Chapter Four: Hardly Ever Fair
Spoilers: Everything through the season finally. Do NOT read if you don't want to know anything about from here 'till then.
Rating: PG
Pairing this chapter: R/D
Helpful information:
Spoilers: Rory's going to some camp for 6 weeks, Luke and Lorelia are fighting. Sookie and Jackson already had their wedding at which Chris found out Sherry was pregnant so he ran back to her and Rory kissed Jess.
From Chapter One: Jess is somewhere that's not here right now. Rory goes to Lukes because she's having a bad day and Lorelai is upset that she's leaving. Luke acts all fatherly and it ends with them playing bagel hockey.
From Chapter Two: Rory and Luke talk about the accident and Lorelai, Rory says it's okay for him to like, like her mom and she doesn't mind. Taylor, Babbett, Miss Patty and Kirk all annoy Luke with questions about Lorelai so he turns things over to Jess and storms out.
From Chapter Three: After storming out of the diner Luke finds himself on Lorelai's front steps. They have a conversation, she rambles, things are back to usual and he realises he was something more.
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Rory was smiling as she left Lukes, the world seemed to be a little bit better now. She was glad she had Luke to talk to no matter what happened between him and her mom. Not paying much attention to were she was walking she ran into someone. Looking up quickly she saw it was Dean. She saw surprise in his eyes, "I'm sorry."
He smiled softly at her, a fake smile the one he had used so many other times, "Thinking about Jess?"
Her eyes widened, "No! No, I was just thinking about Luke and Mom." She sighed, "I really am sorry about the kiss Dean, it meant absolutely nothing! I swear." She reached for his hand.
He turned his head down a little and pulled away, he felt so empty inside, "I once thought you'd never lie to me Rory, but you did."
The sadness in his voice broke her heart, "I didn't..." she realised she had no argument and hung her head.
He shook his head lightly "I'm such an idiot," he said with a small chuckle, "God Rory, I loved you so much, I still do." He lifted his face toward the sky. Why did love have to hurt so much? He looked down again at Rory, she seemed genuinely sorry for everything she'd done. He sighed softly and raised his hand to softly brush against her cheek. She looked up with hope in her eyes, he smiled softly and caressed her cheek with his thumb.
She looked into his eyes and brought her arms around his neck, standing on her toes she leaned in and pressed her lips to his. The kiss was so perfectly sweet it almost made her cry, she didn't deserve something so nice and she couldn't help but remember Jess's kiss. The kiss had been so passionate and so... emotional.
Dean pulled away slightly and studied her, it was plain to see she wasn't thinking of him. She had never looked at him with so much curiosity and wonder. He felt tears form in his eyes, he was suppose to be strong, stronger then this.
She felt him move away from her shaking her from the memory, her arms fell from his neck. Looking at him questionly, she asked, "What's wrong?"
He shook his head sadly, his lips curled into a small heartbreaking smile, "You weren't thinking of me Rory and you know what?" he paused and rubbed his eyes, sniffing softly, "It's ok." He looked back at her, his expression so innocent, "I just want you do be happy and he..." his eyes fell to the ground again, "he makes you happy." He almost choked on the words, "I just... I just wish it were me." He turned and began to walk away slowly, head down, hands in pockets.
Her bottom lip trembled, she knew tears were threatening to fall. She wished she could have called out to him, told him he was the one she loved, the one she wanted. She wished she could tell him Jess was just a distraction from all she had known, most of all she just wished first loves really did last.
She called out to him, "Dean, please don't let this be the end." She didn't know what she was doing, and she knew it wasn't fair what she was going to ask but she couldn't lose him, not yet, not ever.
He stopped, his eyes closed, hair falling in his face but did not turn around.
She moved to stand in front of him resting her hands on his chest, "I want to stay with you Dean, but I can't promise to stay away from Jess. He's my friend... and I know it's not fair to ask you to stay with me when I might not be able to resist him. But I don't want this to end, because I do love you."
She wanted to be with him and Jess, that was what she was saying. His eyes raised and searched hers, that's when he knew he would do anything she asked of him, she was his life, his love. It may not be fair what she was asking of him, but life was hardly ever fair, why should love be any different?
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A/N: Please, please review!
Spoilers: Everything through the season finally. Do NOT read if you don't want to know anything about from here 'till then.
Rating: PG
Pairing this chapter: R/D
Helpful information:
Spoilers: Rory's going to some camp for 6 weeks, Luke and Lorelia are fighting. Sookie and Jackson already had their wedding at which Chris found out Sherry was pregnant so he ran back to her and Rory kissed Jess.
From Chapter One: Jess is somewhere that's not here right now. Rory goes to Lukes because she's having a bad day and Lorelai is upset that she's leaving. Luke acts all fatherly and it ends with them playing bagel hockey.
From Chapter Two: Rory and Luke talk about the accident and Lorelai, Rory says it's okay for him to like, like her mom and she doesn't mind. Taylor, Babbett, Miss Patty and Kirk all annoy Luke with questions about Lorelai so he turns things over to Jess and storms out.
From Chapter Three: After storming out of the diner Luke finds himself on Lorelai's front steps. They have a conversation, she rambles, things are back to usual and he realises he was something more.
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Rory was smiling as she left Lukes, the world seemed to be a little bit better now. She was glad she had Luke to talk to no matter what happened between him and her mom. Not paying much attention to were she was walking she ran into someone. Looking up quickly she saw it was Dean. She saw surprise in his eyes, "I'm sorry."
He smiled softly at her, a fake smile the one he had used so many other times, "Thinking about Jess?"
Her eyes widened, "No! No, I was just thinking about Luke and Mom." She sighed, "I really am sorry about the kiss Dean, it meant absolutely nothing! I swear." She reached for his hand.
He turned his head down a little and pulled away, he felt so empty inside, "I once thought you'd never lie to me Rory, but you did."
The sadness in his voice broke her heart, "I didn't..." she realised she had no argument and hung her head.
He shook his head lightly "I'm such an idiot," he said with a small chuckle, "God Rory, I loved you so much, I still do." He lifted his face toward the sky. Why did love have to hurt so much? He looked down again at Rory, she seemed genuinely sorry for everything she'd done. He sighed softly and raised his hand to softly brush against her cheek. She looked up with hope in her eyes, he smiled softly and caressed her cheek with his thumb.
She looked into his eyes and brought her arms around his neck, standing on her toes she leaned in and pressed her lips to his. The kiss was so perfectly sweet it almost made her cry, she didn't deserve something so nice and she couldn't help but remember Jess's kiss. The kiss had been so passionate and so... emotional.
Dean pulled away slightly and studied her, it was plain to see she wasn't thinking of him. She had never looked at him with so much curiosity and wonder. He felt tears form in his eyes, he was suppose to be strong, stronger then this.
She felt him move away from her shaking her from the memory, her arms fell from his neck. Looking at him questionly, she asked, "What's wrong?"
He shook his head sadly, his lips curled into a small heartbreaking smile, "You weren't thinking of me Rory and you know what?" he paused and rubbed his eyes, sniffing softly, "It's ok." He looked back at her, his expression so innocent, "I just want you do be happy and he..." his eyes fell to the ground again, "he makes you happy." He almost choked on the words, "I just... I just wish it were me." He turned and began to walk away slowly, head down, hands in pockets.
Her bottom lip trembled, she knew tears were threatening to fall. She wished she could have called out to him, told him he was the one she loved, the one she wanted. She wished she could tell him Jess was just a distraction from all she had known, most of all she just wished first loves really did last.
She called out to him, "Dean, please don't let this be the end." She didn't know what she was doing, and she knew it wasn't fair what she was going to ask but she couldn't lose him, not yet, not ever.
He stopped, his eyes closed, hair falling in his face but did not turn around.
She moved to stand in front of him resting her hands on his chest, "I want to stay with you Dean, but I can't promise to stay away from Jess. He's my friend... and I know it's not fair to ask you to stay with me when I might not be able to resist him. But I don't want this to end, because I do love you."
She wanted to be with him and Jess, that was what she was saying. His eyes raised and searched hers, that's when he knew he would do anything she asked of him, she was his life, his love. It may not be fair what she was asking of him, but life was hardly ever fair, why should love be any different?
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A/N: Please, please review!