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Note: Gald your liking this. I want to know what happened too. We'll I'll deal with that when I get there.
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FEAR
Seajae sat and watched the moon in the sky. The sun would be up soon. Her life was falling apart but the sun would shine again. Maybe not in her world. She took a long drag of her cigarette.
"What am I going to do Caleb?" She turned to look at him.
"Take it one day at a time kiddo. We'll figure this thing out." He put his arm around her. "A love like yours, nothing can get in it's way."
"If he can't remember it."
"He'll remember Seaj. He can't not." Caleb hugged her. "Come on it's like forty degrees out her. Seajae followed Caleb in and was stunned to see Bosco holding Angel. The little girl smiled.
"Mommy, daddy's home."
"I see that baby." Seajae went to take the little girl from the man who didn't remeber her. "Come on Angel Faith, time for bed."
"I want daddy to do it." Sheajae grasped the child and started to pull her in her arms.
"Seajae, I can do it. If it's okay with you." Seajae let Angel go back into her father's arms.
"She likes when you sing 'Billy Don't Be A Hero' for her." Bosco smiled.
"A girl after my own heart." He walk toward the room where the little girl had come from. Seajae watched as tears fell from her cheeks.
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Bosco rocked the little girl and sang the song she liked softly. As he did he looked around the brightly decorated room. On the walls were pictures. Pictures of them and of friends and family. His mother and Angel at what seemed to be a party. Mikey and Angel at the park. Seajae and him, Angel between them smiling. Looking down he saw the child had fallen asleep again and he got up and laid her on her bed. Without even thinking he kissed her on the top of the head and pulled the covers up.
Bosco went to the wall of pictures and looked at the others. There was ones of Sully, his wife and a little boy. He smiled. Sully was a dad. Who'd of thought. One of Jimmy, Kim, Joey and a baby girl. He found it strange that he'd have a picture of a man he really didn't care for in his house. But five years is a long time for grudges. The next one was of Ty and Alex Taylor. Thier little girl laughing. God the 55th must of had a baby boom. The last one was of Faith and her new husband. Charlie and Emily had grown so much in a day. They kids each had a baby on their laps. Twins. He had lost five years. Five years of the people around him. Five years with the blond with an attitude that loved im uncoditioally and gave him two beautiful children. Rubbing his eyes with the palms of his hands he wished to God he remembered them. Because foregetting them hurt more now then ever.
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Seajae drank down her ice tea laced vodka as Faith sat and watched her. Caleb went home to be with the kids in case the babies woke up. For once in her life Faith was speachless. She didn't know what to say to her friend. The pain in her eyes went straight to her soul.
"I'll take the kids and go. I can't deal with this. Not now. Maybe not ever."
"It's not like you to walk away from a challange Boscorelli."
"I'm to tierd to play this game. God must hate me. I can't have five continuing minutes of pease in my life before he thows another wrench into it. I just can't deal with it anymore. Before I had Bosco to lean on. Now I don't have that." Seajae heard Angel's door open and close and Bosco come out.
"Can we talk Seajae?" He walked over to the couch and sat next to her.
"I'll be next door if you guys need me." Faith got up and hugged her two best friends and prayed it all workded out. She headed back home to her family there.
"We were happy?" Bosco asked laying his head on the back of the couch and looking at the celing.
"Most of the time." Seajae looked at him. "We were never unhappy."
"You had kids with me knowing what kind of child hood I had?"
"We both sucked in the child hood department. We knew we could be better parents then either of us had. But to be honest your mom had turned into an awsome grandma to oh about twelve of so kids."
"My Ma? Who would of thought?" Bosco reached over and took her hand. "Seajae I know this is strange and I don't know how it's going to end...but hell I saw the pictures in Angels room and Faith told me how much in love we were. I can't make any promises but could we try to keep things as normal as we can. If not for me to remeber then for the kids. I don't want to upset them, I know what it's like to......"
"I know Bosco. I know you better then I know me sometimes." She wanted to kiss him so bad it hurt. He glanced at her and took in the sight of her. She was a beauty. He noticed a read heart just obove the waist band of her pants where her shirt road up. His eyes staring at it. Seajae noticed and pulled up her shirt a little. Bosco noticed a puckered scar under the heart that said inside 'Bosco's Babe'.
"Is that a bullit hole?" Seajae smiled.
"Yeah. I got the tattoo the day you disappeared. I was going to surprise you when you got home that night." Seajae frowned. "But you never made it home."
"You did that for me?"
"You hated what the scare represented. Guilt washed over you everytime you looked at it."
"Why?"
"Because you couldn't stop it from happening. It was a bad scene all around and there was no way it was your fault. The man who did it was there to kill me. I think if I would of been behind you I would be dead because all he would of had was a head shot."
"This guy...did we..you get him?"
"Yeah he's dead. The one good thing that came from that mess is you and me getting together." Bosco looked at the heart again and reached out and touched it. He knew he shouldn't but......
"I want to remember Seajae. I want to remember you and the kids and they way I was the past five years. Can you give me time because I can't believe this is permenet. I can't believe that I won't remember you or that beautiful little girl or my son." There were tears in Bosco's eyes. Seajae leaned over and pulled him into her arms.
"Give it time Bosco. It'll come back."
"Promise me you'll stay. Give it chance." The sobs came harder and Seajae coudn't hold back her tears any longer.
"You know I will Bosco. I'll always be here for you. Always." She kissed hes head. Both of them fell asleep as the sun came up. Both wishing things where the way they used to be and fearing they never would.
Note: Gald your liking this. I want to know what happened too. We'll I'll deal with that when I get there.
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FEAR
Seajae sat and watched the moon in the sky. The sun would be up soon. Her life was falling apart but the sun would shine again. Maybe not in her world. She took a long drag of her cigarette.
"What am I going to do Caleb?" She turned to look at him.
"Take it one day at a time kiddo. We'll figure this thing out." He put his arm around her. "A love like yours, nothing can get in it's way."
"If he can't remember it."
"He'll remember Seaj. He can't not." Caleb hugged her. "Come on it's like forty degrees out her. Seajae followed Caleb in and was stunned to see Bosco holding Angel. The little girl smiled.
"Mommy, daddy's home."
"I see that baby." Seajae went to take the little girl from the man who didn't remeber her. "Come on Angel Faith, time for bed."
"I want daddy to do it." Sheajae grasped the child and started to pull her in her arms.
"Seajae, I can do it. If it's okay with you." Seajae let Angel go back into her father's arms.
"She likes when you sing 'Billy Don't Be A Hero' for her." Bosco smiled.
"A girl after my own heart." He walk toward the room where the little girl had come from. Seajae watched as tears fell from her cheeks.
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Bosco rocked the little girl and sang the song she liked softly. As he did he looked around the brightly decorated room. On the walls were pictures. Pictures of them and of friends and family. His mother and Angel at what seemed to be a party. Mikey and Angel at the park. Seajae and him, Angel between them smiling. Looking down he saw the child had fallen asleep again and he got up and laid her on her bed. Without even thinking he kissed her on the top of the head and pulled the covers up.
Bosco went to the wall of pictures and looked at the others. There was ones of Sully, his wife and a little boy. He smiled. Sully was a dad. Who'd of thought. One of Jimmy, Kim, Joey and a baby girl. He found it strange that he'd have a picture of a man he really didn't care for in his house. But five years is a long time for grudges. The next one was of Ty and Alex Taylor. Thier little girl laughing. God the 55th must of had a baby boom. The last one was of Faith and her new husband. Charlie and Emily had grown so much in a day. They kids each had a baby on their laps. Twins. He had lost five years. Five years of the people around him. Five years with the blond with an attitude that loved im uncoditioally and gave him two beautiful children. Rubbing his eyes with the palms of his hands he wished to God he remembered them. Because foregetting them hurt more now then ever.
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Seajae drank down her ice tea laced vodka as Faith sat and watched her. Caleb went home to be with the kids in case the babies woke up. For once in her life Faith was speachless. She didn't know what to say to her friend. The pain in her eyes went straight to her soul.
"I'll take the kids and go. I can't deal with this. Not now. Maybe not ever."
"It's not like you to walk away from a challange Boscorelli."
"I'm to tierd to play this game. God must hate me. I can't have five continuing minutes of pease in my life before he thows another wrench into it. I just can't deal with it anymore. Before I had Bosco to lean on. Now I don't have that." Seajae heard Angel's door open and close and Bosco come out.
"Can we talk Seajae?" He walked over to the couch and sat next to her.
"I'll be next door if you guys need me." Faith got up and hugged her two best friends and prayed it all workded out. She headed back home to her family there.
"We were happy?" Bosco asked laying his head on the back of the couch and looking at the celing.
"Most of the time." Seajae looked at him. "We were never unhappy."
"You had kids with me knowing what kind of child hood I had?"
"We both sucked in the child hood department. We knew we could be better parents then either of us had. But to be honest your mom had turned into an awsome grandma to oh about twelve of so kids."
"My Ma? Who would of thought?" Bosco reached over and took her hand. "Seajae I know this is strange and I don't know how it's going to end...but hell I saw the pictures in Angels room and Faith told me how much in love we were. I can't make any promises but could we try to keep things as normal as we can. If not for me to remeber then for the kids. I don't want to upset them, I know what it's like to......"
"I know Bosco. I know you better then I know me sometimes." She wanted to kiss him so bad it hurt. He glanced at her and took in the sight of her. She was a beauty. He noticed a read heart just obove the waist band of her pants where her shirt road up. His eyes staring at it. Seajae noticed and pulled up her shirt a little. Bosco noticed a puckered scar under the heart that said inside 'Bosco's Babe'.
"Is that a bullit hole?" Seajae smiled.
"Yeah. I got the tattoo the day you disappeared. I was going to surprise you when you got home that night." Seajae frowned. "But you never made it home."
"You did that for me?"
"You hated what the scare represented. Guilt washed over you everytime you looked at it."
"Why?"
"Because you couldn't stop it from happening. It was a bad scene all around and there was no way it was your fault. The man who did it was there to kill me. I think if I would of been behind you I would be dead because all he would of had was a head shot."
"This guy...did we..you get him?"
"Yeah he's dead. The one good thing that came from that mess is you and me getting together." Bosco looked at the heart again and reached out and touched it. He knew he shouldn't but......
"I want to remember Seajae. I want to remember you and the kids and they way I was the past five years. Can you give me time because I can't believe this is permenet. I can't believe that I won't remember you or that beautiful little girl or my son." There were tears in Bosco's eyes. Seajae leaned over and pulled him into her arms.
"Give it time Bosco. It'll come back."
"Promise me you'll stay. Give it chance." The sobs came harder and Seajae coudn't hold back her tears any longer.
"You know I will Bosco. I'll always be here for you. Always." She kissed hes head. Both of them fell asleep as the sun came up. Both wishing things where the way they used to be and fearing they never would.