Let's assume that Charmed and Dangerou never happened... I know I haven't
finished a LOT of fics yet, but I just had to post this one. I swear! I
will get them done soon- School is almost over for me. And oh yeah, the
song is "This Is Love" by PJ Harvey... I suggest you check it out. Oh,
and.. I know that where they are in their family gives a lot of their
character to them, and sometimes you'll see that, but otherwise.. they're
pretty much the same. K?
Then And Again
I can't believe love's so complex
When I just wanna sit here
and watch you undress
I can't believe love's so complex
when I just wanna sit here
and watch you undress
This is love
This is love..
That I'm feeling...
The words blasted out of the speakers in the car. Phoebe bobbed in place in tune to the beat, and Cole watched his girlfriend. She seemed so happy, and he enjoyed seeing her that way. She seemed so carefree and... God, she always looked great, but when she was laughing, she looked a hundred times better. If that was even possible.
She joined in the singing when the chorus rolled around again, and this time Cole laughed.
"You are insane, woman.", he said loudly.
"I'm not the one dating me..", she countered.
"Are you implying that I am the insane one?"
Phoebe nodded eagerly as she continued singing. Cole just shook his head as he watched her.
Cole observed the woman driving. She was wearing a black T-shirt that said "Good girls are bad girls that don't get caught". Her hair was falling gently onto her shoulders in waves tonight. It looked beautiful around her glowing skin. Simple jeans covered her legs, hugging her body tight. Just like any other night of her life, Phoebe Halliwell truly was a sight to behold.
She felt his eyes on her, watching her every move. She stopped singing long enough to ask, "What?"
"You just look so great... You look happy."
"Well, I am."
"Good."
She looked to her right to stare at him for a few seconds, her eyes sparkling. Stupid idea. A bright flash told her that someone was heading their way, straight at them. She tried to swerve, and when that didn't work, she hit the brakes. The other car came crashing into the couple, breaking the car. Phoebe's vision suddenly turned black, and her last thought was how much she was going to miss her sisters. She knew. And so did Cole.
They would be killed because of this accident.
~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~
Twenty-Four Years Later
~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~
She stood in front of an audience, singing into a microphone. It was an old song, "You Don't See Me" from a soundtrack to an old movie. She didn't even know what she was doing up there. This wasn't her. The only thing that seemed even remotely like her was what she was wearing. She didn't usually have any problems with backing out of dares, and even though her voice was angelic, she never sang in public.
The slow song came to an end, allowing her to leave the stage. The people in the bar, who were obviously drunk, started clapping wildly. The crowd cheered and called out for more, but she was ready to stop three minutes ago. There was no way she was going out there for more.
"Phoebe!", a woman called from behind her. "You were excellent!" She hugged her friend tight.
"Thanks, Lex.. But you lie!"
"I do not! Can't you hear all those people crying for more? They're waiting for you! They're in love with your voice!"
"They're in love with being drunk..", Phoebe argued.
"Oh, that's beside the point..", her friend offered. "You have a great voice. You could be big. Why don't you want to just try it?"
Phoebe stared hard at her friend. She pushed back her wavy, died- blonde hair back behind her ear, and then continued. "Lex..", she sighed. "I'm tired. I'm going to call it a night and go home."
"Of course you are.. It's what Phoebe Halliwell does best..", Lex said with an attitude. Sometimes her friend was so stubborn.
"Hey! I already know what it's like to be on the stage and live with nothing but a car and a suitcase full of your most prized possesions. I know what it's like to have everyone want you. And I don't want that kind of life. If you can't accept that, then oh well! It's not your place to make that decision for me.. Now I am going to go home and get some sleep! I'll see you at work tomorrow."
Phoebe turned around and headed into the crowd of people to find the exit. Lex stared at where her friend once stood. She had never acted that way before.
Phoebe left the club, digging in her purse for her car keys. She walked absentmindedly towards her car, not paying any attention to what she was doing. She didn't have to. She had been to this place plenty of times before to know where she was going. Hell, she practically lived there even though she didn't drink. It just felt natural to her.
She finally reached her car and allowed herself to sink into the drivers seat. She paused before taking the keys and shoving them into the ignition. She took a moment to reflect, to think of what she had just done. A lot of it had just come naturally for her, she didn't have to think to do any of it. Like.. She had already lived it before or something.
She looked in a different direction, changing her thoughts.
That's crazy, she told herself. I know I haven't lived it before... I would have said something about it! I know I would have!
She pushed the keys into the car and started it up. Before pulling out of the parking lot, she changed the radio to a station with music she liked. Then just as quickly as she had walked to the car, she drove off, onto the street.
~*~*~*~
Phoebe lay awake later that night, thinking of what she had said to her best friend. All of it was true. About living out of a back pack with only a few intimate possesions with her. Before she had moved in with her cousin, she had taken a road trip across the country. She had been looking to find the perfect place for her, where she could create the perfect life. Phoebe never found it. She only found that life was easier living with her cousin when she offered. And out of respect for her, and needing a way out of her car, she accepted.
All of a sudden, her light was turned on. She sat up instantly in her bed, her covers falling from her chest, to see who had done it. Why she wondered, she would never know. Only two people lived there, and there were only two people who would come in without knocking or being let in, because they each had their own key (not that one needed it), and she would have heard any intruders breaking in. She was never in any real danger in that apartment.
"Piper!", she nearly screamed. "What the hell are you doing?"
"Um... I was just.. thinking that... Do you think that Paige could move in with us?", she said suddenly.
"Paige?!", she uttered.
When her older sister Prue died, Phoebe and Piper had soon found that there was family they didn't know about. Piper's half-cousin, and Phoebe's half-sister Paige. Of course, non of this would happen in a normal family. But then again, they weren't normal. Were they?
"You want Paige to move in here?", the older girl asked.
"Well.. She is family and now that Prue is gone... I miss her just as much as you, you know that. But sometimes I feel it would be right to have her here with us."
Phoebe shook her head violently. "No! Are you crazy?! What does Leo have to say about this?"
"He said that in our past lives... She was there. I mean... She was younger then me and you, of course. But she was there. When Prue died in her past life, Paige came in and became the Power of Three with us.", Piper said. "Age is very confusing when you talk about this life with the last one..."
Piper was right. In the past life, it had been that Prue, Piper, and Phoebe where the original sisters. Prue was the oldest, then Piper, and finally Phoebe. Prue died, and in-stepped their half-sister Paige, the youngest of the three. And somehow, they were all sisters. In this life, Prue had been the oldest, and now Phoebe was. They were sisters. After the death, Piper and Phoebe found Phoebe's half-sister Paige. And then came Piper. She was the only cousin now. Once again, age was a very confusing thing when you talked about the two different lifetimes.
"Leo thinks it's a good idea?", Phoebe asked.
"Leo thinks that it would help to restore our bond. He thinks that we should get close in this lifetime, just like the last one."
Phoebe sighed. Everything they did was about getting back to their last lifetime. She constantly wondered why that was.
"Because you hadn't finished living your life as sisters last time.", Leo had said when Pheobe asked. "You weren't ready to be seperated."
"Who cares about seperation? Prue just left us! Why should we have to do this right now?"
"The Elders think you're ready..."
Phoebe snapped back to the present time. "Sure. Why not? I mean.. We can't loose anything, can we? We only have a bond to re-gain...", she answered sarcasticaly.
"So is that a yes?"
"Yeah..."
Piper smiled at her older cousin. She crossed the room and sat on the bed. "A little tired?"
"I'm just.. not sure that coming back was right for me. I never finished college and with Prue gone.. I'm not sure that I can handle all of this. I mean.. I know that I have you, and Paige of course, but... It just doesn't feel like enough."
Piper brushed a strand of Phoebe's hair behind her ear. "Maybe you just need to do something more with your time. I mean, besides work. Jazzums is doing good enough that you could back to college if you want. You know.. Just take a few courses. You can still work if that's what you want, but... I've got enough money from managing Jazzums that you can quit if you truly wanted to."
Phoebe kissed Piper's cheek. "I'm tired. I'm going to try and get some sleep."
"Um.. Leo and I are going to leave for the night."
"Leave? Where are you going?", Phoebe asked cautiously. "Will you be within calling range?"
"Yeah. Leo is going to bring us to this lovely place in Paris that a friend from our past life told us about."
"A friend?", she asked curiously. "The same guy as all the other times?"
"That's the one.."
"Any idea who he might be?"
"Nope. Leo still won't tell me. He said it would interfere with our destinies. And we wouldn't want to do that, now would we."
"Alright.. Well, while you're gone for the night, I think that I will take full advantage of that and do some Phoebe stuff."
"Phoebe stuff... What is Phoebe stuff?"
"Stuff I do when you're not around."
"Oh..", Piper said, acting like she knew exactly what her cousin meant. "Well... Have fun."
"Don't worry.. I will!", Phoebe called out with fake enthusiasm as Piper left. "You have fun, too!"
As soon as her friend of a cousin was gone, Phoebe fell backwords into her bed again. She was going to sleep.
~*~*~*~
A man was on top of her, kissing her neck. She felt his warm hands circle her bare breasts. His lips left her neck and headed towards her mouth. Once it did, his mouth captured hers, and she let his tounge enter. They met in an intamite love play that pleased her and made her hot. She whimpered into his passion, and suddenly felt as if she had known this person her entire life. Even when she didn't know his name.
He seperated himself for her, moaning her name.
"Phoebe.. Oh god, Phoebe."
She wasn't sure what she was doing, or how she knew, but she whispered his name back.
"Cole..."
She felt his moist, hot lips meet hers again. She felt so happy in the moment that she spent in his arms, and now it was over.
As soon as she had met him in another kiss, she sat up. She placed her hand on her chest, as if it could slow down her breathing. It was only a dream.
But it felt so real..., she thought.
She looked back on her dream, happy to just think about it. It was strange, though. How she couldn't remember certain things that happened just a few minutes ago.
Things like his name. Things like how he looked.
All she knew, was that he made her happy. He made her feel safe. And what she wanted, was to see him again.
Then And Again
I can't believe love's so complex
When I just wanna sit here
and watch you undress
I can't believe love's so complex
when I just wanna sit here
and watch you undress
This is love
This is love..
That I'm feeling...
The words blasted out of the speakers in the car. Phoebe bobbed in place in tune to the beat, and Cole watched his girlfriend. She seemed so happy, and he enjoyed seeing her that way. She seemed so carefree and... God, she always looked great, but when she was laughing, she looked a hundred times better. If that was even possible.
She joined in the singing when the chorus rolled around again, and this time Cole laughed.
"You are insane, woman.", he said loudly.
"I'm not the one dating me..", she countered.
"Are you implying that I am the insane one?"
Phoebe nodded eagerly as she continued singing. Cole just shook his head as he watched her.
Cole observed the woman driving. She was wearing a black T-shirt that said "Good girls are bad girls that don't get caught". Her hair was falling gently onto her shoulders in waves tonight. It looked beautiful around her glowing skin. Simple jeans covered her legs, hugging her body tight. Just like any other night of her life, Phoebe Halliwell truly was a sight to behold.
She felt his eyes on her, watching her every move. She stopped singing long enough to ask, "What?"
"You just look so great... You look happy."
"Well, I am."
"Good."
She looked to her right to stare at him for a few seconds, her eyes sparkling. Stupid idea. A bright flash told her that someone was heading their way, straight at them. She tried to swerve, and when that didn't work, she hit the brakes. The other car came crashing into the couple, breaking the car. Phoebe's vision suddenly turned black, and her last thought was how much she was going to miss her sisters. She knew. And so did Cole.
They would be killed because of this accident.
~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~
Twenty-Four Years Later
~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~
She stood in front of an audience, singing into a microphone. It was an old song, "You Don't See Me" from a soundtrack to an old movie. She didn't even know what she was doing up there. This wasn't her. The only thing that seemed even remotely like her was what she was wearing. She didn't usually have any problems with backing out of dares, and even though her voice was angelic, she never sang in public.
The slow song came to an end, allowing her to leave the stage. The people in the bar, who were obviously drunk, started clapping wildly. The crowd cheered and called out for more, but she was ready to stop three minutes ago. There was no way she was going out there for more.
"Phoebe!", a woman called from behind her. "You were excellent!" She hugged her friend tight.
"Thanks, Lex.. But you lie!"
"I do not! Can't you hear all those people crying for more? They're waiting for you! They're in love with your voice!"
"They're in love with being drunk..", Phoebe argued.
"Oh, that's beside the point..", her friend offered. "You have a great voice. You could be big. Why don't you want to just try it?"
Phoebe stared hard at her friend. She pushed back her wavy, died- blonde hair back behind her ear, and then continued. "Lex..", she sighed. "I'm tired. I'm going to call it a night and go home."
"Of course you are.. It's what Phoebe Halliwell does best..", Lex said with an attitude. Sometimes her friend was so stubborn.
"Hey! I already know what it's like to be on the stage and live with nothing but a car and a suitcase full of your most prized possesions. I know what it's like to have everyone want you. And I don't want that kind of life. If you can't accept that, then oh well! It's not your place to make that decision for me.. Now I am going to go home and get some sleep! I'll see you at work tomorrow."
Phoebe turned around and headed into the crowd of people to find the exit. Lex stared at where her friend once stood. She had never acted that way before.
Phoebe left the club, digging in her purse for her car keys. She walked absentmindedly towards her car, not paying any attention to what she was doing. She didn't have to. She had been to this place plenty of times before to know where she was going. Hell, she practically lived there even though she didn't drink. It just felt natural to her.
She finally reached her car and allowed herself to sink into the drivers seat. She paused before taking the keys and shoving them into the ignition. She took a moment to reflect, to think of what she had just done. A lot of it had just come naturally for her, she didn't have to think to do any of it. Like.. She had already lived it before or something.
She looked in a different direction, changing her thoughts.
That's crazy, she told herself. I know I haven't lived it before... I would have said something about it! I know I would have!
She pushed the keys into the car and started it up. Before pulling out of the parking lot, she changed the radio to a station with music she liked. Then just as quickly as she had walked to the car, she drove off, onto the street.
~*~*~*~
Phoebe lay awake later that night, thinking of what she had said to her best friend. All of it was true. About living out of a back pack with only a few intimate possesions with her. Before she had moved in with her cousin, she had taken a road trip across the country. She had been looking to find the perfect place for her, where she could create the perfect life. Phoebe never found it. She only found that life was easier living with her cousin when she offered. And out of respect for her, and needing a way out of her car, she accepted.
All of a sudden, her light was turned on. She sat up instantly in her bed, her covers falling from her chest, to see who had done it. Why she wondered, she would never know. Only two people lived there, and there were only two people who would come in without knocking or being let in, because they each had their own key (not that one needed it), and she would have heard any intruders breaking in. She was never in any real danger in that apartment.
"Piper!", she nearly screamed. "What the hell are you doing?"
"Um... I was just.. thinking that... Do you think that Paige could move in with us?", she said suddenly.
"Paige?!", she uttered.
When her older sister Prue died, Phoebe and Piper had soon found that there was family they didn't know about. Piper's half-cousin, and Phoebe's half-sister Paige. Of course, non of this would happen in a normal family. But then again, they weren't normal. Were they?
"You want Paige to move in here?", the older girl asked.
"Well.. She is family and now that Prue is gone... I miss her just as much as you, you know that. But sometimes I feel it would be right to have her here with us."
Phoebe shook her head violently. "No! Are you crazy?! What does Leo have to say about this?"
"He said that in our past lives... She was there. I mean... She was younger then me and you, of course. But she was there. When Prue died in her past life, Paige came in and became the Power of Three with us.", Piper said. "Age is very confusing when you talk about this life with the last one..."
Piper was right. In the past life, it had been that Prue, Piper, and Phoebe where the original sisters. Prue was the oldest, then Piper, and finally Phoebe. Prue died, and in-stepped their half-sister Paige, the youngest of the three. And somehow, they were all sisters. In this life, Prue had been the oldest, and now Phoebe was. They were sisters. After the death, Piper and Phoebe found Phoebe's half-sister Paige. And then came Piper. She was the only cousin now. Once again, age was a very confusing thing when you talked about the two different lifetimes.
"Leo thinks it's a good idea?", Phoebe asked.
"Leo thinks that it would help to restore our bond. He thinks that we should get close in this lifetime, just like the last one."
Phoebe sighed. Everything they did was about getting back to their last lifetime. She constantly wondered why that was.
"Because you hadn't finished living your life as sisters last time.", Leo had said when Pheobe asked. "You weren't ready to be seperated."
"Who cares about seperation? Prue just left us! Why should we have to do this right now?"
"The Elders think you're ready..."
Phoebe snapped back to the present time. "Sure. Why not? I mean.. We can't loose anything, can we? We only have a bond to re-gain...", she answered sarcasticaly.
"So is that a yes?"
"Yeah..."
Piper smiled at her older cousin. She crossed the room and sat on the bed. "A little tired?"
"I'm just.. not sure that coming back was right for me. I never finished college and with Prue gone.. I'm not sure that I can handle all of this. I mean.. I know that I have you, and Paige of course, but... It just doesn't feel like enough."
Piper brushed a strand of Phoebe's hair behind her ear. "Maybe you just need to do something more with your time. I mean, besides work. Jazzums is doing good enough that you could back to college if you want. You know.. Just take a few courses. You can still work if that's what you want, but... I've got enough money from managing Jazzums that you can quit if you truly wanted to."
Phoebe kissed Piper's cheek. "I'm tired. I'm going to try and get some sleep."
"Um.. Leo and I are going to leave for the night."
"Leave? Where are you going?", Phoebe asked cautiously. "Will you be within calling range?"
"Yeah. Leo is going to bring us to this lovely place in Paris that a friend from our past life told us about."
"A friend?", she asked curiously. "The same guy as all the other times?"
"That's the one.."
"Any idea who he might be?"
"Nope. Leo still won't tell me. He said it would interfere with our destinies. And we wouldn't want to do that, now would we."
"Alright.. Well, while you're gone for the night, I think that I will take full advantage of that and do some Phoebe stuff."
"Phoebe stuff... What is Phoebe stuff?"
"Stuff I do when you're not around."
"Oh..", Piper said, acting like she knew exactly what her cousin meant. "Well... Have fun."
"Don't worry.. I will!", Phoebe called out with fake enthusiasm as Piper left. "You have fun, too!"
As soon as her friend of a cousin was gone, Phoebe fell backwords into her bed again. She was going to sleep.
~*~*~*~
A man was on top of her, kissing her neck. She felt his warm hands circle her bare breasts. His lips left her neck and headed towards her mouth. Once it did, his mouth captured hers, and she let his tounge enter. They met in an intamite love play that pleased her and made her hot. She whimpered into his passion, and suddenly felt as if she had known this person her entire life. Even when she didn't know his name.
He seperated himself for her, moaning her name.
"Phoebe.. Oh god, Phoebe."
She wasn't sure what she was doing, or how she knew, but she whispered his name back.
"Cole..."
She felt his moist, hot lips meet hers again. She felt so happy in the moment that she spent in his arms, and now it was over.
As soon as she had met him in another kiss, she sat up. She placed her hand on her chest, as if it could slow down her breathing. It was only a dream.
But it felt so real..., she thought.
She looked back on her dream, happy to just think about it. It was strange, though. How she couldn't remember certain things that happened just a few minutes ago.
Things like his name. Things like how he looked.
All she knew, was that he made her happy. He made her feel safe. And what she wanted, was to see him again.