I Can't Believe It II
~ Taichi ~
I backed up and flinched when Yamato slammed the door behind him. I couldn't look Yamato in the eyes; I just wanted to cower away, to say sorry. But my voice wasn't working and my legs seemed to be frozen to the spot. My head snapped up when Yamato's hands roughly grabbed my shoulders. Chocolate brown eyes clashed with stormy blue.
"Got dammit Tai. What are you doing to yourself?" Yamato growled making me flinch again. I didn't answer the question; I just stared into Yamato's eyes for awhile before turning my gaze towards the floor.
"I'm not doing anything Yamato." I almost flinched when I heard my own voice. 'That was me? But I sounded so... emotionless.' I had lost myself in thought so much I never noticed the look of concern that flickered across Yamato's face.
//Tai what are you hiding from me?// Yamato thought as his eyes narrowed at Taichi.
"Damnit Tai, I'm your best friend so tell me what's wrong!" Yamato roughly shook my shoulders once. My head snapped up again, and this time I saw Yamato flinch.
~ Yamato ~
Looking into Taichi's eyes there was so much pain, fear, and something else swirling in them. My heart clenched, and for some strange reason I wanted to help more than anything, and make the pain and fear that Taichi was feeling disappear. But I pushed those thoughts aside as I stared at Taichi's face.
~ Taichi ~
"You really want to know what my problem is Yamato!?" I growled in a menacing voice shaking my shoulders loose from his grip. "You're my problem!" My voice cracked as I turned around and stalked to my room, slamming the door.
~ Yamato ~
My thoughts came to a crashing halt upon hearing those words. 'I'm Tai's problem?' I stood in complete disbelief until the sound of a door slamming brought me back to reality. With a mental sigh I walked over to Taichi's door and paused in mid-reach, I wanted answers to the questions that were running wild in my head; although I was pretty positive I wasn't gonna like the answers. Taking a deep breath I opened the door and stepped in. I was more then slightly shocked at the scene, Taichi was crying nonstop; sure I'd seen him weep a few tears, but nothing like this.
His face was buried in his pillow and his shoulders were shaking badly, but the one thing that got to me most was the muffled heart wrenching sobs that reached my ears. My eyes softened as I stared at the once full of life youth. //Damnit Tai, how can you make me feel this way? Just so damned confused about things in life? About myself and you. Why?// Biting my lip I walked over to Taichi's bedside.
"Tai?" I whispered softly.
~ Taichi ~
I didn't respond when Yamato's soft voice hit my ears. 'Is that concern I hear in your voice Yamato? Nah, can't be... Go away Yamato. Please just go away. Maybe if I stop seeing you, I'll stop slowly killing myself.' I thought as another sob escaped my throat. I froze when I felt a hand lightly touch my shoulder.
"Tai?" I heard Yamato ask again.
/He's not gonna go away until you talk to him./ The annoying voice in my head said putting its opinion in.
'Oh shut up!' I hiccupped stopping my sobs and raised my head off of my pillow to look at Yamato.
I tried to focus on Yamato's face but all I could see was a blur from all the crying I'd done. Sitting up I felt the warmth that had once been on my shoulder disappear, wiping my eyes with my sleeve I finally could see Yamato clearly. I blinked once, I thought I saw concern on Yamato's face for a second but his face was now blank.
"Tai what's wrong? And what are you doing to yourself?" Yamato asked softly but firmly as he kept his gaze locked with mine. My stomach felt like it did a 180 as I looked into those stormy blue eyes and started to drowned in them. I looked away really quick before I did something that I'd probably end up regretting later.
"Tai?" Looking back at Yamato I kept my gaze locked on the wall behind him.
"I..." I tried to talk but ended up in a coughing fit. My throat felt really sore and I could feel the phlegm in the back of my mouth. I heard the sound of fabric as Yamato got up and left the room, then return with a glass of water that he moved into my view. Taking the glass I downed half of it before my throat felt slightly normal again.
"Thanks Yamato."
"No problem." Yamato said as he shrugged his shoulders. Glancing from the glass of water and to the wall behind Yamato I decided to tell him some of my problems not all of it, but I knew if I told him some of it he'd make me tell him the rest.
"I... Yamato, I love someone... But if I tell them I... I'm afraid that they'll hate me and never want to talk to me again." I finally said as I looked into the glass of water as if maybe by some freak accident I'd find an answer to all of my problems in it.
~ Yamato ~
"Well Tai, I can't really help you out unless you tell me who you're in love with." I said from my sitting spot on the floor. I then saw the same pain and fear filled look in Taichi's eyes that I'd seen earlier, after he raised his head from looking in the glass.
~ Taichi ~
'Well here goes absolutely nothing' I thought as I took a deep breath.
"I... I love you, Yamato Ishida." I said in a whisper as I gazed steadily into Yamato's eyes.
Dun, Dun, Dun!!! What's gonna happen, and how's Yamato gonna react to this news? Heh, only I know so stay tuned for the next chapter of I Can't Believe It.