okay this chapter is starting out in Yama's pov. then it goes back to Taichi's. and there is a suicide attempt in this one.
~ Yamato ~
My eyes widened as I heard Taichi's words. //Tai loves me... Tai loves me...// My emotions and thoughts started to go somewhat incoherent as that one thought was running in little repeating circles. Shaking my head to clear some of my thoughts, I ended up saying the first thing that came to my mind.
"I... I've got to go." Glancing at Taichi, I saw him nod slowly and felt a small pang of guilt. Pushing that thought away I got up and walked out of the room and then the apartment.
Slowly closing the front door I leaned against it for support as I thought about what had just happened. //I've got to go? Why the hell did I say that?//
Then the annoying voice in the back of my head decided to put its two sense in. /You said it because you're not really sure how you feel about Tai./
//No, I know how I feel. I like Tai as a friend! Only a friend...// But even as I thought that, I didn't believe it. //I've got to go and think about this...// I glanced at the Kamiya's door once more and started to walk back towards the park where Takeru and Hikari had stayed behind.
~ Taichi ~
I stared sadly at my door for what felt like hours after Yamato had left. 'He hates me. Oh God I shouldn't have told him. But I did and now he hates me.' My sight started to blur again as tears cascaded down my face, I started scrubbing furiously at the tears streaming down my face. And yet again I buried my face in my pillow. 'God the way I'm going I'm gonna end up crying myself to sleep again. Just like last night, and the night before that and every other freakin night!' My thoughts started to become muddled as sleep lapped at the edges of my mind, taking me into the comforting darkness called rest.
Sometime later I stirred slowly hearing the phone ringing out in the living room. 'Damned phone...' Yawning I stumbled out of my room and picked up the phone.
"Hello, this is Taichi." I couldn't help but say it in a sleepy tone.
" ........ " Only silence came from the other end.
"Hello?" I asked again fully awake now when I got no response. I blinked stupidly at the phone as I heard a soft click and then the buzz of the dial tone.
"Well that was weird..." Hanging up the phone I looked at the clock. '4 p.m. Hn I must of been asleep longer than I thought...' Walking down the hall I knocked on Hikari's bedroom door and got no answer. 'Kari must still be hanging out with Tk.' I blinked back new tears as an image of Yamato entered my mind. 'Stop it Tai, he probably hates you now and never wants to see your dumb-ass again.'
With a sigh I walked into the bathroom and stared at my reflection lightly touching the mirror with my fingertips. 'I... I wonder what would everyone do if I wasn't around anymore? I mean yeah everybody would be sad but they'd get over it. Kari's old enough now that she doesn't need me. And then Yamato... He can finally be happy without worrying about his ex-best friend lusting after him.' Opening the medicine cabinet I grabbed one of my dad's extra shaving blades, and placed it against my wrist. Taking a deep shaky breath I slide the razor across my wrist; watching with morbid fascination as the blood drip into the sink. It had hurt a lot in the beginning but now it was turning into a dull numb pain as the world started to turn black.
'This isn't so bad it's just like going to sleep...' I thought as I slumped to the floor.
~ Yamato ~
I placed the phone back on the receiver of the pay phone and walked back to the park bench that Takeru and Hikari were currently occupying. //Why didn't I say anything? I had the chance but I didn't say anything. Why'd I even call him in the first place? I'm not even sure about how I really feel at the moment... Or am I?// I thought as an image of a smiling Taichi entered my mind. A soft smile formed on my lips and I could feel a blush creeping onto my cheeks. I shook my head furiously to block out anymore of those thoughts. I then sat down with the others and thought about my feelings for Taichi, and then my situation with Sora.
~~ Flashback ~~
I ran my hand through my hair as I listened to Sora go on and on about all of the things going on in her life. And was slowly being bored to death. I let my mind wander into thought. One in particular was what was Taichi doing right now, and was he having more fun then me? I blinked and brought myself back to reality when I realized Sora was standing in front of me waving a hand in my face.
"Um sorry Sora I got lost in thought. What were you saying?" I asked slightly nervous as a pale blush painted my cheeks. I swallowed nervously as she gave me her bitch glare.
"What were you think about Yamato?" I saw her eyes narrow as she crossed her arms.
"I wasn't think about anyone else if that's what your implying." I said calmly well looking her in the eyes. She didn't look convinced.
"Yeah right! I bet you were thinking about Tai again. I also bet your in love with him!" She nearly shouted for the whole world to hear.
A slight blush crossed my cheeks hearing those words. "I do not."
/Do too!/ Shouted the voice in my head.
//Be quiet!// I mentally shouted back shutting the voice up for now.
"You do to!" Sora shouted bringing my full attention back to her. "And until you figure out who you love more Yamato Ishida we're through!" With that she slapped me across the face and stormed off. Leaving me alone to nurse my wound and ponder my feelings.
~ Back to present with Yamato ~
"Hey guys I'm gonna go home." Hikari said snapping me out of my thoughts. I noticed Takeru looked slightly disappointed when Hikari said that.
"Why?"
"Because I've got a really bad feeling about something. And I'm pretty sure that it has something to do with Tai." Hikari replied well she started to walk away. My breath caught in my throat. //Something wrong with Tai? And that could be all my fault...//
"I'm coming with you!" I shouted while I ran to catch up with Hikari. //Please be okay Tai. Please be okay.//
~ Takeru ~
"Hey wait for me!" I yelled at Hikari and Yamato from the bench. I saw Hikari look over her shoulder without stopping and give me a hurry-up-and-come-on-look. I sprinted the short distance and caught up with them. 'Kari must be really worried or else she would have waited for Yamato and me to catch up.' I glanced at Hikari and noticed the really worried look in her eyes. Looking past Hikari, I noticed that my brother looked more worried then Hikari did. 'I wonder why Yamato looks more worried then Kari? Especially since he usually covers up his emotions...' I thought as we walked up the last flight of stairs to get to Hikari's home.
~ Hikari ~
I sprinted the last ten feet to the door because my bad feeling had doubled. 'Oh god Tai, I hope you didn't do anything stupid.' I thought as I through the door open.
"Tai!" I called out as I walked in. I became more worried when I didn't get an answer.
"Tai!?" I shouted as I walked quickly to Tai's door. 'Something's really wrong. He usually answers me.' Throwing Taichi's door open I looked inside to see no Taichi but evidence that he had been in there. 'Were is he?' I'd been so worried about finding Tai that I completely forgot about Yamato and Takeru and turning around I collided with Takeru.
"Sorry Takeru." I said while a pale blush ended up on her cheeks. 'This actually feels really nice... Argh! Stop thinking like that Kari you've got to find Tai!' I mentally shouted at myself as I walked around Takeru.
~ Takeru ~
"Hey Kari what do you want me and Yamato to do?" I asked as I watched Hikari walk down the hallway. 'That was actually kinda nice. Whoa, okay Tk stop! You've got to help her find her brother, so stop thinking like that.' I thought as a light blush crept onto my cheeks.
~ Hikari ~
"Um... Just look around for Tai okay." I replied as I looked into my parent's room. 'Not there... Where is he!?' I thought as I looked down the hall and noticed the bathroom light was on. Walking over quickly I only stopped to knock on the door and wait a few seconds for an answer.
"Tai?" Getting no answer I opened the door quickly and completely froze when I saw Taichi laying on the floor with a puddle of blood forming around his upper body.
"Ta... TAKERU! Call an ambulance!!!" I shouted over my shoulder as I dropped to Taichi's side.
okay 1) yes i'm really mean cause i'm cutting you off here. and 2) don worry it's gonna have a happy ending so don kill me.