* Deciphering Feelings *
Anakin and Tahiri just came back from eating dinner at the cafeteria. They were heading to the central living room but there were too many people to talk about what they needed to sort out. So instead, they went into Anakin's room. Neither of them said a word as they sat down on the ground.
Finally came the time when they had to speak. "Anakin…"
"Tahiri I…" they both stopped, feeling somewhat intimidated by one another's voice.
"I guess this isn't as easy as we'd thought it would be."
"I guess not." Anakin admitted. It felt like talking to a complete stranger now after what had happened. "Wanna to try to just be honest? Both of us just say what we're feeling now. Straight out?"
"Let's give it a shot. You first." She granted him the honor.
Shrugging he kept his eyes closed as he spoke. "I feel like I'm talking to a complete stranger, though I've known you all my life."
"Yeah, it's like I have this fluttery feeling in my stomach every time I feel you even remotely near."
"And a tingly thing goes down my back, but not like it is when you are scared to death, but anxious with excitement because you can't wait to see what happens."
"At the same time I want you near," Tahiri explained. "It's like I want you to go away cause I'm afraid of what I might say or do wrong…"
"But I don't want to do that cause I want that feeling, but it's just—"
"So confusing." Both of them answered in unison. The sound startled the two.
Tahiri half smiled as she cast her gaze to the ground. "Well a lot of good that did us." She let out a breath. "Now I only feel even more bewildered by this."
Getting up, he crawled over to her lifting up her head with his unsure hands, but inside he knew what he wanted, what he needed. "Bewildered maybe, but mystified." With that he leaned forward to kiss her. His lips brushing lightly across hers, sending electric shocks down both of their backs.
"Anakin, there is some…" but her sentence was cut off as the two kissed. A weird yet interesting feeling filled their stomachs. It was crazy like Vors were flying around them.
Pressing harder against his lips, Tahiri felt like she finally knew who she was, like Anakin was the one who completed the confused and mangled part in her mind. Maybe he was the key to becoming who she was before, who she was now, but her question was left unanswered as another voice filled the two teens ears.
Both Anakin and Tahiri's eyes went wide in surprise, and Anakin flew off his friend. The two saw the last person in the world they wanted to see interrupt them. And for the first time in Anakin's life he wished Master Luke, or his dad or brother had walked in on him… even maybe his mother, but standing before them was Corran Horn with a look of shock on his face.
"Ok, maybe I didn't make myself clear when I said you two could fall to the darkside on Luke's time." The older Jedi stated.
Anakin felt his cheeks redden. Never in his life had he felt so embarrassed. "Corran, we—"
"Don't even start with me, Anakin." He warned. "I can't believe you two!"
"We weren't doing anything wrong!" Tahiri exclaimed.
Corran raised an eyebrow as he crossed his arms over his chest. "Oh really? So what were you doing?"
"Kissing. What harm is there in that?" she questioned.
The past flooded back into his mind of when he was there age. Of when he had too believed their point. "A lot more than you think. Trust me, I know."
There was something in the way he said it that made the two young Jedi glance at each other. Anakin broke the silence once again. "So we can't kiss?" He hadn't the faintest idea why, but it was a question he wanted answered.
"Yes… I mean no, but when you do don't put yourselves in a position you two won't be able to control."
Feeling awkward and a bit more uncomfortable about where the conversation was leading to, Anakin took another glance at Tahiri then back to Corran. "You think we might actually would—"
"No, but it can happen. You two are still young, and I just don't want you two to end up doing something you'll regret." With that he started to turn around, but Tahiri stopped him.
"We were just discussing how our relationship was heading when… when it happened. We weren't trying to get anything going. It just happened." She confessed truthfully.
Adding to her statement, Anakin asked hoping to clear the new profound feelings out. "Do you mind to stay with us a while and figure out what this all means?"
"We're both so confused. Are we still best friends or something more?"
"Are the Hutts finally the size of
toothpicks, or did I just hear you correctly? You actually want to listen to my words?" Blinking back in surprise, this time not out of fear of loosing them, but them actually wanting to listen to him gave Corran hope for his two children.
"We need your help, advise on this, yes." Tahiri informed.
"O-of course. So what do you want to know first?" Maybe he would get through these years after all.
"How far is too far?" Anakin questioned.
Maybe not.
Anakin and Tahiri just came back from eating dinner at the cafeteria. They were heading to the central living room but there were too many people to talk about what they needed to sort out. So instead, they went into Anakin's room. Neither of them said a word as they sat down on the ground.
Finally came the time when they had to speak. "Anakin…"
"Tahiri I…" they both stopped, feeling somewhat intimidated by one another's voice.
"I guess this isn't as easy as we'd thought it would be."
"I guess not." Anakin admitted. It felt like talking to a complete stranger now after what had happened. "Wanna to try to just be honest? Both of us just say what we're feeling now. Straight out?"
"Let's give it a shot. You first." She granted him the honor.
Shrugging he kept his eyes closed as he spoke. "I feel like I'm talking to a complete stranger, though I've known you all my life."
"Yeah, it's like I have this fluttery feeling in my stomach every time I feel you even remotely near."
"And a tingly thing goes down my back, but not like it is when you are scared to death, but anxious with excitement because you can't wait to see what happens."
"At the same time I want you near," Tahiri explained. "It's like I want you to go away cause I'm afraid of what I might say or do wrong…"
"But I don't want to do that cause I want that feeling, but it's just—"
"So confusing." Both of them answered in unison. The sound startled the two.
Tahiri half smiled as she cast her gaze to the ground. "Well a lot of good that did us." She let out a breath. "Now I only feel even more bewildered by this."
Getting up, he crawled over to her lifting up her head with his unsure hands, but inside he knew what he wanted, what he needed. "Bewildered maybe, but mystified." With that he leaned forward to kiss her. His lips brushing lightly across hers, sending electric shocks down both of their backs.
"Anakin, there is some…" but her sentence was cut off as the two kissed. A weird yet interesting feeling filled their stomachs. It was crazy like Vors were flying around them.
Pressing harder against his lips, Tahiri felt like she finally knew who she was, like Anakin was the one who completed the confused and mangled part in her mind. Maybe he was the key to becoming who she was before, who she was now, but her question was left unanswered as another voice filled the two teens ears.
Both Anakin and Tahiri's eyes went wide in surprise, and Anakin flew off his friend. The two saw the last person in the world they wanted to see interrupt them. And for the first time in Anakin's life he wished Master Luke, or his dad or brother had walked in on him… even maybe his mother, but standing before them was Corran Horn with a look of shock on his face.
"Ok, maybe I didn't make myself clear when I said you two could fall to the darkside on Luke's time." The older Jedi stated.
Anakin felt his cheeks redden. Never in his life had he felt so embarrassed. "Corran, we—"
"Don't even start with me, Anakin." He warned. "I can't believe you two!"
"We weren't doing anything wrong!" Tahiri exclaimed.
Corran raised an eyebrow as he crossed his arms over his chest. "Oh really? So what were you doing?"
"Kissing. What harm is there in that?" she questioned.
The past flooded back into his mind of when he was there age. Of when he had too believed their point. "A lot more than you think. Trust me, I know."
There was something in the way he said it that made the two young Jedi glance at each other. Anakin broke the silence once again. "So we can't kiss?" He hadn't the faintest idea why, but it was a question he wanted answered.
"Yes… I mean no, but when you do don't put yourselves in a position you two won't be able to control."
Feeling awkward and a bit more uncomfortable about where the conversation was leading to, Anakin took another glance at Tahiri then back to Corran. "You think we might actually would—"
"No, but it can happen. You two are still young, and I just don't want you two to end up doing something you'll regret." With that he started to turn around, but Tahiri stopped him.
"We were just discussing how our relationship was heading when… when it happened. We weren't trying to get anything going. It just happened." She confessed truthfully.
Adding to her statement, Anakin asked hoping to clear the new profound feelings out. "Do you mind to stay with us a while and figure out what this all means?"
"We're both so confused. Are we still best friends or something more?"
"Are the Hutts finally the size of
toothpicks, or did I just hear you correctly? You actually want to listen to my words?" Blinking back in surprise, this time not out of fear of loosing them, but them actually wanting to listen to him gave Corran hope for his two children.
"We need your help, advise on this, yes." Tahiri informed.
"O-of course. So what do you want to know first?" Maybe he would get through these years after all.
"How far is too far?" Anakin questioned.
Maybe not.