Disclaimer: I do not own Gundam Wing
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Chapter 10: Nightmares
"Come on Heero", Duo sighed and scrubbed his face- he really needed to start getting more sleep, "If you don't eat then we'll have to go back to the hospital" Duo threatened quietly to Heero as though it was a secret.
His friend looked down at the bowl of soup and with a shaky hand he went to lift up the spoon that was placed at the side of the bowl.
Trowa casually watched from a distance, washing the dishes and occasionally looking out the window. 'What a miserable day" he remarked mentally to himself and then he diverted his attention back to the stubborn Heero.
It was raining, the wind blowing mercilessly outside.
Heero swallowed his first spoonful, grudgingly, but the threat from Duo seemed real enough and he'd do anything 'they' said to avoid that evil sterile building that haunted his dreams, although it was just one of nightmare of many.
Instantly he felt his stomach -rebelling and churning, his head spiking in pain at the memory of his nightmares.
He shot up, hitting his knees off the table, the spoon clattered into the bowl; spattering the soup onto the table and he sprinted for the bathroom.
Heero bolted inside the room and locked it behind him, but he never reached the toilet in time.
"This is hopeless" Duo thumped the table with his fist, growling under his breath.
"Don't say that!" Quatre quietly walked into the kitchen and could only assume that Duo's frustration was connected to 'the Heero situation'.
"Aw, come on! He won't even ask for help - he's just following orders like he was trained to do except this time its our orders and not some crazed scientists! He doesn't even tell us if he's in pain until we threaten him; interrogate him for answers! He's just like the old Heero except he can't hide his problems as well!"
"He is trying to hide his problems" Trowa agreed, "and in that way he is just like the old Heero but then again the old Heero never responded to threats".
Duo looked straight at Trowa, "What's your point?!"
"My point" Trowa turned back to his dishes, "is that there's no point in comparing the old with the new".
Duo yelled in desperation, a need for answers present in his voice, "How can we even say that 'we're taking care of him' when he's too scared to even except our help?"
Relena was drying the dishes that Trowa was passing her, she'd given her staff a vacation and she didn't mind helping in doing some chores.
"Duo" her soft voice filled the air, "We just need to be patient. Once he works out that we're his friends and not his enemies- he'll start to open up," she sounded confident.
"He just needs to feel safe Duo" Trowa added, "Even the old Heero would have a problem with that".
"Thought we shouldn't compare the old and the new" Duo quipped and the atmosphere became less tense.
"I was just trying to make it easy for you to understand" Trowa said what suspiciously sounded like a joke.
Duo looked at him, closely scrutinising Trowa's face for any hint of humour.
Giving up after a few moments he sighed, "True, I'm done venting- I'd better go check on him since I'm the only one he seems to vaguely trust", he paused, "funny how things have turned out".
He walked along the corridor, braid swinging behind him; he knocked the bathroom door, "Hey Heero, buddy- you ok?"
All he got was the quiet lie of "Yeah" in between Heero throwing up what little he had in his stomach, the door vibrated slightly as Heero was leaning on it from the inside and shaking.
"I'm not sure what's worse, the lies or the mistrust!" Duo hammered the door causing Heero to feel sick again.
'I'm freezing' Heero thought to himself.
He was wearing a baggy white t-shirt and black jeans.
Duo was still hammering the door with his fist.
' That guy just doesn't give up!' Heero mentally groaned, ' can't he tell that I've locked the door for a reason? I'm being such an inconvenience; I can tell every time Duo gives out a frustrated sigh, when that girl gives me a look of pity, the other two guys are constantly talking about me when they think I'm not around. These people are meant to be looking after me but those threats- I can't go back to that place! I just cant!' he felt a warm tear slide down his cheek, 'I'm scared. Why don't I want to remember?"
He wrapped his arms around his legs and leaned his head on his knees.
"Go away" he whimpered to Duo, his memories and the world.
"Not likely buddy!" was the flippant reply that he got.
Duo pulled out a screwdriver from his back trouser pocket and started to un-screw the bolts from the door hinges. He had thought about breaking down the door but he couldn't risk it flattening Heero, at least this way he could pull the door outwards towards himself.
Trowa, Quatre and Relena were in the kitchen, "Do you think his memory will come back?" Relena had finished drying the last of the dishes.
"It's only been two days, one at the hospital, one here," Quatre reminded her.
"Its too early to tell" Trowa supported Quatre's way of thinking about the current situation.
They could no longer hear Duo hammering down the bathroom door.
"Should we go make sure he's not wiring explosives to the door?" Relena chewed her lip thoughtfully.
"Probably" and Trowa turned to leave the room.
Quatre groaned, "We should probably give him some of the meds" and he tossed Trowa a bottle, which Trowa caught with ease and left the room without waiting for Relena and Quatre.
Just as Duo had finally unscrewed the last hinge, Heero opened the door and had to dodge it as it collapsed inwards, ignoring Duo's plan.
"Hi" Heero sniffed but was looking down at the fallen door.
"Uh hi" Duo awkwardly tried hiding the screwdriver much to Heero's amusement.
The perfect soldier couldn't hide a small giggle despite the fact that he was feeling like crap, "Not very patient are we?" it almost sounded like the beginnings of a typical Heero Yuy lecture but it ended in a swift way that quickly squashed any hopes that Heero was starting to remember himself with a "Don't worry- I'm not that patient either"
"Yeah" Duo half-heartedly smiled.
He noticed that Heero was swaying on his feet and moved to grab him before he impacted with the floor.
"Come on, back to bed" Duo kindly returned Heero's own weak smile.
"Not back to the hospital?" Heero muttered, a touch bitter.
"No, of course not- and you shouldn't take all my threats so seriously" Duo supported Heero by wrapping an arm around his waist and slinging one of Heero's arms over his shoulder, "You know maybe it's a bad habit that I got from you".
They made their way along the corridor to Heero's room. The room was actually one floor up so they were heading to the lifts.
"What bad habit?" Duo had obviously peaked Heero's interest.
"Well…." Duo deliberately made a pause, "You used to only threaten to kill people that you liked"
"What?" the injured teen seemed genuinely shocked, "Really?" he asked in a timid voice.
"I hope so since you've threatened me, Relena, Wufie and Quatre so far"
They reached the lift and got in, Duo pressing the correct button.
Heero couldn't concentrate very well and he was becoming sleepy. He was going to apologise for threatening everyone but instead, "Who's Wufie?"
"Just another Gundam Pilot" came the answer after much deliberation on Duos part; the lift came to a stop.
"What's a Gundam?" Heero yawned and didn't appear to even recognise the word.
They got to Heero's room, Duo letting Heero slip from his grip and into his warm snug looking bed.
Relena came into the room to drop off some clothes for tomorrow when she saw the two.
"I'll tell you in the morning" Duo's voice was but a whisper but it was obvious that he was regretting the lie- he would not be the one to reveal that part of Heero's painful past but he was saved when Heero mumbled before succumbing to sleep, "Nah…don't bother".
She casually took her cue and entered the room as Duo made to leave, she went up to Heero and lovingly tucked him in, pushing some hairs from his face and kissing him on the forehead with an angelic, "Sweet dreams".
Trowa was waiting for Duo outside of the room.
"We cant just put him to sleep every time he gets upset, we're going to have to deal with whatever's harassing Heero's thoughts" Trowa lectured.
"I know" Duo grudgingly admitted.
Quatre joined them, "I've made the call that Relena wanted me to make. I wonder how Heero will take it".
"Who'd you call?" questioned the tired braided one.
"I hope Heero will be ok about this" was the only response Trowa gave.
"Wufie, Noin and Sally are also coming" Quatre informed Trowa, "I hope Heero will begin to remember more people than Duo, no offence" he spoke to the yawning Duo.
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When Heero woke up, he found himself face to face with one of the people that he was terrified of. The one person that he'd thought he'd never see in the real world.
His head spiked in pain as the nightmare fresh from his mind made the connection to whom was standing in front of him.
Did this mean that his nightmares were actually his memories?
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Author: I'm really not sure about this chapter.
Death threats (in reference to the people Heero actually vaguely likes/ or at least respects-
Relena: All the way through the series
Quatre: When Quatre went crazy in the Wing Zero, the first time. (During the series)
Wufie: Endless Waltz with the whole, "Press the self-detonate button"
Duo: Comon! He walked into Duo's cell and aimed a gun at him! (During the series)
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Chapter 10: Nightmares
"Come on Heero", Duo sighed and scrubbed his face- he really needed to start getting more sleep, "If you don't eat then we'll have to go back to the hospital" Duo threatened quietly to Heero as though it was a secret.
His friend looked down at the bowl of soup and with a shaky hand he went to lift up the spoon that was placed at the side of the bowl.
Trowa casually watched from a distance, washing the dishes and occasionally looking out the window. 'What a miserable day" he remarked mentally to himself and then he diverted his attention back to the stubborn Heero.
It was raining, the wind blowing mercilessly outside.
Heero swallowed his first spoonful, grudgingly, but the threat from Duo seemed real enough and he'd do anything 'they' said to avoid that evil sterile building that haunted his dreams, although it was just one of nightmare of many.
Instantly he felt his stomach -rebelling and churning, his head spiking in pain at the memory of his nightmares.
He shot up, hitting his knees off the table, the spoon clattered into the bowl; spattering the soup onto the table and he sprinted for the bathroom.
Heero bolted inside the room and locked it behind him, but he never reached the toilet in time.
"This is hopeless" Duo thumped the table with his fist, growling under his breath.
"Don't say that!" Quatre quietly walked into the kitchen and could only assume that Duo's frustration was connected to 'the Heero situation'.
"Aw, come on! He won't even ask for help - he's just following orders like he was trained to do except this time its our orders and not some crazed scientists! He doesn't even tell us if he's in pain until we threaten him; interrogate him for answers! He's just like the old Heero except he can't hide his problems as well!"
"He is trying to hide his problems" Trowa agreed, "and in that way he is just like the old Heero but then again the old Heero never responded to threats".
Duo looked straight at Trowa, "What's your point?!"
"My point" Trowa turned back to his dishes, "is that there's no point in comparing the old with the new".
Duo yelled in desperation, a need for answers present in his voice, "How can we even say that 'we're taking care of him' when he's too scared to even except our help?"
Relena was drying the dishes that Trowa was passing her, she'd given her staff a vacation and she didn't mind helping in doing some chores.
"Duo" her soft voice filled the air, "We just need to be patient. Once he works out that we're his friends and not his enemies- he'll start to open up," she sounded confident.
"He just needs to feel safe Duo" Trowa added, "Even the old Heero would have a problem with that".
"Thought we shouldn't compare the old and the new" Duo quipped and the atmosphere became less tense.
"I was just trying to make it easy for you to understand" Trowa said what suspiciously sounded like a joke.
Duo looked at him, closely scrutinising Trowa's face for any hint of humour.
Giving up after a few moments he sighed, "True, I'm done venting- I'd better go check on him since I'm the only one he seems to vaguely trust", he paused, "funny how things have turned out".
He walked along the corridor, braid swinging behind him; he knocked the bathroom door, "Hey Heero, buddy- you ok?"
All he got was the quiet lie of "Yeah" in between Heero throwing up what little he had in his stomach, the door vibrated slightly as Heero was leaning on it from the inside and shaking.
"I'm not sure what's worse, the lies or the mistrust!" Duo hammered the door causing Heero to feel sick again.
'I'm freezing' Heero thought to himself.
He was wearing a baggy white t-shirt and black jeans.
Duo was still hammering the door with his fist.
' That guy just doesn't give up!' Heero mentally groaned, ' can't he tell that I've locked the door for a reason? I'm being such an inconvenience; I can tell every time Duo gives out a frustrated sigh, when that girl gives me a look of pity, the other two guys are constantly talking about me when they think I'm not around. These people are meant to be looking after me but those threats- I can't go back to that place! I just cant!' he felt a warm tear slide down his cheek, 'I'm scared. Why don't I want to remember?"
He wrapped his arms around his legs and leaned his head on his knees.
"Go away" he whimpered to Duo, his memories and the world.
"Not likely buddy!" was the flippant reply that he got.
Duo pulled out a screwdriver from his back trouser pocket and started to un-screw the bolts from the door hinges. He had thought about breaking down the door but he couldn't risk it flattening Heero, at least this way he could pull the door outwards towards himself.
Trowa, Quatre and Relena were in the kitchen, "Do you think his memory will come back?" Relena had finished drying the last of the dishes.
"It's only been two days, one at the hospital, one here," Quatre reminded her.
"Its too early to tell" Trowa supported Quatre's way of thinking about the current situation.
They could no longer hear Duo hammering down the bathroom door.
"Should we go make sure he's not wiring explosives to the door?" Relena chewed her lip thoughtfully.
"Probably" and Trowa turned to leave the room.
Quatre groaned, "We should probably give him some of the meds" and he tossed Trowa a bottle, which Trowa caught with ease and left the room without waiting for Relena and Quatre.
Just as Duo had finally unscrewed the last hinge, Heero opened the door and had to dodge it as it collapsed inwards, ignoring Duo's plan.
"Hi" Heero sniffed but was looking down at the fallen door.
"Uh hi" Duo awkwardly tried hiding the screwdriver much to Heero's amusement.
The perfect soldier couldn't hide a small giggle despite the fact that he was feeling like crap, "Not very patient are we?" it almost sounded like the beginnings of a typical Heero Yuy lecture but it ended in a swift way that quickly squashed any hopes that Heero was starting to remember himself with a "Don't worry- I'm not that patient either"
"Yeah" Duo half-heartedly smiled.
He noticed that Heero was swaying on his feet and moved to grab him before he impacted with the floor.
"Come on, back to bed" Duo kindly returned Heero's own weak smile.
"Not back to the hospital?" Heero muttered, a touch bitter.
"No, of course not- and you shouldn't take all my threats so seriously" Duo supported Heero by wrapping an arm around his waist and slinging one of Heero's arms over his shoulder, "You know maybe it's a bad habit that I got from you".
They made their way along the corridor to Heero's room. The room was actually one floor up so they were heading to the lifts.
"What bad habit?" Duo had obviously peaked Heero's interest.
"Well…." Duo deliberately made a pause, "You used to only threaten to kill people that you liked"
"What?" the injured teen seemed genuinely shocked, "Really?" he asked in a timid voice.
"I hope so since you've threatened me, Relena, Wufie and Quatre so far"
They reached the lift and got in, Duo pressing the correct button.
Heero couldn't concentrate very well and he was becoming sleepy. He was going to apologise for threatening everyone but instead, "Who's Wufie?"
"Just another Gundam Pilot" came the answer after much deliberation on Duos part; the lift came to a stop.
"What's a Gundam?" Heero yawned and didn't appear to even recognise the word.
They got to Heero's room, Duo letting Heero slip from his grip and into his warm snug looking bed.
Relena came into the room to drop off some clothes for tomorrow when she saw the two.
"I'll tell you in the morning" Duo's voice was but a whisper but it was obvious that he was regretting the lie- he would not be the one to reveal that part of Heero's painful past but he was saved when Heero mumbled before succumbing to sleep, "Nah…don't bother".
She casually took her cue and entered the room as Duo made to leave, she went up to Heero and lovingly tucked him in, pushing some hairs from his face and kissing him on the forehead with an angelic, "Sweet dreams".
Trowa was waiting for Duo outside of the room.
"We cant just put him to sleep every time he gets upset, we're going to have to deal with whatever's harassing Heero's thoughts" Trowa lectured.
"I know" Duo grudgingly admitted.
Quatre joined them, "I've made the call that Relena wanted me to make. I wonder how Heero will take it".
"Who'd you call?" questioned the tired braided one.
"I hope Heero will be ok about this" was the only response Trowa gave.
"Wufie, Noin and Sally are also coming" Quatre informed Trowa, "I hope Heero will begin to remember more people than Duo, no offence" he spoke to the yawning Duo.
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When Heero woke up, he found himself face to face with one of the people that he was terrified of. The one person that he'd thought he'd never see in the real world.
His head spiked in pain as the nightmare fresh from his mind made the connection to whom was standing in front of him.
Did this mean that his nightmares were actually his memories?
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Author: I'm really not sure about this chapter.
Death threats (in reference to the people Heero actually vaguely likes/ or at least respects-
Relena: All the way through the series
Quatre: When Quatre went crazy in the Wing Zero, the first time. (During the series)
Wufie: Endless Waltz with the whole, "Press the self-detonate button"
Duo: Comon! He walked into Duo's cell and aimed a gun at him! (During the series)