don't really give a damn
If we're stigmatized
We live our lives on different sides
But we keep together you and I
We live our lives on different sides*~
Yuki sighed in defeat, he wasn't going to find Shuichi. If Shuichi didn't want to be found, he wouldn't be. Yuki slowed down his pace, walking steadily down the wet sidewalk. What he wouldn't give for a cigarette right about now. As his mind wandered, he became aware of a funny feeling in his stomach. It was the same feeling he had earlier when he thought Shuichi had been near. Yuki paused, suddenly feeling anxious. Could he really face Shuichi could he really let him know how he felt. Well...He was going to try. Yuki began walking forward again, his pace increasing as he went. Around the corner, Shuichi was flat-out running. He was glancing around, trying to place the signs. Now that he was less upset he was thinking a bit straighter, but he was still pretty lost. Worrying his bottom lip Shuichi paused at the corner sign. He read it over a few times and tried placing where exactly he was. From what he could tell, he was pretty far from-- Yuki? Out of the corner of his eye Shuichi spotted a familiar blonde form jogging his way. Could it possibly be Yuki? No, it couldn't be! Could it?
*
Yuki spotted a strawberry haired man standing at the corner. The rain blurred his vision, but Yuki knew it was Shuichi. Who else in Japan had hair that color? It seemed that Shuichi had seen him too, but Yuki wasn't sure. Would he run away or would he give Yuki a second to talk? Yuki hoped for the latter. The figure at the corner paused and turned towards Yuki, hesitating before beginning towards him. Yuki almost smiled and when they met halfway down the sidewalk, Yuki wrapped his arms around the smaller man. Shuichi clung to Yuki tightly, letting out sigh.
"Yuki, I wanted to apol-"
"Shh..Shuichi, I..." he stopped, choking on his words.
Shuichi glanced up at him, his violet eyes reflecting his confusion. Yuki sighed, placing a kiss on Shuichi's forehead and tightened his hold on him. Shuichi said nothing, but held the man back. What was going on with Yuki? Did this mean he was sorry? Shuichi hoped with all his might it did. The rain around them seemed to be lightening and now only tiny droplets fell on occasion. Pulling back a little bit from Shuichi, Yuki gave a half smile.
"I.....Gomen nasai[1], koibito[2]." he murmured.
Shuichi blinked, hardly believing what he was hearing. He placed a hand on Yuki's cheek and smiled gently.
"Daijoubu[3], Yuki-chan..."
The man pulled his smaller lover into another hug and nuzzled his neck, placing a gentle kiss there. He shut his eyes tightly and sighed, running his hand through Shuichi's pink locks. Amber eyes opening slowly, he put his mouth beside Shuichi's ear.
"Ai shiteru[4], itooshi[5].."
*~We're gonna live our lives
Gotta live our lives
We're gonna live our lives
We're gonna live our lives, Gonna live our lives, Stigmatized~*
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It's ok I guess, but I'm not all that fond of it. I decided to end it here because I'm starting another Gravi fanfic! I hope you will all go and read it when it's done! Thanks again for all your support. -NoriChan
[1]Gomen Nasai: I'm very sorry
[2]Koibito: lover
[3]Daijoubu: It's alright, It's ok, I'm alright, etc.
[4]Ai shiteru: I love you
[5]Itooshi: Beloved, the one you love