Notes: *growls* I hate homework. I really do.

Pairings: Ran x Ken

Warnings: AU, Ran POV, yaoi, language, angst

Disclaimer: If this is a fanfic, wouldn't that imply that I'm not the owner of the series?

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In Your Love

3

Darkness had settled over the land once again, heralding a new day lit by the sun of midnight. The day had been almost...normal. It seemed like life was returning to how it was before Ken had left. Except for me. Ken had been warm and friendly but I remained distant. I didn't want to play into his arms like a grateful puppy. I didn't want to crawl back to him if he was only going to push me away again.

Youji and Omi's surprise had worn off quickly, almost as though they expected Ken to return. I don't give a damn about what they think. I wanted to know what was running through that chocolate gaze. I wanted to know why he had left. Why he had left me like this. Why he had done this to me. I know I had known what the answer was but why did it have to be that?

We had helped, or I should say Omi and Youji helped Ken move back into his old room which had remained generally unchanged. I hadn't entered his sleeping chamber since his departure but I assumed from the size of his single suitcase he had taken only clothing and small valuable possessions. If he knew he would be returning, why the hurt?

I was angry at how he treated me. I was angry at how he just walked away from me. I didn't want to talk to him. I didn't want to see him but at the same time my heart ached to press him against me and feel his warmth. I wanted to caress that smooth skin and run my fingers over his toned body. But I couldn't forget what he had done to me. My fantasies were always brought slamming back to reality with an ugly memory, shattering the beauty of his face.

If you are a songbird, then I am a raven. Daubed with the lust of beauty.

I had loved him so much. He had seemed so perfect in my arms. He had seemed so wonderful. How could he hurt me like this? How could he leave and come waltzing back in, expecting the grateful smiles that he had received in the past from his admirers, me. How could he just come back.

"Damn you Ken!" I shouted the words, the curse feeling good on my tongue. I didn't care if he heard it or not. I didn't care.

"It seems as though I've lost some popularity around here." A soft voice sounded from my doorway. A muscular frame blocked some of the golden light flooding in around him from the hallway lamp. I hadn't heard him enter.

I couldn't answer him. I couldn't look at him. I was seething in anger but at the same time I wanted him to come and crush his body against mine in an everlasting kiss that would shatter all the hurt he had caused. I wanted him so badly but I didn't want the pain I knew he would inevitably bring.

"If I had known you would be so cold, I might have reconsidered coming back."

That stirred me to voice my thoughts. "How fucking could you? You just leave, packing your stupid fucking little bag and running out without any warning, acting as though it's all my damn fault. And then you come back and expect to be welcomed with open arms? Fuck you Ken. Leave if you fucking want to. I'm not going to give a shit about it either way."

That silenced him. I could see the grin fade from his painfully handsome face as my glare edged with loathing fell upon him.

"I'm sorry Ran-"

"You'd better be fucking sorry! You don't realize how much shit you've caused around here by just running off."

You don't realize how much you've made me hurt.

"Look, I'm trying to fucking apologize but if you're going to be a damned ass about it then fine. I won't."

I could see his anger flare as he slammed my door shut, leaving me in the darkness and silence with my rage. I was glad he was gone but I instantly felt a fierce need for him to return. My voice was barely a whisper.

"I'm sorry Ken."

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Well that was tiny bit longer than my chapters usually are...