Disclaimer: I do not own Gundam Wing
Author: I apologise for anything wrong with this chapter in advance, not really feeling too happy or motivated right now. Next chapter should be better though.
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Chapter 9: Insecure.
"To be honest" Duo was still unable to detach himself from Heero's hug, "I have no idea."
"Guess he's just really glad to see us?" came a naive response from Quatre.
Heero just squeezed his eyes shut, hugging Duo for all he was worth and whispering in a childlike glee, "You came to rescue me...again!!" (reference to Episode 3)
Finally the usually emotionless pilot let go but continued staring at Duo expectantly, "Can we go to your boat?"
Duo scratched the back of his head, trying to work out what on earth was happening and then he looked over to Trowa for the answer.
Since it seemed to be memory related then it seemed only logical to ask the only one of them who'd had experience with amnesia.
Waiting for everyone's attention, except Heeros, Trowa begin with his theory, "Probably selective amnesia" he concluded.
"What?" Relena enquired, "Does that mean?"
"It means that all the bad memories that Heero doesn't/didn't want after the Marimeia Incident are gone" Quatre suggested.
"Then why does he remember being captured in the Alliance Hospital? Mr I-know-everything-about-ammesia" Duo waved his arms in an exasperated manor.
Trowa sighed. This was going to be one of these days for stupid questions that sought actual replies-both of which Trowa hated.
"He'd remember the Alliance Hospital if it led to a good memory, he was captured but then he was rescued. Even if he didn't show it at the time-it probably provoked a lot of relief"
"Then why doesn't he seem to know me?" Relena was in tears which was subconsciously making Heero upset- Heero didn't seem to realise that he looked like he was about to cry.
"Perhaps, Miss Relena, its because every time he's met you its been attached to negative emotions like fear, concern or other emotions that the 'normal' Heero would consider too weak to want to remember" Quatre gently spoke.
The long blond haired girl gently wiped her tears, not realising that Heero was mirroring her action.
Then the pilot in question then did something that was truly touching, "I'm sorry" he sniffed, "I didn't mean to forget- i can't even remember why i wanted to forget, i just know that i really wanted to."
"You wanted to forget, Heero?" Relena walked over to him and placed a soothing hand on his arm.
"Yeah" he admitted whilst looking at his cold feet on the floor, "where are my shoes?"
The pretty blond haired girl chuckled lightly at his question and led him back to his hospital bed but he refused to lay down on it for fear that he'd be trapped again.
The other people, Trowa and Duo as well- he smiled, pulled up some chairs so that they were in a circle and they started having a meeting.
Heero felt important that they were all talking about him but at one point he did have to say, "Hello...i'm still in the room!" in a sullen teenager manor.
After the thirty minute meeting, which by the end Heero was bored, they had made their plans and went to go talk to his doctor-lady, Sally.
Duo stayed with him to make sure that he didn't do a runner.
Getting bored with all the quietness, Heero realised vaguely that he had a really short attention span, "Duo?"
"Yeah?" Duo drew his seat up next to Heero's bed.
"Is my name really Heero?" he pondered.
There were so many long winded answers, most of which didn't come to a proper reply. If Heero didn't remember his actual name then Duo could only assume that it was attached to a really horrible memory.
"Yeah" he finally settled on the easiest answer but then wanted to know why he'd been asked it, "Why?"
Heero frowned and for a moment Duo thought that something was really wrong but then Heero looked up from an interesting spot on the floor, "Nah- i was just thinking. What a stupid name"
A laugh threatened to rip from Duos throat but he managed to hold it back and he started looking around in order to find something interesting to concentrate on.
They sat in an awkward silence for a few minutes further until Heero couldn't stand it yet again, "Hey Duo?"
"Yeah buddy?" the violet-eyed pilot looked up from twiddling his thumbs.
"Where's the bathroom?"
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"I can't" he gulp nervously, feeling rather queasy just looking at the lentil soup.
Relena had offered them her palace to stay in, since they all wanted to make sure that their fallen pilot would be all right.
Sally had given Heero's 'minders' some pills to settle Heero's stomach, a few pain killers and a dietary requirement schedule that on no circumstances could Heero deviate from at the further risk to his health.
The fact was that Heero was under weight and incredibly weak, his body's adrenaline and pure stubbornness had given up as soon as he'd collapsed in Relena's arms after 'destroying' Marimeia (who now lived with Lady Une).
His immune system simply wouldn't cope if Heero continued not to take care of himself.
From lack of food Heero's stomach had started to cramp and even try to digest its own stomach wall- it was painful, that was all Heero knew.
Apparently Heero's safety harness/belt inside of his destroyed Gundam had snapped back when he'd been fighting and this had wreaked and bruised his back and elbows, legs into an interesting blue, black and yellow mess.
A rib had also been broken and although he had made what Duo had termed as "a half-assed" attempt to bandage a nasty gash that had tore down the skin at his rib cage- the wound had been infected.
So the 'perfect soldier' was on antibiotics, painkillers and something to ease his stomach- a combination that was carefully regulated by a cool Trowa, caring Quatre and overly-cheerful Duo.
Relena supplied them with rooms, etc. and of course food, drink. etc. She would often try to help Heero but since leaving the hospital he had somehow become timid and even more scared.
They'd hoped that Heero would have been even more out going (if that was even possible) since leaving the hospital however it had had the opposite effect. Now that Heero had been realised from the threat of being locked up he'd become incredibly wary that something bad was going to happen.
The pilots had all agreed that this was caused by the fact that every time Heero had felt secure and safe in the past- usually something horrendous had come and taken it from him.
The teenager was now completely unused to and unable to feel safe.
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Author: not much too say today; sorry for any grammer problems, spelling problems - spellcheckers and grammar checkers aren't as good as beta-readers i guess
plz review
Author: I apologise for anything wrong with this chapter in advance, not really feeling too happy or motivated right now. Next chapter should be better though.
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Chapter 9: Insecure.
"To be honest" Duo was still unable to detach himself from Heero's hug, "I have no idea."
"Guess he's just really glad to see us?" came a naive response from Quatre.
Heero just squeezed his eyes shut, hugging Duo for all he was worth and whispering in a childlike glee, "You came to rescue me...again!!" (reference to Episode 3)
Finally the usually emotionless pilot let go but continued staring at Duo expectantly, "Can we go to your boat?"
Duo scratched the back of his head, trying to work out what on earth was happening and then he looked over to Trowa for the answer.
Since it seemed to be memory related then it seemed only logical to ask the only one of them who'd had experience with amnesia.
Waiting for everyone's attention, except Heeros, Trowa begin with his theory, "Probably selective amnesia" he concluded.
"What?" Relena enquired, "Does that mean?"
"It means that all the bad memories that Heero doesn't/didn't want after the Marimeia Incident are gone" Quatre suggested.
"Then why does he remember being captured in the Alliance Hospital? Mr I-know-everything-about-ammesia" Duo waved his arms in an exasperated manor.
Trowa sighed. This was going to be one of these days for stupid questions that sought actual replies-both of which Trowa hated.
"He'd remember the Alliance Hospital if it led to a good memory, he was captured but then he was rescued. Even if he didn't show it at the time-it probably provoked a lot of relief"
"Then why doesn't he seem to know me?" Relena was in tears which was subconsciously making Heero upset- Heero didn't seem to realise that he looked like he was about to cry.
"Perhaps, Miss Relena, its because every time he's met you its been attached to negative emotions like fear, concern or other emotions that the 'normal' Heero would consider too weak to want to remember" Quatre gently spoke.
The long blond haired girl gently wiped her tears, not realising that Heero was mirroring her action.
Then the pilot in question then did something that was truly touching, "I'm sorry" he sniffed, "I didn't mean to forget- i can't even remember why i wanted to forget, i just know that i really wanted to."
"You wanted to forget, Heero?" Relena walked over to him and placed a soothing hand on his arm.
"Yeah" he admitted whilst looking at his cold feet on the floor, "where are my shoes?"
The pretty blond haired girl chuckled lightly at his question and led him back to his hospital bed but he refused to lay down on it for fear that he'd be trapped again.
The other people, Trowa and Duo as well- he smiled, pulled up some chairs so that they were in a circle and they started having a meeting.
Heero felt important that they were all talking about him but at one point he did have to say, "Hello...i'm still in the room!" in a sullen teenager manor.
After the thirty minute meeting, which by the end Heero was bored, they had made their plans and went to go talk to his doctor-lady, Sally.
Duo stayed with him to make sure that he didn't do a runner.
Getting bored with all the quietness, Heero realised vaguely that he had a really short attention span, "Duo?"
"Yeah?" Duo drew his seat up next to Heero's bed.
"Is my name really Heero?" he pondered.
There were so many long winded answers, most of which didn't come to a proper reply. If Heero didn't remember his actual name then Duo could only assume that it was attached to a really horrible memory.
"Yeah" he finally settled on the easiest answer but then wanted to know why he'd been asked it, "Why?"
Heero frowned and for a moment Duo thought that something was really wrong but then Heero looked up from an interesting spot on the floor, "Nah- i was just thinking. What a stupid name"
A laugh threatened to rip from Duos throat but he managed to hold it back and he started looking around in order to find something interesting to concentrate on.
They sat in an awkward silence for a few minutes further until Heero couldn't stand it yet again, "Hey Duo?"
"Yeah buddy?" the violet-eyed pilot looked up from twiddling his thumbs.
"Where's the bathroom?"
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"I can't" he gulp nervously, feeling rather queasy just looking at the lentil soup.
Relena had offered them her palace to stay in, since they all wanted to make sure that their fallen pilot would be all right.
Sally had given Heero's 'minders' some pills to settle Heero's stomach, a few pain killers and a dietary requirement schedule that on no circumstances could Heero deviate from at the further risk to his health.
The fact was that Heero was under weight and incredibly weak, his body's adrenaline and pure stubbornness had given up as soon as he'd collapsed in Relena's arms after 'destroying' Marimeia (who now lived with Lady Une).
His immune system simply wouldn't cope if Heero continued not to take care of himself.
From lack of food Heero's stomach had started to cramp and even try to digest its own stomach wall- it was painful, that was all Heero knew.
Apparently Heero's safety harness/belt inside of his destroyed Gundam had snapped back when he'd been fighting and this had wreaked and bruised his back and elbows, legs into an interesting blue, black and yellow mess.
A rib had also been broken and although he had made what Duo had termed as "a half-assed" attempt to bandage a nasty gash that had tore down the skin at his rib cage- the wound had been infected.
So the 'perfect soldier' was on antibiotics, painkillers and something to ease his stomach- a combination that was carefully regulated by a cool Trowa, caring Quatre and overly-cheerful Duo.
Relena supplied them with rooms, etc. and of course food, drink. etc. She would often try to help Heero but since leaving the hospital he had somehow become timid and even more scared.
They'd hoped that Heero would have been even more out going (if that was even possible) since leaving the hospital however it had had the opposite effect. Now that Heero had been realised from the threat of being locked up he'd become incredibly wary that something bad was going to happen.
The pilots had all agreed that this was caused by the fact that every time Heero had felt secure and safe in the past- usually something horrendous had come and taken it from him.
The teenager was now completely unused to and unable to feel safe.
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Author: not much too say today; sorry for any grammer problems, spelling problems - spellcheckers and grammar checkers aren't as good as beta-readers i guess
plz review