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Author's Notes: This story takes place before LOTR. Thanks to Phantom for being my beta reader. My first real attempt at dark fiction, so please tell me what you think! Nicely. ^_^
One Love for Another
Down in the dark
where many things sleep
Is one who is lost, buried and deep
His soul cries out to those wandering above
As in pain, he remembers one lost
love…
~
He shook his head. "Long time." he
thought. "So long… so long."
Sitting alone he drew circles on the
stone. He was alone now, cold, forgotten. He had left everything he had ever
loved. Everything he had ever desired. Time meant nothing, all he could think
of were times far back, times when he had been loved and cared for. He had not
always been alone, forced to hide from the sun.
Regrets. He had so many… He spent his
days wondering what might have happened… had IT never come. Once that wretched,
twisted being came everything had changed. He could never be the same again. It
had promised much more then he could have ever wanted. If only he had known the
price...
Pacing, he looked about the dark
cavern walls. Why had he done it? He didn't have to, and he didn't want to. He
fell down in a miserable heap and cried, his wails filling the darkness around
him. He was wretched. He hated himself. Through the tears he turned his
head to a small pale light.
"I'm lost!" He cried desperately. His
voice echoed and came back at him.
"Lost!" He said again, more pitifully
then before.
Nothing. Just his echo. As he lay
curled in a small heap, memories rushed back to him…
He imagined he was in the sunlight
again, outside of his little hole. The creek was bubbling and his Grandmother
was sitting on the porch, weaving baskets. Smiling, he went up and kissed her
on the forehead.
"I won't be long." He murmured through
his tears. So many times had he said this to himself… I won't be long.
He saw it all. His village and the
people bustling about… He knew where he going.
He made his way to a little bank and
sat down. The water was clear. Perfect for a good day of swimming.
"Or fishing…" He sobbed.
He stepped into the shallow water and
started to dig about. He loved digging, looking. He was fondling shells when he
heard a voice cal his name. It was his good friend, out fishing for the day.
The visions vanished. Silence came
over the cave. The miserable figure cried softly. He could not stop the
memories. They came like the wind in a storm, biting, slicing, painful.
His friend hailed him into the boat.
Eagerly he climbed in. He could still feel the rock and sway of the tiny
vessel.
He clutched at the stone beneath him
to hold his balance.
They fished for a time when his friend
saw something. Diving, he came back with a fist full of mud.
"Don't show us!" He yelled at his
memory.
He saw it all unfold in his mind. His
friend slowly unfolding his hand to show him the most beautiful sight he'd ever
seen.
Gold. That cursed, beautiful, twisted,
precious gold.
He pounded the stone under him, cursing
his friend for being so stupid. Couldn't he hear it calling?
It called his name… He heard it, why
couldn't his friend?
"I asked him." He told himself.
"He said no, didn't he?" He snapped
back.
Miserable, he watched what happened
next. In his mind it was all over quick. No more friend, no more life. Just
Precious, one love for another. One friend for a master.
He turned and screamed at the cave
around him.
"Lost!"
He heard laughter. Turning he saw his
Friend sitting on the bank, fishing pole in hand. He stumbled back.
"Deagol?" He asked.
His friend continued to laugh as
though he did not see the pain his friend was going through.
"Hello Smeagol. Lovely day for a
swim." He said. "Or fishing."
"Yes… Deagol. I have something…
yours." He croaked.
Deagol cocked his head and continued
to laugh.
"Me? Nonsense!" He answered.
Smeagol was desperate.
"Please! It's yours!" He called.
Deagol laughed.
Smeagol fumbled in a small bag and
pulled It out. His precious, his one love.
"Deagol! This is yours!" He called
again at the figure on the bank.
The figure shook its' head "No, your
birthday! Remember?"
Smeagol clutched at his head in pain.
Everything seemed to spin. "No Deagol… not my birthday! This is yours!"
Deagol laughed harder.
"Please!" He begged.
Deagol continued to
laugh and fish. With a cry of agony Smeagol threw his precious at the phantom.
It hit Deagol and he vanished.
There was a splash. Smeagol fell away
and Gollum screamed and flung himself into the water after his Love.
Crawling back to his rock, wet, he
cradled it in his palm, stroking it both with love and hate. That small gold
band. That bit of gold that was everything to him. He turned away from the
light…
"Lost… so lost… but not alone…"
~
Smeagol is gone, but Gollum remains…
Bound by the guilt, in its' terrible
chains
Deagol is lost, Precious has all
And one that was pure has answered its'
call…
~ The End ~
